Spiraling Down

He woke me up at about eight o'clock. He didn't even bother to close the curtains and the whole living room was full of morning sunlight. I sat up, still exhausted. My ass hurt like hell.

• What's happening?

• Nothing, it's time to get up. -- he said from the kitchen. I wasn't surprised to see that he was naked. -- Come on, get dressed so you can go to the bakery.

• I need to shower first.

• You'll do it later. I'll go first while you find something to eat.

• But I can't go like this, I'm still sticky from last night!

• Tough shit. And hurry up, I'm hungry. --he said and threw money at me. -- Buy me a croissant and whatever you want for yourself. -- he said and went to the bathroom, leaving the door wide open.

I quickly got dressed and washed my bloody face in the kitchen sink. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw that I looked decent enough.

• There is a ''Hleb i kifle" across the street, go there. -- he yelled from the bathroom.

• Okay. -- I said and left.

I knew where that bakery was because I walked by it two times the night before, trying to find courage to go to his place.

I bought two croissants, one for him and one for me. I was scared that someone will notice the state I'm in but nobody did. I went back to Marco's apartment.

• Here I am -- I said and closed the door to his apartment behind me.

• Great, I just finished. -- he said and stepped out of the shower.

I watched him move. His skin was still wet, his dick flaccid and it moved with him. I knew that he wouldn't give it to me. My gut writhed with hatred and desire.

He looked me in the eyes and I knew that he knew what I felt.

• You're pathetic. -- he said and turned to the mirror.

I decided to calm down and went to the dinning room to put the croissants on the table. I took few deep, relaxing breaths.

• Will you take a shower already? I ain't gonna let you stay here for long! -- he shouted for the bathroom.

• I'm coming. -- I said and took my clothes off. I went to the bathroom.

He was standing slowly bent in front of a mirror, shaving. His ass was slightly jutting out and I tried not to touch it with my body. I stepped in the shower.

I was little angry at him because of the way that he was treating me and I didn't want him to notice me looking at him. I started washing my ass from dried cum when I noticed him starring in the mirror.

• What is it?

• Nothing. -- he replied and started washing his face.

I felt my dick harden a little and continued to wash myself.

• I need to piss; my bladder is still full from that beer we drank last night.

• Piss on me. -- I said before I could stop myself.

• What?

• Piss on me. -- I repeated. -- Please.

• That turns you on?

• Yes.

• Let me see. Piss on yourself a little.

I leaned back and tried to do it. He was staring. I started pissing, never breaking the eye contact with him. He looked pleased.

My cock was fully erect and I couldn't do it anymore. I was horny again.

• It's your turn.

• No. -- he said and turned to the toilet.

• Come on, do it.

• I said no.

He started pissing. I grabbed his forearm and wanted to pull him but he looked me straight in the eyes.

• Stop it. -- he said softly.

I did, suddenly afraid.

He finished and washed his hands. He left me alone in the bathroom.

I quickly showered and dried myself of with the towel he left me. I got dressed and went to the dinning room. He was setting the table.

• Sit. -- he said and I did.

He put the croissants on the plates and made us espressos. He went to throw the bags away in the kitchen and then joined me. We started eating.

• You were nicer to me in the beginning.

• I respected you more then. -- he said briefly. I felt myself blushing.

• You know, you're not very tame when it comes to sex either.

He laughed.

• I don't mean because of that. The only thing I truly like about you is that you have the balls to do what you like. I said that I don't respect you because you do it even when it harms others and act all high and mighty.

• Who am I harming?

• Nikola.

I didn't expect him to remember his name.

• I can fuck whoever I want to, it's not his business.

• And you don't mind him doing the same with others?

• No. -- I said doubtingly.

• You don't mind some guy kissing his neck? Shoving his cock inside him?

• Stop it. -- I said quietly.

He looked me in the eyes.

• Does it bother you?

• Yes.

• You care about him.

• Yes.

• But not enough to stop hurting him.

• That's not true, he doesn't know about this.

• And you didn't hurt him in other ways lately?

• Shut up.

• And the sickest part is that it turns you on.

I felt dizzy. I put down the half-eaten croissant on the plate.

• It turns you on too. -- I said accusingly.

• It does. -- he said and smiled like my accomplice.

He started massaging my dick with his foot beneath the table.

• Stop it.

• Why?

• You're right, I can't, I love him&

He continued.

• Would you betray him if I asked you to?

• No&

He stopped.

• Continue.

• Tell me the truth.

I looked him in the eyes. My dick was twitching.

• Yes.

He moved his foot away.

• Come on, what is it now?!

• You disgust me. -- he said and I knew that he means it. That turned me on even more. -- I feel sorry for him, really. -- he added. -- He doesn't deserve to have such scum for a boyfriend.

• How do you know?

• He can't be so bad to deserve you.

I felt hatred swelling in my guts again.

• You're intentionally provoking me.

• Yes I am. That doesn't mean it's not true.

We looked at each other.

• What do you want from me? -- I asked quietly.

• You'll see. Be here at Wednesday afternoon, got it?

• Got it.

He checked his phone. I knew that it was time for me to leave so I quickly ate the rest, drank my espresso and got up.

• You're leaving?

• Yes.

• Wait a second.

He went to his room and came back with some piece of plastic in his hand.

• Take off your boxer shorts. -- he ordered.

I did as I was told, confused.

I looked at the piece of plastic that he was holding. It was small, see-through and cock-shaped with a little hole at one end and the lock on the other, bigger end. I understood.

• No, Marco, don't& - I started to beg.

• Shut the fuck up. -- he said. -- This is the only way to be sure you're not going to jerk off until Wednesday, we both know it.

• But, what if Nikola wants to fuck?

• Think of something. -- he said, with a smile.

He locked my dick and put the key in his pocket.

• Get dressed. -- he said.

I did, feeling more humiliated than I ever did in my whole life.

He stood up and we walked to the door of his apartment.

• When do you want me to come next Wednesday?

• I'll call you.

• Okay, I'll see you then.

• Right. And, be nicer to him.

I couldn't interpret what he meant with that so I just nodded and left.

There was no chance to make it to the exam that I had on time so I decided to go to the mall and check out some sneakers. I wore the same pair for two years and they seriously started to rip apart. I was hoping I'll find a pair that I like and then buy them with the money I get from the translation of that book.

The bus came fast and I was in Delta city in less than ten minutes. I was glad that they turned on the air-conditioning because it was really hot in the crowded bus.

I checked out a few stores but I wasn't thrilled with what they had to offer. Nikola always teased me about how picky I am when shopping. Usually, we would end up drinking a beer at the bar so he would relax after the shopping trip. Just when I was contemplating if I should go to the "Nike store, I heard someone calling me. I turned around.

I saw some brown-haired girl in a light, summer dress waving at me and a tall, built guy beside her. I went say hello when I realized that they were Vuk and Maya, Nikola's best friend from college and his girlfriend.

-What's up? -- she asked after we said hello.

• Nothing much, just looking for new sneakers.

• It was about time -- Vuk said jokingly and high-fived me.

• What are you guys doing?

• Nothing, today is my day off from college and Maya is evading work, as usuall.

She slapped his hand, lightly.

• You're the one to tell. -- she said, smiling and turned to me. -- But I did call in sick today, I mean it is Sunday.

• Did you find something to buy Nikola for your anniversary?

I looked at her, confused.

• Don't tell me you forgot?

I grabbed the back of my head.

• You really are an ass sometimes, you know that? -- said Vuk.

• Do you want to go to the bookstore so you can find him a book or something?

• I don't have the money.

• I'll lend you, don't worry. -- said Vuk. -- Let's hurry though; he said that he was making lunch for you or something.

• Spaghetti?

• No, he said that he wants to try something different.

• So, I should call the firemen on the way home.

They both laughed.

We went to the bookstore on the ground floor.

Maya parted from us the moment she saw some books of Mesha Selimovic and left us to look around.

• What do you think? -- he asked and showed me "Hunger games .

I didn't even need to say anything, I just gave him a look and he put the book on the shelf.

• I don't know, man. -- he said.

I went to the "thrillers section and tried to find a book that he would like.

• He likes detective novels; it's just really hard to find one that would suit his taste.

• Hey, come here. -- said Vuk.

I saw him standing next to the "Big book of penises , smiling.

I laughed.

• You know, there's a book like that only for cunts over there.

• You're kidding. -- he said and went to check it out.

I went to see some handbooks.

• I found it. -- I said and picked up a book about motorcycles. He loved them and couldn't wait to buy his own.

I checked out a price and saw that it was okay. Vuk was still looking at that book. I went to him.

• It really got your attention, huh?

• Yeah. -- he said, smiling, and put it back on the shelf. -- Did you find something?

• Yes. -- I said and showed him the book.

• Awesome., he'll love it. Let's find Maya and go, you shouldn't keep him waiting at home.

• All right. -- I agreed.

We bought the book and parted. They kept shopping while I hurried home.

There was a pizza girl in front of our apartment, ringing a bell. It was clear that Nikola's lunch didn't go as planned.

• Hi. -- I said and started unlocking the door.

• You live here? --she asked.

• Yup.

I heard footsteps and let Nikola open the door.

He looked at her and then at me and smiled.

• Here you go. -- he said to her and gave her money. She gave him the pizza and left.

• So you decided to cook, huh?

• Shut up. -- he said when we walked into the living room. - How did you know I was cooking anyway?

• I saw Vuk and Maya at Delta.

• I'll kill them.

I went to the kitchen. There was a faint smell of burnt food in the air and a pan covered with aluminum foil in the stove. I looked at him.

• I started jerking off and forgot about it.

I laughed.

He kissed me on the cheek and opened the pizza box.

• I downloaded some Ghibli's movies to watch, I know how much you like them.

• Awesome. And, I almost forgot, here. -- I said and gave him the bag with the handbook in it. He pretended he didn't see it up to that point.

• It was about time. -- he joked.

• Like it?

He hugged me.

• I love it. -- he whispered into my ear. -- Wait to see what I got you.

He went to our bedroom and came back with boxing gloves.

• I wanted to get you new sneakers because I knew you wanted them but I didn't want to get you the wrong ones so I got you new gloves, hope you like them.

• They are perfect, thank you. -- I said and kissed him. My bladder was full; I couldn't wait to go piss.

• Although, you didn't show up for practice lately, have you?

• No, I didn't pay for June.

• Oh, yeah, you told me. Lets eat I'm starving.

• I just have to go pee.

• Okay, I'll set up the movie.

I went to the bathroom and pulled down my boxers. I realized that I would not be able to piss standing and that I would need to sit like a girl to pee. It wouldn't start at first because it felt sort of like wearing a condom. It was kind of hot but my dick couldn't get hard, it just hurt. It annoyed me.

I went back to the living room and sat on the floor, beside Nikola. The first movie was "Tonari no totoro . We started eating.

Sometime between the movies "Mononoke hime and "Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi we started debating what is the best Ghibli movie and that resulted in a wrestling match. He lied on top of me and I felt him rubbing his dick on my thigh. I looked at him, surprised.

• I thought you jerked off today?

• No, I stopped when I smelled the food burning.

• Too bad. I don't feel like fucking today.

He got off me.

• Why not?

• I don't know, I just don't feel like it.

• Oh, come on. -- he said and started kissing me on the neck.

I felt my dick starting to rise and it hurt. I lightly shoved him away.

• I'm serious, Nikola.

He looked at me, slightly frowned.

• Okay. -- He said. -- I don't want to be the guy who forces sex just because it's an anniversary.

He waited for a few minutes.

• But you're not being fair, just so you know.

• I'll make up to you.

• All right.

We continued to watch movies in silence. It was about six o'clock when his phone rang and he answered it. I heard him saying on the phone that it's our anniversary and that we can't do something. I pushed him with my elbow.

• What is it?

• Wait a second. -- he said and put the phone on his chest. -- It's Matia, he wants to throw a party at our place tonight.

• So what? We haven't had one for ages.

• I don't know, I thought because it's our anniversary and stuff&

• Come on, it'll be fine. It's going to be late at night, anyway.

• All right. -- he brought the phone to his face. -- It's okay, you guys can come. Be here at ten tonight and bring some wine& & .Okay see you then. 

He hung up.

• Are you going to call guys from practice? -- he asked me. -- It's time for me to meet that Stefan and the rest of them, I'm going to start to think you're cheating on me with them. -- he joked.

I froze.

• No, it's just, I feel stupid to call them just like that.

• They don't know you're gay?

• No.

• Oh. Okay then.

We continued to watch movies.

That night I got drunk as shit and didn't go to college next morning because of the hangover.

The cock cage that Marco had put on me had proven to be much harder to deal with than I thought it will. I wasn't able to cum and it just made me hornier and hornier. When Wednesday came, I was already mad with frustration.

I sent Nikola to college that day. He was dressed really nice because he had that interview and wanted to look good. He was really proud of the clothes he was wearing and felt serious in it. I reluctantly convinced him that everything would be all right and walked him to the door of our apartment. After that, I washed my ass for Marco but I didn't shower because he ordered me not to. I couldn't wait to go to him again.

At first, I got worried that we wouldn't open his door. I rang his bell three times before he let me in.

The floor in his living room was covered with some thin layer of black rubber. In the center of it, there was a huge red dildo stuck to the floor and some muscular, naked guy in the corner. He had the cock cage like mine and was sitting like a dog, kneeling with fists on the floor and his ass on his legs. The light was reddish and dim and I couldn't see where it came from. There were two crude-looking guys sitting on the couch in sweatpants and airmax shoes. I couldn't check them out properly because he made me take off my clothes the moment I came in.

I was little embarrassed to do that in front of them. They were muscular and tattooed and I really didn't want to show them the cock cage that Marco made me wear. I didn't want anyone to know just how much he humiliated me and how I allowed him to control my cock and orgasm. They drank beers and didn't look like they care.

• Go in that corner and sit like he is sitting. -- Marco ordered.

I obeyed and checked out the other guy. He was handsome and had a cute face but in his eyes I could see so much filth and perversion that I was disgusted with him. You could tell that he doesn't care about anything but temporary, sinful pleasure and I hated how much of me I recognized in him. I sat in the same position he was sitting, trying to look proud to show him that I was better than him.

• Did you finish your beers? -- Marco asked those two guys.

• Yes. -- said the one on the left who looked older. Both of them were wearing only sweatpants while Marco, the other boy on the floor and I were naked.

• Take your clothes off. -- Marco said to guys on the couch and sat between them. -- You two -- he said to me and the other boy. -- I want you to fight.

• How? -- the boy said.

• You choose. The winner will get to cum and won't need to wear the cock cage anymore while the loser will have to for another month.

My heart skipped a beat at the very idea of wearing that thing for so long. I made contact with the other boy and I felt how much he was ready to hurt me just to feel the orgasm. I didn't want to do that to him, but I also didn't want to be the loser.

• Come here where there's more room and start. -- said Marco.

We both crawled to the center of the room. One of the chavs on the couch said something and I turned to him. Suddenly, I felt a strong pain in my right ear. The boy punched me. I turned to him but he jumped on top of me and he pinned me down to the floor. I saw him gloating and got angry. We started wrestling like animals. He was sweaty and I could smell him. I pinned him to the ground and shoved his face to the floor. He got free and punched me on the face. He then got on top of me and started rubbing his balls on me, with savage pleasure.

• Aleksa, it looks like he's winning, huh? -- Marco provoked.

It worked. I got angry and freed myself and shoved him on the floor. He bit me and it hurt. I started punching him on the face with full force. He started bleeding from his nose but I didn't care, I enjoyed it, again, and again, and again while he squirmed in pain.

• Come on Marco, they'll kill each other. -- someone said.

• Fine, separate them.

I felt someone's strong hands pulling me away. I tried to set free but I couldn't.

• Fuck them so they'll relax a bit. -- said Marco and threw them lubricants. The guy holding me started working my ass and I allowed him, anxious to feel a dick in me.

The guy had no mercy. He started to fuck me hard from the start with his thick cock, not caring if it hurt. He started to gain speed and I began to enjoy it. I started clenching my hole every time he pulled it out, wanting it to feel full again. I really was insatiable. I saw the face of the other boy.

He was smiling smugly, his top had bigger cock. I hated him.

I desperately rubbed my dick on the floor but couldn't feel anything and couldn't cum. My balls were hurting and I needed a release.

They filled us up after about ten minutes and left us on the floor.

• I have a new idea. -- said Marco.

We looked at him.

• I will take off your cock cages and let you attack each other. The first one to cum loses and will continue to wear a cock cage for another month. The one who doesn't cum get's to ride the red dildo.

We crawled to Marco, and he freed our cocks. The moment I was free, I jumped on top of the other boy.

I started to rub his dick and heard him moaning. He attacked me and we started wrestling. I was on the edge of cumming, but I tried my hardest not to. I never hated anyone as I did that boy in that moment; I squirmed trying to pet his slippery cock. I felt something warm on me and turned around.

Marco ordered for those two guys to piss on us. That made me even hornier. He used his chance and pinned my face to the wet, smelly floor and started rubbing my dick on it. I felt like cumming and with a last of my strength managed to get him off and free myself. I got on top of him, held his hands on his back and started rubbing my dick on his asshole, while his dick rubbed on the floor. He tried to free himself but he couldn't. I felt his muscles spasm.

• No, no, please no& - he started whining while beginning to cum. I felt triumphant and got off him.

He started crying and jumped on top of me. He started jerking my cock angrily but those two guys pulled him off. Marco just sat on the couch and jerked his cock in ecstasy. He was sicker than we were.

He got off the couch and walked near me.

• This is the last time we're hanging out and you deserved it. -- he said and began cumming on my face.

I looked at the other boy and smiled at him smugly. I think he was ready to kill me at that moment.

Marco sat on the couch again and started squeezing last few drops of cum from his dick. The boy got free and crawled to him but Marco kicked him in the face. Hard.

• Lick your blood from my foot. -- Marco ordered and he did, like a well-behaved dog. -- Come on, Aleksa, start impaling yourself on the dildo. - he said to me.

I smiled to him and crawled to it. I lubed it nicely and sat on top of it. It got wider at the bottom and I couldn't wait to feel it in me.

I impaled on it as far as I could. It felt amazing. I got up and then impaled myself again, this time taking it more in me. It didn't even think about what I must've looked like, humiliated and dirtier than any animal, stinging of sweat and other men's piss. I started jumping on it, trying to hold off the orgasm because it felt so good I didn't want it to ever end.

I heard a doorbell.

• Come in. -- said Marco. -- In the living room.

Someone walked in and I heard familiar footsteps. I looked at the person who walked in, still riding the dildo.

Nikola.

He looked completely shocked. He never looked more handsome, in his nice clothes that we chose together. Our eyes met and in his eyes I saw so much disgust, shame and pain that it finally pushed me over the edge. I kept riding the dildo while the sweetest orgasm in my life took over my body. I felt unbelievable triumph in his pain and in my shame; I never wanted it to stop. My ass and dick writhed with pleasure, trying to feel the orgasm for as long as possible. I was fighting for breath, watching him in the eyes with a smug smile and a slightly raised chin.

• Take your stuff from my apartment and leave; I don't want to see you ever again. -- he said harshly but with teary eyes and turned around, little clumsy, and left.

I began nutting on my stomach, still smiling. Marco was laughing. I lost my family, my home and the only person who truly loved me and I enjoyed it with my whole, twisted, dirty being. Normal Nikola couldn't dream of ecstatic pleasure that I was feeling. I won.