----------------------------------------------------------------------- 1. This is all pure fiction. It doesn't imply anything on any
celebrities mentioned.
- This is a Gay Male story, if you're not gay, you're not encourage to
be here. Kid's you know you're underage don't even think of going
further.
- I must say my english is bad. I enjoyed many of the stories here,
I would like to share mine, a story to tell that is. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Finally I saw him. Face to face. It was a distance away though. This funny feeling grew stronger each day. I've tried to erase any memory of him and the harder I try it's like I'm drawn closer to him.
I hate myself, fighting with this feeling which I don't understand. I wonder what's in his mind. He got that look, when our eyes met. He looks different. There's something in his eyes. Like we've met before. He seemed to pause a bit, stunned.
And why he? He looks damn fine that is perhaps. We happened to stay in the same hotel. I knew we would meet again. And am not sure if I like the idea or not.
"Dreamer boy, wake up" I know that voice. "Yeah I dreamt that I kicked your butt, you weirdo" It was AJ, my best friend. Yes, my best friend. People thought that Nick and I are the two closest but infact it is AJ. A good pal of mine. All of them are of course, but AJ is the different.
Being in the industry you have to play along with the game. I had to be Nick's best friend as Nick is only a kid, though we all are when we first started, Nick was the youngest and the most vulnerable one. I have to take responsibility as my character fits. Kevin is the big brother no doubt about it. I missed him as my cousin. Howie is the loner but he can take care of himself. And AJ, he's different, he got so much inside him to share, I'm fortunate to be the one he trusted most. While Nick seems to be the most who cry all the time, it is AJ who actually does. He cries inside.
"You call me weirdo again, and I won't kiss you good night no more" and he made that smooch gesture. I chase him, kicking him away.
"Okay guys enough, for God's sake" Kevin at his usual. "Hey we can eat over there, it is next to a play station, if you know what I mean" Nick grins at me.
I received a call from Justin while having lunch. "Hey Bri, JC and I are in town. Say we hang out tonight both you and AJ? What do you think?" "Great! I'll let you know as I need to check the schedule, by the way AJ says hi" "Hi back. JC is here, would you like to talk to him?" I heard some noise as if they were arguing on something. "Hi Bri, how are things" JC sounded different. "Great here JC, we'll see if we can meet up with you guys later. Will call you back" "Yeah you call us Bri" I heard Justin's voice instead of JC. After lunch Nick and I played some games. I was playing but my mind was elsewhere.
The first time I saw him was when we watched 'Sleepers'. We all regretted watching it. JC was cursing away. He can't believe anyone could have made that discusting movie. That's what he said. Ironically it was he who brought the movie.
Then the 'Interview with the Vampire'. I had a dream that night. Louis the vampire did it to me and I didn't die. I woke-up finding myself having a hard-on.
He wasn't that good. I mean he's not on my list of best actors. He was with Harrison Ford on the 'Devil's Own' but the movie was a flop. "Too bad"
"Too bad my ass. What were you thinking, you nimrod. You let me win. AJ take his place will you" AJ laughs as he took my place.
I look around as saw Kevin and Howie having a discussion, something which they always do. I walk over to them.
"Hey Bri, tonight we plan to work on some songs, wanna join us?" "No thanks guys, count me out. You may try asking Nick and AJ too, but I doubt on AJ coz' Justin and JC are in town, we're going out" "No problem. Don't get into trouble ok?" "Other than getting drunk, no trouble" "I mean it" Kevin stressed. "Ok Kev, was just kidding" I called Justin, telling him the night is on and there'll be a surprise.
I was surprised to see Matt in my room as I got out of shower. He was sitting at the corner of my bed and just staring at me. He didn't say anything and I decided to play the same. Ignoring him as if no one is in the room.
The room was quiet. I was getting dressed and started to feel uneasy. It was just too quiet.
"Matt about the, that .." I look at him. He look calmed. "It's ok Brad. I don't know what to say either. Perhaps it's better to keep that way" "No it's not. It is something we need to talk about. Something happened" I said. "Was that a mistake?" He said. "I don't know. Do you?" "You like it then?" He grins. "As much as you enjoyed them" I smile. "Let's be serious here" I said further. "I'm hungry, why dont we order food and talk about it" "Sounds ok to me"
So we ate and talk. I found out that Matt, that we, were attracted to each other sexually. There were no feelings involved. Matt asked me why did I cry. And I said, I didn't know. Maybe because I was beginning to understand what's happening to myself. That I am gay. And I was afraid.
"And you were there, I felt comfort. I'm glad you were there, really" I said. "Are you gay, Matt?" I asked. "I don't know Brad, it's just that I can't resist you. You're so tempting" He smiles. "I never had this kind of lust before. It kinda worries me. You know, I might lust for someone else, another guy" He continued. "And hey, you're not gay, you're bi" Matt said convincingly. "What's the different, I fucked with you" "There were no anals involved" He grins. "I'm serious here" I paused. "No you don't. Don't get into that idea. You dirty bastard" We laughed. "What really worries me is that I might fall for a guy" I look down. A little embarrased. "I've been having this feeling for quite sometime. Strong feeling" "Too bad it wasn't me" Matt said. We both burst into laughter. "So you gonna tell me who's this guy?" Matt asked half laughing. "Not now. I'll let you know when it's time. As I'm not sure myself yet" I said "You loverboy, so pathetic" Matt said. "You know what, you look so angelic yet you can be the most sarcastic person I've ever met" Feeling a little mad, I stand up. "Yeah and you were so innocent, getting me drunk and fucked me" He gets up. "That reminds me, I won the race last night, you loser"
Matt was about to jump on me when the phone rang. He grab the phone before I got them.
"Yes, and who's this" "Oh, Sting, what a surprise, it's ok, yeah last night, I remember.." I grab the phone from him. "I'm Brad that was Mr. Demon" "You mean Matt Damon?" Sting laughs. "That's good then, both of you there. You see the boys asked me out again tonight, same bar. Thought I need some adult company" "No problem here, for Matt you need to speak to him directly, coz he's a fan" I passed the phone to Matt chuckling away. I sat down on the sofa and turn on the tv. "Hi Sting, sorry for the stunt earlier, didn't mean to" "Which boys?" "Oh. I wish I can come. I got something on tonight, however this Brat will of course. Do me a favor get him drunk and make him call my name for help will ya? It's payback time" "You're staying here? Which floor? Oh I'll let him know" He put down the phone.
Matt told me that Sting and BSB stay in the same hotel. We are to meet at the bar at 10pm. Matt must have noticed the expression on my face when he said...
"You look excited. Don't tell me you fall for an old man" I look at him and I just laugh. I laugh so hard I was on the floor laughing. "You're crazy man" He said. He lands on the sofa.
We continue chatting. We didn't talk about it anymore, I guess we decided to let it pass. I wonder what would happen tonight. I must admit that, what Matt and I had earlier somehow get me an idea or at least feeling more comfortable, a sense of confidence. I have to get to know this guy. It is now or never. I need to make the first step, after all I'm older. And how old is he?