Ok here's page two. enjoy and let me just remind you that this is FICTION. it implies nothing about the members of bsb and/or n sync.
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"I don't know what your problem is. They're just normal people. I mean...if, um, Nick comes in wearing a dress, I'm going to be a little suspicious, but that doesn't sound like something they'd do. Besides, there's pictures to be taken." I said.
"So you don't have a problem with gay men?" Joey asked me.
"'Course not."
"Why not?"
"Why should I?"
"Cause it's sick!" Chris answered.
"Yeah, well, you're entitled to your own opinion." I said, turning back to my video game.
"I just can't see why you're not opposed to this," Lance said.
"I just can't see why I should be." I said, then after briefly thinking it over, decided to give it all. "I'm gay."
"WHAT?!" they all shrieked.
I put my hands over my ears. "Ow! You guys...for crying out loud..."
"You're gay?" Jc asked, a little pale.
I shrugged. "Sure. I don't see what the big deal is."
"Why didn't you ever tell us?" Chris squeaked.
"I'm telling you now."
"Why didn't you tell us before?"
I shrugged. "You never asked. I guess I just thought you knew."
"We didn't."
"Obviously, judging from your reaction."
"So..you like guys?"
"Sure. Some as friends, some I'm attracted to, and some we could all do without."
"Who are you attracted to?" Lance asked, that funny color of white you can never get from crayons.
"Your mom."
"JUSTIN!"
"What?" I said indignantly.
"I just can't believe this." Chris said shaking his head.
"Well, believe it, buddy boy, cause I am." I said, then threw my arms up in the air. "Yes! I won!" I turned off the system and got a jacket. "So, who's hungry?"
They just stared at me. "Um, don't you think we should talk about this?" Joey said to me.
"Talk about what?"
"Your homosexuality."
"What's there to talk about? I'm gay, I like guys, I'm hungry, let's go get lunch." I said.
"Justin." Jc said. I looked at him. "Maybe he's right...we have to talk about this."
I blew my cheeks out, like I do when I'm frustrated. "What's there to talk about?"
"Sit down." he repeated softly.
I plopped down in a chair, and put my feet up on the table. I looked at them expectantly.
"First of all..how long have you been?" Chris asked.
"I think pretty much of always."
"You always were?"
"Yeah."
"And just when were you ever planning to tell us?"
"When you asked."
"Otherwise we would've never known?"
I shrugged. "I don't see what the big deal is. I'm not going to ack any different. I'm still the same guy. I'm still Justin."
"No, you're not." Lance said. I looked at him. "You're gay. I mean, I feel..."
"Self-conscious." Joey supplied. Lance nodded.
"What? Why?" I said. They only looked at me, then something crossed my mind. "You guys don't..you don't think I'm going to, like, Look at you or become attracted to you, do you?"
"Well..." Joey said.
"Kind of." Lance sighed.
"Maybe the first part." Chris shrugged. Jc didn't say anything.
I threw my arms up into the air. "I won't. I never have, never will! God, don't you guys trust me?"
Silence.
"Well, that's just great." I snapped. "Some friends you are." I got up and walked out the door, slamming it in Jc's face, who'd gotten up when I did. I practically ran out of the hotel, and onto the Chicago streets. I kept my hat pulled low and walked slow and hunched over. I could not believe them. I mean...I always acted like a decent guy. I was a friend to them. Why couldn't they accept me and trust me?
I walked around for a couple of hours, my appetite totally lost. I felt (at first) angry and hurt at their reaction, but after awhile I stopped being angry and kept on being hurt. I felt really sad that they acted like they didn't want to be my friends anymore.
ok that's all for today. i have a tight schedule, and i have to go now. more on monday (or hopefully sooner). reminder: a)FICTION and B) ajsaysyourefired@yahoo.com and remember: never eat yellow snow. -aj
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