Last completed chapter at the moment, but more to come.
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Robbery
Chapter 4 - My Wheel comes full circle
My floating home and I sailed the islands for three years. I had no plan and just sailed where the mood took me. I had no sexual adventures despite meeting some wonderful young men of all colours and nationalities. I was too old for them and knew it, Jamie and Lee had been different they had grown to love me from a distance initially seeing all the good and sexy things and ignoring the age but these casual meetings didn't afford me that luxury.
I arrived home and started the big clean up. The first thing I noticed was the pile of yellow memo slips from reception asking me to pick up my mail. I didn't, well not for another couple of weeks, I needed to get my home liveable again. I gave the boatyard Saladin and briefed the lad that had always worked on her. He knew what to do and I left him to it.
Finally I picked up three years mail, but the yellow slips were about the letters addressed in red with the word urgent plastered across them. They were from Jamie and had started arriving about a year ago. General letters to start with like you would expect from a friend, but that soon changed as he obviously got more frustrated at no replies. Finally it was a pleading letter about six months ago.
" My only love,
Please Chas, please reply to me. I'm sorry I left you I realise now I love you so much. Please let me come back, I want to be your lover until the end of time.
I will give up my studies and come to live with you as your houseboy or slave or anything, just please let me come back."
It was a long rambling letter but it just repeated in different ways what the first two paragraphs said.
The next one sounded suicidal and was only a few weeks old. I immediately rang the number I had for his parents.
When I told them who I was and that I had only just got back to my home after three years at sea his father was so thankful he just gushed over me.
"Please Chas, how soon could you be here?"
I was more than a little surprised.
"I suppose I could be in England tomorrow, but why the urgency?"
"Jamie is so ill pining for you, we have him at home here in bed. He has lost the will to live. It's not life threatening yet but he is terribly emotional and has lost a lot of weight. He has come down from Uni. early but he has his degree we are told, just not as good as we expected."
I bled, "Can I speak to him?"
"I'm sorry Chas, I don't think that is a good idea, unless you are coming to tell him you still love him and he can spend his life with you it would appear pointless."
"I will be there tomorrow lunch time if there are any seats out of here this afternoon and Jamie can live with me for all eternity. I have never loved a boy before and never will love another unless it is Jamie."
I hung up then, phoned the airlines until I found a seat going out that afternoon. I threw some clothes in a bag, closed the house up again and headed for the airport.
It was mid afternoon the next day by the time I knocked on Jamie's parent's front door. They had of course seen all the photos of me that Jamie had but I had aged badly the last three years so they didn't recognise me at first. Jamie's father, David, was the first to speak.
"My God man, you look as though you have the same problem Jamie has, come in. This is my wife Pamela. Drop your bags, Jamie is in the first bedroom on the right at the top of the stairs. He will probably be asleep but go right up."
I did and he was. I was quite shocked, he was twenty one but looked much older. I pulled a chair up to his bed quietly, gave him a soft kiss on the forehead and sat down taking one of his hands in mine.
I started speaking to him.
"I have never stopped loving you for a second. It was only my great love for you that allowed me to let you go in the first place. You can come and live with me forever, or for just a week, whatever you want if I can give it to you I will. I will never stop loving you."
The human brain is a wonderful thing. I would swear he was in a deep sleep as I was talking to him but when I stopped he opened his eyes, turned his head to look at me and as the tears started to flow he said almost to quietly for me to hear,
"Do you mean that Chas, truly mean it?"
I knelt beside him then and said, "Oh yes my love, I've never meant anything so completely in my life. You have no idea how much I have missed you."
His eyes took in everything about me before he burst into tears, threw his arms round my neck and sobbed his heart out. The only bits of his speech that I picked up were the important ones. "I love you so much, I want to be with you always and I'll never leave you again." Everything else was of absolutely no importance to me at all.
I started to live again then, the first time in three years.
It was a slow start for both of us, Jamie had lost a serious amount of weight, as had I but his small frame could ill afford it. I hadn't really even noticed how my physique had suffered but now I needed to be young again for my lover and he needed to be sexy again for me. Well actually he didn't but he thought he did. We began to work out slowly, building gradually to a full programme. His parents fussed around both of us like old mother hens. Funny I thought later given my closeness in age to his dad.
Three months down the line I thought we ought to be going home, David and Pamela didn't. Compromise, we stayed another month during which time David pulled some strings and after talking to Jamie and I got Jamie a position in a company on our home island so that he could start developing a career.
We went home, we went to bed and it was two days before we left the bedroom.
Jamie hadn't regained his old looks or body but we were well on the way, he certainly looked incredible to me. I hadn't made love to him at his parents for a variety of reasons. I think for both of us the truth was that we wanted to take our time exploring each other's bodies again and our minds. We were embarking now on a second grand adventure. Our first love affair had been based to a huge extent on lust and learning this one was to be based on an enduring love and respect for each other and the knowledge that our plan for this one was forever. Not a problem for me but I had to consider Jamie who was my junior by almost twenty years. I knew I would never tire of his body and his mind was good as well but for him I might remain an attractive sex partner for another ten years but realistically beyond fifty I would start to deteriorate at an accelerating rate and by sixty or sixty five I would start to look like an old man in comparison to him.
Those thoughts were easily pushed aside as he started in on me that first day home. I thought he was going to stroke and lick my skin away.
"I haven't tasted this for three years Chas, I always loved the feel of it, so hard and muscular so dynamic in its actions. I want you to make love to me like you did that first time when I had been a naughty boy."
He blushed then and dropped his eyes.
"Mmm, I never did get round to spanking you for that did I?"
His eyes shot open and held mine again.
"I think you ought to turn over and let me get that out of the way."
He never said a word, he just turned over. I spread his legs and squatted between them. Ten slaps to his bottom, five for each cheek, just hard enough to get him a tingle then I attacked one cheek with my tongue and the other I stroked with my hand. A few minutes of that and I reversed the action before giving him another ten and repeating the stroking and licking, only this time I took in his crack and eventually his rosebud. His bottom was beautiful, I don't think it would ever be anything else for me. I started to open him up slowly playing with the rest of his anatomy. He came up on his knees and I was able to play with his cock and balls as well as his anus. I was fast reaching sensory overload when he whimpered and cried quietly.
"Please Chas, please fuck me, I love you so much and I want to feel you inside me."
I rolled him over, lubed us both and entered him slowly, watching his eyes all the time. When I was fully inserted I leant forward and gave him the kind of kiss that would devastate him with its passion before I started to slow fuck him. Three years is a long time to remember how intense your orgasms were then but I am sure we both experienced the ultimate one that day.
Every ounce of love I had in my body went into that first love making session. I wanted to show him beyond a shadow of a doubt that he meant more to me than anything or anyone else in the whole world. His tears flowed freely and were acceptable only because they were tears of happiness and mingled with my own as we devoured each other's lips and faces.
What we experienced in love making sessions after that was wide eyed wonder that every time was magical and most times we had funny incidents as well.
We continued to work out and to eat a lot more food than we would normally. We didn't like red meat but we ate a lot of it. I didn't like green vegetables but again plenty of them were consumed. The aim of course was to regain our old weight and size as soon as possible but at the same time develop our old body shape as well. We had been home for about three months I suppose when I reckoned we were there. We tried to be serious as we stood side by side in front of the mirrored wardrobe and compared each other trying to remember what we were like three years previous. I think Jamie was even more beautiful and sexy than he had been then. I was sure I wasn't but Jamie was delighted with what he had to look at.
"I love your body Chas, it looks awesome again with that wonderful appendage between your legs. Am I ok now, do you think I am as sexy as I was at eighteen?"
"No my love, you went way past that ages ago. Your body now is devastating. I will worry about you every time you are out of my sight."
He wrapped himself round me and whispered into my ear.
"You will never need to worry, I am never going to want another man to make love to me. I lost you once because of my stupidity, I'll never risk that again."
I believed him at that moment but it soon became quite difficult because he started working for a PR company in the travel industry. He gathered a coterie of friends around him who were all young and dynamic, several of them also being very attractive and sexy young men. I was always with him when he went out with them socially but felt old against their youth. Jamie didn't appear to notice, every time he looked at me it was with love shining in his eyes. Two of his friends picked up on it and started to hit on him because they were gay. I could understand them and had I not been with Jamie I would have been happy to take either of them to bed. My worries started when there appeared to be too many after hours meetings at which he always told me the two gay guys attended.
The worry started to show in my actions and words so he sat me down one evening when he had come in quite late obviously glowing, which to me equated to sex but was because of a new initiative the firm was adopting that had been Jamie's suggestion.
"I can see and hear the worry you are building Chas. I swear it is unfounded. I earn good money, Dad would help if I needed him to as well so I can walk away from you anytime I want to. If I want to romp sexually with Toby or Oliver therefore there is nothing to stop me.
Please understand, you are my life, I love you so much. I love my job, it is exhilarating working with the people I do, but I will jack it in tomorrow if you want me to."
He took my hands in his and looked intently at me.
"Do you understand or have any concept of how devastated I was when I realised what a terrible mistake I had made giving you up and then being unable to contact you for over a year afterwards. I would have died if you hadn't come for me, my love for you runs that deep."
What could I say, I was patently being stupid. Wasn't I?
Nothing changed except my attitude, I started quizzing him about every minute he was away from me. It was patently obvious to everyone except me that I was jealous and hell bent on a path that was going to destroy our relationship.
I succeeded. I took almost a year but the strain for Jamie was way too much for a twenty two year old. He started having crying jags swearing his love for me but I just got worse and eventually he left to live with the two gay guys.
I had been without him for a month getting more and more depressed when there was knock on the door. It was Toby, one of the gay boys Jamie had gone to live with. He took one look at me and just pushed past me. I closed the door and followed him out to the terrace where he turned and faced me.
"Are you totally out of your fucking mind?"
I didn't have a clue what he was talking about and it showed in my face so he continued.
"Jamie has at last told us why he walked out on you. We thought he had got tired of living with an old man, but when our overtures couldn't entice him into either of our beds Oliver and I were at a loss. Today he told us, he was so drunk his tongue came free at last. He said you were jealous to the point of paranoia about his activities with us. We couldn't believe it. You have the total love of the most drop dead gorgeous guy on this planet and you drive him away. If he loved me even a tiny bit I would share him with every man on this island just to have him with me occasionally. You can have him every day as your exclusive property and you effectively throw him out. For God's sake man, get fucking real and go and bring him home."
I looked at him then as if he had just dropped down from another planet. It made him angry and he slapped me hard across the face. Then he burst into tears and fell onto the deck sobbing.
"I love him so much, I have tried every way I know to stimulate a similar feeling in him and he just dies a little every day because of his love for you. You don't deserve one hundredth of the love and goodness he showers on you. I hate you I hope you rot in hell for damaging that gentle and beautiful boy."
I was shocked, I picked him up from the deck and cuddled him stroking his back while he calmed down.
"I'm sorry Toby, I love him so much I just never believed I could keep him now that he is surrounded by dynamic and handsome young men like you and the rest. My jealousy became corrosive, please forgive me and I promise I am going to start making it up to Jamie as soon as I can get to him."
Toby followed me back to his house and when I went in with him I immediately saw Jamie crashed out in a chair.
"He's out of it, after you left he drunk another half bottle of rum. He is going to have one hell of a hangover in the morning."
Oliver looked at me then and speaking to Toby again said, "Why have you bought that piece of trash back with you?"
I was shocked they hated me so much. I snapped out of it then.
"Toby, go and pack his bags, I am taking him home."
To Oliver I said, "You're right, but I am going to make it up to him now. When does he next have to be at work?"
"The day after tomorrow, but why should we let you take him, you are destroying him from a distance, I doubt you can do it faster being with him."
That hurt, mainly because I knew it was true.
"I guess you are going to have to wait and see because I am taking him."
Toby piped up then, "I'll go and pack his stuff, either way Oli these two have to sort it out, neither of them appear to be worth a shit apart."
It was late the next morning when Jamie woke, he looked around realised he was in our bed, looked at me sat on the edge of the bed and froze. Not the most encouraging action. I took a hand and he pulled it away.
I whispered, almost.
"I'm sorry baby my jealousy took over, I swear it will never happen again. Please say you'll stay and let me make it up to you. We are no good apart Jamie we both die a little each day."
He looked at me and with tears brimming in his eyes said, "I don't know Chas, I don't think I can go through this again, I just want to die."
I scooped him into my arms.
"Don't say that baby, I swear I'll never put you through this again. You can take a hundred lovers and I won't make a sound as long as you come home to me when you are finished with them."
Phew was that ever the wrong thing to say. He shot out of bed eyes blazing and stood over me fists clenched.
"You still don't fucking get it do you? I love you so much I die a little when we are apart and will die completely if you ever reject me. What do I have to do to convince you that you are my life? I'll die for you Chas to prove it, is that what you want?"
I stood so that we were almost eye to eye, he was still smaller than me and still my baby.
"I will die with you when you do it. Please let me try again. I can't even begin to tell you how much I love you, the words I have used before are totally inadequate. I swear I will never let jealousy rear its ugly head again, I swear I will love you to the day I die and beyond if there is such a place."
His eyes bored into my brain then and he just collapsed on the floor sobbing his eyes out.
How had I come so close to destroying the most wonderful thing that had ever happened to me. When he left me the first time I was wise enough to recognise what he had given me, now that I could have him forever I had nearly blown it.
Once again we had to start on the road back. This time it would be harder and longer, even after we were totally fit again.
We pussy footed our way round each other for months. He tried not to be out beyond office hours, I tried not to ask questions that might be construed as prying. Neither of us was happy. Our love making was little short of a disaster so we stopped making love. Both of us got depressed. The spiral tightened and we both started losing weight, losing interest in our bodies and eventually interest in each other. It couldn't continue so this time I left.
"I'm going sailing Jamie, I need time to think and you do as well is my guess."
I didn't say anything else and he didn't ask me for how long I was going. Sladin was always kept fully watered and fuelled but there was no food on board so I guess he thought I was just going for a little while.
I motored clear of the island, pointed her out into the Atlantic and engaged the auto helm. I went down below and opened all the sea cocks, took a shit load of sleeping pills and just lay on my bunk. Expectation was that she would sink before I woke up and my troubles would be over. Reality was that I had left the automatic bilge pumps connected and they were pumping out almost as fast as the sea cocks were allowing the water back in. She was wallowing around on the point of sinking when a boarding party from Her Majesty's Patrol Frigate got to me, closed the sea cocks and took me on to their ship. A crew was put aboard my yacht and sailed her to Barbados and I was flown off to the same island for medical attention. The pills had been effective enough to leave me a bit gaga. I was just rejoining the world when I felt a hand grip mine and a voice I never expected to hear again started speaking to me.
"We have to stop this Chas, I love you so much and we keep damaging our love. I have packed in my job so that when you are well we can be together all the time."
I rolled over and looked into a pair of very worried eyes.
"I'm sorry my love, I just couldn't hang around any longer to watch something so wonderful wither and die."
"It's not going to, I'm not going to pussyfoot around anymore, I'm going to be me and you are going to get used to it."
Very commanding but that was ok by me, I had been to the brink and knew I didn't want to go there again.
The Navy didn't charge me salvage for my boat so I only had to pay the marina for berthing and they had stripped her out and dried everything. I would need all new upholstery but we put new mattresses on board and other pieces of equipment we needed to take her home. Just six weeks after my stupid suicide attempt we sailed out of Barbados.
Both of us decided in our minds that what we had been through was enough to prove to each other that our love really was sound so Jamie went back to work and I became a house husband. Perfect, I was able to work out every day, kept the house ready for guests any time so we entertained, lots of parties, mainly with a preponderance of young people but some oldies like me as well and our lives worked.
A little over a year after my stupid trick I was reading, stretched out on a sun bed on the deck when Jamie burst in. I looked at my watch and thought he was very early.
"Look what I found at my office this lunch time."
He stood aside to admit a grinning Lee and a large Texan called Wayne. I was dumbstruck looking at the two of them, it had been almost five years since I had romped with them on this deck.
"You two have to be the most instantly rapeable men I have seen in a long time." Was my grinning comment as I took in their incredible bodies
We all grinned and kissed and wanted to talk at the same time. Lee won.
"We called Jamie's Dad and he told us your story and gave us Jamie's work address and telephone number so we met him for lunch. Didn't want to bust in on you in case we would have caused problems."
I looked at Jamie and he shrugged.
"Well you wouldn't have done, but what about you two?"
"Oh by the time we had finished our Master's we had been together for so long that I married him and he lives in England quite legally."
Lee was beaming as he said it and I realised looking between the two of them that they had the same as Jamie and I, a deep love. I was pleased.
I felt cheeky seeing so much happiness about.
"Oh well, I suppose that means foursomes are going to be a non starter while you are here."
Lee nearly fell over laughing.
"Are you kidding, Wayne said to me when we had the money for this trip, `Let's go and see Chas and Jamie, I haven't had a big cock up my arse since our last session with them.'"
Jamie was giggling now with him and Lee holding each other. Wayne was blushing almost purple, it looked so funny on this huge Texan.
"Well I'll surely be happy to oblige if Jamie approves."
Jamie stopped giggling and looked at me as he said.
"Yes please Chas, that was the hottest sex I've ever seen or been part of."
Scene set for some fun I guessed but first we had so much to tell each other, in my case with them, five years worth to be precise.
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The new chapter and revised previous ones is because in the back of my mind I felt that this story was unfinished. It still is. Chas and Jamie have so much further to go I am sure but at the moment I am not sure where. Lee and Wayne have to feature in their lives as well because they are both such sexy men. I hope I won't keep you waiting too long for another chapter but don't hold your breath, just in case.