Spiraling Down

The next few days have passed quickly. Marco didn't call me and I slowly started to get used to the constant feeling of guilt. I didn't see Nikola very often because we both were pretty busy with college classes and our very different schedules. That was also one of the reasons why I didn't cum since the night I had a dream about pissing with Marco. I finally got the chance to jerk off on the third day of my adultery. Nikola was at college, and I had the whole day just to myself. I lied on the bed and started to squeeze my dick over my clothes.

I began imagining that Nikola was beside me, sensually sucking my dick but I just couldn't get in the mood. Slowly, I started fantasizing about Marco. He liked it dirty. I recalled how his abdominal muscles writhed while he was cumming and my dick started to rise at the very thought of making him climax one more time. I was so ashamed of how much I wanted that.

I realized what I was doing so I stopped. My dick was now fully erect and throbbing. I grabbed my laptop and went online to look for porn. That way, there was no danger that I will cum while fantasizing about Marco and feel like shit afterwards.

The first video that I found was of two handsome, hairless pretty boys french kissing on the couch. I took all of my clothes off and started to jerk off.

After about five, six minutes in, when those two were just preparing to blow each other, I noticed some other video in the `recommended' section. It was some big orgy of men on a huge, leather mattress. I clicked on it.

At first, I didn't want to watch it because it was about forty minutes long but I just had to see more of it because I liked the muscular, sweaty actors. They were mostly bald, dirty and disgusting, in leather, s & m outfits. They were whipping this two guys on the mattress while they groaned and squirmed. I spit on my cock and started to beat off.

Nikola didn't like kinky play and fetishes, so we usually didn't watch that kind of porn. He wasn't against it or had a problem with it, simply, it didn't turn him on. Now, finally, after almost two years of repressing my kinky side, I freely masturbated to dirty, disgusting german perverts and I loved it.

They gave the two guys on the mattress a double-headed dildo and they began shoving it up their asses. I almost couldn't believe how much they enjoyed fighting over it, both trying to take the bigger end. They began fucking themselves while the others were pissing on them. The sound of wet bottoms slapping into one another was driving me nuts. I began pinching my nipples and squeezing my balls. I didn't want to cum soon but I was barely able to control myself. I skipped a few minutes and saw some guy began fisting them both at the same time. I heard about fisting before but I never really watched it because I thought it's revolting. There was something seriously wrong with shoving a hand deep inside someone's guts and I wanted to stop watching but I couldn't. Fascinated, I watched them sit on his hands up in to the elbows of his big, muscular arms. They started jumping on them, with a perverted smile on their faces. I felt that I'm getting close.

Suddenly, I heard a doorbell ringing. I stopped and went to open the door.

• Who is it? - I yelled from the hallway.

• Nikola.

I opened the door and let him in.

• What are you doing home so early, I thought you were at college?

• Well, I was, but, as it turns out, today we were supposed to have some classes that I don't need to take so I came home early. Why are you naked?

• I was jerking off.

He smiled.

• Without me, huh?

• Well, yeah.

• Wait, before I forget. Guess what's new?

• What?

• I got a job offer in some firm. I can start working as soon as I finish college. - he was euphoric.

• That's great!

• Yeah, I met this guy in college and we started talking. He told me that his father owns a company and they need someone like me. I'm supposed to go meet him next week!

• I'm really happy for you, you really deserve it.

• Thank you. I can't wait to tell my folks.

That was understandable. They paid our rent because, even though we both had scholarships, we just couldn't afford to do it ourselves.

• And you know what else? - he said, smiling.

• What?

• Well, we both have the whole day to ourselves. - he responded, and I saw in his eyes that he wants to fuck.

• You want to be on top this time?

• I think it would be appropriate.

• Alright, take off your clothes I'll be there in a second. - I said and went to the bathroom to shower and clean my butt. It didn't take me as long as usual because this time I didn't jerk off while showering. I went to the living room, naked. He already took all of his clothes off and we started kissing.

The phone began ringing. He broke the kiss and answered it before I got the chance to stop him.

• Hello?... yes,it's me... Aleksa?... He's right here, hold on a second...

I took the phone from him.

• Hello, Aleksa? - I heard my aunts voice.

• Yeah?

• What's up?

• Nothing much. - I answered awkwardly. I saw Nikola silently laughing. - You?

• Same here. Listen, I need a favor. My dentist just called me and changed our appointment and it would mean a lot if you could keep an eye for Isidora for a few hours. Could you?

Nikola knew me well enough to read my facial expressions and he silently asked me `what's wrong?'

• Hold on a sec. - I told her and leaned the phone to my chest. I told him.

• So? Tell her to bring Isidora here.

• You're not mad?

• Why would I be mad? Besides, it wouldn't be right to not be there for her.

I looked at him, still not convinced.

• It's okay, really, we probably should make lunch soon. Also, we still have the rest of the day free.

I brought the phone to my ear.

• Sure, bring her over.

• Great, we'll be there in fifteen minutes. And Alexa?

• Yeah?

• Thank you.

• Are you nuts? It's fine. And besides, we really didn't see Isidora for so long.

• Yeah, she misses you so much, right now she's rushing me to leave the kindergarten. See you soon!

• Okay, bye.

• Bye.

I hang up.

• When are they coming?

• She said they'll be here in fifteen minutes.

• Right. - he said and picked his clothes of the floor. - We should probably clean this place.

We dressed up and started. In his case, `cleaning' meant just putting things in our bedroom but I didn't mind. It wasn't really messy anyway.

• Wait, I forgot. Did they tell Isidora about us?

• Yeah.

• What did they tell her?

• Well, as far as I know, they told her that we live together and love each other like they do. And that was that.

• My parents said something similair when they explained gays and lesbians to me too.

• I was thought that gays were twisted perverts.

He didn't say anything, he just hugged me tightly and then went to put the socks and some shirts in our bedroom. We didn't talk about my parents much because he always got angry when that comes up.

This time, my aunt Kristina was on time. She showed up in a light, summer dress, holding the five year old Isidora by the hand.

• Here we are. - she said. - I'll try to hurry up, and as for you, be good,okay? - this was addressed to Isidora who hugged her and then went to kiss Nikola on the cheek. She adored him.

• I will mommy. - she responded.

• Right. I'm leaving now. I shouldn't be away for long. - said Kristina to me.

• Okay.

• And make sure she does her homework.

• I will, don't worry.

We said goodbye and I went inside. She was the only member of my family that still spoke to me. Everyone else acted like I didn't even exist because I was a faggot living with another man. My parents kicked me out when I told him and my aunt still didn't talk to them. The least thing I could do is to help her with this every once in a while .

Nikola and Isidora were in the living room when I came in. I saw him connecting the laptop with the tv so she can watch cartoons.

• Were you in kindergarten? - I asked her, pointing at her little backpack.

• Yeah.

• Do you have any homework or something?

• No.

• Isidora...

• No, really, my teacher didn't come today so they didn't give me anything.

• Because of the emotional pain, right?

She giggled.

• Come on, do your homework and then you'll be free to watch cartoons with Nikola. In a meantime, he can connect the laptop and prepare everything.

• Oh, I'm done.

I looked at him and he understood.

• But I still have to fix something. - he added.

Isidora pulled the notebook from her backpack and started writing something. I went to fix something for us to eat. I knew that Nikola will help her with everything.

When I came back to the living room, they were sitting on the couch and watching Adventure time.

• Did you finish everything? - I asked. - I don't want to get in trouble with your mom.

• We did. - said Nikola. - It wasn't hard.

• You don't say.

He smiled.

• Will you let us watch? Jake is in trouble. - He said.

• Is that him?

• That's Finn, stupid head.

I laughed.

• Come on, you should set the table, the lunch is going to be ready in few minutes.

• I can't right now, this is the most interesting part. Right, Isidora?

• Right. - she said and looked at me innocently. - Just till the end of the episode, okay?

• Yeah, okay. - I said and went back to the kitchen. I hated to appear too strict but I had to be the bad cop when Nikola was around. In some ways, he was worse than kids.

I prepared everything and we sat down to eat. I poured a little of Greek salad on my plate while Isidora was talking about this boy she likes and Nikola was giving her advices.

• Wait a second. - He said. - Is that your phone ringing? - he asked me.

I heard a melody coming from our bedroom.

• Yes, I'll be right back. - I said and went to answer it.

I realized who it might be only when I saw that it's an unknown number.

• Hello?

• Hello, Aleksa?

• Yeah?

• It's me.

Marco.

• What do you want?

-You know very well. I told you that I would call you.

• I don't want to do it.

• Don't make me laugh. Do you want to write down the address? I won't wait for you while you wander around the Novi Beograd.

• I can't, I'm serious.

• And few moments ago, you didn't want to. See how we're making progress?

My dick started to get hard just from the sound of his manly voice and the raw desire I could feel in it.

-Where do you live? - he asked me.

• Also in Novi Beograd.

• Good, so it wont take long for you to come. Show up on my door in the next half an hour or don't at all. But, just know that if you don't come now, you will never get the chance again. Is that clear?

• Yes.

He told me his address and I wrote it down. He hang up. I stood by Nikola's old study table, shaking.

I felt that I had no choice even though I knew that I do. I lost my erection while thinking about what to tell Nikola.

• Nikola, can you come in here, please? - I yelled.

I heard the sound of the chair moving and he came in.

• What's the matter?

• I have to go to college.

• What? Why?

• Nemanja just called me, it turns out that my asshole professor insisted that I show up today. Something about that translation.

• Oh, come on, are you serious?

• I know, I'm pissed off just as much as you are. - I lied while searching for keys. - Can you keep an eye for Isidora for an hour or two?

• Yeah, that's not the problem, I'm just annoyed that you didn't have a chance to eat.

• I know, it sucks.

• Just, call Kristina and ask if it's okay with her that I babysit Isidora.

• Don't be ridiculous, of course that it is okay. Just tell Isidora what happened, and wait for Kristina if she shows up before I do. - I said and kissed him swiftly. - I'll try to be quick.

• See you in two hours.

• Yeah, probably. - I said and left the apartment.

I easily found his building. I came up to his apartment on seventh floor where I saw him saying goodbye to some chick. He was naked and she was pretty attractive. I had no doubts about what happened between them.

She passed beside me, avoiding eye contact.

• You came on time.

• Yes.

• You must want it bad, huh?

I looked at him, completely silent.

• I asked you something.

• Yes.

He smiled and let me in. I heard the sound of him locking the door.

• Who was that woman? - I asked him.

• Why, are you jealous?

I felt myself getting slightly angry.

• No, I'm just curious.

• She's the coach's wife. - he explained.

I looked at him, surprised.

• They get off on it. Plus, he's not that good in bed and this way I get what I want from him for fucking her.

• I can't believe it.

• Believe it. Come. - he said and we went to the living room.

My feet made virtually no sound on the soft, expensive carpet in his hallway. Compared to his fancy, modern appartment, the place Nikola and I shared was a dump.

We sat on the black leather chairs in his living room. He started drinking scotch from a glass on the coffee table. He didn't ask me if I wanted anything even though I could probably use it. My heart was beating like crazy and I couldn't believe what I was doing.

• Did you fantasize about me while having sex with Nikola? - he asked abruptly.

I could not lie to him and was afraid what will happen if I try.

• Yes.

• Tell me.

• I fantasized about fucking you.

He smiled.

• How was it?

• Brutal.

• Describe it.

• Well, I imagined us in some dark room with a warm lightning, like from a fire you know? And there were guys from the boxing practice all around and you were tied in chains like an animal. I.. I fantasized about fucking you like that while you were panting like a dog and begging me to let you cum. - I said quickly and I felt myself blushing.

• Imaginative. You must really need a good fuck.

I swallowed nervously.

• Take all of your clothes and kneel down on the carpet - he said harshly.

For some reason, I obeyed him.

• Now come to me. Crawling.

I could not let him humiliate me that much.

• No.

He got serious.

• Do what I tell you Aleksa or you will regret it. - I felt goosebumps on my skin from the slight growl in his voice.

• I don't want to let you degrade me that much.

• Yes you do.

He said it like a fact, with a light note of boredom in his tone of voice. - That's why you came here.

• I don't understand.

• You love the idea of being submissive but you won't admit that to yourself.

• You're wrong.

• Am I? Didn't you ever dream about getting fucked hard by a group of dirty convicts? To be used like a nothing more than a disgusting cum slut, to be treated like a obedient pig boy?

I felt my stomach twitching from every word he said. He kept the eye contact and his words were on point, like he knows the darkest and the worst of me, everything I couldn't admit to myself. My cock betrayed me. It was hard again and throbbing.

• Don't waste my time, Aleksa. Do what I tell you.

Something inside me broke and I obeyed him. I went on all fours and started crawling towards him. I felt myself burn inside with shame but my dick was leaking. I was disgusted with myself.

• That's right. - he said and petted me on the cheek when I came to him. - Lick my feet.

I did what he ordered and started sucking and licking the sweat of his feet.

He drank the rest of his scotch and got up.

• Come on, it's time to go to the bedroom.

I got up but he grabbed me by the hair and pulled me down.

• Crawling. - he said softly.

I followed him. I realized I lost all the control of myself but I didn't care. The only thing I could think about was how much I wanted him to make me cum.

He opened the door and we went inside of his big bedroom. It was really hot inside and the window was wide open.

• Get on it. - he said and I got up on his wide double bed. He laughed and slapped my butt. - Ever rode bareback?

• No.

• Great. - he said and pulled a bottle of lube from his drawer.

• Be gentle.

• You really are a pussy, aren't you? Blow me.

I did and started sucking on his nice, meaty cock. The taste surprised me and then I understood. It was that woman's pussy.

I got hard and I pulled myself off of it.

• You really need it, huh?

I looked him straight in the eye and nodded.

He oiled his dick and gave me the bottle to do the same with my ass. I did it the best I could and got on all fours. I waited with my ass up while he searched for something in his closet. I heard a rattling sound. The chain.

He tied it around my neck and took one end of it in his right hand. He pulled it.

• Too tight?

• Y..yes.

• Good.

• He pushed one finger inside my butt. He was rough and impatient.

It hurt a little because he went all the way.

• You're not very tight.

He spit on it and then shoved another and then another. He began fucking me with three fingers while I squirmed with pain.

• Easier- I groaned.

He showed them all the way, suddenly, so that it will hurt. I knew that he did it because I tried to order him so I went silent.

I felt the tip of his dick on my hole and started breathing deeply. He poured a little more lube and started to push it inside.

It hurt like hell but I tried my best to relax. I needed him to fuck me so bad I barely sustained myself. I almost started jumping on it but I didn't want to give him that satisfaction.

He started thrusting rhythmically and it hurt less and less. That weird, nice feeling of numbness took over I started to enjoy myself. An insatiable, sinful need for it to get deeper inside me, to ravage my guts took over control of my body. I couldn't help it. I started to move my hips in the rhythm.

• What did I tell you Aleksa? You're a natural!

He showed my head to the satin sheets and I looked at the shelf on his wall while he was fucking me. I saw a whip on it. He probably used it to whip that whore before me.

• Take it, please.

He saw what I was looking at.

• The whip?

• Yes.

• Ask me nicely.

• Please.

• Beg.

• I'm begging you.

• Nicer.

• I'm begging you Marco, take the fucking whip and destroy my back with it.

He laughed.

• He took it and then continued to fuck me. My ass clutched instinctively, satisfied that his cock was inside it once more.

He began whipping me. I didn't expect him to be so rough but he had no mercy. I heard him laughing at me and I knew how much he enjoyed it.

• Thank me for every blow.

He whipped me so hard I screamed.

• Thank you.

And then harder.

• Thank you.

And harder.

• Thank you.

He started to whip and fuck me at full speed and I felt that I was getting close. I started jumping on it, desperately wanting his seed inside my guts.

I heard my phone ringing.

• What is that? - he asked me.

• Nothing.

He whipped me.

• What is that?

• My phone ringing.

He pulled his dick out and went to get it.

• It's Nikola. - he said with a satisfied look on his face. - Answer it.

I did what I was told while he continued.

• Hey, - I heard Nikola's voice. - when are you coming?

• Soon. - I said while Marco shoved it inside, hard, so that it would hurt me.

• Kristina just took Isidora away, she didn't have a problem with me babysitting when I explained her what happened.

• Okay.

• What did the professor say?

• Nothing much.

-What do you mean?

• Don't bother me, Nikola.

• What's your problem?

• What?

I felt the orgasm starting to take over my body and I tried to fight it to answer Nikola.

• I'm asking you what's your problem; it's not my fucking fault you had to go to college today .

• Nothing... - I manage to say while the orgasm won over me. I didn't hear Nikola nagging from all the shameful, dirty pleasure that shook me. It rushed through my body in waves, climbing up my spine to my head while I gasped for air. My fucking forehead was tingling from all the pleasure.

Somehow, I managed to turn my phone off, while I came all over Marco's bed sheets. His dick began twitching like it did before he came.

He roared like a lion and shoved it all the way. He came inside me and the warmth of his sperm spilled inside me. He pulled it out, breathing heavily. He slapped me on the ass and moved. I fell on the bed, exhausted.

• What did you think? That I will let you sleep on my bed? Move it!

• Just a second, please.

He pulled me by the chain.

• That wasn't a question.

I got up and followed him into the living room.

• Come here in Saturday. You will spend the night. Is that clear?

• Yes.

• I'll go shower, when I come out you'd better not be here.

• Okay.

I dressed quickly and put the chain in his bedroom. I checked myself in the mirror in the hallway. I looked decent. My ass hurt and I was afraid it will start leaking sperm so I left his apartment in a hurry. I was anxious about what will happen during the weekend.