Spiraling Down

• Aren't you going to answer it? - he asked, smiling. He started to put on his black t-shirt.

I took the phone from my bag and answered it.

• Hey, are you going to be home soon? The spaghetti is getting cold.

• Yeah, we just finished, I'll be there as soon as I shower.

Marco stopped dressing and started to look at me, slightly curious. I felt myself blushing.

• Oh, okay, I'll be waiting then. I love you.

• I love you too - I responded awkwardly and hung up.

• Nikola? - asked Marco.

I wanted to lie, but he got his answer from my expression before I even got the chance to do it.

He grinned.

• You seriously just talked to your boyfriend with a face drenched with another men's cum? - he asked. My dick started to get hard again. - You surprise me, Aleksa. - he said and put his bag over his shoulder. - Give me your phone number.

• Why?

• So I can call you if I want to do this again. Do it.

I gave him my number and he memorized it in his phone. Then he turned around and left, leaving the door wide open.

I waited for a few seconds, and then got up and closed it. I took off my boxer briefs and went to the showers. While scrubbing Marcos cum of my skin, I thought about what the hell am I going to tell Nikola.

It was hot enough outside for me to not care about going out with wet hair. It was short and it would dry soon enough. I passed by some boys on a bench who spent their summer between high school and college getting drunk around the neighborhood. My dick got hard when I realized I wanted them to fuck me. I started walking faster.

In a store near the bus station I bought some breath mints and one of those little, pocket-size bottles of vodka. The cashier gave me a judgmental look but I didn't care. I drank the whole bottle on a bus, swirling it around my mouth to get rid of the taste of Marcos cum. I sucked on some mints, hoping that Nikola won't notice anything.

It's not that I highly valued monogamy or cared what other people thought. It's just, I really, really didn't want to hurt Nikola because I loved him like mad. For two years he was the most important person in my life, ever since we met on a summer vacation in Greece. He was little taller than me, with a tanned skin and a pretty face. He didn't care that he was gay, but still, we we're both virgins when we met. We slept together for the first time one night on some remote beach of Skiathos island. The very thought of that filled me with regret because it was so different from what I did with Marco. We we're young, clumsy and madly in love and we honestly wanted to make each other happy. I never dreamed that two years later I will rush to get to our little student apartment at night, paranoid that he will find out that I cheated on him.

The elevator in our building didn't work so I took the stairs. Few minutes later I was at the door and knocking. He opened the door and grinned.

• You didn't have to run, I just started to reheat food.

• Oh, okay. Why are you only in your underpants?

• I was hot. It looks like we're going to have to buy a new fan, I couldn't fix the old one.

• Aren't you the one who studies mechanical engineering or something? - I teased him. He laughed and punched me softly on the shoulder. He went to the kitchen while I went to the bathroom.

I washed my teeth and my face. I left the bathroom few minutes later, sure that there weren't any traces of cum. He was in the kitchen, stirring food on the stove. I sneaked to him and hugged him from behind. I kissed him behind his right ear because I knew he likes that. He smiled.

• The whole week on Kopaonik was not enough for you? - he asked.

• What?

• You only kiss me there when you want to have sex. Also, I can feel your semi-erection pressed against my skin.

• Well, fuck.

• Horn dog. - he said and grinned. He started to kiss me but I pulled back.

• What's wrong?

• Nothing, I just don't feel like kissing.

He looked at me curiously. He got closer and sniffed my face.

• And you thought I wouldn't notice.

• Notice what?

• You were drinking. And then you washed your teeth so I wouldn't find out.

• Oh, that, well, Stefan was celebrating his late baptism so I drank a little to his health.

• You could have told me, it's not like I would mind it.

• I didn't know how, considering you were cooking spaghetti and all.

He started laughing and turned off the stove. He slowly kissed me on the neck. I got little lower and started to squeeze his butt. He looked at me.

• You on top? - Yeah.

• Give me five minutes to wash my ass. - he said. While he was at the bathroom I took the condoms and lube. I turned off the lights and sat on the couch to wait for him. He had a really nice, tight bottom and I couldn't wait to fuck it. I thought about the way it clutches when my dick enters and wondered if Marcos ass does the same. My dick got hard so fast it almost hurt. I was sure that it does. There was no chance he would let some other guy fuck him and I knew how tight his ass must be. I wanted to pop his cherry and make him climax while riding my dick.

I liked the idea of fucking Marco so much that I didn't even notice when Nikola came in the room. He climbed on top of me and tried to give me a french kiss but I turned my head away. I only wanted to fuck, his kisses made me feel guilty and disgusting. I started to grab his ass but he gripped me by the chin and kissed me on the lips.

Suddenly, I felt the strongest rush of hate I ever experienced. I couldn't stand his tenderness and I despised his innocence . He would never cheat on me and his purity made me loathe myself. I pushed him of the couch and we fell on the floor with me on top. I started to suck his tongue while he squirmed beneath me. I raised his arms and started to bite his neck. He groaned. I took one condom and put it on my dick.

• Turn around.

He did,although a little reluctantly .

I lubed my left hand and started to work his hole. He never let me lick it. I pushed my middle finger in, and then another, and another. With three fingers in it was really narrow. I started to fuck him with my fingers and he lifted his ass up and began groaning with pleasure. I poured lube on my dick and leaned it's head on his hole. I felt it twitch and began pushing in. I closed my eyes and started to truly enjoy the feeling of Nikola's tight, warm ass while my dick slowly slid in. I kept remembering what I saw at the boxing hall. I saw Marco stretching, his firm butt, the look in his eyes when I licked the tip of his cock. I didn't want to, but I started to fantasize about fucking Marco while everyone from the locker room watched. I took Nikola by the shoulders and fucked him more roughly. He played handball until recently and had nice, muscular shoulders but, at that moment, I wanted nothing more than for them to be like Marco's. I heard him groan. I gripped his hips and started to fuck him faster, licking the sweat of his back. I imagined how it would be to fuck Marco, tied up in chains and naked, panting like a dog and begging me to let him cum. That turned me on like mad and I sped up.

• Easier. - I heard Nikola say but I didn't give a fuck.

I placed my hand on his neck and pushed his face to the floor while fully shoving my dick in and pulling it out again. He started to jerk off his cock and I knew that he's close. I fucked him brutally, without mercy and without respect. I squeezed his nipples, wanting to make him spill his seed with my cock in his ass.

He started to gasp for breath and I felt his muscles tighten. He began to climax. The clenching of his ass was too much and it pushed me over the edge. I felt a powerful orgasm traveling through my thighs and back. I came like a horse and pulled it out. I took the condom off and tied a knot on it.

He turned around and firmly hugged me. He kissed me and squeezed my balls. Hard.

• Don't you ever try to be this rough, okay? - he whispered softly.

• Okay.

He smiled and kissed me on the cheek.

My horniness was all gone and my shame washed over me in waves. I felt horrible, thousand miles away from Nikola. I didn't care for Marco anymore and didn't want him to call me. I couldn't help feeling like I cheated on Nikola with him again and I was ridden with guilt. We never hid anything from each other, but now I was lying in his loving embrace, thinking about how he must never find out how I cheated on him. And not out of love, but because of some sick, twisted perversion.

• C'mon. - he said and started to get up. - You can reheat the food while I shower and then we'll switch so we can eat together. I'm hungry like the wolf.

• Okay. - I said harshly. He went to the bathroom while I washed my hands and started to reheat spaghetti. I tried my best to not show how I feel. The sudden rush of guilt passed by the time we got to bed but I was sure I will never do anything with Marco ever again. I snuggled a bit with Nikola and fell asleep. I dreamed that I was in some big, dirty, public bathroom, completely naked. I was alone and badly needed to take a leak. I took one of the urinals and grabbed my dick but I couldn't start. Suddenly, I heard footsteps and saw Marco come in. My gut twisted and I tried to hide my junk. He started to laugh. He too was naked and walking towards the middle of the room.

• Whats the matter Aleksa? Just relax and piss. - he said and started to pee. It went everywhere but he didn't care. His face held an expression of enormous, tempting pleasure.

My bladder couldn't hold it anymore and I started to piss. The swift rush of relief and pleasure swept over me while I tried to get him wet. He smiled and started to piss on me too.

I fell to my knees and started to fully enjoy it, trying to be as dirty and wet as I can. The sudden, powerful orgasm woke me up while I felt myself cumming in my boxer briefs.

I lied my face on the pillow, breathing heavily. I couldn't free myself from him. I dreaded his call.