Chapter Four. Brandon's assent.
Dear Justin,
I fell asleep last night feeling the hug you gave me. It's been a long time since I've been hugged, and I reveled in it and really felt your hand on my back. I thank you for this wonderful gift.
I do have a lot of work to get done and a lot of that includes reading, so unfortunately I have to keep this brief but promise to write more tomorrow after class.
I just wanted to let you know that, much to my awesome surprise, I gladly assent to everything you have proposed to me in your email to me. I know that this means that my life as I knew it has come to an end and I am being remade into someone whose main purpose is to hear those words from you, "Good boy." I promise to be your good boy.
I did jerk off after reading your email several times and staying hard through all of it. My body is telling me what my mind has been sluggish to accept. When I jerked off, my thoughts were about my nakedness and how your friends will examine me and possibly make comments. I yearn to be naked for you, Sir, and to be displayed however you want me. I thought of being on display, on learning more about pain from your hands, and about being under your control and training. I hope and pray that I will please you and that you will be able to be patient with my lack of experience. I did think of having my face buried in your pits and taking in their scent, and when I did that I ended up cumming hard and strong, and I actually put my hand to my mouth and licked up some of my own cum which is something my friend Gary got me to do.
I understand that it is your cum that will be my main meal for the first time in my life, and that as your sub I have no right to cum myself when I am with you. As you wish, Sir; you know what is best for a sub like me. Please be patient.
I will go to the campus store after class tomorrow morning and will buy baby powder (I've seen it there so I know it is available) and nice soap, probably Dove since I know they have it on the shelves. I will happily prepare my body the way you told me to. I will do this right before driving to your home. Yes, I do have a car on campus.
I called Gary and told him what was happening and he was happy for me and encouraged me to be a good boy. His school is two hundred miles from mine, so we won't get together until Thanksgiving break. He said he misses me and he misses the way I would do whatever he wanted and that he got to call me names when his dick was in my mouth. He is glad that I'm being trained to being a better cocksucker; he is proud that I finally realize how much I need to be a sub for a good gay man.
There, I really have to go read for class tomorrow. I know you are changing my life, and I believe it when my mind tells me that it will be good for me to surrender myself to you.
One funny thing happened during the night. I woke up in the middle of the night and this man appeared to me, all dressed in leather, with a beautiful face, and he kept smiling at me and nodding his head to me. He had dirty blond hair and intense eyes that drew me in. Whoever it was, It seems that he approves of where I am heading. It made all the notes to this email sing together in a type of harmony I have never heard before. Maybe you know all about this.
I have to stop, really, Sir. I promise more later. Thank you for being willing to "try something new" as you told me.
gratefully,
Brandon
Four hours later:
Dear Justin,
I got through all my classes and now can write a little more as I promised. I hope my writing lets you learn more about me and pleases you.
You asked about Gary. We were friends ever since kindergarten and lived right next door to one another. We often had sleepovers, either at his place or mine. When we were 12, most of the guys in our gym class had started growing pubes except for me and one Mexican guy. WE were made fun of, and even sometimes Gary would tease me, and every time we were together he would ask me to let him check for hair growing in. It got to be regular thing and I complained the he was viewing my private area and I was never getting to see him, so we had this deal where we would both strip off our underwear in front of each other. Gary discovered the joys of masturbation before me, too, but he taught me how to do it, and every time we were together we would watch each other jerking off. The one day, Gary asked me to play with his dick and make him feel good and he would do the same for me. I agreed and was beginning to think he was gay like me, but he eventually got a girl friend and when whenever we jerked off he would talk about her a lot and it made it hard to cum for me. Of course, I got teased about that and he made up a rule that I had 30 seconds to cum after him or I wouldn't get to cum at all. That happened a lot.
Eventually we were giving each other hand jobs every time we got together, and now we stripped all the way. Gary was the first to get it from me and then after that he would take care of me. A lot of times I just didn't cum much. I found out that I don't like it when someone pays attention to my dick. Well things went along like this for a while until one day in the gym showers Gary realized that I was always looking at other guys' dicks. That night he confronted me and got me to admit that I was pretty sure I was gay. He said it didn't matter that he was still my friend. And we got even closer and he was always looking out for me because rumors were going around that I was a fag.
Finally one night he told me that since I was gay and he wasn't, he didn't want to touch my dick any more (which was fine for me), but that he thought he should be the first guy I ever gave a bj to. And so I did it two or three times a week. He told me to keep my hands on his thighs and maybe balls and never to touch myself while I was doing him and it helped me realize how much of a sub I was. So I would suck his dick (actually I was mainly just jerking him off with my hands with the end of his dick in my mouth. I started letting him cum in my mouth, which he really liked, but I wouldn't swallow it but spit it out into a rag. Finally he said he wanted me to learn what it was like to take the load and swallow and so I got my first taste of cum. Usually, after Gary got to cum he would lie there and watch me jerk off and talk real dirty to me about what a fag I was and how many cocks I would get to suck over the years. He also liked to call me cocksucker and faggot and bitch and it all got me very hot. One night after I spilled my load, he said he wanted to see me eat it off my hand and swallow it. At first I objected, but finally he convinced me. After all, I was already swallowing his cum, why not swallow mine? So I did. So this happened all through high school. We went together with dates to the senior prom and after the prom Gary went to a hotel room with his girlfriend. The date I was with tried to get me to do the same, but I said I had an upset stomach and took her home. I was very sad that Gary was screwing his girlfriend and not being with me. I went home alone and got into bed and fell asleep and in the middle of the night, Gary came into my house and got in bed with me. He said he had a real good time but he felt bad about leaving me alone so he thought we would sleep together but nothing happen because he shot his load at the hotel. The next morning he got up earlier than me and showered and then came back into my room naked and hard and asked me to kneel on the floor and suck him off. I was happy he asked me that and it was the first I ever kneeled down in front of another dude. From then on, he always wanted me to suck him off while I was on my knees.
Yes, we are still friends. He has a serious girlfriend but calls or texts me a lot and says he misses our good times together but realized that it was time for us to move on. I told him about the glory hole and he was happy to hear that I was sucking cock a lot. I called him to tell him about you and he's really happy for me and wants me to know how things work out. He's hoping we can get together and "live old times" when we're home for Thanksgiving. So that's about all. I told him I'd let him know if things develop between you and me, Sir.
I will try to be the best good boy you ever had, Sir, and I understand that sometimes you might have to punish me and knowing we will have that kind of relationship is turning me on. And you're right about seeking a Dad. Gary's Dad was pretty good to me after mine died and he would often include us in family things, so I wasn't completely left without a male mentor, but he didn't know I was becoming a fag, and now that I think back, I was practicing being a sub with Gary and he developed a very Dom nature with me with all his decisions and rules and getting me to do things, especially kneeling before him. So I had two male leaders in that one house!
I promise to stay off Nifty and no, I have never watched bdsm videos so I will obey you in both of these things. Besides, it's turning out that I'm spending most of my old "Nifty time" writing to you. As you know, this campus is pretty cool about having gay guys around and so a lot of us are very open with one another and there is an area of the cafeteria where we hang out together, several of us gay guys. Sometimes some jock will come by and ask for a bj, and whenever I was there I always offered myself and I'm glad you want me to keep sucking. There are two jocks who like me to take care of them and they are roommates, so whenever they call me I go and suck their dicks. They make me to strip to my underpants but say they don't want to have to look at my junk. Usually they are watching some porn when I am sucking them off. They say I am improving. The other night, the night before I was with you, they were watching a porn video where some girl was getting spanked and one of the guys said he wants to try spanking me. I told him I'd think about it. Please let me know what you think about that, Justin. Should I let him spank me or not? I'll leave the decision up to you, just like you told me you'd be making a lot of decisions for me from now on.
Right now I feel eager to do what you ask me to do because I think I can trust you. If you want me to be naked in front of your roommates, then I will do so as long as you don't leave me alone with them. If I be your sub, Sir, does that mean that they can do what they want to me also? I'm a little worried about that.
The roommates I'm sucking off don't care about me cumming, so I'm developing that attitude that their cocks are more important than mine. I was with them last night and gave both of them blow jobs and then they told me to leave right away. Usually I would j/o after being with them, but last night I decided I wouldn't let myself. I read somewhere that a real sub gets more satisfaction from the Dom's orgasms than his own, and so I'm starting to understand. So last night when I fell asleep without jerking off (which is rare for me), I just laid there in the bed and thought about what it was like to be sucking their cocks and that was how I fell asleep. Your cock, Sir, is a lot nicer then theirs, though.
Your friends were right. I do use baby powder at times but it's hard to do it here at U because I'm afraid of pissing off my roommate (his name is Clyde) by getting it all over the floor so I'm doing it in the dorm shower area and the floor is almost always wet so it doesn't really matter if I get some on the floor.
I went to get soap and all they had was Irish Spring so I got that, and also a soap dish so I can keep my own soap separate from the dorm stuff—which, I agree with you, is horrible. I'll enjoy getting myself ready for you on Friday night. And I do have a car so I'll be able to drive to you. If you're not too far from me would it be okay if I just rode my bike to you, Sir?
I'm really excited about burying my face in your pubes, Sir, and the idea of sniffing your armpits after a day without deodorant is getting me very hot. Never did anything like that before so I'll be giving up that part of my virginity when you order me to take care of your pits, Sir. Can't wait. Think about a lot during the day and I find that now I'm always checking to see if I can spot other guys' underarm hair.
Do you want me to put on deodorant after I shower Friday night or should I just stick to baby power. I'll do what you decide, Sir.
Thanks for your phone number. In my phone I simply labelled it "Dom" hahahaha.
Sir, when I read what you said about protecting me, there were tears in my eyes. Sure, Gary used to look out for me at times, but there's never been anyone in my life other than my mother who cared about making sure I am "safe and happy." Or thought of themselves as my "protector." Damn. This is intense for me and it makes me even more positive that I want to be your sub and make you happy too.
I have no idea what you expect from me on Friday night and that is actually okay. I'm not going to think too much about it. Oh, by the way, I have to work on a paper due Monday. Can you make sure I have time to do that work? Should I bring my laptop with me when I come on Friday? Am I free to make any other plans for the weekend or do you want me to just be available for you?
Gee, I realize I'm asking a lot of questions and leaving the answers up to me. Yes, Sir, you are beginning to control my life, and I think that for the first time since my Dad died, I feel that little boy you keep talking about, and that just like a kid usually just has to go along with what Dad decides, I like feeling like you are calling the shots about a lot of things already.
Thank you for telling me you feel I'm worth it. That's a good feeling and when I start torturing myself by thinking I'm not enough for you, those words stick out and I stop worrying.
That's all for now. I'm keeping my phone on all the time except for when I'm in class.
Oh, and Clyde is getting to be a pain. I'll tell you more next time.
Have a nice day, Justin. Can't wait to see you.
Brandon
END OF CHAPTER FOUR
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