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This story is a very long work of gay erotic science fiction. There are some scenes of man on man action but it will not be a dominating factor in this story. So if you are looking for something to get off to you might as well turn around now.
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Chapter 24: Red is Blue
Colin was lying on the hospital bed with a brace around his neck and had an IV in his arm. His hair was a mess but when we came into the room his smile was brilliant and jubilant.
"Hey Colin" I said walking over to him taking his hand "how are you?"
"Sore" he said giving me a small smile "my hero"
"I'm... I'm so glad you're okay... I thought you... I..." I fell apart as the tears began anew and I broke down into tears and Colin gave my hand a tight squeeze. I leaned down and put my head on his lap and I felt jay come around and give me a hug from behind.
I felt the tears ebb and I managed to look up
"Jay" Colin said looking up at Jay who was holding me
"I'm glad you're alright Colin" Jay said
"You're the one that revived me?" he asked Jay
"I did" Jay said
"This is going to sound kind of strange" Colin said looking towards me "but can I have a hug?"
"No it's fine" Jackson said "I know how hard this must be on you"
I moved aside so Jay could come forward and Jay leaned over the bed and gave Colin a hug and then turned his head and gave him a small kiss on the cheek and leaned in and whispered something into Colin's ear. I was shocked as Colin had tears in his eyes and he clung onto Jay tightly.
"Are you alright?" I asked Colin as Jay moved back.
"What... oh yes I am fine" Colin said distractedly as he wiped his eyes. "Everything seems so intense right now, I can't wait to go home"
Ian seemed out of place watching us but remained on the other side of the bed of Colin watching out interaction. I felt his eyes on me as if they were boring holes into my head. I remembered just then that Ian knew I had been with both Colin and Jay.
I looked up at Ian and gave him a small smile. Colin then turned and looked at Ian.
"Thanks for helping me" Colin said giving Ian's hand a squeeze
"It was nothing" Ian muttered
"No it was something, thank you Ian." Colin gave him a smile and I saw Ian give a hint of one of his own.
We talked for a while longer and as we talked I began to notice that Jay was very friendly with Colin and the looks Colin was giving him were beginning to make me uncomfortable. The feelings kept growing until I wanted to bolt from the room.
"I'm going to go get a soda" Ian said giving me a look and I understood he wanted to talk to me.
"I'm going to go with him" I said
"I want to speak to Jay for a minute" Colin said and Ian and I walked out into the hallway
We walked down the corridor and started following the signs for the cafeteria. After a few confusing moments we finally found it and went inside and got ourselves some soda out of one on the vending machines and sat at a table in a corner of the room. It was empty except for us.
"Are you alright?" Ian asked me giving me a look over.
"Yea" I sighed
"You don't look alright." Ian said
"A lot has happened." I sighed "I was worried about Colin"
"You saw it too, didn't you?" Ian said making me confused and he apparently noticed so he clarified
"Colin and Jackson" Ian said "It felt like there was something going on between them."
"That's silly!" I said a little forcefully
"I'm only telling you what I felt" Ian said
The anger that I felt beginning to well up inside me ebbed and I turned back to him and sighed
"You're right, I felt it too" I said "It was...magical"
"That's a good word for it." Ian agreed "How does that make you feel?"
`Jealous... angry... hurt... sad...' I thought but suddenly I thought back to some of the things Jay had told me about not knowing how things are going to turn out and to just accept changes as they happen and I instantly calmed.
"Que sera, sera" I said
"What's that?" Ian asked
"What will be, will be." I said "The future's not ours to see... Que sera, sera"
"Is that a song?" Ian asked
"An old one" I said "I don't know what's happening with them but whatever happens happens."
"I'd be jealous" Ian said
"I know" I said "I heard you and Jay outside while I went in the house" Ian instantly flushed crimson in embarrassment.
"I'm sorry... I" Ian began but I put my hand up to silence him.
"Feelings are funny, we always can make new ones but the old ones never seem to go away." I said "Jay told me that one time and I believe it. Even after weeks of you not talking to me, and watching you with Amanda and with all the hurtful words and tears you know something?" I asked
"What?" Ian asked
"I still love you" I said "I'm with Jay now but I love you and I want you to be happy."
Ian looked about ready to cry so I scooted my chair closer to him and I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and rested my head just below his chin.
"I love you too Raven" he said and I smiled.
"You will be my friend Ian... always." I said
It was there in Ian's arms sitting in comfort that I came to an alarming realization. It what that feeling I had, the one where I felt like I was forgetting something...
I felt a cold chill spread through me far more intense than anything I had felt before.
Colin's accident was at the front of his mind and I kept replaying the scene and I swear I saw light around my hands. I knew I saw a light beneath my hands when I had closed my eyes and I could SEE that his neck was broken and that there could be no chance of recovery. I thought back to something Jay had asked me a long time ago. He said `Don't tell me you believe in magic?'
My answer had been honest, that there were things we cannot explain so in a way they are magical. But it came to me that the funny chill I had been feeling inside me, watching time seem to slow down in front of me, the light from my hands and the sudden feelings of awareness were all one thing. Jay was holding his head still and I felt a fire passing under my hands... The chill within me spread into my soda and I closed my eyes and watched the liquid inside my can freeze to ice.
I took the can and brought it up to my face and took a drink.
The liquid had frozen.
The chill inside me grew and I closed my eyes and felt the light swirling around inside me. I knew in that moment one thing...
Magic...
Magic existed...
I guess there is a difference between thinking you can do something and then knowing you can do something. It is like suddenly becoming aware of something and at that moment my whole world changed and the second I realized that I could do magic that same chill passed over me and I was now aware of what it was.
"Raven" Ian muttered
I looked up
As if my magic were trying to enhance the moment time seemed to slow and I looked up into Ian's face. The noise from the hospital faded into an eerie silence and Ian's hair slowly fell onto his face. Slowly our eyes connected and I could feel his heart beating. I could feel him like he had become a part of me and in that moment I knew he truly loved me. I could feel it coming from him. My magic was telling me so.
Ian started to lean in and slowly our lips were about to touch when... well my magic pulled me away. It felt like someone had pulled me by my collar and planted me back firmly on my seat. It is strange to describe how a feeling could be telling you something but the chill inside me seemed to be telling me to go back to Jackson.
"Let's go back" I said getting up taking my frozen soda to hide the effects from Ian.
We put our cans into the recycling bin and made our way back to Colin's room. When we got there Clayton and Casey we just leaving and stopped to say hello
"Hey boys" Clayton said giving a smile. I honestly couldn't help but stare Clayton was a real life model of male masculinity. He was flawless and just looking at him almost caused me to get hard.
"Hey" I said back
"Jay's back in the waiting room." Casey said giving us a smile.
I watched as Casey looked us over and judging from his smile he must have enjoyed what he'd seen.
"So you're both gay" I said to them causing Clayton to laugh he reached over and slapped me on the back hard enough to make me jump.
"He really just comes out and says it, doesn't he?" Clayton said to Casey who smiled
"Times really are changing" Casey smiled
"I'm sorry... I" I began to say but Clayton just interrupted me
"No it's not that, In high school neither of us would ever dared to have come out like you have, though truth be told in College it is a lot easier." Clayton said
"I'm sorry I just don't get to talk to many other gay men, I wanted to ask you how you figured out you were gay" I said Ian looked particularly interested in this as well.
"Truthfully..." Clayton looked to Casey who just nodded "We figured it out on each other." Clayton directed to Casey
I almost swallowed my tongue
"You suck at storytelling... honestly!" Casey said and for the first time I heard the flamboyant timbre of his voice.
"We were about your age and Clayton here snagged his first girlfriend. I know hardly surprising, anyways... one night he came home from a date and he came storming into our room and declares `Case she wanted me to lick her thing'"
We all laughed at the recollection and Casey kept going
"so I was like what thing is that?' and he points to his crotch and said her thing' so we got talking about it and how he thought it was scary looking and he didn't want to and how scary it was. So I went and gave him a hug and started rubbing his back and he rubbed mine and I got hard. Then Clay shifted over me and I felt him hard as well."
"You don't have to tell them this part Case" Clayton said but Casey just kept going
"somehow we started rubbing them together and then Mr. Macho whispers to me `can I touch it' and he puts his hands down my pajamas and starts jerking me off like a pro I might add. Next thing I know he bends down and puts his mouth over it and I shot in his face."
"CASEY!" Clayton growled
"It was hot!" Casey continued
"Well yea, and then you blew me... like a pro" Clayton said mocking him
"That was hot too" Casey said
"I agree"
Ian and I stood there dumbfounded
"Are you still together?" I asked
"No" they both answered in unison.
"Truth be told, the family found out and things began to get awkward and then we both went off to college and we haven't been with each other since. I'm single right now but Casey here has a man." Clayton said with a hint of jealously
"Clay here has trouble settling down cause he's sex on legs. Guys hook up with him for sex, not to actually BE with him." Casey said "George and I have been together for a couple of years now. He goes to school with me"
"And that's our story" Clayton said
"Good story, I said... but how did you know you were gay" I asked
"Gay is a label; you are what you think you are. Labeling something is a way of generalizing other people." Casey said
"I agree, people look at me and don't instantly think `gay' it's just a small part of who I am" Clayton said
"Thanks" I said
"You're welcome" Clayton said "you know what take this" Clayton said handing me a business card from his pocket "that's my cell, call me If you ever need to talk... well we got to go, we'll walk you back" and we all headed out into the waiting room.
Jay was waiting for us with a small smile and got up the second we got to him.
"All set to go?" he asked stepping forward to give me a hug "feel better now?"
"Yeah, let's go home" I said and we headed out to the car
I rode back home in a comfortable silence as Jay drove Ian home first and then myself. After I said my goodbye to Ian and we were on our way to my place did Jay start speaking.
"What did you think of Colin's family?" he asked
"They're nice" I said "definitely not what I was expecting"
"Me neither, they're one of a kind, that's for sure"
I kept a silent agreement as we pulled into my driveway
"Jay..." I said not looking at him
"Yes?" he asked
"Is there something going on between you and Colin? it's okay to tell me." I said
"He's the one I had feelings for before you." Jay said and I felt my heart silence for a moment. "But I am yours for as long as you want me"
"I was wondering why we haven't gone further than blowjobs and I was wondering if that was why?" I asked again not looking at him
"I didn't know you wanted to do that" he answered "if you do we can most certainly try"
I stayed silent
"Raven I love you and as long as you know you want me I will still be here for you, trust me please" Jay said touching my arm and I turned to look at him and I got caught up in his eyes
"I'm sorry, it's just that... in the hospital you and Colin seemed so close... I was... I was jealous"
"I'm sorry" Jay said
"No it's alright, I should trust you it's just so..." I trailed off
"I would think it would be much like watching you and Ian." Jay said "but he doesn't bother me in the slightest."
"That's because you're a freak of nature" I said trying to lighten the mood
"That I am" he smiled back at me
"I don't think my parents are home. Do you want to come in?" I asked
There was a small moment of silence before Jay smiled
"Are you trying to seduce me?" he asked
"Would you mind if I was?" I asked back in a retort
Jay leaned down and kissed me
"No"