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Chapter 26: Pulling a Rope through a Needle
I could barely sleep through the night and I was hardly surprised as I groaned away from the stream of sunlight coming through my window. I got up and headed downstairs and I wasn't totally surprised with the short note from my parents sitting on the kitchen counter
`Went out golfing, who knows when the first snow will fly, love you'
I sighed and went back upstairs and got dressed. I was on a mission. I was going to Jay's house.
I packed a few snacks and some water and I got into the garage and dragged my bike from the clutter in the back and checking it over I was glad to see the tires were still good and inflated. I got it outside and hopped on.
Six miles really isn't that far but when you haven't rode a bicycle in ages it really can take the wind right out of you. It took me an hour or so but I finally made it to Jay's house. While my house was right on a lake, Jay's house was nestled deep in the woods on a secluded road away from the center of town. It was larger than mine by a little bit, while mine was designed like a lake house this house was built much more like a New England colonial.
I parked my bike by the front door and I went up to the front door and noticed it was slightly ajar. I pushed it open and went inside.
"Hello" I said softly not wanting to alarm anyone. I walked gently across the foyer and walked through the living room and kitchen and found nobody there. I was going to walk out but I heard muffled voices coming from upstairs.
I padded across the living room and headed up the stairs and as I rose the voices got louder. All the doors were shut except the last room on the left of the hallway where there was a light on. I walked over to the door and peeked inside.
"Yea baby that's it" I heard and I looked and saw Jay drilling some guy on the bed. My heart instantly crumbled into a million pieces. I was about to say something when suddenly I heard
"Oh ...eh...den..." and I recognized the voice. I peeked further in to see Colin lying on the bed being drilled by Jay.
A million thoughts were running through my head. First I was kind of shocked to see Colin out of the hospital so quickly and second I was amazed how fast Jay got him into his bed. I thought back to all the kind words Jay had told me about Ian and how he would always be with me and I realized at that moment that all of his words were a crock of shit.
When I saw them together at the hospital I could almost feel a connection between them but sensing one is a little different that seeing it in action...
Their moans suddenly came to a stop after they had obviously climaxed and were basking in the afterglow
"That was amazing" Colin said "I've missed you"
"Me too, but soon we can go back to being ourselves" Jay said and I heard them kiss
"I have to head back to my place, after the accident my parents want to keep me close, when can I visit you again?" I heard Colin ask
"He'll tell you himself I'm sure." Jay said cryptically
"And what about Dustin, when is he going to be told" Colin asked
"Well I need to talk to him today, I left abruptly last I saw him and I need to apologize." Jay said and my blood was boiling. I was absorbing every detail as it was replaying and burning in my mind over and over...
"Having you be with him has been the hardest thing" Colin said
"I know, but soon we will be together again." Jay said "hang in there a little longer."
I felt tears beginning to fall down my face and I walked away from the room. I tried being as quiet as I could and I felt my magic, the cold chill spread around me making me silent as I walked quietly down the stairs and when I got to the front door I opened it wide and slammed it shut. I felt it reverberating in my ears as I hopped onto my bike and hurried off down the driveway when I was at the road I saw Jay stick his head out the window and yell
"RAVEN!" but I was already gone.
I took a back way home hoping to avoid Jay if he came after me and either he didn't come after me or it worked because I arrived at my house with no random appearances from Jay. I walked inside still in tears and ran up to my room.
I launched myself onto my bed and cried and cried until I fell asleep. The last thing I remember before falling asleep is the cold chill of my magic wrapping around me.
I was Dreaming
I was back; floating over the meadow I saw when Jackson and I had made love. I floated to a halt and came down and my bare feet landed in the long strands of wheat. The sun was bright overhead and the distant mountains and forests were beautiful. I felt the grass and I was entranced by the beauty of everything.
"Lovely isn't it?" I heard a voice say
I turned around to see Jay standing in front of me but he looked different. I always thought he looked amazing but now he was really stunning. His dark hair flowed down past his shoulders and his eyes seemed to match the sky.
"This is a special place, it's impossible to get to unless you have been here before and since you have you can always find Me." he said
"I hate you!" I screamed at him but he just smiled
"I will always love you my Anam Cara" he said
"NO!" I shouted "you're a liar, you asshole!"
"Feelings never change, you can only get new ones" he replied
He came and approached me and wrapped his arms around me and I cried and I hung onto him.
"Why, god... why!" I screamed holding him
"I'm sorry I hurt you, I hope in time you might learn to forgive me, I should have asked for your permission and what I have done... unforgivable... but I love you... it's time to wake up... you need to wake up Dustin...
I noticed that the clouds were getting darker and a storm was coming on the horizon over the mountains and the air suddenly became cold
"What's happening?" I asked
"WAKE UP!" Jay screamed and with his voice ringing in my ears I opened my eyes.
I bolted upright as if I was electrified and gasped as if I had been running. My mind was reeling and I then noticed that Ian was sitting on the bed next to me holding my arm.
"What are you doing here?" I asked abruptly not really caring if I sounded rude.
"Your mom let me in, thought you might want to wake up before dinner... said you've been sleeping all day" he smiled at me weakly
"well yeah, I've had a rough day" I said with a sigh willing all my negative thoughts away trying to maintain myself in my focused place which was only helping marginally.
"Want to talk about it?" Ian asked
"No!" I snapped
"I should go..." Ian went to get up but I grabbed his hand reflexively and pulled him back down.
"He cheated" I said and Ian just gave me a confused look
"Who cheated" he asked
"Jay cheated" I said trying to make myself clearer
"Jay cheated on what?" Ian asked still not understanding what I was saying clearly and I was beginning to get frustrated
"ON ME!" I all but shouted and I felt the tears beginning to form and Ian's face suddenly changed as what I was saying was finally becoming clear.
"With whom?" he asked angrily
"Colin" I all but whispered
"That... that fuck..." Ian stammered "I'll kill him" Ian said
"As much as I would love that right at this moment... please don't" I sighed "I still want to hear his explanation."
I then launched into the story of how I discovered them together and how shocked I was that Colin had made it out of the hospital so quickly that he'd be there in the house. Ian listened to me intently and comforted me. I was feeling things I hadn't felt in a while coming to the surface.
"Ian I... thanks... for listening" I said
"Anytime" he smiled
"You know it's only been a couple of months, but it's felt like the longest time. This has to be one of the longest years ever" I said
"A lot of stuff seems to be happening to you" he agreed
"Colin, you, Jackson..." I mumbled "I never would of thought I would have had this much experience before college" I said "the worst of it is, right now I almost wish I had opted to take my diploma and walk away from this."
"Dust..." Ian said taking my arm as I felt the tears beginning to form again
"I gave him my everything Ian, now I wish I hadn't. I wish I had taken that diploma and walked away and I never would of even of met him." I said
"You're here for a reason Dustin; I honestly truly believe that with all of my heart. God saved you on the floor of that bathroom, he didn't do that only to allow you to suffer, there is a greater purpose for you. I know it might be insensitive but I for one am glad it happened otherwise I would not be allowed the pleasure of talking to you right now." Ian said and I looked up into his astonishing light blue eyes
"You're so beautiful" I said gazing at him
"Not as much as you" he said wiping the tears from my face
"You said when I was ready you would be here for me, is that still true?" Ian asked
"Ian..." I asked
"Will you be my boyfriend?" Ian asked and the question took me by surprise
"Ian I..."
"I was so afraid before, but I understand now... Dustin I love you, I think I've loved you from the first moment I saw you..." Ian started babbling
"Ian calm down!" I almost shouted grabbing him and pulling him into a hug
"You hurt me Ian" I said "I was literally just at my weakest and I saw you with Amanda and you lied and played with my feelings, and I am not totally over that, AND..." I continued "I just caught my current sleeping with my best friend; I need some time to adjust."
Ian looked close to tears
"I'm not saying no, you fool!" I said trying to get him to smile "just give me some time okay?"
Ian did smile his smile for me and I felt better again
"Good" I said "that's much better"
"I love you" Ian said
"And I you, you've been such a good friend to me, I've missed you" I said holding onto him
We separated and allowed a comfortable silence to overcome us. We were broken from our reverie as my dad came in from work and was slightly surprised to see I was with Ian and not Jay.
"Hello Ian, welcome back" my dad said
"Hi Mr. Farrell" Ian said "I was just about to head out" Ian got up and looked at me fondly
"I'll see you at school, cheer up" he said giving me that smile
I smiled back
"Thanks, I'll see you then" and I watched as Ian let himself out.
"So Ian huh?" my dad asked as he took off his jacket and loosened his uniform
"What about him?" I asked
"What happened to you and Jay?" my dad asked
"There is no me and Jay" I said sadly "nor is there a me and Ian either"
"What happened?" he asked coming over to me
"Jay Cheated" I said and my dad's face took an ugly red color
"Anything else?" he asked
"It was with my friend Colin from the swim team" I said and the ugly red color got even darker
"Anything else?" he asked again
"Nope, Ian was just here consoling me" I said "I still haven't gotten over his betrayal with Amanda" I said
"All he did was kiss her right?" my dad asked and I gave him a funny look
"And how do you know all this?" I asked
"I try to stay informed" he smiled at me
"Then yes, your information is correct" I said
"He was there at the hospital the whole time you were ill, and he managed to fend off his father pretty good while doing it, he went through a lot of grief explaining how he could be friends with you, I think you gave him some hell too, didn't you?" he asked
"I did" I sighed looking down a little ashamed
"He has a kind heart, I'd give him a chance" my dad smiled "if it were me, and I were gay too"
"Thanks" I said giving him a smile
"That's my boy" he ruffled my hair "get changed we're going out to dinner"
I'd like to thank all my reviewers but i'd like a moment to thank one. He and i shared many emails and his thoughts and ideas are now playing a role in the way i am developing my second story so i would like thank Gene for all the amazingly kind words and I hope that you're okay.
Some of you may have noticed that some chapter names are names of songs. these chapters are meant to be played with those songs. In the final chapter I will post handy links to these and other interesting factual tidbits.
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