Shawn

SHAWN By Lee Mariner March 2002

DISCLAIMER: This is a gay fictional fantasy about a homosexual relationship between two young gay men. IF YOU ARE NOT OF LEGAL AGE TO BE READING THIS MATERIAL OR YOU DO NOT APPROVE OF SUCH MATERIAL, PLEASE LEAVE.

There is no relationship intended between the characters depicted and any person living or deceased.

ENGAGING IN UNPROTECTED SEX MAY LEAD TO LIFE THREATENING CONSEQUENCES, USE PROTECTION AT ALL TIMES.

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Chapter #3

I don't know what the time was when I awoke, my cock hard as steel. The urgent and painful need to empty my bladder is what woke me up and Shawn snuggling closer. Moving to extract my arm from under his head, he moved and murmured something unintelligible but I had to get to the bathroom or piss the bed. I managed to roll out of the queen size bed and almost ran into the bathroom groaning in relief as a strong stream of urine poured into the commode feeling my groin muscles relaxing and my cock slowly softening from the pressure. Milking my cock down draining the last dribbling drops I was suddenly surprised.

"Do you need help with that?"

"Damn Shawn, you scared the shit out of me. I thought you were still asleep."

Shawn walked through the door way with his half hard cock swaying from side to side as he moved alongside of me. Putting his arm around my waist he leaned in and kissed me gently.

"I was until you got out of bed. Since you woke me, figured might as well take a piss with you. Do you always look so gorgeous in the mornings?"

"No more then you do. "

I kissed him gently taking his cock in my hand and aiming its thick length at the commode while he pissed. His mouth tasted delicious even though we had not brushed our teeth. His hand running up and down my spine sent shivers through me and my cock had hardened but not from needing to piss. I could feel the sharp tingles running through my groin spreading over me. Shawn's touch was like fire as his fingers kneaded my back muscles relaxing me. Slowly milking his cock I could feel it swelling, hardening as he kissed me and took my cock in his hand.

Turning slightly Shawn lowered the commode lid and kissed my hardening tits, his lips and tongue sending quivering waves flowing through me. As he sat on the commode, I ran my hands over his back and into his luxuriant hair groaning as his lips surrounded the head of my cock.

"Ok Shawn baby take it."

I arched my back shoving my cock deeper into his mouth. The feeling of his hot wet mouth sent fire through me and bright lights exploded in my head. "Take it Shawn, suck me. Drain me, drink the cream in my nuts."

I was in a total encompassing fog of ecstasy as Shawn picked me up effortlessly and carried me into the bedroom laying me down. My mind was numbed by the desire he had generated within me. I felt him lay beside me and then his huge cock pressed against my lips. I opened my lips and felt him enter and the faint taste of urine as he slid down my throat in one smooth pulsing motion.

"Suck it with me Kev. Lets cum together. Suck on my cock baby. Fuck my mouth drive it deep Kev."

We both fell into a mutual driving tempo and I could feel Shawn sucking my cock with the power of his mouth gripping me tight. I gripped him and placed my hand over the crack of his ass pushing him in tighter as he drove his cock deep with strong piston drive. Wave after wave of lusting desire swept over me as I felt his cock thicken and stretch even deeper suddenly exploding sending thick streams of his cum down my throat as I exploded my nuts drawn tight into my groin send my cum deep into his throat. Muscles tightened and our backs arched shoving meat tight into each other's mouths. I sucked and sucked Shawn's softening cock feeling my cock being stripped by his lips squeezing as I slowly softened. The sensations were driving me crazy and I let his cock fall from my mouth.

"Oh my god Shawn, I can't take anymore." He continued holding me his tongue driving me into frenzy until I pulled my cock from his mouth. "

"Man Shawn, are you always that hungry in the morning? I felt like I was dieing the way you sucked me."

He didn't say anything but twisted around and drove his tongue into my mouth penetrating deep twisting and touching. I was gasping for breath when he relaxed and hovered over me his dark brown eyes gleaming.

"I want to wake you every morning sucking your cock Kevin. I want you too know how I feel about you. I don't love you YET!!! I love sex and sex with you is fantastic. Sex is sex but some people make it feel like they are giving you something other then sex, not just sucking or fucking and then when you get your rocks off that's it. I want you too feel that I am giving you something other then the cream in my nuts or my cock up your ass. I want you to feel that I am giving you something of me and I hope you will feel the same way I do. Does that make sense to you? "

I lay there underneath Shawn I could feel much of what he was saying. There was something inside of me that was reaching out but still not quite ready. Everything I had wanted to hear was there and I believed him but there was that big BUT nagging at my mind. I knew what the big BUT was and it scared me. I'd had a couple of guys, damn good-looking ones latch on and then suddenly they needed money for this or they needed money for that. There was that big BUT. I didn't know how I was going to tell the difference. I didn't want to spend the rest of my life going from one gold digger to the next. Money was nice but it could be a curse.

"Let me sit up Shawn. This is a hell of a time to be discussing this but we have plenty of time. You keep looking at me like that though and we will never get out of bed. Do you have any idea how beautiful your eyes are? It's like you can see right through me."

"Sorry Kev. I didn't mean to stare but you are pretty easy on the eyes yourself even though you keep thinking you aren't. I didn't mean to blurt this out but something inside said I had to get it out while I was thinking about it."

Pushing myself up a little further on the bed, I pulled the sheets up around my waist. Shawn started to get in beside me and I asked him not too.

"Just pull the sheet up around you Shawn. You're distracting enough without sitting there naked. "

"You are too in case you don't know it. Okay if I scoot up a little closer?"

I watched him closely as he shifted position on the bed. Every muscle in his magnificent body rippled as he moved. Biceps flexed, chest muscles tightened his pectorals thickening as he leaned forward and pulled the sheet a round his waist. If any man was built to haunt someone, Shawn was that man. His comments ran through my head again and I could almost feel an aura of absolute sincerity radiate from him as he looked at me.

"I have never met anyone like you Shawn. I've been in bed with a few men since I was 15 but you are different. When you have touched me it's like my mind goes numb, my body melts. I feel every nerve tingling as you hold me and kiss me. No one has ever made me really feel like that. Sex with you is fantastic but it is not just sex, it feels like a bond is being built between us and I don't want to let you go. Do I love you? I don't know Shawn but I do know I have special feelings growing inside of me for you. Could I have sex with you again, right now, yes I could. That's not what it's about Shawn. I need someone that wants me for me and build a future with. Are we going to do that? I don't know if we will but I don't want to lose you until we find out or at least try. "

We sat close to each other for a long time. A big lump was in my throat and I felt like I wanted to bawl and have him hold me but we just looked at each other.

Shawn reached out for my hand and looked at me with soft brown eyes.

"Okay if I hold you now?"

Shawn made me feel like my world would begin with him as I melted into his arms feeling his strong broad chest under my cheek. It was as if he was telling me I was safe and always would be in his arms. The tears I had been fighting broke and streamed down my cheeks as his hand ran over my back soothing me. It was like I was a little boy again when my grandfather held me in his arms. I felt the same warmth and love I felt then as I drifted off in Shawn's arms. * * * * * *

A soft shaking of my shoulder and a loud knock on the room door woke me still in Shawn's arms.

"We better see who that is Kevin, probably someone wanting to clean the room, it's past 10o'clock. "

"You've been holding me all this time?"

"Yep, sure have. You going to answer the door?"

I jumped up and looking through the peephole, it was the maid.

"Yes?"

"Housekeeping sir, we'd like to clean the room."

"Can you come back in half an hour or so? We should be out by then."

"Just hang the sign on the door when you leave sir. Sorry to have bothered you."

We showered quickly, shaved and dressed. Looked around the room for any missed items and left hanging the sign on the door.

"How about a quick breakfast before we hit the road? I'm a little hungry."

"Sure Kev. Where we headed for?"

"Lake George Holiday Inn. We can be there this evening. You go on in the restaurant while I check us out."

As Shawn walking into the restaurant I went over to the front desk and handed my key card to the clerk.

"One day Mr. Karper? Is there anything else we can do for you?"

"One thing yes. Is the Marriott on the national reservation system? "

"Yes sir, we are.""

"Would you check and see if a room or suite is available in the Holiday Inn in Lake George, N.Y.? If there is confirm one for me for later today."

"Were you going in for breakfast Mr. Karper? I can check this out for you while you are, save you a little time. I'm sure they will have something at this time of the year what with travelers heading home after their vacations. People start leaving Lake George at this time so their kids can get ready for school. They should start posting their vacancies on the system about now."

"Okay, thanks."

Shawn had taken a two-person table by the window and was looking over the menu as I walked up.

"Anything good on there.

"Plenty if you don't mind stuffing yourself with fat. I think I will have the Eggs Benedict and fruit without the potatoes. The eggs are pouched and that cuts down on the fat. Milk to drink, 2% if they have it. "

"That sounds good for me as well. The front desk is making our reservations in Lake George for us."

"Shawn, I didn't mean to order you around a little while ago. I should have asked you to join me in the restaurant not told you. I'm sorry, it's just habit."

"I hope you aren't going to be apologizing for every mistake you make from now on Kev. Hell, I'll probably make more then my share. Which way we heading when we leave Hartford? I'm lost up this way when you get off I95."

"Let's double check the roadmaps after we eat. I want to drive through the mountains. I usually take the Northway when I drive to Vermont. Sometimes I drop down on 9N off of I87 and catch the ferry across the lake to Burlington and then on in too Montpelier."

"You know more about it then I do so lead on, I'm game if you are."

We had gotten up a little late so breakfast was a little more hurried then we would have wished it were. Finishing up, I dropped $25 on the table as we left. Walking back to the front desk, I saw they had brought the Blazer up for us and it had been washed.

"Hey Kev, they washed the Blazer last night or this morning. Did you tell them to have it done?"

"No, but it's okay. You want to make sure all of our luggage is in while I finish at the front desk?"

"Sure, see you there."

I watched Shawn for a second marveling at how fresh he seemed and the athletic grace in his movements. He was like a golden cat moving with assurance in every step, brimming with energy.

"I hope your breakfast was satisfactory Mr. Karper, I have your reservations at the Holiday Inn as you requested. I used your Visa Debit information for confirmation; I hope that was all right. I took the liberty of checking on our house in Lake George and they can accommodate you if you wish at a slightly lesser rate."

"Marriott's are nice and I usually stay in one. I'm sorry but I'm used to the Holiday Inn in Lake George. Thanks anyway."

"My pleasure Mr. Karper, another time maybe. Have a safe trip and thanks for staying with us."

Shawn was sitting in the passenger seat as I slid behind the wheel. It was starting to warm up and he had removed his T-shirt, his smooth unblemished golden chest rising and falling as he breathed in deep lung filling draughts. I had never seen anyone so self confident and assured as he was in his capabilities and appearance. His brown eyes glittered as he watched me get into the truck.

"You keep that up and we won't get out of the motel parking lot."

He just sat there with an impish smile playing at the corners of his mouth. I stripped my shirt off throwing it in the back seat as I put the Blazer in gear.

"That's better then the scenery around here Kev."

Shawn chuckled as I tooled out of the parking lot heading for I91 North for Springfield. I knew that he was only wearing a pair of athletic shorts; we both had left our jockeys off. I frankly prefer not driving with under-clothes; it's a lot more comfortable. After a few miles jockeys start bunching up and the elastic bands in the leg opening will cut off circulation. Boxers do much the same thing so they are not much better.

The driving time from Hartford to Springfield where I wanted to connect with I90 was about 3 hrs. US 6 through Hartford were only a few blocks from the motel and then Exit 51 would swing us up on I91. The weather was warm but not hot so we drove with the windows open. Shawn unsnapped his shorts and unzipped revealing his almost chocolate brown pubic hair with the tantalizing dark streak from his navel. He stretched his legs out and leaned his head on the back of the seat with his eyes closed and his arm resting on the door window with his left thumb hooked in the waistband of his loosened shorts. I was still fascinated by the beauty of his broad sculpted chest rising and falling as he breathed. The thickness of his cock was clearly defined lying alongside his inner thigh. The light brown hair on his calves and upper thighs enhanced the perfect symmetry of his body.

"Shawn. If you drift off, I'll wake you when we reach I90. You can take over then if you want until we reach I87 in New York or you can drive on into Lake George. That's about 3hrs each in driving time."

"If its okay with you, I'll drive as far as 87 and then you can take it on into Lake George. You know more about it then I do. Why don't you unsnap your shorts and get comfortable? Here, let me do it, you keep both hands on the wheel."

I sucked in my gut as Shawn unsnapped my shorts and slowly pulled my zipper down. He scooted a little closer and tangled his fingers in the thick blond pubic hair raking his fingers back and forth across the base of my cock. I could feel it thickening and stretching down along my inner thigh. He kept playing with the base of my cock and pulling gently on the hairs surrounding it. Moving almost hip to hip he ran his hand up over my chest and tickled my tits that were instantly hard at his touch. He wasn't being sexual just playing with me and he knew how it excited me.

I glanced down at his crotch and his cock was extended with the head peeking from under the leg of his shorts. He laid his head on my shoulder and I was thankful for the darkened windows but then I thought, "what the hell, why not?" His head rested on my shoulder with his left arm around my shoulders his other hand slowly moving up and down my chest following the lines of each muscle but always ending at the base of my aching cock. I drove enjoying the feeling of being loved or at least I thought it was love, hoped it was.

"You don't know just how beautiful your body is do you Kev? Do you really know how you feel to me lying in my arms? Your skin feels like smooth satin when I run my hands over you. Every muscle is solid and thick but not bulging. The softness of the hair in your crotch is like touching silk thread."

"Do you always get this sexy when someone can't respond Shawn? I'm driving and you're making me hot as hell."

"No I don't Kev, I've never had sex in a car before you. I like feeling you. Just looking at you turns me on and no one has ever done that. "

"Well, what you are doing right now has me turned on and this is the wrong time and place and doesn't give me much of a chance to tell you how I feel."

I flipped the right turn signal on, his head still on my shoulder. Exit 51 was just ahead and he lay there as I swung the Blazer up on 91 north setting the cruise control at 65. Shawn's right hand rested in my lap his fingers gently moving in the hair at the base of my still hard cock. I flipped the steering wheel column up and held it loosely in my hands as the Blazer accelerated. Shawn lifted his head and sat quietly for a moment or so and in the mirror I could see he was thinking as he removed his hand from my lap and slid back a little.

"Kevin, how do you feel about me? Not the body part but how do you feel about me, who I am? Do you like me or just the sex?"

We were quickly leaving the industrial area of Hartford into the suburbs. Rows of look alike houses sped by as I was trying to understand what Shawn had just asked me. My cock had softened but was still half hard and I could see he was the same way. Sex had been good as far as we had gone but I had a feeling there was more then that in what he was asking. I thought back to earlier in the morning when we had sex and some of the things he had said about wanting to give me something besides what was in his nuts. He wanted to feel me inside and out. I was still hooked on the big BUT. I was having a hard time getting that block out of the way but he was chipping away at it.

"Damn Shawn, you put a guy on the spot. How I feel about you is a big question and not easily answered. You have a great body, the best I have ever seen or been in bed with. You know how to make love and you make me feel good. This morning you had me crying like a baby and no one has done that since my grandfather died. Why was I crying? I felt loved, wanted for the first time since he died. You made me feel needed and that made me feel you were sincere in your feelings and not just saying things to make me feel good. I like you for you and the way you talk and look at me. I like your honesty and the straightforward way you talk. I don't know much about you other then you are from Kentucky, going to college and worked in a circus but I want to learn more. That's why I asked you to stay with me. "

"I feel pretty much the same way Kev. I like being with you and right now I feel like we have been looking for each other. I haven't been with many men but most of them made me feel like they had to see if they could conquer me. Sometimes I wish I didn't have such a body that everyone wanted it and not me. When you asked me to fuck you last night, I didn't even think about using a condom I just wanted you like I have never wanted anyone else. Damned stupid I know but I needed you, wanted you and nothing else seemed to matter right then. That's the first thing most of the guys I have been with want but not you, you wanted me to take you."

"You're right about that but like you said, nothing seemed to matter right then. There have only been a couple of guys that I have done that with and always with a condom. You don't have anything to worry about Shawn. I have tested negative when I did have sex that way even with condoms. We can get tested in Boston if you want."

"No need for that. I tested negative before vacation and you said your clean, that's good enough for me. How much further before we reach Springfield?"

"Just about another hour and then you can take over if you want."

Shawn scooted back across the seat and then he lowered his body laying his head in my lap and with his free hand he reached inside my shorts and shifted my soft cock so the head was at his lips. I took a deep breath feeling his warm breath on the exposed head and it quickly hardened lengthening and sliding inside his mouth. His tongue licked the underside and I gasped at the sensations.

"Oh Shawn!!!!"

He didn't move his head as my cock slid deep inside his mouth and he sucked gently using his tongue creating fantastic sensations that surged through my nuts and spread upwards from my groin through the nerves in my body setting them on fire. His lips worked my foreskin backwards and forwards slowly as his tongue continued its soft washing over and under twisting and licking my blood engorged cock-head. My crotch felt like there was an intense fire as my nuts drew up sending their cream up the shaft he continued to softly, gently suck letting the cream flow in surging streams filling his mouth. I felt his chest expand in one deep inhalation as he drove down on my cock as far as he could his lips draining every molten drop as he withdrew. I didn't realize I had been holding my breath and gripping the wheel until my cock started to soften and he let it slip slowly from his lips. I exhaled in a long slow sigh; "Jesus Christ Shawn" was all I could utter.

He didn't say anything except lay there with his head in my lap the head of my cock at his lips. A sign slipped by telling me Springfield was 25 more miles but I could tell Shawn had slipped off as he lay there sleeping like a baby that had just suckled his mother.

I knew I had a lot to learn about him but then he had just as much to learn as I did. I didn't wake him as we reached Springfield and the intersection with I90 and the second leg of the trip. I lay my hand on his chest feeling the steady rhythm of his beating heart and breathing, his silken skin warm and soft. He moved just a little but continued lying with his head in my lap. The Blazer was almost on automatic as it resumed after I had slowed for the curves and entry onto 90. It had gotten a little warmer but still not enough for the a/c to be needed. I had adjusted his window upwards about 3/4 of the way in case some nosy driver slipped up my right side again thanking Chevrolet for the darkened windows.

I let the Blazer cruise at 70 since the highway was fairly empty and I hadn't seen any state police to worry about. Didn't mean they weren't around but it seemed pretty safe since I was only 5 over the limit. My thoughts were revolving around my feelings for Shawn and his lying in my lap didn't help all that much. I wanted to believe everything he had been saying to me in the worst way. My heart was being pulled too him but my head was telling me not to jump off the deep end again, twice was enough. I knew I could fall for him but caution said go slow. That big BUT was always there since the last one played me for a sucker.

We crossed the NY state line, the signs indicating that the Taconic State Parkway was just a few miles. I shook Shawn's shoulder gently rousing him.

"Hey sleepy head, getting a little hungry?"

"Damn Kev, why did you let me sleep so long? I was supposed to relieve you in Springfield wasn't I?"

"Well you fell asleep and it felt kind of good having you lay in my lap like you were so I let you sleep. The truck almost drives its self, I just steer it. Are you hungry? We can get off the interstate at the Taconic interchange for something if you are, I am."

"We better get straightened up first. When did we cross into New York?"

"About half an hour ago. You can take over after we get something to eat and then maybe I can get a cat nap while you drive."

"If that's all you want, okay by me." There was that twinkle in his eye that made him look like a little boy.

I had the Blazer fueled while we had lunch. I remembered Shawn's advice about eating and ordered a tuna fish salad sandwich plain with a side of cottage cheese and he ordered the same except on wheat bread plain while mine was toasted. We both drank ice tea without sugar just a wedge of lemon. I had to admit it was better then a greasy hamburger with French-fries.

Shawn paid for the fuel and we were on the road again in short order. I was beginning to think he enjoyed traveling half naked since he stripped his shirt off before getting in and I did the same. I loved watching him pull a shirt over his head his muscles rippling with every movement. Even as he drove his body muscles seemed to flow with every movement of his arms. He maneuvered the truck back onto the interstate and set the cruise control at 70 flipping the steering column up when he reached cruising speed.

I followed his earlier example and opened my shorts and unzipped the fly letting the flaps lay back. I felt a little like teasing him so I lay my head on the back of the seat and closed my eyes. After a few minutes I felt his arm slide behind my back at my waist and in one powerful motion he pulled me closer to him. I turned my face to his and his lips touched mine his tongue flicking out briefly. I leaned in and nibbled on his ear lobe kissing his neck as I did and I nuzzled my head under his jaw feeling him pulling me tighter.

"Kev, are you planning on using the full three weeks before we get to Boston? We really haven't talked about it. I've still got to find a place before school starts and get registered."

I was surprised for a moment and then realized we hadn't talked about what we were going to do at all. I had slipped into the old habit of assuming and not including him. I moved away slightly and reached for the snap on his shorts opening them and sliding his zipper down ran my hand over his hard muscled stomach.

"I have thought about it some Shawn but I was sort of scared you might get mad at me if I told you what I've been thinking."

"Why would I get mad at you?"

"Because, if I tried to help you that stubborn pride of yours will get in the way. I can help you in Boston if you'll let me but I won't if it's going to make you mad at me or you don't want me too."

"How am I going to get mad at you while you're rubbing me like that getting me all hot and horny?"

"Am I doing that to you? What do you think you did too me earlier, you didn't think I was going to let you get away with it did you?"

I felt his cock hardening and I was just as horny. My cock was throbbing and I slid my shorts down just a little pulling it out so it was free from being confined in my shorts. Sliding my hand inside his shorts, he lifted is hips and I pushed his shorts down pulling his thick hard cock free. I stroked it a few times and he sucked in his breath, his eyes pleading with me. I slowly lowered my head opening my mouth as his straining cock reached towards my lips and licked the head cleaning the clear drop of pre-cum that had started oozing out of his slit. Shawn groaned deep in his chest and lifted his hips.

"Yesssssssss Kev, suck it for me."

I took him in as far as I could and feeling his muscles tighten, I tightened my lips around his thick girth sucking steadily in short quick motions, he was to hot for me to play with him. His nuts tightened as his cock hardened suddenly gushing great streaming gobs of his cream with such force I almost choked. He drove his hips up forcing more of his cock into my mouth as he moaned loudly. "

"Drain it Kev, suck it dry baby," he moaned huskily and I sucked every drop swallowing quickly. His body odor was musky with his sweat and I felt a little dizzy from the ecstatic feelings that were coursing through me as I drained his nuts. As his cock started softening, I stripped the last drops with my lips as I withdrew. Shawn exhaled in a long slow sigh his hand lying on my head.

"You were hotter then I thought. I didn't get much chance to play with you like you did me."

"Then don't get me that hot if you want to play. I like being played with."

"What were we talking about before you got so horny? Oh, yes the trip and Boston. Okay, here goes. My company has some influence in Boston; we trade with several dealerships direct wholesale. I had thought we might call Harrison in the morning and see if he couldn't find a reasonable apartment if you want me too."

"You can do that Kev? You think this Harrison guy would be able to find a place for us."

I scooted closer and reaching over him I asked him to lift his hips and pulled his shorts back up a little but not enough I couldn't see his manhood laying on his thick brown hair.

"Now is when you might get mad at me Shawn. I could do it without Harrison if you would let me. The problem, if there is one, is my money. You made it pretty clear that you weren't a bum and wanted to pay your share of this trip. That's okay with me except it really is not necessary. I'm not trying to impress you or anything like that but dammit it, I'm going to spend it anyway so why not when I enjoy doing it with someone I like? I'm not asking you for any obligation, I just want us to enjoy being with each other and damn the money. If I can help you out, I want too. Is that so bad?"

"No, not when you put it that way. I appreciate the offer. I just didn't want you thinking I was using you because of your money. I'm not made that way Kev. Money is nice and I hope to have some one-day after college. "

For the rest of the trip, we talked about each other and mostly about what Shawn wanted for the future. He was studying Physical Education and hoped to become a wrestling coach after he graduated. Except for his scholarship, he was almost working his way through college. Money he made during the summers and small menial jobs he found in Boston was his only income. He could have asked for a student loan to help him out but his pride in making it on his own was too strong for that. The big thing was he wanted to show his Dad he could make it on his own and wouldn't have to live on a dirt farm for the rest of his life. I was falling more in love with him as we drove and I listened but putting my two- cents in once in awhile. We didn't realize how much we had been talking about ourselves, mostly about Shawn, until Albany slipped by and it was less then an hour before we reached Exit 21 and Lake George.

"You want me to take over or do you feel like driving on into Lake George? It's not that far."

"I'll take it on in unless you want to drive. It makes a trip go by much faster when you have something to talk about and someone to talk with. You know Kev; we have been talking mostly about what I want and me. What do you want, ever thought about it?"

"What do I want? In a nutshell, someone that wants to build a life with me because of me. I want someone that won't let money become the focal point of our being together. I've always had anything I wanted for the most part. I try and avoid money coming up when I meet someone but it always does sooner or later. It's kind of hard avoiding it and then things just seem to change. It could be partly my fault though. Take meeting you Shawn. We could live together on what I have but I know it wouldn't work with you. Most guys I could buy for a short while and then it's over until someone else comes along. I was stuck twice and Harrison had a fit bailing me out."

"He had a fit? I thought it's your money?"

"It is but he pissed and moaned about me going to bed with everyone but him. That's not really true; I don't go to be with just anyone but a couple of guys really got next to me. Money does not buy happiness Shawn only for a little while."

"I can see that Kev."

He pulled me a little closer and we rode the rest of the way into Lake George in silence. The warmth of his body and the strength in his arm made me feel secure and all I could think of was just being with him. The big BUT was slowly slipping into the back of my mind. He had not really answered my offer except to say he appreciated it. I wanted to help but I wasn't going too push it.

Lake George was still bustling with people and cars. Shawn spotted the Holiday Inn Turf and drove up the drive under the portico. We had stopped just off the exit and straightened our clothing at least what we wearing. Two young valets's opened the doors with the usual greeting and unloaded our luggage. One of the boys looked at Shawn's duffel bag when he pulled it out of the back of the truck. I wondered what he was thinking but we went inside together while they followed. A desk clerk was waiting and again another greeting.

"I think you have a reservation for Karper? It was made this morning early."

She clicked on a few computer keys before confirming it. "We have you in a suite on the second floor overlooking the lake Mr. Karper. Would you complete the registration card please? Some of our guests are spending more time then they had indicated so we were rather limited when your request came in. How long will you be staying with us or do you know?"

"Right now we are planning on two or three days, maybe longer."

"Fine sir. You are in 202. I think you will find it satisfactory, the view is very nice."

She handed one key card to the valet and the other to me. We followed him as he led us through the atrium to the elevators. Shawn tipped him after he unloaded the luggage in the bedroom and asked if there would be anything else.

The sitting room of the suite was almost open-air with one wall complete glass leading out onto a small balcony that contained two lawn chairs with small tables. The lake was in full view from the balcony and you could see the steamboats that toured the lake. A small wet bar full stocked was on one wall with the usual furnishings. The bedroom was furnished with a king size bed again sitting up on a dais against one wall. A full portrait of the Lac Du Saint Sacrement was over the bed. Instead of rods for hanging clothing, there were two large wardrobes with overstuffed chairs making up the remainder of the furnishings. The bath was all tile, mirrors and chrome with a separate shower in addition to a large inset Jacuzzi whirlpool tub. Not a luxurious suite but very tastefully furnished.

Shawn went back into the sitting room getting him a Coors beer from the refrigerator.

"You want a beer Kev? Plenty here."

He hadn't said anything except when he tipped the valet. I took the beer from his hand and he walked out on the balcony standing at the railing. I wasn't sure what was going through his mind but I followed him.

"Something wrong Shawn?" I asked but he didn't answer, he just stood there looking out over the village and the lake.

"Would you want to go to bed Kevin?" He asked without looking at me.

"Not unless that's what you want Shawn."

He turned and looked into my eyes, I could see the emotions he was feeling as he pulled me against him brushing my lips with his.

"I'm glad you said that Kevin, I really am. I've never said this to any man before and please don't think it's phony. I'm in love with you and I don't know how we are going to work it out. We are so different in some ways but we both want the same thing and I want you with me. Can we work it out together Kevin?"

When I heard Shawn say that, the big BUT disappeared. I had wanted to hear it; I needed to hear it from him. This time it would work because we wanted each other and not just for sex. Tears welled up in my eyes as I looked at him.

"You don't know how much I wanted to hear you say that. I started falling in love with you when you got into the truck in DC. It will work out Shawn believe me it will. Forget everything except each other."

He took my face in his hands and kissed me deeply for all too see if they wished. I wanted everyone to know I loved him and I felt warmth flowing over us. No arousal, nothing but the deep feeling of contentment as he kissed me and I responded pressing close.

We stood there holding each other; Lake George was the beginning for both of us. * * * * * * *

The beginning not the end.