Rocky Road IV
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Online friendships happen so fast because there is a certain amount of anonymity that allows you to be free with your thoughts, feelings and desires in a far more intimate way than any real life encounter would allow in short term. Therefore you sometimes say what you would only dare think of in the privacy of your own bedroom, and then only to yourself for fear of being overheard. But when you find that special online friend, he becomes your confidante to your innermost desires. It becomes like a therapy, a mutual sharing of those hidden secrets, so that a catharsis occurs and a rebirth into a new being, or so it seemed with me.
"Hiya Rocky!" I say as I see his name appear online. But I was greeted with silence.
"Not chatting to me today Rocky?" Pause. "You're not sulking are you Rocky?"
"Howdy AJ!" came the eventual reply, "Sorry was on the phone!"
"You had me worried there for a while Rocky." I sighed in relief.
"Sorry! I was on the phone organising a volleyball team! Are you intersted in playing at all?"
"I don't have a car so I can't get around, and there's only one kind ball I like to play with these days."
"Oh! Not overly active then?"
"I've never been good at sports, particularly team and ball sports. I prefer something a little more individualised, like wrestling. I was always the last one chosen for team sports at school, and as much as I'd love to play volleyball with young studs like you, its just not my style."
"Hey, I know that feeling, getting picked last and all!"
"Why ever would you be picked last? I'd have you first every time."
"Thanks, but it wasn't always that way! Childhood has it's fair share of bad karma!"
"Comes with being gay I guess. Its not that I was ever out at high school or anything, but I still felt certain isolation. I despise cricket and was always lousy at footy. But I wasn't a scrawny, fragile kid either and I could handle myself well in a scrape. I like watching Australian Rules Football now even though I didn't think much of it then. But it's the boys in their shorts that get me going, mainly these days. The atmosphere at the game is good, too."
"I can definitely agree with that one! I like the description of aerial ping pong for it though!"
"I certainly follow the bouncing balls... ummm. I mean, ball."
"Hhmmm! You're fun!"
"Thanks Rocky. You're not so bad yourself either dude."
"So how was your weekend? Get up to much?"
"Get UP to much? Now there's a proposition."
"Who said it was a proposition? So did you???"
"Friday night I went to the Football game. Tried to see Gladiator with a couple from work on Saturday night but it was all booked out so we pigged out at the Pancake parlor instead. Sunday I played around on the net in the morning and then visited my brother in the arvo and watched vids. That was pretty much it."
"Wish I could have done that! I vegged out pretty much on Saturday and Sunday. Took my bro to the brand-name factory outlet place, then walked the furbies on Sunday!"
"Are you out to your family Rocky? Does your brother know you're gay?"
"Not really. Dad found some magazines one time because he was snooping where he shouldn't have been! So I gather he knows. My boyfriend's family knows and is cool, even to the extent of visiting his folks and sleeping together. As for my brother, he's always on about some girl or the other, so I'm not sure if he's worked it out yet. My Mum keeps making references to grand-kids, so I hope my bro breeds! I've said it enough times that I don't want them, so I think they'll get the hint!
"Have you ever had a girlfriend Rocky?"
"Many many moons ago! About 10 years ago!"
"Ewwwwww girlie germs! But you've given your parents hope, y'see. They're going, 'Rocky had that lovely girl about ten years ago, he just hasn't found the right one yet.' They're burning the torch of eternal hope for you. I've never had a girl, at any stage. Never even pretended to have one. It's funny because through my adolescence and college years I always played it straight but never went as far as to get a girl to keep up the image. I guess the only one I was really fooling was myself. All those years wasted pretending when I could have just been myself and been a much happier person."
"Teenage dating isn't all its cracked up to be. I didn't even tongue kiss back then in Year 8! Hahahaha! I have never even felt a breast, which most girls find very amusing! I much prefer feeling a guy up! I think I have always known I liked guys, but thought trying the girlfriend thing may have helped. Anyway, I had a big crush on my PE teacher from Second semester of Year 8 until I finished Year 12! Man was he a sexy beast! I'd still go him if I had the chance! I often think about the last week of school, and how, if I handled it differently, I could have had some fun with that teacher!"
"Yeah. Luckily I went to an all-boys school so the pressure wasnt as great to do the dating thing."
"But it could have been equally as fun! Don't suppose it was a real nurturing environment for gays though."
"No way! I was so far back in the closet at school, I had to use binoculars just to perve on the studs that strutted around in the locker room."
"That's a great picture you've painted! So was there many studs for a perving?"
"Too many. It was heaven and hell combined. I had a couple of them hit on me too. Looking back on it, I should have taken them up on their offers instead of playing it straight. At the time I didn't know if these guys were for real, or just trying to flush out the gay boys. Now I wish I wasn't so intent on playing Mr Straight-Guy to have taken them up on their offer. Hindsight is a wonderful thing."
"Man I wish I had been hit on by some of the studs at my school! Teachers or students! It could have been a lot of fun in hindsight! I actually had one of my Dad's cousins son's suck me off once when I was in primary school! Now he's married with children!"
"Funny how guys like to play and then go back to their wives and kids and say how bad gays are."
"Yeah! Tell me about it. The 'I'm not gay, I'm married, but I like taking it up the ass/sucking off guys' scenario. It's so hypocritical! Man, I have drank too much! Have to go for a wee walk!"
"Okay, can I hold it for you while you take a wee?" I ask micheviously.
"If you want!"
"Wouldn't your boy friend get jealous of someone else holding your dick?"
"Not unless he was there to see it!"
"Don't tempt me!" I grin.
"I am tempting, it's my nature!"
"Guess you must be tempting in so many ways, Rocky. Your boyfriend is lucky to have someone like you."
"Yeah, and I'm lucky to have him!"
"Yep." I say with a sigh.
"Hey, you'll get someone! Or I may end up single! Stranger things have happened!"
"Its ok Rocky. It just seems of late that everyone I know is with someone and everyone's telling me how great their partner is and how life wouldn't be the same without them. I just feel so alone in a crowded room. As the song says "One is the loneliest number that you'll ever know". It kind of gets me down from time to time but I'll survive. I've been alone enough now to be used to it."
"I know where you're coming from, and know how you feel, and no matter what anyone says, you still feel the same! Hey if you need a platonic hug at all, let me know."
"A platonic hug?"
"Yeah, a nice big strong hug to help you feel happier!"
"Thanks for the offer, Rocky. You're a good friend."
"Anytime matey!"
"But if you did that I might end up crying on your shoulder and it wouldn't be good for my macho image."
"Not to worry! I have absorbent shoulders that have been used like that many a time!"
"Y'know Rocky, I really am still a bit in shellshock that a stud like you wants to be friends with an older dude like me. To a certain extent I guess I'm a little scared of it. That's why I knocked you back when you said you wanted to drop around the other day. I need a little time for the amazement to fade and the nerve to get the courage to face you. Does that make sense or does it sound crazy? I mean I know we're just friends and its not a relationship or anything like that but, I don't know how to explain it."
"It's okay, I understand. I actually went and met a guy for the first time yesterday that I met on ICQ, and I had butterflies etc, so I know what you mean. Hey, I don't bite! But I can bite if you want! I have more of a scary exterior that keeps people at bay, but is all soft and cuddly underneath! Hey do you have a mobile phone? I'd like to hear your voice at least one day, although meeting in real life would be good!"
"I'm only fun like this on the net. It gives me the freedom to say whatever I like. You'll hardly get boo out of me in real life or on the phone. I'm not much of a talker."
"At least I'd hear your voice then!"
"Only if you caught me live. I don't have my own voice on message bank."
"Oh! Do you have one of them ones that says to leave the phone number kind of message?"
"Actually I have Mr Spock telling you to leave a message."
"Oh dear, trekism!"
"Sorry. My blood has always been green, so its hard to shake off the shackles of my past."
"You're a crack up!"
"And they said the wrinkle cream would work!"
"Are you always this serious?"
"In real life, I'm as funny as a funeral director at a slayer fest."
"I find that very hard to believe! How can the real life persona and the online persona be that different? I'm sure I could bring some of the online persona out into the real life persona!"
"You're a star, Rocky. If you turn out to be a falling star, I'm gonna whoop your ass good, boy!"
"I'm shining brightly on your world at the moment hey? Now where would my star fall to? Fell free to "whoop my ass" if I let you down!"
"You're seriously breaking through all my lines of defence here, Mister. You've got all thrusters firing, Rocky."
"Didn't know I was penetrating any shields! That's about as trekky as I get, by the way!"
"What time do you work till tonight?"
"Whenever I want to go!"
"You can clock on and off whenever you want?"
"Yep! Why? Do you want me to go?"
"No, not at all. It's just that I've got to go now, and I didn't wanna be the one to walk out. Can I call you tonight on your mobile and we can arrange to meet up or something?"
"I'll look forward to it."
"Okay Rocky, speak to you tonight. Bye for now."
If everything worked out right, at the very least we'd be having phone sex tonight or maybe more if we met up. Part of me could hardly wait, but part of me said it was wrong to do because Rocky was already taken. What should I do? I was torn between my friendship with this guy and my libido. Only time would tell what would happen next.
To be continued.