SELF-EXPLORATION
June, 1989
O.K., so I'm only 15. I've looked in the mirror at myself - naked - and I like what I see. I'm 5'10" tall, white, 155 pounds, pronounced muscles, smooth and unblemished skin. Being sort of skinny, my bones show in some places - you can easily see my ribs. My eyes are almost black in color and I have sandy blonde hair.
The rest of my body is hairless except for a small patch around my cock which I like to keep trimmed. My nipples are medium sized, more pink than red but they get darker when I get turned on. My butt is sort of small, but firm and smooth. My asshole is pink and puckered like most guys', but it's hairless too - I keep it that way with my electric shaver. My balls are large compared with other guys I look at - they're full and hang down about 4" from the base of my cock. I keep them smooth by shaving them about once a week, too.
And my cock? My cock is 4" long when it's limp and it'll grow to 7" when I get excited. I'm circumsized. There are no ugly veins that pop up when I get a hard-on - it stays pretty smooth and I like that. And boy, can it get hard. All I have to do is stand in front of my full length mirror and start to strip. It's hard before I get my jockeys off. I guess because I like to see myself naked and all, and because I know how to make myself feel good when I get in the mood to have a session with myself and the mirror.
I usually dress in a tee-shirt, no undershirt, jeans, socks, and Reeboks. I wear a gold chain around my neck, too. My underwear is always jockey briefs, but I wear different colors. My favorite is yellow with white trim. They look the best on my tanned body. I love to be tan, and I stay that way by laying outside in the sun whenever I can. We have a pool in the back yard that's surrounded by a privacy fence. Mom, Dad, and Sis work so I can be outside in the nude when they're not home and no one knows. So I don't have any pale area around my cock and my butt - I've got an even tan ALL over. And it always feels great to lay in the sun and let it shine so warm on my cock and balls. Sometimes I'll get a hard-on just by feeling that warmth and knowing that I'm naked just a few feet away from the neighbors. It's like I've got a secret and it sort of excites me.
I started to explore my own body when I was twelve. I didn't know why, but it really felt good when I rubbed my dick and fondled my balls. I've come a long way in the last three years to bring my self-exploration to be what I consider a fine art.
When I get in the mood I close and lock the door to my room so Mom, Dad, or Sis can't come in by surprise. I'll turn on some music and then turn on all the lights so it's nice and bright. Then I walk in front of my mirror and just stand there for a second. The Reeboks come off first, slowly, and then my socks. I love to walk around in bare feet and I like to see my bare feet poking out from underneath my jeans.
Then it's time to pull off my shirt - slowly, again - and toss it out of the way. Then I stand there and check out my chest, my abdomen, my waist, my bellybutton, and my back. I like what I see. I feel my dick start to grow. I rub my hands over my chest and abdomen and pinch my nipples.
Then I unfasten the button on my jeans and slowly pull down my zipper. I don't wear a belt. Then I pull just one corner of my jeans down a little to expose a little of the front of my underwear. I hold this pose for a minute and I usually start getting excited for real by now. Then I pull the other corner of my jeans down so the whole front of my underwear is showing. My right hand goes down to my bulge in my jockeys and starts to rub it. My cock gets harder with this action and stretches my underwear out so it looks like a little tent with my tent pole underneath. About this time I stop to let my shaft cool off a little and relax. I notice some pre-cum juice oozing through my underwear. I touch my finger to the drop and pull it to my lips. A long string of clear liquid connects my lips to the tip of my jockey- covered dick. My tongue detects a salty, creamy presence.
Then I put my hands on my butt between my jeans and my underwear so I can slide my jeans off. They drop to the floor around my ankles and I step out of them and kick them out of the way. Now I'm standing there in just my briefs. I can see more pre-cum juice has appeared on the material at the tip of my cock. I taste it again. I take in a deep breath to make my abdomen even flatter and to make my pecks more pronounced. I flex all my muscles and admire the poses I make for myself.
Then I tease myself by inserting the index fingers of both hands in the elastic waistband of my underwear and circle around my waist and back. And finally, when I can't stand it anymore, I slide my briefs from over my cock and my butt so they fall to my feet. I step out of them and pick them up with my toes. I take them in my hand and put them to my nose and take a long, deep sniff. I decide I smell good and am proud of how clean I keep myself. I throw them out of the way.
Sometimes I will take a few poloroids of myself in different stages of my session, capturing different poses from different angles in the mirror. I keep them in an album that I keep locked in a drawer. I've got dozens of them that I like to go through every once in awhile. I have showed my album to a friend or two from school - guys only - who have started their own photo albums like mine. We have contests to see who can come up with the most interesting shots. We get together sometimes and take pictures of each other, too. But that's for another story. Back to my session.
My cock is now fully erect. I leave my mirror and walk to my bed, watching my dick bob back and forth as I walk and feeling my freed balls sway and bounce against my thighs. I lay down on the bed with my head on my pillow and do a semi-complete back rollover so that my feet are on the headboard and my shaft is staring me in the face. I am limber enough so that I can suck myself. This takes practice and you have to do this often so that you can stay this limber. And I do. I can get about half of my dick into my mouth, but that's all. My balls hang down and touch my nose when I go down on myself. I can taste my pre-cum juice real good now and I suck my dick dry. I do this for only three or four minutes because my neck starts to hurt and I don't want to cum yet anyhow. I decide again that I taste good.
Now it's time to play with my asshole. I get off the bed and go back to my mirror and lay down on the floor. My butt is right in front of the mirror and my knees are drawn up to my chest. I look down past my stomach and my dick into the mirror and I see my hairless ass. I spread my cheeks to reveal my pink hole and I get even more turned on. I spit a big glob of saliva onto my fingers and rub it onto my asshole. Then I use my middle finger to rub my spit all around its outside. I'm always amazed at how soft it is. Then I poke my spit lubricated finger into my ass. I go slowly so I cause no pain. I concentrate on relaxing my butt hole muscle so my finger can go in easily. It's always nice and warm in my butt. I work my finger around and around. I find my prostate gland and massage it for a couple of minutes. This really gets my pre-cum juice flowing and by the time I quit, I've got clear liquid all over my abdomen. It glistens in the light. I take my left hand and rub my balls and my cock while I massage my prostate. I almost lose it at this point but stop before cumming. I leave my finger in my ass and stand up. I move my finger in and out, in and out until my wrist gets tired, then I remove my finger and rub the pre-cum juice on my abdomen all over my torso.
I'm lucky 'cause I've got my own bathroom as part of my own room. I don't have to go out into the hall to use the john. I decide that I have to take a piss. I let my dick relax so that it gets soft. I go into my bathroom and lay down in the tub. I relax some more. Pretty soon I feel the tension in my bladder increase and I know I'm about to pee. I hold my cock so I can watch my piss come out of its slit and I direct my pee to flow over my stomach and my chest. I hold my dick up so that I'm peeing a one foot fountain straight up and my pee comes down and soaks my cock, my balls and my pubic hair. I feel it drip into the crack of my ass and into the tub. It feels good and warm. I like to piss on myself - it turns me on - and by the time I've emptied my bladder I'm getting hard again. Then I stand up, flip on the shower, and rinse myself off. I lather up in soap suds from neck to toes and play with my dick with soapy hands for a few minutes before a final rinse. Then I towel myself dry except for my crotch. I get my hair dryer, plug it in and blow dry my pubes. The warm air feels great on my cock, balls, and asshole.
By this time I want to cum so bad I can hardly stand it. It's time to get my ass beads. I've got these beads that are only about a half inch in diameter - five of 'em - on a string an inch apart. The string is actually about two feet long, so the beads are all toward one end. I get a tube of K.Y. Jelly from my drawer and grease up those beads real good. I bend over and insert all five beads up my ass. Now I stand up and I've got my ass beads in place with the rest of the string hanging out of my asshole. It feels terrific and my cock is throbbing in anticipation of my orgasm.
Then I get an old newspaper from under my bed and spread it out on the floor in front of my mirror so it covers about a five foot length. I have a contest with myself to see how far I can shoot my wad and I want to shoot as far as I can down the length of the paper on the floor. My record is 4' 8".
Now it's finally time. I position myself at the edge of the paper, grab the string coming out of my butt with my left hand, grab my swollen dick with my right hand, and check out the scene in the mirror. All is set. I begin to pump my rod, very slowly at first. God, does it feel good! Then a little faster. My knees begin to feel a little weak and I bend them a little. I pump a little faster still. I let my mind settle on nothing but the terrific feeling in my cock and balls. Now, after about two minutes, I start beating my dick real fast. I'm gonna cum. I'm gonna cum. I can't hold back any more. I feel my wad starting to rise out of my balls. I pull the string out of my ass with a quick, steady motion. I explode!
The first wave of my cum shoots like a geyser from my cock. Then another, and another, and another, and still another. It seems like it might not end - but then it finally does, and a few drops of my jizsm fall onto my feet. I am weak, totally spent. My tool begins to become soft. I am sweating all over. My skin shines in the lights.
I look at my dick which is limp now. There is a final drop of my cum that clings to its tip. I retrieve the white liquid onto my index finger and bring it to my mouth. I taste it and it is good. I am satisfied with my session.
After I regain my strength I go to the newspaper to measure my shooting distance. It's 4'1" this time. Not a record, but not bad, either. I wad up the newspaper in preparation for its being carried to the garage garbage cans. I clean and put away my beads and K.Y. Jelly and finally gather my clothes from around the room. But I don't get dressed yet. I like being naked. I like to look at my body, explore it inside and outside, and to explore all its products.
I'm tired. I lay down on the bed for a short rest. I stare at my cock nestled in my young brown pubic hair. I wonder what sort of exploration I will do tomorrow.
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