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Rose are Red bye: Monchito
chapter 7.
After the night with Hector and an unexpected visit from Alex I decided to do what my heart told me to do. I decided to be boyfriends with Hector. We both like each other and I feel very comfortable with him. The rest of the week at school went by quickly as me and Hector got to know each other pretty good and the fact the his sister is that Brenda, didn't really bother me that much so I was cool. Many times I would see Alex at school and I would pretend not to notice him whenever he looked at me. Hector and I decided to hang out over the weekend to spend some time together.
Saturday morning I wake up bye an annoying sound from the phone which got me cranky as I was having a good sleep. Still half asleep I struggle to reach the phone on my night stand. After three rings I answer it.
"Ugh...he.llo?" I said as my voice sounded all rusty.
"Hey Benito! What's crackin'?" It was Lucia.
"Wha...why you calling so damn early?" I said.
"Early? Ben it's 11:40. Listen you gotta come shopping with me today I gotta buy an outfit."
"Um..sorry I got plans." I said as sat up.
"Plans! With who....what your chillin' with Alex?..heheheheh." she said. I got pissed at that.
"Fuck you bitch. Don't say that name!"
"God I'm just joking anyways, well is it gonna be all day?" she said. I thought for a moment. I was gonna chill with Hector later in the even. I would probably say ok to her as she might of come over to my house and drag my ass out of bed.
"Come on let's go."
"Okay what time."
I was gonna meet Lucia at 2 at the mall to help her pick out an outfit. Well I'm not a good stylist but hey you always find something that works. I got out of bed to go take a shower. After I was done getting ready I went downstairs to grab something to eat. I saw my mother reading on the dinner table and said hi to her as I opened the fridge. I looked outside the window to see a beautiful sunny day. It was a good day to get out of the house and just enjoy the weather. Thinking about Hector made me smile as I was happy to be with him. But boy, was it bad to have Alex arrive at my house when Hector was there. I was smiling but then stopped as my mother spoke to me.
"Hey, um...there's a message on the phone for you." she said as she was still looking at her book.
"Oh really from who?"
"I don't know I think it's a friend of yours." she said. I got focused on what the message could be. I stopped what I was doing and went towards the phone in the living room. As I was walking towards the phone I got startle as I heard a voice in my head. I'm not sure what it was but the voice mumbled something like 'I will always'. I shook my head as thinking it was nothing then I picked up the phone and checked the message. The operator said you have one saved message. I pressed 1 to check it and listened.
"sigh Ben. Ben listen it's me Alex. I just called you to tell you well...um... sigh Ben I'm sorry for hurting you. Please don't hate me. I wish we never went to that party me and you still could of been..well you know..heh. Even if you do hate me I still care about you and I'm really truly sorry. I hope your happy with the way things are now so....bye..."
After listening to that message I pressed number 7 to delete it and hung up the phone. I put my elbow on my knee and rested my chin on my hand and began to think about Alex. ' Alex I don't hate you' I said in my head. This was much deeper then I thought. He really was sorry and I just let him go. Man, my mind was now caught between to guys, one that likes me and one that....well....that I love. I didn't know what to do. Man, I would give anything to go back in time and change the past but I can't do that. I put my hands on my forehead and said to myself, 'oh Alex....I love you too'.
It was time for me to go. I needed to talk with someone, I needed to get my mind straight. I left the house in a hurry to catch the bus. When I got to the mall there were a lot of people. It's always like a zoo in a mall and there's always different types of people. I usually go to a mall to go window shopping but really not buying anything. The people that you see all the time in malls are mall rats and people who pretend to have money. But seriously shopping for clothes is exhausting. When I got inside the mall I head straight towards the food court where I would meet up with Lucia. When I got there I saw Lucia sitting down talking on her cell phone. She had her back towards me so I sneaked up to her and scared her.
"Yo!!" I said as I poked her stomach.
"Oh my god! Heheheh hey!" she said as she got up and hugged me.
"I thought you were never gonna show up." she said.
"Yeah well I could of made you wait longer but I didn't want to be mean. heheheheh." I said as she gave me a dirty look and punched me in the stomach.
"Well let's go!" she said and then we were off to shop. We looked at many different stores that had really good clothes but Lucia was being very picking. She wanted the perfect outfit. We go into sirens, into mexx, into dynamite, and on and on. My feet were hurting from standing to much and walking.
"Damn girl don't you like anything?!" I said.
"Well I haven't found anything really nice. Besides we haven't been everywhere."
"Ugh come on. Look let's try Le chateau. They have really stylish cloth there." I said. I was getting sick of clothing stores. We went into le chateau and saw some relief. I saw Lucia eyes widen as we stepped into the stores. She ran towards something that she liked.
"Ay dios mio! This is really cute!" she said as she was excited. We looked around to see very nice things. She liked the dresses that they had and all this different types of tops.
"So are you gonna finally get something?" I said.
"Yeah I guess let's try out." she said and with that she grabbed some clothes and went into the changing room.
After a while, she finally decides on something. She bought a floral wrap top that was all flowery and a pair of pin striped pants that of course when see tried it on it made her but look big. Not that I liked it though. Anyway, she had finally got something to satisfy her and we left the store.
"Oh..um...I'm hungry. Let's go get something to eat." I said.
"No we're not done."
"Oh come on. After we eat." I said and grabbed her arm and dragged her to the food court.
When we get there and we decide on A&W. We get our food and sat on a 4 seat table.
"So how's life?" she asked as she got comfortable.
"Um...heh..I guess interesting." I said as I looked down and slightly giggling.
She looked at me for a moment and then, "so how are things with you and Alex? Are you guys chill now?"
"Listen..um...." I said while trying to come up with something to say.
"Well you know what happened." said Lucia.
"What?"
"Alex came up to me one day and he asked about you." she said.
I rolled my eyes, "oh what did he say? That he's sorry."
She smiled, "hehehe...and well...that he loves you." she said. I stopped and then though for a moment. What is love? I don't understand how Alex loves me. Heh..it's funny but I keep having dreams about him. Dreams about that we're together so happy and how many times he tells me that he loves me and I always have roses in my dreams. Much like this one dream I had where Alex and I were in a pool. It was night time and while we were in the pool there were hundreds of rose petals all over the surface. Then we both dove down inside and as we reached each other we kissed and swirled around while kissing. Oh so romantic but it was only a dream. I think I was falling......
"Ben!!" said Lucia as she woke me up from my daydream.
"Oh! Sorry I was out for a sec."
"What were you thinking about?" she asked.
"Nothing." I said and we continued eating. It was silent for a moment. Then I had this urge to say something to Lucia.
"Uh...um hey ..can I ask you something?" I said.
"Sure." she said as she stopped eating to listen to me.
"Have you ever been in love?"
"Me...well no but I guess I know what it is." she said.
"Well then what is love or..what you think is?"
"I think love is unconditional. It doesn't matter who you are or what your are. If someone really loves you it's because of you and not how good looking you are or if your popular or whatever. But if you are IN love with someone well...that's a whole different level." she said.
I didn't know what to say to that but that was so true. I was thinking, does Alex really love? I had to ask.
"So does that mean that...." I said but couldn't finish the sentence.
Ben. Alex does love you. I know he messed up but it was Brenda's fault. Besides he said he was sorry like how many times." she said.
"Ugh..I know I know. He left me a message on the phone saying all of that and wishing me that I was happy with....um...well...sigh" I said. I was gonna tell that I'm with Hector.
"Lucia I'm caught up between two guys." I said as I was rubbing my head.
"Huh. What you mean two guys?" she said getting all concerned.
"Hehehe..I'm dating Hector." I said. I looked at her and saw her mouth completely drop.
"WHAT?!" she raised her voice.
"I said...."
"I heard what you said. With Hector? Your dating your enemy's brother. You know that if Brenda finds out your gonna have problems." said Lucia. Frankly I didn't give of shit if that nasty bitch found out.
"So!! She decided to fuck with what's mine. So I'm gonna make her really hate me." I said.
"Ben! Listen as your friend I think you should end this with Hector he's not good."
"What the fuck are you talking about?!!" I said as I got pissed.
"I'm sorry Ben but I just have a bad feeling about this. Really I do." she said. What was so bad about Hector. Now Lucia was saying that he's bad news and that it'll only lead me to more pain.
"What, you think I'm afraid of Brenda?! She took Alex away that is not gonna happen again with Hector. He's really nice to me and he likes me and I like him." I said. I was mad now and confused again.
"Ben listen to me. You haven't lost Alex your just pushing him away. If he didn't love you he wouldn't of cared so much to tell you that he's sorry or even leave you a message on the phone."
"But he said that he wasn't gay. Right when I was bitching at Brenda. Do you how much that fucking hurt." I said as I was starting to get emotional. I was getting mad at Lucia for no reason.
"That wasn't true I know that. He just didn't want problems with Brenda. But Ben can't you see...he fucking loves you. You should be with him and not with Hector." said Lucia.
I didn't know what to say to that. I was very confused but I know what I was feeling inside. How can Hector be bad? It's funny, this kind of seem the other way around. Hector taking me away from Alex and Alex getting all mad. Oh god help me.
"Ben. Look into my eyes....tell me that you don't love him." said Lucia.
"I can't say that."
Why?" she said.
I started to run tears in my eyes. My chest began to hurt, "sigh because...sigh because I fucking love him. Oh what am I supposed to do?!" I said I as began to cry quietly.
She came around and sat beside me and put a hand on my shoulder.
"Ben don't cry. You need to go to him and be with him. Ben it's fate. You guys are meant to be together. Don't let that go." she said as she rubbed my back.
We continued to talk and then after went around to buy shoes. My talk with Lucia really made think a lot and I had to do something. The afternoon flew by and I had to go home. Saying good bye to Lucia I left the mall and headed home. When I was on the bus, I stared out the window and as looking through the window I saw Alex's face. When I saw his face I touched the window but then he disappeared. It felt so quiet on the bus. I completely heard nothing.
When I got home I went straight to my room. When I got there I collapsed on my bed and began to think about Alex. I was beginning to realize who I should be with. But why were people telling me that Hector was no good. It's sounded like if he was a bad person. I didn't believe it. I looked out the window to see it raining. Every time I'm upset it rains and I start to feel cold and get a little pain on my lower back. All of this was making me tired so after I awhile I feel asleep.
"Ben?....Ben wake up....it's me Alex." said Alex as he was trying to wake me up.
"Ughh...ooh...Alex? What are you doing here?" I said in a tired voice.
"Hehehe..your so cute. Come on let's go!" he said.
"Wha...go where?" I said but he didn't respond. It was dead silent for a moment as we looked at each other. Then I heard a voice saying, ' tell me you love me and I'll shall never let you go'. After that Alex disappeared. I closed my eyes and then.........
I woke up. The phone was ringing. The sound woke me up as my head was hurting. My mouth was dry because sometimes I sleep with my mouth opened which makes it very hard to swallow. I picked up the phone and answered it.
"Alex uh..um..I mean ..hello?"
"Hey how you doing?" It was Hector.
"Oh...oh hey. I'm good I just woke up hehe." I said. Every time I wake up I get confused as to where I am and what I'm doing. I can think straight when I wake up.
"So we still up for tonight?" he said. When he asked me that everything came back in my head.
"Oh uh..um...yeah listen I can't chill with you today." I said and feeling nervous.
"Oh how come?"
"I gotta do something important and it's gonna take awhile so ...sorry." I said.
"It's ok. But what could be more important then being with me? Hehehe." he said. I didn't know what to say to that. I got nervous. I said in my mind, 'Alex is more important'.
"It's just something I gotta do but we can hang out tomorrow if you want."
"Na..I can't tomorrow I'll be busy." he said. I was feeling bad for ditching him for something I gotta do but want I need to do means a lot.
"Okay well I'll see you on Monday then." I said.
"Uh..ok..bye."
"Bye." I said and then hung up. Shit that was weird.
Okay so what I needed to do. Well I needed to see Alex. I got up from my bed and went to the washroom. After I was done using the washroom I came back into my room and began to put my jacket on and my shoes. It was raining so needed protection. I stopped to look at my rose on my night stand. I picked it up and looked closely at it. This is it ....I'm not gonna let you go. I put it back in the vase and left my room. When I got downstairs my mom saw me.
"Hey where you going?" she said.
"I'm going out to see a friend."
"Well it's pouring outside." she said. I looked out the window and it was raining like a bitch. I rolled my eyes and looked at my mom.
"Well I'm not gonna be outside im gonna go inside a place."
"Well take me umbrella." she said.
I rolled my eyes, "uh no it's all flowery. I'm fine with my jacket and besides I'm not going far." I said and with that I walked out.
Alex's house was just down the street. Ain't it funny, we close to each other. Anyway, I decided to walk not minding the rain because I needed to think of what to say to him. The rain was cold and it was a little windy. Walking down the street felt like forever. I felt strange because while I was heading to his house I felt like something bad was going to happen. I didn't even know if he was gonna be there but I needed to see him. After a while I turned left and headed into a neighborhood. It was dark and I only saw the street lights. Walking by about a dozen town houses I started to notice his house. My heart started beating faster as I got closer. I was practically soaking in rain. I wiped my forehead with my hand and then rubbed the wetness off my jacket. I was almost there. Then I heard I a voice that made me stop. The voice called out my name. I didn't know what to think. Was I going crazy or that I needed to see a doctor. Despite what I heard I continued walking. I finally reached his house. I was standing on his front yard about 5 meters away. I just stood there staring at the front door.
I began to walk towards the door slowly. Every step I took was every breath I let out. I was thinking to myself what was I doing. I couldn't believe what I was doing. I got to his front steps and walked up. As I reached up I stood right in front of his door. I touched the middle of my chest and felt my heart beat. I took a few minutes to think but then I couldn't wait any longer. I moved my hand to reached the door bell and touched it with my finger but didn't press it. I exhaled once but before I could press it.....
"Ben." I heard my name. I froze but then after a second I turned around and it was Alex.
"What you doin' here?" he said. It was silent for a minute as I stood there looking at him. I was holding an umbrella.
"Alex...um....I came to...see...you." I said in a nervous tone. It was silent again. Then he touched my face on the side and looked at me while looked at him. It was a moment where everything disappeared it was only me and him. He moved in slowly to kiss me. I was gonna let him but then I thought came into my head.
"Oh I can't do this!" I said. I choked I couldn't talk to him. I moved past him and began to walk away.
"No BEN!" said Alex as he came after me. He dropped his umbrella and came after me. I was running but then he was running after me. He caught up to me and grabbed me by the arm. He forcefully turned me around.
"Ben why do you keep running away?!" he said. We both were in the rain at night and all wet. I began to create tears in my eyes but he could see that when my face was all wet.
"I can't do this!! Alex I miss you so much why does shit happen like this?!" I said as I began to cry.
"Ben don't walk away from me. I need you and I can't let you!"
"I feel so hurt and so torn apart. Why did you say that you weren't gay when I was confronting Brenda huh?!" I said as I was crying and getting mad at the same time.
"Ben I'm so sorry! I didn't know what to say but Ben please listen to me. One night I was thinking about all of this and I couldn't stop thinking about you. I felt so bad for hurting you and you know that I would never do that to you. Ben I realized that I love you. I love you so much doesn't that mean anything to you!"
"Then why are you acting like nothing happened when your around her. Can't you fucking see that she took you away from me." I said.
"She didn't take me away from you. Ben can't you see that I need you, you're the only one for me." he said as he began to cry. I stood there watching him cry. I what I was feeling completely changed. I felt his pain and his love for me.
"Ben please don't leave me." he said as he came close to me and embraced me. He began to cry even more on my shoulder. I held my arms around his back.
"Alex I love you too." I said and he immediately stopped crying.
"What?" he said.
"I love you and..um....I'm falling in love with you. You're the one for me." I said. He smiled. We looked at each other in our embrace. He moved in closer to kiss me.
"Wait. We're outside won't people see us." I said.
"I don't care Ben let them see. I'm not letting you go." he said and with that we kissed passionately in the rain. He grabbed me tighter and we kissed me even more. Then we let go of each other and he held my hand as we walked back to his house. Okay now he was mine. But how was I gonna break it to Hector and who was going to get all mad. Well those thing did matter at the moment. There's this saying , 'to love is nothing, to be loved is something, but to love and to be loved is everything'.
Okay that's chapter 7. Tell me what you thought. I like feedback. And thank you to all my fans you guys are great.