Stephen and Ronan's Reconciliation.
Disclaimer: We know neither Stephen nor Ronan or any of their family members. This story is only fictional and has nothing to do with Ronan Keating's sex life and it does not mean that Stephen Gately and Ronan Keating had an affair with each other. It's pure fiction.
If you're annoyed by gay sex please don't read this and if you're under 18 don't read this either.
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MTV awards 2002. London.
Stephen was going to host the show. He couldn't believe it because his career hadn't been going well lately. The Boyzone break-up, the lack of success of his solo records, then losing his record deal, always being marked as the little cute one - no, even worse, the little gay one - in the back, and, above all, standing in the shadow of Mr Ronan "I-am-so-damn-good" Keating. But now being able to host the MTV awards was fantastic. The light at the end of a long dark tunnel.
Stephen was backstage thinking of what was going to happen in about half an hour. The thought was amazing and frightening at the same time he hadn't been in the public eye for ages. After 8 years of popstardom he had really needed this time off together with his boyfriend Eloy, their pets and lots of Disney Videos. In the beginning, lots of fans had been visiting their house but that had calmed down during the past few months and now Stephen wondered if his fans would remember him at all.
"How terrible that E can't be with me now" Stephen thought.
His boyfriend was staying back home in Amsterdam with his Mum who was in hospital. It was probably not anything serious but Eloy had decided to rather not to leave her alone.
'And apart from that you are old enough to do this by yourself', Stephen thought.
Getting more and more excited, Stephen felt an urgent need to call Eloy.
"Hallo?" a deep and warm voice answered.
"Hey baby, it's me, Steo" Stephen said. "How's your Mum?"
"She's feeling better, thanks for asking honey" Eloy said. "How about you? How's the show going?"
"Fine so far" Stephen replied. "I am really flustered though. I haven't been in the limelight for such a long time. I don't know if I can still do this."
"Of course you can! You're perfect for this job, darling, you know that. And to me, you're a star anyway!" Eloy encouraged his boyfriend, smiling. His self confidence had never been the best though Eloy could really see no reason for that.
"Thanks E, for saying that. You made me feel much better! Though I'm still not sure... " Before Stephen could finish his sentence, he was interrupted by Eloy.
"Come on, sweetheart, it's no problem, you'll be doing great! Just believe in yourself. And I'll keep my fingers crossed, ok? We have a TV here in the room so me Mum and me will be watching you tonight. How's that?"
"Awww, you are great, E. At least one of the viewers wants to see me" Stephen smiled at the thought of Eloy watching him from the hospital.
Suddenly, their conversation was interrupted by a young man who, obviously in a hurry, came over to Stephen and said in a nervous tone:
"Mr Gately would you please stop talking on the phone all the time? You gotta be on stage in only 30 minutes. Here's you notes. Come on, hurry up and prepare yourself!"
"You've heard it, Eloy. I gotta go. I'll call you back later after the show, ok?" Stephen said, a bit frustrated.
"Ok, Steo. Good luck! You're the best don't forget that! I love you." Eloy said.
"I love you too baby" Stephen replied and they hung up.
Stephen was flicking through the cards the fellow had given to him quickly but then suddenly stopped when he read a very familiar name on one of them. It was no other than his ex-bandmate Ronan Keating.
'God, I should have known that' Stephen thought to himself. 'It's such a big event. Of course he'll be there!'
He really hoped that he was not going to meet Ronan backstage because he didn't have a good word to say about this man lately. He had not wanted the Boyzone tour they had all agreed on and didn't even have the guts to tell the personally. It all broke out into a fight between basically Ronan and Shane, but Stephen and Ronan had just been ignoring each other.
Stephen forced himself not to think about it too much. This was not what he needed now. He had to go out to the stage soon! So he just sat down to collect his thoughts and waited for the show to begin.
About two hours later, when Stephen was to announce Ronan's performance, he just said "This is Ronan Keating with his new single". When Ronan came on Stage, Stephen wondered if he should watch him singing.
'Ok' he thought. 'I'll see what the big headed Mr Keating has to offer' and walked over to stand at the side of the stage.
He knew that Ronan could see him from there and for a split second he thought he had noticed Ronan looking at him. But he wasn't completely sure about that.
Stephen stood there and couldn't help thinking what it would be like if it was still all five of them performing up there on the stage. He wondered why they had let it come so far that they wouldn't even talk to each other anymore. They had been so close - like brothers. Just when Stephen started to go all sentimental, he was, for the second time, being interrupted by the young fellow.
"Your turn again" he said so Stephen went back to the stage, surprised that it was empty. He had been so lost in his thoughts that he hadn't even seen Ronan leave.
The rest of the show, he just couldn't seem to concentrate properly.
After the show, Stephen quickly called Eloy to tell him that he was totally exhausted and all he wanted was to go to bed and sleep. He'd be home in Amsterdam tomorrow.
Just when Stephen had hung up, someone bumped into him.
"Hey, what -------" Stephen didn't have a chance to finish his sentence as he saw that it was Ronan. They stared at each other for a few seconds, both speechless. Stephen wondered if he should say something but then he just gave him an awful look, turned around and went off.
Now that the worst case, i.e. an unexpected meeting with Mr Keating had happened, he even more wanted to go to the hotel and get some sleep. Totally exhausted and even more confuse, Stephen left the venue and jumped into a taxi to drive him home as soon as possible.
When he arrived in his hotel room, he just took a quick shower and then went to bed. He was tired but still he couldn't sleep because his thoughts were circling around the events of the last night. The show had been successful, he had been going through his hosting without making serious mistakes. But then, there was the thing about Ronan which wouldn't let him sleep. He wondered what kind of thoughts had been going through the other man's head when they bumped into each other. Was he feeling sorry anyway?
A knock on the door interrupted Stephen's thoughts.
"Who's there?" Stephen asked, totally puzzled that there was someone at such a late hour.
"Listen, Stephen, this is Ronan."
Stephen couldn't believe what he'd just heard. He was both, surprised and angry that apparently Ronan dared to visit him in his hotel room. He was way too curious what he wanted though, so he got up with a sigh, turned on the light and put on his bathrobe. Stephen opened the door and looked into the eyes of that blonde, good-looking man he used to be best friends with. In spite of being only 25 years old, Ronan seemed to have a lot more wrinkles since Stephen had seen him the last time. He let Ronan in and closed the door behind him.
"Can we talk?" Ronan said simply.
"Well, you know, I was already in bed and I'm really tired but..." Stephen started, not totally convinced of what he was saying.
"I really wanted to talk to you sooner, Steo." Ronan said. "But my career has been going so well lately and I didn't have too much time."
"You and your fucking career!!" Stephen was furious. How could Ro just come in, at late night, wanting to 'talk' and then talk to him like all that mattered was his career. Once again.
"That's always been the most important thing to you, Ro, hasn't it?? It's even ore important to you than your friendship which lasted for more than six years! I wouldn't be surprised if you'd leave Yvonne for your career one day!"
Ronan's face went red.
"You mustn't say that you little bum-fucker!!" He shouted back.
Stephen felt like slapping him right into his mouth full of brand new teeth but then he just said
"Piss off!" Why should he bother talking to a man like that. "Fuck off Ronan, leave this room!"
"How can you be so ungrateful now that I'm finally here to reconcile again!?" Ronan shouted without thinking of leaving.
"Yeah, once great Mr Ronan Keating comes along, everyone has to be pleased about that and obey!!" Stephen shouted back sarcastically.
"You have changed, so much, Ronan! I've never seen that any person I've bee so close to over so many years has turned into such an arrogant bastard! And that's what you are, Ronan - you have become a big-headed eejit and now, once again, please leave my room, will you! I don't want to see you here anymore. Never again!"
Apart from just being furious, Stephen now felt the pain about the loss of their friendship come up, and, even more, the disappointment about how his former friend had changed. He wanted Ronan to leave, to go away from his life forever and finally stop hurting him.
Now, there was a silence. He looked at Ronan who was just shocked by everything that Stephen had said. Stephen couldn't believe his eyes when he realised that the other man was apparently fighting against the tears. Stephen didn't know what to do. He was desperately waiting for Ronan to react but he just stood there, even paler than usually, without moving or saying a word and obviously close to tears. Stephen couldn't do anything against it but he stared to feel sorry for his former friend. He really fought this feeling. After everything this man had done to him and the other three lads it must take more than just see him crying to move Stephen.
Ronan's face went paler and paler and he leaned against the wall. Then he slowly sunk down to sit on the floor and started to cry silently.
"Am I really that bad?" he whimpered while looking down. Stephen was confused about the whole situation. Feeling his anger disappearing, he kneeled down opposite to Ronan and looked at him. He softly touched his shoulder and for the second time that day, they stared at each other without saying a word. To Stephen it seemed as if they were looking at each other for ages, though it may have been only a few seconds. He felt that this time, he had to break the silence.
"Why didn't you talk to us about it?" He asked Ronan.
"I don't know. I think I was scared. And I didn't want to face the truth myself, I suppose. I mean, that I had outgrown Boyzone." He let out a big weep as he admitted this to his friend.
Stephen sighed and gave Ronan a hug.
"It would have been easier if you'd been honest straight away", he said.
"I know." Ronan wept. "How can I ever make it up to you?" He was looking down again. Stephen had never seen Ronan like this before. Over the last two years he had always thought of Ronan as arrogant eejit who just thought of selling singled and being successful. But now he seemed totally different.
'Maybe deep inside, he's still the sensitive lad I used to know' Stephen thought. At that point Stephen was full of feelings that were confusing him. He felt totally out of control of everything he did and felt.
Stephen kissed him.
At first Ronan was puzzled and shrunk back but then he joined the kiss. Stephen felt Ronan's warm lips against his. For a split second, his thoughts wandered to Eloy who was staying back in Amsterdam with his Mum. But somehow there was no way he could resist the other man's tender lips and he started to kiss him more passionately.
Suddenly, Ronan stopped the kiss.
"Steo, we can't do this", he said, more hesitating than convinced of what he was saying.
Stephen didn't know what to say. He knew that what Ronan said was right but -even though the thought was both, surprising and scary - he so damn wanted this. He didn't care about how this was going to end. He had never had such kind of feelings for Ronan before but he had missed him over the past two years and there wasn't really anything that could hold him back now.
"If you refuse me now, that'd be very bad for my self-confidence!" Stephen said with a demanding grin. He felt that Ronan wanted it too. And yet, this time it was him who kissed Stephen while pulling him to the bed. Stephen reached out to touch Ronan's face which was still covered with tears. He felt a salty taste as he placed kisses all over the other man's cheeks, nose and lips.
Slowly, he pulled off Ronan's denim jacket and felt his bathrobe slipping away. He was about to retie the knot of its belt but Ronan noticed and put his hand under the bathrobe to stroke Stephen's chest.
"Hey, that's unfair", Stephen said with a smile.
"What's unfair?" Ronan said without stopping to stroke Stephen.
"That you can start this 'cos I'm almost naked while you are still completely dressed yourself!" Stephen replied. His voice trembled since he was aroused by the thought of Ronan putting off those tight leather trousers.
As if Ronan had guessed Stephen's thoughts, he slowly unbuttoned his pants and started to pull them down, enjoying the other man's lecherous look.
"Your turn now, remove that damn robe!" Ro said smiling . he leant over Stephen who was shaking his head. "I can't. I'm paralysed with your beauty." -
"Now it's me again doing all the work..." Ronan complained.
"At least you're used to it! I haven't been working too much lately." Stephen replied. With a big smile, Ronan untied the knot of Stephen's bathrobe. He gasped as he saw Steo's cock.
Stephen looked at Ronan wondering why he had never noticed this side of Ronan before. He was longing to feel Ro's lips touching his again and took the other man's head and pulled him down for a kiss. Ronan's lips felt so tender that Stephen was totally lost in their kissing.
Finally he noticed that although he was already completely undressed himself, the other man still wore his T-shirt and boxers. He started to pull off Ronan's white T-shirt while fondling his back. They interrupted their kissing to pull the shirt over Ronan's head. Then Stephen finally slid off Ro's boxers. He ran his fingers through his blonde hair while kissing his neck, which the other man was obviously enjoying to the full.
When they started to kiss each other again, Stephen's hands ran down Ronan's back towards his bottom which he started to caress softly. Still kissing Ro, his hands moved further to the front, reaching out for the other man's hard penis. Ronan let out a pleading moan. Stephen, aroused by the sounds Ronan was making, slowly stroked his penis up and down. Ro was now moaning even louder.
"I want you" he gasped.
"You don't need to tell me, I see myself." Stephen thought.
"Not yet, Ro. It's not your job, you're not in a hurry." Feeling that if Steo kept on stroking his cock he couldn't bear any longer Ronan started to kiss Stephen's chest and then moved down slowly.
He reached the belly button and started to lick and suck it. When he moved his tongue inside Stephen started to chuckle.
"Hey, that tickles!" but Ro didn't stop.
"I love the way you laugh." He grinned looking up at Stephen.
Though Ronan's kissing had tickled a bit Steo felt amazingly aroused by it. His little friend began to grow harder and touched Ro's hairy chest.
"What do we have here?" he asked smiling in a surprised tone. While saying this he touched the visitor who grew even harder and his owner moaned silently.
Suddenly Ronan stopped.
Startled Stephen looked down at Ronan.
"What's the matter?" Stephen asked.
"I'm not sure how to do it." Ro said helplessly. Stephen didn't say anything because he feared that he had to teach Ronan how to do a fellatio...
On the one hand Steo was embarrassed to talk about it so openly but on the other hand he so desperately wanted to satisfy him that he had to explain the other man what to do.
Turning red he stammered
"Well....... erm..... It's quite simple Ronan..... erm...... I'm sure you can do it. You just.... aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh...." Stephen couldn't finish his explanation because Ronan had already taken Steo's penis into his mouth and began to suck it passionately.
Stephen felt his blood running through his veins. What Ronan was doing to him made him shiver and excited him almost to the full. Just when he couldn't take it any more Ronan stopped and whispered
"Say my name!"
"What?" Stephen said totally confused and not knowing what was going on.
"Say my name!" he heard Ro's voice whispering again.
Still not realising what happened but so terribly wanting to continue he gasped
"Ronan..."
he felt a slight kiss on his penis.
"Say it again!"
"Ronan" Steo gasped once again and the other man kissed his erected cock licking circles around its top.
"Louder!"
"Ronan!"
Normally Stephen wasn't the loud type in bed. He was surprised that he couldn't do this and even more that saying Ronan's name excited him.
"ROOONAAAN!"
he moaned as he noticed that he would get more and more caresses each time he screamed the other man's name.
By that time his cock was inside Ro's mouth again and Stephen pressed the blonde guy's head against his body 'cause he wanted to be deep inside of him, never letting go.
With a very loud "RONAN!!!" Stephen came.
After a few moments he noticed that Ro lay snug in his arms.
"You're fantastic." Steo whispered in his ear.
The blonde guy grinned.
"You owe me something!" he said and this time Stephen didn't ignore Ronan's need.
He kissed him tenderly while he rolled over to lie on Ronan. Fondling his chest hair Steo kissed first Ronan's nose and then wandered to his right ear nibbeling his ear lobe. Ronan moaned and Stephen nibbled even more this time the left ear.
Knowing how he could turn him on he whispered
"Ronan" into the other man's ear. Feeling Ronan's excitement he moved down and stroke his thigh. Ro's voice went louder moaning and gasping. Stephen wondered how one could be so loud.
He started to suck Ronan's penis which was very erected already.
"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh............." Ronan groaned.
Slowly Stephen sat down on Ronan so that he could take Ronan's cock inside him.
Feeling that he was getting aroused himself again he moved the other man's hands towards his own penis. The blonde guy caressed it and made Stephen move forward and backward which excited Ro to the full.
Feeling that he was going to come Ronan move up and down holding Stephen's cock tight. He screamed while he was coming and felt Stephen's penis shiver in his hands. He stroke it hardly which made Stephen come as well.
They both rolled over to the side not letting go and hugging tightly.
As they drifted off to sleep Ro snuggled up in Stephen's arms feeling safe and warm.