Disclaimer: This story is fiction it is not meant in any way to be truth or speculation about the sexality of any member of N'SYNC (although I can dream and wish). This is a story of a homosexual romance and the love shared between two men. If you are offended by this subject material then please go no further. If you are under the age of 18 please leave now. Otherwise I hope that you enjoy the story.
This is my first attempt at writing a story like this.I don't know if you will enjoy it or not, but I hope that you do. Input is welcome but please remember that this story is created from my own mind and I kind of know where I would like it to go. Also I am already an accomplished writer and poet and the poems you see here are not to be used or distributed without my express permission. They are copywritten by me and use of them or distribution is an offense. My normal forte' when writing is sci-fi fantasy so this is a new area for me. Good or bad your comments are welcome and will decide on if or how this story continues. I am very big on defining the characters I write about, but since this is a work of fiction and I take creative liscense on how the characters are portrayed, then we will just have to see how it progress'. I am not one for the wham-bam-thank you sam type of story. I prefer to build the story and the characters before diving into the sex scenes. I hope you won't be disappointed.
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Rescue Run
Chapter 2: The Concert
We arrived at the hotel and parked in the employee parking garage. You know sometimes it pays for your best friends boyfriend to work in the hotel where a lot of major events happen, always a good parking spot. Kev and I made our way to the front desk area of the casino. Kev went and stood in line at the desk to let Aaron know that we were there. I could see Aaron look up and Smile at Kev from where I stood. I kind of wandered around for a minute or two and then Gwen walked in with whom I assumed was Ms. Kinsler. Kevin saw me start to walk towards the two ladies and quickly ran over to join me.
Gwen and Ms. Kinsler I presume?
Yes Ms. Kinsler replied as she turned towards my voice.
Hello there I am Jim and this is my friend Kevin who will be escorting Gwen this evening.
Gwen ran over and threw her hands around my waist.
Thank you so much Mr. Isom. You don't know how much I love you for this. You are so wonderful. the little girl cried.
I knelt down on one knee and gave her a hug. I am just happy that you get to come to the show and I really hope that you have a good time. Now no more tears. You are to have fun tonight, And if you don't; I get to beat that goofball over there up later on, I said with a smile on my face.
Gwen just smiled and waved over at Kevin. He came over and I introduced them. Gwen gave him a hug and whispered to him. Don't worry I won't let him pound on you too much.
Kevin started to laugh and Ms. Kinsler and I just kind of chuckled about that one.
OK. Who is ready to go eat? I asked. All four of our hands shot into the air. We went to the Rain Forest Cafe where I had reserved us a table earlier in the day. We had a good time talking and of course Gwen had to tell us all she knew about the guys. I asked her which one was her favorite.
Chris she replied almost falling out of her seat and she bounced up and down in excitment. He is just so funny and really cute too she replied with a blush.
Gwen how old are you? Kevin asked her.
Twelve. I'll be thirteen in January. She replied.
That explains it. I said. Everyone looked at me and I just shrugged. She is just boy crazy.
Hey!! she exclaimed. I like boys, but I am not crazy. I just have good taste.
Oooohhhhh the three of us said in unison and then started to laugh.
After an hour and a half I asked the waitress for the check so that we could head back to the arena so that Kev and Gwen could go in to get in their seats for the show. When the waitress brought the check Ms Kinsler grabbed it out of my hand and declared that this was her treat for us getting Gwen to the show.
Really Ms. Kinsler, you don't have to do that. I had planned on spending money tonight anyway so I will take care of it.
Oh no you won't. She replied. And neither one of you have a say so about it. Gwen and I decided to do this for you because of what you are doing for her. So get your butts out there and I will see you in a second.
I looked at Kevin and we both kind of sighed in defeat. I know better than to argue with a woman when she has her mind set. I better with two older sisters that would beat the tar outta me if I argued with them. We waited for Ms. Kinsler and then walked to the arena. As we got to the entrance area I stopped Gwen. Ok kiddo, I have another surprise for you. I reached in my pocket and handed her an envelope. She opened it and inside was a hundred dollar bill. Gwen's mouth dropped, she kinda stuttered for a second, but no words came out. I leaned down and gave her a hug. That is so you can buy souveniers to remember your night. I whispered in her ear.
Now get in there you two, and have a good time. As they walked in Ms Kinsler turned to me and gave me a hug. That is the happiest I have seen her since she came to Child Haven. She said as tears ran down her cheek. I just kinda smiled. Just call me a softy I said.
Mr Isom, may I ask you a question?
Only if you call me Jim. I am not my father. I replied.
Well if I may ask. Are you okay? I see the smile on your face, but your eyes express a deep sadness and hurt. Did your boyfriend dump you recently or something?
I stood there a little shocked for a second. Not really knowing what to say.
It was your necklace.she said quickly. Gwen and I both noticed it. My brother is gay and Gwen's parents were performers here in one of the shows. We both know what it means.
I shook my head for a second and then replied, not really knowing if I wanted to discuss this.
No, That has been over for three years, and I am much better off without him in my life. This is just a bad time of year for me. It is the anniversary of my parents deaths. My mother died the 21st of November in 91, and my dad died on December 7th in 92. I have never really been the same since they died and this time of year is really rough on me. I really do miss them, and it just makes me really depressed.
I am so sorry. Ms. kinsler said as she gave me a hug. I had something planned for when we came to get Gwen after the show, but I guees I should stop it.
I looked at her a little confused before I replied. No. It is okay. I want Gwen to know that I am happy for her and we can do whatever it is you planned.
Well it is actually a surprise for all three of you. You and Kevin have been so nice and I know that Gwen will enjoy it. I am not going to say anything more though. You just make sure to meet me back here twenty minutes before the show ends.
Okay, I will be here. I am going to roam for awhile and meet Kevin's boyfriend for awhile and talk.
I actually ended up going out to the car. I had made Kevin give me his keys so I could get to my backpack out in the car. I travel everywhere with it. I have to have my notebook for whenever something comes into my head and I need to write it down. I sat in the front seat and just started to write. In the two and a half hours I wrote four different poems.
Fade Away
I see you walking down the street, And wonder what you're thinking. You turn around and see my eyes, And wonder if you're dreaming
You don'y understand, how someone can, Care for you as I. So you turn away, hoping I would fade, While trying not to cry.
If you looked deep into my eyes, You would know why I care. But you turn away, As if I wasn't there.
The simple words I say to you, Seem to have no meaning. One day you will wonder, Why I didn't stay.
But you closed your eyes, And I, Well I simply faded away........
Confusion
I'm lost in a daze, Wandering here and there. Where am I going, can you help me, Because I sure as hell don't care.
My knees are weak, my head reels I want to taste exactly, how death feels There's blood on my lips; and bile in my throat Hopefully I'll die tonight, then you can laugh and gloat
No one would miss me, no one would care There is no interest here to share I gave up on love; and now on life My life has been hectic, full of strife
There is no love lost with my life For no one could ever love a troll No one is willing to share my strife Loneliness shall forever, burn in my soul
Love No More
Self destruction is the way to go No more troubles, stress, or woe If I am lucky, I'll die today No one loves me anyway
The one I loved, doesn't love me I can deal with that, it's their philosophy It's time to push everyone away from me To turn my heart, to an arctic sea
Stone cold logic will light my day Never again will love blind my way From love; I have nothing to gain I refuse to ever, return to such pain
My heart has been ripped out, replaced by stone My soul is now ice, my self-esteem blown To the very fiber of my being, a blackness has grown This is what it's like, to be abandoned and alone
Snow On the Wind
It's snowing outside again I'm watching it blow in the wind I'll wait for you a day or two Then I'll go; like the snow on the wind
I'm watching the wind; blow the trees Remembering last, Christmas Eve The year went fast, now it's all in the past But you said you would never leave
Now I'm all alone again all I can see, is the end I wanted your love, but I've waited enough So I'll go; like the snow on the wind
I sat and reread a few times, made some minor adjustments and felt a little better. I just need to keep writing. It helps to let out the pain and the emotions. I wiped my eyes for as I had been writing I had started crying. I pulled myself together and headed in to meet everyone.
As I walked in I noticed the news team and Ms. Kinsler talking to a couple of people wearing tour shirts of the guys. Hey I called as I walked up. Hey yourself Ms. Kinsler replied.
Jim I want you to meet Michelle; she works for N'SYNC as the road manager. This is her assistant Tony. They are here to interview with you and Gwen when they come out. And they have a surprise for you too.
Nice to meet you Michelle, Tony. I hope this isn't too much trouble. I didn't quite expect all this to be going on. In fact I am a little overwhelmed here.
It is so nice to meet you Mr. Isom
Whoa, whoa, stop right there. It is Jim. I am not my father. I am only 33.
Okay, okay Michelle said with a laugh. Jim. It is so nice to meet you. and what you did for Gwen is so admirable of you.
I just stood there and blushed. I don't take compliments very well. I am really very shy, I just put on a good show so people don't notice it.
Okay, so here is what is going to happen, Michelle said, noticing my discomfort. The news crew is going to ask you and Gwen a few questions, then Tony and I are going to ask a few and then present you with our surprise. Is that all right with you? We plan on using some of it on one of the guys videos for part of a promo.
That is fine with me. I will do my best to at least act semi-comfortable in front of the camera for you.
Twenty minutes later the concert let out and the crowd was unbelievable. I moved over next to Michelle in the corner and we chatted a bit while we waited for Gwen and Kev to come out.
Thanks for the save I told her. I am a little uncomfortable when paid a compliment.
Not a problem. I could tell. You have to remember that I work with some of the easiest people in the world to make blush, and one in particular blushes big time when complimented. It is really kind of funny sometimes. they all blush really easy, but just about anything can make Lance blush.
Lance? Which one is that? Is he one of the dark haired ones? Or is he the youngest one of the group?
Michelle's mouth dropped for a second and then a smile broke out on her face. You are just trying to give me a hard time aren't you?
Yeah actually I am. I know who is who among the guys. It is just I am really not that much into them. I like their music. To me music is my life, it can tell every emotion I feel. It makes me feel better when I am down. Music has been very important part of my life since I was a child, and even more so since my parents died.
I am sorry, How long have they been gone?
Mom died in 91, and Dad died in 92. They left me a year and two weeks apart. It was really bad for along time, but now only certain times of the year bother me. That is one reason I chose not to go in there tonight.
Michelle leaned over and gave me a hug. Well I at least hope you enjoy the surprise.
I saw Kevin coming through the opening and motioned to everyone that I saw them. Gwen came out carrying two bags of stuff. I caught her attention and she ran over and gave me a big hug.
I got stuff for you too; she announced shoving a bag at me. And Kevin got you some stuff too. Little did I know that the cameras where rolling already. I looked in the bag and pulled out a tour book, a set of buttons that were the faces of all five guys, and a set of 5 x 7 pictures.
Thank you very much Gwen. You know that you didn't need to do that. I just wanted you to have fun. I leaned down and gave her a hug. So how was your night?
Oh my GOD! She exclaimed. It was so cool. They flew during the song "Sailing". They were sitting on these stools and the all of a sudden the started to float in the air. I didn't see the cables at first. It was just so cool. I had the best time ever.
Good for you. I am happy you enjoyed yourself. Now these good people here would like to talk to us. I froze for a second as I turned around. I noticed the camera was on and I really hate to have my picture taken.
The reporter asked some questions for a few minutes and then Michelle moved in.
OK, she announced. I have a surprise for the three of you. You are all to please follow me.
Michelle led us back into the arena. We walked back out towards the stage and then to the side. Out of her pocket she produced back stage passes and handed them out. Kev and I both just kind of stood there a little shocked and Gwen burst out into tears. I knelt down in front of her and wiped the tears away.
Now listen here I whispered. No more tears. This is a happy night. I know you didn't expect this and I know I didn't either, but I want to see a smile on your face by the time we get back there. Ok?
Gwen just nodded her head and we continued to the door to the dressing room. Michelle knocked. The door opened and we could see the guys sitting and relaxing a bit. Chris and Joey looked up as we entered. JC and Justin just kind of kept glancing at each other and I could tell something was going on there, by the way they acted. Kind of a do I tell him or not thing. Lance just sat looking at the floor like he was lost in a personal hell of his own. One thing that can be said for me. I know how to read people when they are having trouble.
Michelle walked us in and started to introduce everyone. Chris stopped her mid sentence.
Hey look he said. It is one of those boys. So which one of us do you think you can try and get down our pants? You just wanted to meet us so you could try it right. Then go home and have a good old beat off session.
Joey then decided to comment. I got one better. Hey big boy, was that an earthquake earlier or did you just fall down.
Everyone stood in shocked silence. JC and Justin looked at Chris and Joey like they just grew second heads. Lance looked at me with a look of you don't know how sorry I am. Michelle had a look of rage on her face and was about to speak when I held up my hand.
Michelle, you have have exactly two minutes to clear everyone out of this room except for you and these guys right here; I said pointing to each of the five. I turned to Kevin. You need to take Gwen out into the hall please.
Kevin knew I was pissed. My face was so red it looked like my head was going to explode. As the camera crew walked out I said I want to see the tape before anything is aired or released. Michelle got everyone outside and started to turn. Shut the door. I don't want anyone to hear this I said in a menacing tone.
As soon as the door shut I let loose. How Fucking dare you. How dare you make comments like that in front of a little girl that worships the ground you walk on. I walked over to Chris. My hands bunched up into fists. Little man, and from what I have heard, compared to the other guys, you are a very little man. I said as I held my thumb and forefinger just two inches apart. Don't flatter yourself. You are one of the most annoying and obnoxiuos people I have met. And you, I turned at Joey. If you want to insult me about my weight you will have to do better than that. Are you both so insecure that you have to try to humiliate me? Well it won't fucking work. Next time why don't you try a line like will California let you in the state or are they afraid you will cause the big quake? Or how about , did you get the letter from Greenpeace to be the next poster child for save the whales? Please do you think I haven't heard them all before. Get real. You are just two little ants. Insecure in yourselves and those around you so that you have to insult others to make yourselves feel better. What is it, feel like no one to trust anymore?
And you two!! I turned at JC and Justin. You may not have said anything, but there is something wrong here. What is the big secret? Don't you trust your fellow band mates? Are you part of the problem here? Just fucking admit that you two are in love with each other. It is obvious enough the way you two look at each other. Let's get real here guys. Chris would never have made such a crass comment in front of a fan if he knew how you two felt about each other. Life is full of fucking risks and unless you two admit it you will never know if you will be happy with each other.
And finally you!! I screamed at Lance. Don't you try and slink away to a corner and hide. Yes I saw you trying to get out of my line of fire. I don't know what personal hell you are running from because you won't look anyone in the eye. But by damned if you keep running you will live in it forever. You need to talk to the four people that are supposed to be your best friends. Believe me, I know. I live in hell everyday, but I know that I have to go on. I hide too much of my feelings. I hide behind walls. This is the fucking anniversary of my parents deaths right now. this time of year. I will NOT!, be treated as I just was.
Now I expect you to aplologize to Gwen for being assholes. And be advised, I could care less that you guys are pop stars. I like the music. You are just over grown kids in a high profile job, nothing else. Without your fans you are and will be nothing. So get over yourselves and learn that not everyone cares about who you are or what it is you do. That just maybe they like what it is your job does for them. It makes them happy.
I walked over to the door and opened it. Most of the guys had tears in their eyes at this point. Gwen come here please. I called. Listen to me. They are just tired and had a rough night. don't hate them for it. They spoke before a thought entered their little minds. You get your autographs and have a good visit. With that I stood and looked back into the room. Michelle had a worried look on her face, but gave me the thumbs up. the guys just stared at me. I turned and left. I am outta here they heard me call as I left. JC and Justin stood and were about to follow, but Michelle held up her hand and looked at Gwen. She then reached over and grabbed JC by the front of the shirt and pulled him in close. You all will do EXACTLY what he told you too. You are going to make this little girl feel special tonight and make up for what just happened here. Michelle shoved him towards Gwen and JC started to take care of things. SCOOP!! get over here right now.
Lance walked to her with his head hung down. I want you to get over there Mr. on top of everything. I want as much info as you can get. You are all going to make up for this or I am going to turn into the bitch from hell by the time we get to our next stop in two weeks. Do you get me mister?!?!?!
Lance looked at her a little nervous. That is what I was thinking too. he replied and headed over to Kevin to find out everything. He asked Kevin to come back after he had walked Gwen back out.
While Kevin was gone Michelle turned on the guys. All right boys. I am not happy about this night. Everything he said to you seems to be right on the mark. I can see in your faces that he hit the right points. But time for discussion has ended at the moment. If what Kevin said is true and his depression is that bad, there is no telling what will happen. Lance you are to go with Kevin and see if he went to the car. Chris and Joey, get the hats out boys, you are going out on the strip to see if he is at one of the bus stops. Justin, JC. You get on the in house phones and start paging him. I want an answer of someone finding him within the next thirty minutes. Do I make make my self clear. The guys all grabbed what they needed and headed out the door. Lance grabbed Kevin as he ran out the door.
As they headed out of the arena Kevin asked what all happened tonight? Later you can hear the whole story was all Lance would say. Let's just get out to your car. We, no I take that back, I, have to find him.
Author's note's
Michelle is a very good friend of mine from work. She is someone I can be myself around and tell just about anything. Including dirty jokes that make her blush. hehehehehe
Tony is an old friend of mine that I don't know where he is anymore, but I hope he is doing well.
Coming soon.
Resue Run Chapter three
Rescue One