I have been straight all my life but recently discovered curiosity for the other side. I don't know how it happened or why it's happening but it's there.
A few years ago, I took a trip with a big group of close friends to Barcelona and tried cocaine for the first time. It felt... amazing. It was every other day. Doing it in the bathroom, bedroom, places we went out too. From there I was hooked.
Coming back to the states I realized that everytime i did cocaine, I got so so so horny; and it was up to the point where I would leave early just to go home and explore porn.
One night, I got on Grindr and met with a shemale. Upon arrival, she was more of a crossdresser. But she had an amazing ass. I paid a total of $50. What made me do this? Till this day I have no idea. I was drunk out of my mind and high as ever. On top of that I was driving. But I made it safely. Thank God...
First things first, she collected her money. From there we started making out. I don't know what happened but I went straight for her cock. A nice shaved cock, the color of caramel. I must say it tasted very good. And it was getting hard. I knew from getting head myself from previous girls, not to use teeth. Use tongue and suck it freely. From there, I pulled out my cock.
I have the most beautiful cock. I am obsessed with it. Uncut, 8 inches. I have small balls but the cock makes up for it. Sometimes I wish I can suck my own cock but I am not flexible AT ALL.
That was my second time with a shemale, but my first time sucking cock. Honestly, it was amazing. Sober I wouldn't do this, but something about being high makes so so horny.
What do I do when I get high and horny?
I sit on my bed and look up men on Instagram. They have amazing pages. And it really depends what I am in the mood for. Sometimes mucles, hunks, ouu I love towels. Especially when you can see there hard cock and the towel is only being held by it. I love daddy's and dilfs. But they have to be fit and smooth.
From time to time I find myself on Grindr looking for men to chat with. Not really any luck.
I actually have 2 gay neighbors that live across the street. You can see the flag hanging in the front yard. I've been hoping that one day I find them on Grindr or maybe a quick hello. One of them is Indian and the other is Caucasian. For some reason the Caucasian catches my attention. I haven't spoken to them in years, but they seem to be really in love and I doubt something will ever happen. But the thoughts do run me wild.
There was one time I went to go see a psychic and during the card reading, he just randomly asked me if I was into guys. That he sees a guy entering my life and nobody would just understand. He also offered to give me head so who knows if he was just adding himself into the loop. Really weird and crazy. I would never. But, I do enjoy the compliments he was giving. I would give dry answers on text, but man, he knew how to say the right things.
Who knows where this journey will lead me. I am kind've excited to see. For now, until I find the right one, let my hornyness kick in baby!
Best, Edwin CRUZ