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Chapter 22: Que sera sera
Three weeks after the Halloween dance I managed to fall into some semblance of normality. Jay and I studied our asses off in the library as Tim's tests were fast approaching. He had me reading so much it felt like my head was going to explode most days. Jay was a godsend and seemed to know just what I needed and always had aspirin or coffee handy, sometimes both.
Ian seemed to be keeping his distance and besides seeing him in homeroom and in English he always seemed scarce and never came to speak to me and my heart ached because of it. Jay also seemed to be aware of Ian and instead of pushing me away from Ian like I would expect him to, he seemed to be trying to push us together.
"You talk to Ian yet?" Jay asked me looking up from his assignment
We were sitting in the library during lunch as we always seemed to be doing nowadays.
"No" I answered not taking my eyes off my paper
"Why not?" he asked
I finally looked up and sighed turning my eyes to Jay's green orbs.
"He doesn't want to talk to me, so I won't talk to him" I said
"I thought you liked him" he smirked
"In the romantic sense, so why aren't you jealous?" I asked
Jay just shrugged
"I don't do jealous, I'm pretty confident you're mine and besides I can tell that leaving this whole mess unresolved is making you sad." He said
"I just want you to be happy, what is that old French expression `que sera, sera'?"
"What will be, will be?" I asked
"That's the one!" Jay smiled
I smiled back as I thought he was joking around
"But seriously" he said "nobody can see the future, but I know I care about you greatly and no matter what I will continue to do so always, so jealously doesn't fit in my heart."
The emotion and logic behind those words were strong. Jay had obviously put a lot of thought behind them.
"Thanks" I said
"Well I was just warming you up, Ian's sitting right behind you looking like he's wanted to speak to you for the past ten minutes" Jay said nodding to a point behind me and whipped around in my seat only to see Ian sitting at a table about twenty feet from us. Ian looked up when I spun around.
"Go get em tiger!" Jay smiled and I sighed and got up from my seat and walked over to where Ian was sitting pretending to read his math text
"Mind if I sit here?" I asked and Ian looked up pretending to just notice me
"Sure, I guess" he said
I sat down and looked across the table at Ian and despite all my feelings for Jay it appeared my feelings for Ian had not gone anywhere as he was just as beautiful as I remembered. I thought about all the time we had spent together and all the things that kept pushing us together and all the things keeping us apart. It was like we were locked in a perfect balance never getting closer but not getting further apart either.
"Ian, are you alright?" I asked
Ian seemed to be at a loss of words.
"Yea..." he muttered
"It's been weeks and you haven't even spoken to me" I sighed "I miss you"
"I miss you too Dustin" he looked down at the table "I didn't thank you for what you did for me at the dance"
"Shouting to everyone that you're straight was easy enough when it's true, or at least mostly true" I said giving him a wry smile.
Ian didn't return my glance as he seemed somewhat ashamed
"Ian I didn't realize how much of a struggle you'd have with this." I said "please look at me" Ian looked up at me and gazed into my eyes
"Ian... I've never been very religious but I know you have. I'm not going to debate theology with you there's no point. I came to a point in my life where I couldn't deny myself that this was what I am no matter how much I wished it otherwise. I can't undo being gay. I did a lot of soul searching and finally after everything with Corey I decided to just say `screw it' and not hide it anymore and you know something?"
"What?" Ian asked
"I'm okay" I said "there's a bunch of places in the bible that says being gay is wrong but I know Jesus never said that, I can only hope and pray since he has made me that he created me this way for a reason and wants me to be happy." I finished
Ian just nodded
"I don't have the answers for you, but if you need someone to talk to or a shoulder or anything... Ian... I... I love you still alright?" I said... "So please... can we be friends again please?"
Ian nodded holding back some emotion inside
I looked around the library noticing there wasn't anybody in there besides us because it was still lunch. So I got up from the table and walked next to Ian and knelt down and wrapped him up in a tight hug. His arms wrapped around me and I have to admit it felt pretty damn good.
"Thanks" he said against my shoulder
"You're welcome" I said pulling away
The bell rang
"I gotta get back to work" I said pointing back to my table
"Me too" he said
"I'll see you around alright?" I asked
"At practice today" he smiled
"Good"
We went our separate ways and I sat back down at the table
"How much of that did you hear?" I asked Jay who was smiling
"All of it" he smirked back
"I hate you" I frowned joking around
"No you don't" he pouted
"You're right, but man I should... that was emotionally draining, you know? I should be trying to get over him not trying to balance him back into my life." I said
"So you'd rather be miserable" he said back to me
"But it's so awkward" I said
"Only because you want it to be, remember me saying that feelings don't go away?" he asked
I nodded my head remember that car ride
"So you're still sexually attracted to him... BIG DEAL, I'm sure there are many more guys here that'd make you pop raging boners... SO WHAT! You think that Ian Holiday is going to turn me into a raging angry jealous boyfriend... HE'S NOT... so get over it!" Jay snapped and it was the first time I had even seen him remotely angry.
"Jay I'm sorry... I..." Jay put his hand up
"Rave I'm not upset at you... but you're smarter than this! You're just beating yourself up, don't you get it? I love you and I'm not going anywhere so don't let Ian get you down alright?" he asked
I nodded
"Good, let's go visit Tim so we can get this day over with" he smiled packing away his books
Jay and I spent the rest of our day taking Tim's ridiculously long tests. I had just finished my last essay as the last bell was ringing
"Pencils down" Tim laughed coming over to us snatching up our tests and gave them a glance over.
"Looks fine at a glance, I'll give you a final grade tomorrow" Tim said "any questions?"
"No" we both replied
"well come down here during lunch tomorrow I want to do a review with you and go over some of the new material just to make sure you understand it." Tim said as we got up
"You got it boss" Jay smiled as we walked out the door
"I'll meet you after practice" I said to Jay who turned and gave me a soft kiss on the cheek
"You better" he smiled turning towards the parking lot.
I made my way up to the locker room so I could get changed for practice. As I entered the locker room I noticed Colin and Dan getting changed
"Hey Rave" Colin said as I entered put my bag into my locker
"Hey Colin, Dan" I greeted cheerily
"Hope my brother is taking good care of you" Dan smirked
Truthfully Jay and I hadn't gone any further than what we had done on my post swim meet party. We had gotten together and had both sucked and jerked each other off but never anything more.
"Oh he his... I require `special' care" I emphasized special
"Yea you're really fucking special alright" Colin said
"Thanks" I said
"Sure sure" Colin waved me off "so where's your second boyfriend... he's running late"
He meant Ian
"He's not my boyfriend, and I don't know where Ian is thank you"
"Testy aren't we" Colin smirked striding over to me naked I couldn't help but glance down for a sec I noticed him waving his hand next to his hip. I realized he did that to distract me so I would look down.
"Eyes up here sweetheart" Colin said snapping his fingers
"You did that on purpose asshole!" I said giving him a light shove
"You love it!" Colin said bending over the bench exposing his ass spreading his cheeks wide
"Fuck you!" I slapped his ass as hard as I could and Colin jogged high stepping in a circle holding his butt
"Yikes!" he shouted causing a couple of the guys to laugh
At that moment Ian walked into the locker room.
"I miss anything?" Ian asked me as he unloaded his stuff into his locker
"Just Colin being an idiot" I said giving Colin a glare as he gave me and Ian silent kissy faces.
I got changed into my suit and got to the pool area and decided to give myself a couple of warm up laps. I jumped in and got a few good laps in clearing my mind. I heard the guys coming in so I got myself out of the water and sat at the edge of the pool waiting for Coach Clarke to show up.
Coach came in only a moment later whistle in hand.
"OK GUYS LISTEN UP!" he shouted getting our attention "Next week is our final practice before our meet. I know some of you guys are also on the football team so I promise to have you all home at a reasonable hour so you can get rested for the big Thanksgiving Day game the day after."
He went over the bus schedule and I began to tune his speech out as I had read the swim bulletin earlier so I knew all this information. He finally finished his speech and we got into the swing of practice.
We started running drills and speed trials. I had gotten distracted by my own work and I came out of my reverie as Coach Clarke yelled
"Much better Holiday! I hope you can get it all together by next time." I looked over at Ian who was as Coach had yelled looking much better in his form. I smiled to myself for a minor victory.
We swam for the next hour when Coach called for us to wrap it up. I decided to stay behind and do a few extra cool down laps. What can I say I'm a fish and I love the water. I was the only one left besides Colin who seemed to take an interest in one of the diving boards and was making a ruckus on the other side of the pool.
"HEY RAVE!" I heard
I pushed my head out of the water to see Colin on the diving board.
"WATCH THIS!"
It seemed like time had slowed to a crawl as I watched Colin dash down the board and leap into the air. Time slowed even further as he sprang and leaped into the air and bounced pushing himself into back flip. I watched in horror as his felt foot slipped as he jumped and he began to tumble, his momentum propelled him into a backwards summersault but he no longer had enough forward movement to clear the board.
Colin's head crashed into the diving board with a sickening crack and I watched his neck bend at an awful angle and watched helplessly as his body fell into the water like a rag doll.
I felt myself rushing forward swimming as if my body was on fire. My heart was on fire as I rushed through the water swimming under lane after lane. In the water I saw his body slowly sinking. I dove down and opened my eyes in the water.
Through the haze Colin looked like a fallen angel as he drifted slowly down. His golden blonde hair flowed around his head like a halo. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him upwards. I felt the air rush around my head as I broke the surface of the water and I was shocked to see Jay and Ian standing at the side of the pool.
"HELP ME!" I cried and Ian dashed into the pool and he helped me pull Colin to the side of the pool. Jay reached down and with his and Ian's help we managed to get Colin out of the water.
"Ian go get help!" Jay shouted and I watched Ian dash out of the pool area and into the locker room.
I was kneeling over Colin and I could tell he wasn't breathing the worst of it was his head was at a sickening angle and at that moment I realized I should not have tried to get him out of the water and I felt myself getting nauseous.
Jay instantly jumped into action and knelt down and turned Colin's head back and I head a few bones snap as he did so and I gasped.
Jay looked up at me
"Dustin, hold his head still!" Jay shouted and knelt beside Colin and put my hands on his neck. Jay shimmied beside Colin and placed both his hands over his heart.
As if nodding to himself he then went over to Colin's head and placed his hands around his neck and closed his eyes as if concentrating deeply. I was holding onto Colin's neck and I was shocked as I felt a funny warmth traveling down my arms, it felt like warm sunlight and I was then shocked as I felt a familiar chill spread through me and it began to mix with the warmth in my arms.
I closed my eyes and in my mind I could see the bones in Colin's neck mend and align back together and I could see tendrils of light spreading around his injured parts. I could feel the light as if it were a part of me like an extra limb or a hand just beyond the reach of my fingers. I opened my eyes and when I looked down, for a second I thought I saw a strange glow coming from my hands. But when I blinked it was gone. Jay then leaned in and tilted Colin's head back. He plugged Colin's nose and began CPR.
On his third breath Colin's body spazmed and Jay turned Colin on his side. Colin heaved and started coughing. I watched as water poured out of his mouth and Jay gently started patting him on his back.
"He's going to be alright" Jay said to me and Colin rolled over onto his back. He looked at the two of us wide eyed and his chest was still heaving as his heart raced.
"You... you..." Colin said trying to reach up to Jay.
"Dustin" I heard Jackson say and I looked up and his eyes seemed to be on fire.
"You should forget about this" he said holding out his hand.
I felt a tingle run down my spine and I glared back at him
"Well forget it, I'm not going to" I said
Jackson's face became unreadable and he took a deep breath in and looked down at Colin.
"You're alright now" Jay said taking his hand and reached down to brush some of the blonde wisps' of hair in Colin's face away. Colin seemed to relax a bit and then suddenly the doors burst open and several people came barging through.
I looked up and saw the principle and the nurse and a couple of teachers come rushing through the locker room and the rushed over to us. The nurse took one look at Colin and put her hand on her chest and gave a sigh of relief
"Lay back down sweetheart" she said laying Colin back down and began to check him over and after a few seconds
"Stay still" she instructed "the ambulance is on its way, your back is broken you're lucky to be alive" she said and I looked to Jay and then to Colin whose gaze was fixed on Jay
"What happened?" The principle said over the commotion
"Colin was diving and he slipped and he hit his head on the diving board and went crashing into the water. I swam over to help him and Jay and Ian came in and helped me get him out of the pool and Jay used CPR just before you guys rushed in." I said
The crowd looked me over then to Jay
"That's how it happened" Jay said "I came in and Dustin was in the water screaming for help. I helped get Colin up to the side here and noticed he wasn't breathing so I performed CPR and revived him"
Nodding as if satisfied the nurse applied a neck brace around Colin's head just as the Paramedics arrived, a few minutes later they had Colin on a stretcher and had him on his way to the hospital.