Tapping

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Tapping

By Kit

This is a story about a gay teen male and may involve sexual activity between males, so if this is likely to offend you, or is illegal where you live then do not read any further.  All the events and characters in this story are fictional and any resemblances to real people are purely coincidental.

The story is copyright of the author and may not be distributed or placed on any web sites without written permission from the author.  

I would like to thank my editor, Richard Lyon, for his hard work and encouragement and also Richie Ryan for his moral support.  Any remaining errors are purely my own fault.  

If you like this story or have any comments about it, please feel free to send me an email .   I will respond to all emails except flames.

Kit
kitzyma@yahoo.com

Chapter 9

A Clean Slate

The Saturday before Christmas had been chosen for the Christmas/Housewarming party and despite my dread of having to socialise with so many people, for Dad's sake I approached the event with as good grace as I could muster.  I was pleased that Tony had been able to accept my invitation and not quite so pleased that Gran and Auntie Kath would also be there.  The Crawfords would of course attend, together with Chris and his mum, and Brian had asked if he could bring a girlfriend.  Dad had invited a handful of people from the village as well as a couple of dozen people from work, most of whom would be bringing spouses or partners. 

Overall, about seventy people were expected, so it was fortunate that Mrs Crawford and her sons had offered to help with preparations.  Tony had arranged to arrive on the Friday evening, just a few hours after Gran and Auntie Kath, so there were plenty of people around on Saturday to help get the house ready.  However, from the Saturday afternoon chaos it seemed to be more a case of 'too many cooks spoiling the broth' rather than 'many hands making light work'.  Fortunately, Dad had arranged for food to be provided by caterers from Alnwick.

Auntie Kath had appointed herself to be in charge of putting up festive decorations and had conscripted Brian and Tony to do the actual work, with me and Tom as 'gophers'.  By mid afternoon most of the decorating was done and Auntie Kath was ordering final tweaks when Brian spoke up.

"Wait a minute," he said, "There's something missing."

"What's missing?" Auntie Kath asked, irritated at an apparent criticism of her work.

"There's no mistletoe," Brian said, "There has to be mistletoe at a Christmas party."

"I don't think it's supposed to be that sort of party," Auntie Kath said snootily.

"Anyway," I added, amazing myself by agreeing with my aunt, "it's more of a housewarming party."

"Then why have all these Christmas decorations?" Brian asked, scoring a point.

"Yeah, with Christmas decorations we should have mistletoe," Tony chipped in, his eyes twinkling, then he turned to Brian and in a stage whisper he added, "Your girlfriend will be bringing a couple of cute friends won't she?"

"I'm sure that can be arranged!" Brian laughed.

Auntie Kath shook her head in mock disgust, but she couldn't completely hide her smile.

"In that case I'll go and get the mistletoe," Tom said with a big grin, then he turned to me and added, "C'mon Mark, I know where there's some good plants in the woods."

Although I wasn't enthusiastic about the mistletoe, I was glad to have an excuse to be alone with Tom and there was also the added bonus of getting some time away from Auntie Kath.  The weather was cold and cloudy but it was dry and there wasn't much wind so I enjoyed the walk down to the woods. 

"Brian loves mistletoe," Tom said jovially as we crossed the stream, "Last Christmas he didn't have a girlfriend and at the party in the village hall he used the mistletoe as an excuse to snog half the girls there."

"Yeuch!" I commented without thinking.

"What's the matter," he joked, "don't you like the idea of kissing girls?"

"Not really.  At least not if you mean snogging."

I didn't add that I didn't like the idea of kissing at all.  As far as I was concerned a kiss with closed lips was okay even on the mouth, and in fact the kiss that Tom had given me in that way was great.  However, I found Tony's descriptions of snogging girls with 'tongues down throats' quite unpleasant and his use of the term 'swapping spit' made me queasy.

"It's not really so bad, you know!" Tom said, laughing.

"You've snogged girls, then?" I asked, a little surprised. 

"A couple of times, but not since last year's Christmas party."

"Under the mistletoe?"

"Yep," he nodded, "I must admit I was a bit merry... well, quite drunk, actually."

"And before that?"

"When I was twelve... trying to decide if I was gay or not."

"And boys?" I asked, unable to hide a pang of jealousy, "How many boys have you snogged?"

"Just one," he said, detecting my mood and becoming more serious, "and just a couple of times."

Paradoxically, I wanted to ask who but I also didn't want to know the answer.  As Tony often said, I'm weird. 

"It was only Chris," Tom volunteered into the silence, "and it was a couple of years ago." 

"And I suppose it was much more fun than the girls?" I couldn't help asking.

"A bit better," he admitted, "but it felt odd... a bit like kissing a brother."

By this time we'd reached a tree with a large growth of mistletoe and I would have been happy to let the topic drop, but Tom had other ideas.

"How about you then," he asked, "How many girls and boys have you snogged?"

"None."

"What, neither, ever?" he asked as if he didn't quite believe me, "But you're so..."

"Neither.  Never," I said firmly, making it clear that the subject was closed.

oo00oo

Considering that I generally dislike parties, that I always hate being in large crowds and that this was the biggest party I'd ever attended, my evening was more pleasant than I'd expected.  Tom, Tony and I spent much of the time together while Brian spent most of the time with his girlfriend.  Chris and his mum arrived early but left after only about an hour and before leaving he came to say goodbye but didn't offer any explanation for their early departure.  Gran and Auntie Kath appeared to be getting on well with Mr and Mrs Crawford and I briefly pondered the fact that Auntie Kath was always so charming with adults but so bossy and critical with kids, especially me.  Although she didn't seem to actually dislike children she often appeared to be uncomfortable when she had to interact with them, and I wondered why she was like that.

Most of the night I kept as close to Tom as I could without being indiscreet, though several times I noticed Mrs Crawford looking at us with a knowing expression.  Although I tried to keep on the edges of the party, Dad kept finding me and introducing me to his work colleagues, whose names I would immediately forget.  During the course of the evening I developed a taste for a rose wine that seemed to be in plentiful supply, so by midnight, when Gran came over to our little group, I was quite merry. 

"I'm off to bed now," she said, "at my age late-night parties can be a bit of a strain."

Although I knew she was sixty-something, I wasn't sure exactly how old she was.  In any case she was very fit for her age and I resisted the temptation to point out that I too found parties a bit of a strain. 

"Oh, and I've got some good news for you, Tony," she added, "You'll be able to have an extra hour in bed on Tuesday.  As she's got the week off, Mrs Crawford has invited me and Kath to go with her to the Metro Centre for some last-minute Christmas shopping and she said she can give you a lift into Newcastle on the way."

Tony was going home on the Tuesday morning and Dad had previously arranged to give him a lift to Newcastle railway station.  However, Dad had a meeting at work that morning so it would have meant that Tony would have to leave the house early and wait for almost two hours at the station.

"That's great, Gran," Tony said with a semi-drunken grin.

Although she obviously wasn't Tony's gran, he'd started calling her that soon after he met her and as she didn't seem to mind he'd continued to do so ever since.  Maybe it was something to do with the fact that both of his grandmothers had died when he was still only a baby.

Soon after midnight I noticed that the party was thinning out and that Brian was having a prolonged session with his girlfriend under the mistletoe.  By two o'clock the only people left in the house were those of us staying there and Tom

Having cleared away the leftover food, we were all in the kitchen when Dad decided we should get some sleep before doing the remainder of the cleaning up.  He then asked if anyone wanted a liqueur coffee, but Auntie Kath was the only one to take up his offer.  Tony, who was more than a little inebriated, announced that he was going to bed and went upstairs.  That was Tom's cue to say goodnight, and I was just about to offer to escort him to the door when he made a point of asking me to do so. 

As we climbed up the stairs from the kitchen Tom took hold of my hand and I anxiously looked behind me to make sure we were out of sight of Dad and Auntie Kath.  When we got up to the hallway, instead of making his way to the cloakroom Tom led me toward the larger 'reception room', which had remained unused until the party.

"Where are you going?" I asked, my voice barely more than a whisper.

"C'mon.  You'll see," he replied, gently tugging me through the doorway.

The lights in that room had already been switched off so it was illuminated only by the light from the hallway and the faint starlight coming through the large French windows at the far end of the room.  At that point I guessed that he had taken me there for a private word or maybe a discreet goodnight hug, but when he continued to pull me gently across the room I began to doubt the accuracy of my guess.  We came to a halt in front of the French windows and he gently turned me around so that I was facing him with my back almost touching the glass.  

"Close your eyes," he said.

As soon as he said that I remembered that above our heads, invisible in the darkness, was the mistletoe. 

"Why?" I asked nervously, stalling for time.

"Trust me."

Maybe if I'd been perfectly sober I might have made up some excuse or found a way to wriggle out of the situation without hurting Tom's feelings.  As it was, my only choice was to trust him and do as he asked or risk hurting his feelings.  So realising that I had no real choice at all, I closed my eyes.

Tom released my hand and stepped closer so that the I could feel his chest touch mine.

"Relax," he whispered, sensing my tension.

I felt his lips touch mine and when his tongue brushed against my lips a shiver ran down my spine.  Then he put his arms around me, holding me gently but firmly, and his tongue began to probe between my lips.  Again I had a choice that was not really a choice at all, and I offered no resistance when his tongue pushed forward.  When his tongue touched mine an electric charge seemed to pass from my mouth through my whole body until I could feel my fingertips tingle.  My body shook and he removed his lips from mine while continuing to hold me in his arms.

"Want me to stop?" he asked, concerned.

"N-no," I said, the pounding of my heart causing my voice to tremble, "But..."

"But?"

"B-but I don't know what to do."

"Just do what feels right for you," he said, then resumed his kiss.

After a few seconds I started to get the hang of things and began to return the kiss by copying his actions.  His hands were rubbing and kneading my back and I realised that I'd been keeping my own arms stiffly at my sides, so I reached out and hugged him tightly.  That's when I felt the hardness in his crotch and noticed that I too was as hard as I'd ever been in my life.

Yes, I know that to most people it probably sounds odd that a modern-day boy should be sixteen when he first learns to kiss, but I've never denied that I may be a bit weird.  All I can say in my own defence is that I was a quick learner and that my efforts seemed to have been appreciated by Tom, who began to produce occasional low moans of pleasure.  I came to the conclusion that 'swapping spit' wasn't as disgusting as it sounded and in fact with the right person it was extremely exciting.  Time stood still for me as we kissed and gently ground our crotches together.  Then I heard footsteps in the hallway and froze. 

Opening my eyes I saw my dad silhouetted against the light from the hallway.  Quickly, I reached the conclusion that the risk of being detected by movement was greater than the risk of staying still, even in that compromising position.  Therefore, I hugged Tom even more tightly and pressed my lips harder against his.  He too had heard the sounds behind him and wisely deciding to follow my lead, he stood perfectly still.  Then I heard my aunt's voice speaking quietly in the hallway.

"Is something the matter, Martin?"

"No," Dad replied, moving away from the doorway, "I just thought I heard a noise, but there's nothing there."

"That's the trouble with these old houses," Auntie Kath commented with a slightly drunken giggle, "there's always something going creak in the night."

"Yes," Dad responded with good humour, "but we get used to it.  Anyway, you go off to bed and I'll check that everything is locked up down here."

"Okay, see you in the morning.  Sleep tight."

"Yes. Goodnight."

On hearing this, I became aware of some physical discomfort caused by the fact that since I'd heard the footsteps in the hallway my muscles had been rigid and my joints locked.  However, I still didn't allow myself to relax until I heard a second person going upstairs and saw that the hallway lights went off.  Tom then disconnected his lips from mine, which by that time were feeling rather numb.

"Phew!" he whispered.

"You can say that again!" I responded, equally quietly.

"Phew!" he said and giggled.

"Shhhh!" I hissed.

"I'd better be going."

"I s'pose."

Although I agreed that he ought to be going home, I was reluctant to cease our embrace and didn't want to be the first to disengage.  Apparently he felt the same because he too remained with his arms around me and his chin resting on my shoulder.  Eventually, with a sigh, I let my arms drop to my side and almost immediately he released me. 

Fortunately the room was relatively bare, so we managed to make our way to the hallway without bumping into anything.  After retrieving his coat I opened the front door for him, taking great care to minimise any sound. 

"I'll see you tomorrow when I come over to help with the rest of the clearing up," he whispered as he stepped across the threshold.

"Great," I whispered back, "but not too early, though!"

"Okay," he said with a grin, then he kissed me on the cheek and added, "And thanks."

"I think I should be thanking you."

"Maybe," he replied, "but what I meant was thanks for trusting me."

He turned and walked down the drive, quickly disappearing into the darkness.  I carefully closed and locked the door and as quietly as possible went to up to bed.  As I made my way up the stairs, however, a thought occurred to me: if Dad had thought he'd heard a noise in the large reception room, why hadn't he turned on the light?

oo00oo

Because three of the six bedrooms were occupied by guests I was relegated to a fold-away bed in the bare bedroom adjacent to the 'old' guest room where Tony was now sleeping.  As on their previous visit, Gran was in my room and Auntie Kath was in the 'new' guest room.  Even before I undressed for bed I could feel the cold dampness in my briefs where pre-cum had been leaking during my kissing session, but when I stripped off my briefs I was surprised to see just how large and soggy the wet patch was. 

My dick, still half hard from our kissing, now became fully erect, and as soon as I lay down on the bed I started wanking.  Within just a couple of minutes a large volume of ejaculate was spread from my belly button to my chin, and after a quick clean-up I immediately fell asleep.  Then the nightmare began.

This nightmare was completely different from all the earlier ones.  There was no deep sadness, no difficulty breathing, no tapping, and I was not alone.  I was curled up in a foetal position on a bed with a tall figure standing over me and beating me with a cane.  Although I was too busy protecting my head with my arms to try to identify this man, I knew that I hated him with all my heart and that this hatred was based on something apart from the beating. 

Strangely, I didn't actually feel any direct pain from the vicious blows, a fact for which in retrospect I'm profoundly grateful.  However, I did feel the distress that was produced by the presumed pain, especially when I thought I heard a rib crack under the onslaught.  The man didn't say a word, but I heard him grunt with the effort he put behind the blows and I knew that he wanted to make me cry and beg for mercy.  Thus, the only way I could defeat him was to refuse to cry and the only way I could do that was to channel the pain into my hatred of him.

I've no idea how long the nightmare lasted but subjectively it was a very, very long time.  Thankfully, though, I fell into a deep unconsciousness that lasted until I woke up to the mid-morning daylight.  As soon as I tried to move I was frozen by stabs of very real pain that appeared to be spread over my arms, back and sides.  Recalling the nightmare, I briefly wondered if I had indeed been beaten during the night.  However, examination of my arms and sides showed no signs of bruising or marks of any sort, and later in the bathroom mirror I confirmed a lack of any marks on my sore back.

While I dressed I gave considerable thought to the nightmare and its possible significance, especially as it was so different from my previous nightmares at Prospect House. The emotional after-effects of this latest experience were even greater than the others, and remembering it made me shiver.  This was not only because of the degree of physical violence involved but also because I would never have believed I could hate anyone with the intensity of hatred I'd felt toward the man in the dream.

Perhaps I was picking up something from Edward's experience or maybe the nightmare was based upon what Tom had told me when he showed me his 'box of treasures'.  In either case, the question arose as to why this particular nightmare occurred now, months after my arrival at Prospect House and weeks after Tom told me about Edward.  I wondered if the timing of this horrible dream was related to my snogging session with Tom and my fear of the consequences if Dad had caught us. 

oo00oo

By the time Tom and Brian came over to help with clearing up, my back and sides were much less painful and stiff, although they were still somewhat tender and very sensitive to even the lightest touch.  As Tom appeared to be happy and healthy I assumed that he'd not had any nightmares the previous night.  However, with post-party cleaning and three house guests to look after I didn't get a chance to be alone with him that day. 

That afternoon, while Tony, Brian, Tom and myself were in the kitchen taking a break from our labours, Tony announced that he really needed to do some Christmas shopping before he went home.  His tone and the look he gave me were very apologetic as he knew that two of my greatest aversions were Christmas and shopping, so he realised that the combination of both of them would be an abomination to me. 

"I s'pose we could go into Newcastle tomorrow," I said without enthusiasm.

"You don't have to go," Tony said sympathetically, "I'm sure I can manage on my own."

Before I could protest that I couldn't let him wander around a strange city on his own, Brian spoke up.

"Tell you what," he said, "I'll go to Newcastle with you... I want to get a couple of things anyway, so I can make sure you don't get lost."

As Monday was the last full day of Tony's visit and I had been looking forward to spending it with him, I was horrified at the thought that he and Brian would go into the city and leave me here. 

"No, that's okay," I said a little too defensively, "I can go with Tony."

"Why don't we both go with him?" Brian suggested reasonably, "After all, you're new here and I know Newcastle like the back of my hand."

There was no way I could argue with that, so I nodded my agreement even though I would have preferred to have had Tony to myself for the day.

"I'll come too!" Tom added enthusiastically, then after a quick look at his brother he added in a more subdued tone, "If that's okay?"

The fact that Tom had volunteered to go anywhere with his brother took both Brian and me by surprise, and while we recovered Tony spoke up for all of us.

"Yes," he said, matching Tom's initial enthusiasm, "That would be great!"

oo00oo

Everyone except Tony was very tired that night, still recovering from the party, and so Gran, Dad and Auntie Kath had all gone to bed before eleven o'clock.  However, Tony wanted to stay up and watch a movie on TV so I, as a good host, kept him company.  Although my back was much better, it was still sore and in an attempt to get comfortable I kept rearranging the cushions behind me.

"What's the matter, Mr Fidgety?" Tony asked.

"Nothing really.  My back's just a bit sore, that's all."

"Well it can't be from working too hard!" Tony laughed, "Cos the Great Dictator had me and Brian doing the heavy stuff."

The image of Auntie Kath dressed in military uniform and jack boots made me smile. 

"That's a disadvantage of being big and muscular," I joked.

"So what's the problem with your back?" he asked, becoming a little more serious, "You seemed to be okay last night."

"Like I said, it's just a bit sore.  Maybe I just slept in a bad position on that little fold-away."

Well, I thought to myself, there was a chance that may not have been a lie.  After all, maybe the uncomfortable bed had triggered the nightmare. 

"Maybe we should swap beds tonight," he suggested.

"Thanks for the offer, but if the bed's too cramped for me it would cripple you."

"Still..."

"Still nothing," I interrupted, "it's only for two more nights and anyway I'm not even sure it's the bed's fault."

For just a couple of minutes he watched the movie on TV then turned back toward me with a slight frown.

"You've not been having more nightmares have you?" he asked.

This startled me because unless he'd been reading my mind it seemed unrelated to the previous conversation.

"Eh?" I sputtered, "Oh... well, just a couple."

"Did you talk to your dad about them, like I said you should?"

From his expression and tone it was clear that he expected my answer to be negative, so it gave me a small childish pleasure to prove him wrong.

"Actually I did," I said with a slightly smug smile, then went on to tell him about my discussion with Dad, though I didn't mention the broken window.

"You've not had any since then?" he asked.

I hesitated before answering, and because he knew me so well he could tell that no matter what I actually said, the true answer was 'yes'.

"You have, haven't you?" he said, almost as an accusation.

"Welllll...." I prevaricated, "It wasn't the same sort of nightmare, just a one-off bad dream.  And before you ask, no, I haven't told my dad cos it was totally different from the others and anyway, I've not had a chance yet." 

"You should."

"Maybe," I replied, knowing that I wouldn't.

Again his attention appeared to return to the TV for just a couple of minutes before he spoke again, but this time his eyes remained on the screen.  The fact that since we'd sat down he'd not spent much time looking at the TV made me suspect that there had been an ulterior motive to his original idea of watching the movie.

"You and Tom seem to be getting on very well nowadays," he said in neutral tone.

"Well, once you get to know him he's easy to get on with."

He gave me an enquiring look, clearly wanting me to go into more detail, but I wasn't yet ready for that.  However, rather than risk hurting his feelings by just ignoring his curiosity, I decided to try and make light of it.

"Don't worry," I said, "You're still my best friend."

That seemed to keep him happy and we returned to watching the movie.  

oo00oo

Of the day spent shopping in the crowded city I will say only this: it would not have been out of place if it were added as an extra circle to Dante's Hell.  I can't imagine making such a sacrifice for anyone other than Tony or Tom.  That night I was exhausted and made irritable by Tony's imminent departure, so I was not in the best of moods when Dad came to my room just after I'd got into bed.

"Mark," he said, "remember I told you that with my new job I'd have to go to the company's head office occasionally?"

In fact, I didn't remember at all, but I was happy to take his word for it, so I nodded. 

"Well, I have to go for a meeting early in January... just about three weeks from now."

I just looked at him blankly, wondering why he had come to my bedroom to tell me this and indeed why he was bothering to tell me at all.  When I didn't respond, Dad spoke again.

"The meeting is in New York state," he said patiently, as if explaining something to a child, "You know, in the USA?"

"Yes, I knew that," I said irritably, "But you've been to meetings abroad lots of times.  What's so special about this?"

"But in the past," he said and sighed, possibly beginning to realise he'd chosen a bad time, "Elaine used to look after you while I was away.  She can't do that now."

"Daaad!" I whined in protest, "I'm sixteen now and quite capable of looking after myself... and anyway, Mrs Crawford will be in every day."

"Yes, under normal circumstances I'd agree with you, but with these nightmares you've been having... well, I don't want you to be left alone at night, and I was thinking of asking your gran or Auntie Kath to stay here while I was away."

For a couple of seconds I was made speechless by the horrific prospect of being 'looked after' for a week by Auntie Kath.  Dad, probably expecting my reaction, took a half-step backward and gave me a look which mingled concern with ill-concealed amusement.

"No way!" I said eventually, "I'd rather take my chances with the nightmares!"

"I'm sure you would," he replied with a wry grin, then with a more serious expression he added, "but I'm not sure I want to take a chance.  That's why I'm here now, because if I'm going to ask your gran or Auntie Kath then it would be best to ask them while they're here."

Trying to calm my racing mind, I attempted to think of a suggestion that would placate Dad without involving my aunt or my gran.  Only one possibility came to me, but I doubted Dad would accept it.  Still, the alternative was too awful to contemplate, so it was worth a try.

"How about if Tom stays here while you're away?"

"But he's even younger than you are!" Dad protested.

"Only by a few months.  And I thought you agreed that it wasn't my age but the nightmares that you were worried about?"  I said, trying not to sound as if I were attempting to score a point,  "He could sleep in the old guest room so he would be even closer to me than you are when you're home."

Dad started to say something, presumably to argue against my suggestion, then he seemed to have second thoughts and was quiet for a couple of seconds.

"Okay," he said eventually, "I'll think about it and maybe discuss it with Mrs Crawford, then I'll make a decision in the next few days."

Realising that was the best concession I would get from him that night and that I had a few days yet to work on him, I nodded my acceptance.

oo00oo

The next morning, when Mrs Crawford had driven off with Tony, Gran and Auntie Kath, I was left alone in the house.  Although I don't usually give in to sentimentality and in the past I'd enjoyed being alone, I was sad that Tony had gone and I spent an hour moping around until the doorbell rang.  It was Tom.

"Hi," he said, greeting me with a smile, "I thought you might like some company.  Fancy a walk?"

With the mood I was in, if it had been anyone else but Tom I would have politely declined, but there was no way I could turn down such a considerate invitation.  Furthermore, it occurred to me that as soon as possible, and certainly before Dad talked to Mrs Crawford, I should ask Tom if he would go along my idea that he stay in Prospect House while Dad was away.

Although the sky was clear, the low winter sun gave no warmth to our backs as we went down the slope to the woods.  Tom's presence lifted my mood a little, but neither of us spoke much, content just to walk along in companionable silence.  When we crossed the stream and went among the trees we were ankle-deep in fallen leaves and seeing the few isolated leaves left on the branches increased my melancholy.

While we were walking I didn't feel like asking him about staying over, probably because although I was pretty sure he would agree, I was scared he might say no.  We'd only been out for about an hour when a bitterly cold north wind began to blow and even in the relative shelter of the trees it became too cold for me.  Tom, as usual, seemed oblivious to the elements, but he agreed with my suggestion that we go back to the house for a warm drink. 

"You're very quiet today," Tom commented as we sat at the kitchen table, he with a hot chocolate and I with my tea, "Are you missing Tony already?"

"I s'pose," I admitted.

"That's okay," he said sympathetically, "After all he's your best friend... I'll be sad too when Chris moves away."

"Is he moving away, then?" I asked, surprised.

"Oh, not immediately," he responded, smiling at my reaction, "but when he finishes school this summer he's determined not to go to the sixth form college in Moreton.  He'll probably go to Newcastle, then when he gets his A-levels he'll be off to some bigger city like London."

Up until then, every time I'd seen his amazing eyes they'd been twinkling with humour, sparking with anger or otherwise full of life, but now for the first time I saw the brightness dimmed a little by sadness.  I had an urge to reach out and grasp his hand and maybe even give him a quick kiss, but I resisted.  He took a sip of his drink and I remembered something I'd been meaning to tell him.

"I had a nightmare on Saturday night," I said, "but it was different from the others."

Then, in response to his questioning look, I went on to give him all the details I could remember.

"That's horrible," he said when I finished, "Do you think that's what happened to Edward?"

"Maybe," I replied, "or maybe it was just an ordinary bad dream based on what I learned about him."

"But it's weeks since I told you about him, and bad dreams don't usually leave people physically sore the next day."

"I s'pose not."

"But you're okay now?" he asked with a concerned frown, "Fully recovered?"

"Yeah, completely."

"Still, with the nightmares and your best friend going home, it's no wonder you're a bit glum."

Having said that, he placed his mug on the table, moved closer, put his arm across my shoulders and gave me a gentle squeeze.  At first I tensed up, then I relaxed, leaned against him and rested my head on his shoulder.

"Anyway," I said without moving my head, "I have a favour to ask."

Then I told him about Dad's trip to the USA, his reluctance to leave me alone in case I had more nightmares and his idea of asking Gran or Auntie Kath to keep an eye on me. 

"So," I concluded, "I wondered if maybe you could stay here and keep me company while Dad was away?"

"Of course I will!  I'd love to!" he said eagerly, "Anything to save you from having to spend a week under the control of the Great Dictator... but will your dad agree?"

"He said he'd think about it."

"You asked him already?"

"Well, yes, sorry," I said guiltily, "I know I should have asked you first but he took me by surprise and I was desperate."

"Yeah, I understand," he said sympathetically.

"What about your mum and dad?" I asked, "will they be okay with it?"

"I'm pretty sure Mum will and that she'll probably be able to persuade Dad.  After all, I'll only be a couple of minutes walk away if they want to check up on me."

There was a brief comfortable silence, then a thought occurred to me.  At first, because it was something I regarded as being very private and personal, I was going to keep it to myself, but then I reconsidered.  Maybe Tom could find a clue to what was going on, and if I couldn't trust him then I couldn't trust anyone.

"I just realised that I may have something else in common with Edward," I said, lifting my head from his shoulder so that I could look at him, "Ya know I told you that in the dream he wouldn't cry, no matter how much he hurt?  Well, I can't cry..."

"You can't cry?" he interrupted, disbelievingly.

"No... well, obviously some things, physical things like pain, a cold wind and stuff can bring tears to my eyes  But not emotional things, no matter how sad I am."

"Not even when your mum died?" he asked incredulously.

"Oh yes, I cried a lot then, almost non-stop for months, but not since then... maybe I just used up all my lifetime supply."

"Or maybe," he said pensively, "compared with losing your mum nothing else has been important enough to cry about."

Unable and perhaps unwilling to pursue that suggestion, I switched topics slightly.

"At least you've not had any of your nightmares when I had the last two, so they don't seem to be linked.  At least not any more... have you had any nightmares at all?"

"No, not even any ordinary bad dreams, at least none that I could remember when I woke up.  Not since that time you had the sore throat."

"That's good," I said, then half jokingly I added, "Now if only we could work out what stopped your nightmares, maybe we can stop mine."

Then it occurred to me that maybe my little quip was an idea worth pursuing more seriously.

"Can you think of anything in your life that's changed since your last nightmare?"

"No," he said after a few seconds thought, "Maybe lots of little things, but I can't remember anything special..."

"I think that you'd remember something that was important enough to stop the nightmares," I said, a little disappointed.

"Maybe they haven't really stopped," he suggested, "maybe it's just a long gap between nightmares."

Something about his tone of voice and the slight tension in his body made me feel that maybe he was holding something back.  If there was a way to stop my nightmares I desperately wanted to find it, so like a predator who catches scent of his prey, I couldn't resist pursuing the matter.  However, in retrospect perhaps it would have been wiser to have restrained myself.

"Still," I said, "it seems to me that since I arrived at Prospect House you had nightmares on all the same nights as me except for the last two times.  Surely it can't be coincidence.  Surely something must have changed.  Can't you think of anything?  If there's anything at all, please tell me."

I gazed pleadingly into his eyes and, unusually for Tom, he looked away.  Then, blushing, he removed his arm from my shoulders.

"I don't know," he said unhappily.

For a moment I thought he was about to stand up and flee, so I reached out and put my hand on his arm.

"Hey," I said soothingly, "don't worry about it.  I'm sure that you'll tell me if you think of something later."

He still looked unhappy and his eyes were still fixed on the table top, but at least now he didn't seem to be on the point of running away.  While I was trying to think of another topic of conversation that might alleviate the uncomfortable atmosphere, he raised his eyes and took a deep breath.

"There's only one thing I can think of," he said nervously, "It's important, at least to me, but it may not be related to the nightmares... but maybe it is..."

His voice trailed off and I had the impression that he was uncertain how or even if to continue.  I just sat quietly and patiently, hoping he would go on and wondering what it was that appeared to be so hard for him to talk about.

"The thing is," he continued, looking back down at the table top, "Since my last nightmare I realised something... I realised that I loved you...  That I'm in love with you."

There I sat, absorbing the fact that a gorgeous, intelligent, caring, interesting young man had declared his love for me.  I'm not sure what an average person would feel or what appropriate response they would give, but my first emotion was fear, followed swiftly by confusion.  Clearly, the ideal response would be to say I felt the same about him, but I wasn't sure if I even wanted to be in love. 

Admitting to myself that I loved someone would be hard enough, but saying the words out loud would be much more difficult.  It would imply taking on commitments and responsibilities that I wasn't ready for.  It would risk people finding out I was gay and maybe treating me like Chris.  I couldn't give Tom the response he obviously desired but on the other hand I couldn't hurt him by saying something trite or stupid.  However, I had to give him some response and I couldn't delay much longer. 

"In that case," I said, taking hold of his shoulders and pulling him toward me, "give me a kiss."

Before he could say anything I placed my mouth over his and let my lips and tongue communicate directly with his, hoping that he would receive and understand the message I could not transmit in words.  Fortunately, he accepted my gesture and eagerly returned my kiss, which rapidly evolved into an enthusiastic snogging session.

oo00oo

When I went to bed that night I was a little fearful that if the nightmare involving being beaten was related to my first ever snog, then perhaps there would be another similar experience.  It took a long time for me to fall asleep, but when I eventually did the dream I had was very different from the one I'd feared and in fact was the very opposite of a nightmare.  Unfortunately, when I woke up I could remember very little about it.

I do remember that in the dream I was with my mum and that I felt loved, safe and secure.  There is no memory of what, if anything, we said and did but I do remember I was very, very happy.  In fact, I was so happy that tears of joy were streaming down my cheeks, and when I woke up, still in the middle of the night, my pillow was wet with those tears.  Immediately I recalled the dream and wanted to return to it, but of course, I couldn't, and then I felt such a deep sorrow at the loss of that happiness that I cried.  It was only after that sorrow had abated a little that the realisation struck me - I was crying for the first time in almost nine years.

oo00oo

Christmas came and went, and during the remainder of the holiday period there were no more memorable dreams or nightmares.  Gran and Auntie Kath returned home to Scotland for the New Year celebrations, and Dad was just as relieved as I was when we drove them to the railway station.  Having had to entertain visitors for more than a week it was good to get the house back to ourselves and even better that I could return to my own bed. 

Because of the Christmas festivities, family commitments and visitors, I hadn't seen much of Tom since the day that he'd said he loved me, and even when we had managed to get together we had very little privacy.  During that time I waged a successful campaign to persuade Dad to let Tom keep me company while he was away in the USA.  As Tom had predicted, his mum was happy with the idea and she managed to convince her husband to agree.  Brian, according to Tom, wasn't so happy about the arrangement but he didn't say anything directly to me. 

For the first week after the holidays life went on as it had before Christmas, with Tom coming to my house after school three times, ostensibly to do homework but really just to have some private time together.  We had another snogging session which included what I believe could be described as 'petting', but there was no further mention of love.  I suspected that Tom was content to leave such things until Dad went on his trip, which he did on the Sunday preceding our second week back at school. 

As had been agreed by our parents, Tom joined Dad and me for a light Sunday lunch, during which Dad lectured us both about behaving ourselves, not burning the house down, and suchlike.  Then immediately after lunch Dad set off to the airport, leaving us to our own devices, but we were alone for less than two hours before Mrs Crawford arrived 'to make sure Tom was settling in'.  Intriguingly, although she had her own key to the house, she rang the doorbell and waited for us to let her in.

Mrs Crawford stayed just long enough for us all to have some tea and cake before she left us alone again, whereupon Tom and I snuggled together on the sofa and watched one of the DVDs I'd got for Christmas.  Although we'd both been looking forward to this time together, there was a slight tension between us.  For me, I think the tension was a result of a combination of anticipation and nervousness about any developments in our sexual interactions.  I was also anxious and uncertain about how I would respond if he repeated his declaration of love.

As things turned out, nothing much happened of a sexual nature, and although we kissed briefly a couple of times it didn't progress to real snogging.  When we'd had enough of watching DVDs we decided to go to bed relatively early as we had to be up early for school the next day.  It was important to both of us to be on time and so prove to our parents that we could be trusted without adult supervision.  Having made sure that Tom had everything he needed and was comfortable in the bedroom next to mine, I went to bed.

Unusually for me, almost as soon as my head touched the pillow, I fell asleep.  Well, perhaps falling asleep isn't the most accurate way to describe it.  Certainly I wasn't fully awake and neither was it my normal sleep, but instead it was a sort of drifting somewhere between those states.  There were no dreams but I had a series of my 'mini-visions', all apparently unrelated.  This was the first time I'd experienced them since moving into Prospect House.  In my semi-detached state of mind there was no accurate sense of time, so I don't know how long it was before a tapping sound began to intrude into my mini-visions.  At first it was just a background noise but the volume gradually built up until it drove out everything else and there was just the tapping and absolute darkness.  I knew I was on my bed but I couldn't move and I couldn't tell if I was dreaming or not because the experience seemed so real. 

Strangely, at that point I wasn't afraid or even curious, but instead there was just a detached indifference.  Then the tapping stopped and I felt the deep sadness and loss that had been a feature of previous nightmares, and that's when I began to feel an apprehension that quickly grew to become fear.  As a weight began to crush my chest that fear escalated, and it became sheer terror when something wrapped around my throat and began to choke me.

A bright light dazzled me and I thought I heard a voice, but the throbbing in my ears prevented me from identifying any words.  I was still being choked and now in addition something was hurting my thumbs.

"Mark!" a voice pierced the buzzing throb, "Mark, let go!  You'll hurt yourself!"

My eyes began to focus, the throbbing in my ears faded and I noticed that my breathing became easier but the pain in my thumbs increased. 

"Mark!  Wake up!"

It was Tom's voice, but pitched higher than usual  in a tone of barely controlling panic, and as my eyes began to function properly I saw his face bending over me.  Then I realised that he was the one bending back my thumbs and that my hands were gripping my own throat.  Suddenly, I went limp, and as I ceased resisting him, Tom almost fell backwards. 

"You were trying to choke yourself," he said, his voice breaking up and tears in his eyes, "Was it another nightmare?"

Although I could now breathe freely, my answer came out as a croaking sound, so I just nodded my head.  I was still having problems focusing my eyes, but my vision was good enough to see an expression of relief on his face.  Now that I was no longer choking, my terror was evaporating, to be replaced by a deep weariness.  Tom asked me a couple of questions but my mind was too tired to grasp them, and seconds later I was overwhelmed by an irresistible wave of sleep.

When I slowly returned to consciousness it was dark and I was still tired.  I was lying on my back and, noticing a weight on my chest, became afraid that the nightmare was returning.  However, this weight was more localised and less heavy than in my nightmares and I had no trouble breathing.  Relieved to find that I was able to move, I cautiously lifted my hand to investigate and found a naked arm draped across my chest.

At first there was a brief stab of fear before I realised that the arm must belong to Tom.  There was an extra warmth along the right side of my body and a gentle, regular touch of warm air on the right side of my neck.  By this time I was fully awake and alert, so although it was too dark to see more than vague shapes I guessed from his stillness and regular breathing that he was asleep. 

Then I noticed something gently pulsing on my thigh and realised with a delicious shock that it must be Tom's dick.  At that point I became aware of my own stiff dick resting on my stomach and realised that for the first time in my life, certainly since my earliest memories, I was naked in bed with another person.  I tried to remember if Tom had been wearing anything when he'd interrupted my nightmare, but the memory was very vague.  I seemed to recall that from the waist up he was naked, but I didn't remember seeing the lower half of his body.

Tentatively, I moved my arm down until the side of my hand just touched his body at about waist level, and there I found a boundary between skin and cloth.  Clearly he was wearing something, and yet the pulsing on my thigh felt like direct skin to skin contact.  Gently and slowly I moved my right hand further down what felt like boxer shorts and found that his dick was protruding from the fly. 

For several seconds, perhaps even a couple of minutes, I froze with the tips of my fingers just touching the shaft of his dick.  Tom was the only person I'd ever touched so intimately, and that was just a couple of times during snogging sessions.   On those occasions we had stroked one another, but we were fully clothed so that the touching was through layers of cloth.  This was the first time I had skin to skin contact with another person's dick and I was so excited that I was breathless and trembling.

I remained frozen, afraid of waking him, trying to suppress the shaking of my body, and trying to decide what to do next.  I desperately wanted to explore and the urge to grasp his shaft was almost overwhelming.  However, I was afraid of how he might react if he woke to find me molesting him, and even if he didn't wake, maybe it would be wrong of me to take advantage of him while he was asleep.

Eventually, my desire and curiosity overcame my concerns about consequences and ethics, and I convinced myself that if I was very gentle he wouldn't wake and even if he did then he wouldn't be too annoyed.  Slowly and softly I wrapped my fingers around his shaft, then gradually allowed them to explore up and down the silky hardness.  Knowing the feel of my own dick so well, I could tell just by touch that he was maybe an inch longer than my six inches, but that we were about the same thickness.

With my left hand I began to manipulate my own cock which by now was leaking onto my stomach and was aching for attention.  As his breathing was still regular and he lay absolutely still, I grew more bold and explored further, down to his scrotum.  Even though my fingertip caress of his soft skin was extremely gentle, I could still discern the weight of his testicles as they rested on his inner thigh.  Then, brushing along the shaft, my hand moved up to his foreskin, out of which the head of his dick just peeked. 

At this point I squeezed my dick, but without my intention this action was mirrored by my other hand.  I heard a quiet moan and froze, though I wasn't sure if the sound came from me or from Tom.  Holding myself immobile, I held my breath, wondering what to do and concerned that any movement, even just removing my hand from him, might wake him.

"Don't stop," he whispered.

Though his words were barely audible, I was in such a nervous state that they made my whole body jerk.  However, I kept my fingers wrapped around the head of his dick. 

"I'm sorry," I whispered hoarsely.

"What for?"

I wasn't sure how to answer him.  Although I felt genuine regret, I'm not sure what exactly I regretted.  Perhaps I should have been apologising for betraying his trust  by molesting him in his sleep and touching him so intimately without permission.

"Anyway," he continued when I didn't respond, "Don't stop.  It's nice."

As he clearly wasn't annoyed with me taking advantage of him in his sleep and as he had now given me permission, I continued stroking, this time more firmly, pulling the foreskin back and forth over the head of his dick.  After a few seconds of this he spoke again. 

"Just a sec," he said, prising my fingers from his shaft.

Disappointed, I wondered if he didn't like the way I'd been wanking him.  He turned on his back, threw back the duvet, raised his hips, and removed his boxers.  Then he moved as close to me he could, so we were touching almost completely from shoulders to ankles. 

"That's better," he said, taking my hand and placing it on his dick, "You can carry on now."

"Was I doing it okay?" I asked as I returned to my task.

"Wonderfully," he replied and sighed.

As I continued what was a combination of wanking him and exploring his cock and balls, he reached over, pushed my hand away from my own dick, and began doing to me what I was doing to him.  It didn't take long before the heads of both our dicks were slick with pre-cum, and I noticed that I produced more than he did.  Not long after that I moaned and sprayed several shots of cum, the first two of which reached as far as my chin and cheek. 

"Aahh!," I said as he continued manipulating my cock, "Stop. Please, stop!"

He instantly obeyed my request and gave a little laugh.

"What's so funny?" I asked.

"It seems you're just like me," he said, "As soon as I've cum it gets very sensitive."

"Yeah," I agreed.

While I lay there, relaxing in the afterglow of my orgasm, Tom sat up and started gently wiping the cum off me with his boxers.  When he'd cleaned everything but my cock, he dropped the boxers on my crotch.

"As your dick's so sensitive," he said playfully,  "I'd better let you do it yourself."

I began gently wiping myself but got distracted from my task when he leaned over and kissed me deeply.  As he did this I felt his rock-hard dick prodding my hip and remembered that he still hadn't cum, so I gently broke off our kissing.

"Your turn," I said.

"I was hoping you'd say that!" he replied happily.

As he lay on his back, I sat up and this time my right hand explored his body from shoulders to thighs while I slowly wanked him with my left hand.  As I'm right-handed, this meant that the stimulation of his cock wasn't quite so co-ordinated, but that was my intention.  For both our sakes, I wanted this, our first real sexual experience together, to last as long as possible. 

He might have been getting the physical pleasure, but I was enjoying the freedom to touch him so intimately.  My former fears and concerns were evaporated by the reality of what I was doing.  I basked in this sharing of ourselves and I relished the trust he showed in letting me have such access to his most private places.  Although I was wanking him and no one was touching my cock, I believe that at that moment my mental pleasure matched his physical pleasure. 

After a couple of minutes playing with his nipples, which made him moan softly, I switched hands on his cock so that my left hand played with his ball-sac while my right hand pulled his foreskin up and down.  Then, surprising myself with my adventurousness, I propped myself up with my left hand between his thighs and began to lick up and down his dick.  He moaned again and I felt his muscles tense when I pulled back the foreskin and ran my tongue over and around the head.

The slightly salty taste wasn't at all unpleasant so I put the whole head of his cock headin my mouth and massaged it with my tongue.  Squeezing the shaft with my lips I took as much as I could, about half of its length, into my mouth, then slowly moved my head up and down.  Tom rubbed his fingers through my hair and began to writhe.

"Mark," he groaned, "let me cum.  Please let me cum."

I toyed with the idea of letting him cum in my mouth, but I think that my quota of adventurousness had been used up for the day.  While continuing to manipulate his dick, I lay down on my side next to him and started kissing him.  Then I started wanking him in earnest while our tongues played together.  Within a couple of minutes his body tensed, he moaned into my mouth and immediately I felt his cock swell and throb. 

The side of my face and my chest was sprayed with hot cum and, remembering what he'd said about sensitivity, after the last spurt I stopped my manipulations, allowing my hand to rest lightly on his cock.  We stopped kissing so that he could regain his breath, and I rested the side of my head on his chest.  Unfortunately, I hadn't considered the large pool of cum that was already there.  However, after the initial shock of wetness it wasn't too unpleasant, so rather than disturb him, I kept my head were it was.

After a few minutes, though, my position became uncomfortable, so I retrieved his boxers, intending to wipe the cum off us both.  However, the material was already so sodden that they were useless for that purpose, so I threw them onto the floor and grabbed a handful of my bedside tissues to do the job.  As I carried out the clean-up operations I was amazed at how much cum Tom had produced. 

"Do you usually produce so much?" I asked him as I reached for more tissues.

"Never quite so much," he said and laughed tiredly, "But then I've never had such a great orgasm before...  I thought I'd gone to heaven."

Feeling proud that I'd been able to give him such pleasure, I kissed him softly and briefly on the lips, then finished my wipe-up task..

"I don't know about you," I said, pulling the duvet back over us and lying down next to him, "but I'm knackered."

"Me too," he said, snuggling up to me and resting his head on my shoulder.

Within seconds, I was in a deep and dreamless sleep.

oo00oo

When I was awakened by the beeping of the alarm clock I was still very tired and felt as if I'd just fallen asleep.  It took me so long to wake up that Tom had to lean over me to switch off the annoying noise, and still I didn't move.  This was not only because I was so tired but also because I hate getting up in the dark, and at that time of year it wouldn't be light for another hour or so.  As if reading my thoughts, Tom switched on the bedside light, dazzling me. 

"You stink," he said amiably.

At first I was offended, then I sniffed and realised that we both stank of cum and sweat. 

"So do you," I responded gruffly.

"Yeah, but it's all your fault," he retorted with a grin, "Cos you started it!"

"Well, I wouldn't have if you hadn't been in my bed," I pointed out, feeling that I'd scored the winning point.

"But I wouldn't have been in your bed if you hadn't woken me up with your nightmare."

Given more time I was sure that I could find holes in his argument and certainly there was a lot to discuss on that topic, but instead I pointed at the clock. 

"Better hurry up or we'll miss the school bus," I said grumpily, throwing back the duvet.

As we were getting out of bed I couldn't help staring at his beautiful body and wondering how I could have been so lucky.  Meanwhile, he looked at me and frowned.

"You look awful," he said.

"Thanks," I said, using sarcasm to try to hide my hurt feelings, "But we can't all be gorgeous like you."

"No!," he said hastily, "I didn't mean it like that.  Normally, you look... well, really nice, but at the moment your eyes look awful and you've got bruises on your neck."

"Oh," I said, somewhat placated.

To save time Tom used Dad's shower while I used mine, with the agreement that whoever got down to the kitchen first should put the kettle on.  When I got to my bathroom I immediately looked in the mirror and saw that Tom was right.  My eyes looked sunken and were surrounded by dark rings and on my throat there were red marks that were beginning to turn blue.  After my shower my eyes didn't seem quite so bad and I decided that if I wore a shirt with a collar it would hide most of the marks on my neck.

On returning to my room and getting dressed I sprayed air freshener around, then took the covers off the bed and took them downstairs with me.  As I passed by the kitchen door on my way to the utility room I saw Tom rinsing out the tea pot.

"It's a good job Dad and I do our own laundry," I called out to him, "At least your mum won't be suspicious of me putting these in the washing machine before I go to school."

"I don't think she would be too surprised," he responded quietly and somewhat enigmatically.

Had we not been in such a hurry I might have asked him to explain the remark, and indeed there were several other things I wanted to discuss with him.  However, we were short of time and I didn't want to risk missing the bus, so I just rushed on to the utility room.

oo00oo

Tom and I didn't get a chance to talk privately until we got home from school, and even then I waited until we'd had time to relax and unwind before I brought up any of the topics that had been on my mind for most of the day.  For his part, Tom seemed to sense my mood and appeared content to just chat casually and wait for me to initiate any heavier conversation.  Thus we'd been home for almost two hours and had just finished a ten minute snog on the sofa before I felt ready to discuss the previous night.

"What made you come to my room last night?" I asked, "Did you know I was having a nightmare?"

"I didn't know for sure about the nightmare until I saw you trying to strangle yourself," he said, " but I did begin to think something might be happening when I heard the tapping..."

"You really heard it?" I interrupted, happy that it no longer appeared to be a figment of my imagination.

"Well, I'm pretty sure I heard the sort of tapping you'd told me about, but I was just dropping off to sleep so I can't be totally sure."

"Oh," I said, a little disappointed, "so that's not why you came to my room, then?"

"No, that's just what stopped me falling asleep.  Then I heard banging on the wall and I thought I heard you calling for me, but..."

He paused and frowning, but just as I was about to urge him on, he continued.

"But you were calling out 'Tommy' not 'Tom' and your voice sounded odd... sort of distorted...  Anyway, I thought there was something wrong so I went to your room, banged on the door and called your name.  Then when you didn't answer I went in, turned on the light and saw you choking yourself... that really, really scared me!"

From his eyes and the tone of his voice as spoke the last few words, it seemed he was still scared, so I put my arm round his shoulders and gave a little squeeze. 

"Yes," I said soothingly, "but thanks to you everything's okay now, isn't it?"

To be honest, I wasn't particularly confident that everything would be okay, but he looked so distressed that I had to say something to try to make him feel better.  However, he didn't appear to be reassured.

"Is it?" he said, still concerned, "Suppose it happens again?  What if I'm not here?"

"I don't think we should be too worried about it," I said, trying to hide my own concern, "After all, it's impossible to strangle yourself cos as soon as you lose consciousness your hands would relax."

He didn't seem to be convinced by my argument and continued to look worried.

"We have to find a way to stop your nightmares."

"I can't argue with that," I said with a wry smile, "But how?"

"Mine seem to have stopped..." he paused, unable to answer my question, then continued, "I don't know how, but we have to."

oo00oo

By nine o'clock that night I was so tired that I decided to go to bed early.  Tom didn't appear to be as sleepy as I was but when I told him I was going to get ready for bed he said he'd do the same.  Although I pointed out to Tom that he was welcome to stay up as long as he wanted, he nevertheless accompanied me upstairs.  After finishing in the bathroom I put on my dressing gown and was just leaving my room on my way to say goodnight to Tom when I almost bumped into him .  He was wearing just boxer shorts and I couldn't help pausing to admire his body.

"Great minds think alike," I said.

"What?" he asked with a puzzled frown.

"I was just coming to say goodnight," I explained, "and I guess you were doing the same."

For a moment his expression made me think of a puppy that had just been put out in the yard, then his face took on a more resolute appearance.

"Actually, I was coming to sleep with you," he said.

Because I'd been tired since I woke up, my brain hadn't been functioning well all day, and I'd not thought about how the previous night's events might affect future sleeping arrangements.  Even if I had thought about it, I would probably have assumed that sleeping together the previous night had just been a one-off occurrence resulting from my nightmare. 

"Oh," I said uncertainly, "I'm very tired..."

My voice trailed of because although I was indeed tired and probably too fatigued to mess around, the sight of his half-naked body made me wonder if I might perhaps be able to find a small reserve of energy.  As often happened, Tom seemed to read my mind.

"I wasn't thinking of that," he said, then with a smile he added,"Well, not much anyway.  Mostly I was worried what might happen if you were alone and had a nightmare."

"I'm sure I'll be okay," I said, feeling embarrassed and a little disappointed.

"Look," he said determinedly, "I can see you're tired and I promise I won't molest you, but I really would sleep better knowing I was there for you if you need me."

Although I hadn't considered our sleeping arrangements earlier, I now gave it some thought.  Some people might wonder why on earth I might need time to think about sharing a bed with a gorgeous young man.  However, until the previous night I'd not slept with anyone since I was a small child and my night with Tom had been under unusual circumstances.  After a several seconds, during which he waited patiently, I decided that although I might be uncomfortable with anyone else, I could relax and sleep with Tom in my bed.

"Okay," I said, nodding my agreement, "Thanks."

Tom got into bed first and, bearing in mind the intimacies I'd shared with him less than twenty four hours earlier, it may seem strange that I felt rather self-conscious taking off my dressing gown and getting into bed with him.  Perhaps that was partly because he was still wearing his boxers and I was naked.  When I joined him under the duvet he gave me a chaste kiss and then I turned off the light and curled up on my side with my back to him. 

As soon as I stopped moving, he wriggled closer to me and cuddled up against my back with his left arm hugging my chest.  He gave a contented sigh and I had the impression that if he were a cat then he'd be purring.  Although I was certainly very tired, his closeness, the feeling of his body against mine and the light touch of his breath on my neck prevented me from falling asleep immediately.  However, I was feeling very comfortable and relaxed so I didn't complain.  For some minutes I drifted in a state of half-sleep then Tom whispered something so softly that I could just make out his words which, I found out later, he hadn't expected me to hear because he thought I was asleep. 

"I love you, Mark," he said.

Just a couple of days before I'd been dreading those words and had been worried about how I'd respond.  However, a lot had happened in those two days and as I lay there with him I felt so safe and relaxed that I whispered my reply without thinking.

"I love you, too."

Surprised that I was awake and had heard him, he gave a slight start and hugged me a little tighter.  Then he planted a few kisses on the back of my neck, sending shivers down my spine.  I too was surprised, mainly by the ease with which those words had escaped my lips, but I realised that they were undoubtedly true.  Of course, my previous concerns hadn't totally disappeared, but compared to the basic truth of my feelings they didn't seem so important any more.

Basking in the glow of my emotions, I didn't become aware of the tiny background sound until I felt Tom's body tense.

"Do you hear that?" he whispered.

My only response was a low moan of dread as the tapping from the window grew a little louder. 

"Don't worry," he said, hugging me more tightly, "You're not asleep so you can't have a nightmare."

We lay there huddled like frightened children for a few minutes as the tapping became louder and more insistent, then a sudden change washed over me and for no apparent reason my dread was replaced by an overwhelming eroticism.  A similar transformation must have taken place in Tom because I felt him start humping against me with his erection pushing along my buttocks and into the small of my back. 

I turned to face him and our lips met in a passionate kiss while our dicks pushed against one another.  The tapping was no longer threatening but had become a throbbing pulse encouraging and magnifying our sexual desires.  Yet, despite the strength of my erotic feelings and the intensity of my physical pleasure, a part of me was set aside, not a participant but a spectator watching from the sidelines. 

Between us, Tom and I wrestled off his boxers, threw off the duvet  and began groping one another as we rolled around in a frenzy of lust.  Then, as suddenly as switching on a light, the sexual lust was paradoxically both calmed and augmented by an overpowering love, and at the same time the tapping became slower and quieter. 

He rolled me onto my back and lay on top of me, twirling his tongue around mine and grinding his dick against my thigh.  Then he raised himself up, supporting himself with a hand on either side of my chest and began rubbing his dick against mine in long slow strokes.  His pace and the speed of the tapping increased together, but if it was a case of cause and effect I couldn't tell which led the other. 

Our dicks and stomachs were slippery with sweat and large amounts of pre-cum but amazingly he still managed to maintain contact between our dicks throughout most of the range of his movement.  Even in the darkness I could see and almost feel his bright eyes burning down at me.  As the speed and pressure of his thrusts increased, the stimulation was pushing me nearer to orgasm and from his breathing and the tension in his body I could tell that he too was close. 

By this time the throbbing of my pulse, Tom's thrusts and the tapping seemed to have fused together so that they were all part of a single sensory experience.  Then I felt the first jet of his cum spray onto my dick and this triggered my own orgasm so that my stomach and chest were flooded with our combined emissions.  As my orgasm peaked it was accompanied by a jolt of dislocation and disorientation, as if the room and everything in it had suddenly tilted. 

Tom fell on top of me with a squelch, displacing yet more of our cum onto the bed sheet.  Oddly, despite his body pressing down on me, I felt much lighter, as if a weight had been lifted not just from me but from the room as well.  This sense of euphoria gradually faded to a feeling of general happiness and then I began to feel uncomfortable with Tom's weight and the sticky wetness between our bodies. 

"Tom," I whispered into his ear, "Tom, are you okay?"

He mumbled something into my shoulder but apart from his breathing he remained motionless, so I decided to make the first move.

"We should get cleaned up now," I said, rolling to extricate myself from under him.

"What?" he said, sounding dazed.

"We need to clean up," I repeated.

Apparently recovering from his stupor, he rolled onto his back.

"Sorry," he said. 

Though I was tired, I was still happy and couldn't think of anything he should apologise for.

"Why?" I asked light-heartedly, "Half the mess is mine... well, maybe not quite half!"

"I'm sorry I did stuff when I promised not to," he replied seriously, obviously not picking up my little witticism.

"It takes two to tango!" I joked. 

As I reached out to grab a handful of tissues, a less frivolous thought occurred to me.

"Anyway," I said as I wiped my torso, "I'm not sure that it was you... or even us."

"What?" he said, clearly still a little dazed.

Instead of answering immediately I switched on the bedside light, grabbed another handful of tissues and attempted to clean him, but by that time most of the cum had dried.

"Aaaaahh! That tickles!" he yelped and wriggled, indicating a return to his usual lively self.

"You're going to have to have a shower to wash that off," I commented.

"Yeah, I know..." he said running his fingers down his chest, "But what did you mean about it not being me?"

Before taking the risk of looking foolish by answering immediately, I decided to get more information.  However, as I was beginning to feel chilled, I first got the duvet and pulled it over us.

"Tell me," I said, "when you had your orgasm, did you experience anything unusual?"

"Erm, yeah... the tapping and then a loud bang and that flash of light... but you did too, didn't you?"

"I heard the tapping, but no bang and no light."

"Oh!" he said, as if he'd had a revelation, "Bang and light... I s'pose it was a bit like my nightmares... but in the nightmares the noise and light were terrible, but just now they were quite... well, not unpleasant, anyway."

Then I told him about me feeling like a spectator and how the room had seemed to shift. 

"So I think maybe what happened tonight wasn't us," I added, "I think it might have been Edward and Tommy."

An expression of horror spread over his face, then he shook his head. 

"No!" he said firmly, "I don't believe it!  And I certainly wasn't possessed."

"I don't think we were possessed either," I said, reaching out and squeezing his shoulder, "I think maybe they just prodded us and then went along for the ride."

"Like we're horses?" he said doubtfully.

"Yeah, a bit like that," I said and laughed at the mental image of two horses, one with my head and one with Tom's.

"It's not funny," he said unhappily, "If that's what really happened it's spooky... not as horrible as possession, but still not nice, especially if it happens again... I can't see why you seem so happy about it."

"I'm not happy that it happened," I said after a brief pause for thought, "I'm happy because I have a strong feeling it won't happen again."

"A feeling," he said, "so you're not sure?"

"Not absolutely sure yet," I said, "We'll just have to wait and see."

He was clearly still unconvinced and not very happy, so I decided it was time to divert his thoughts.

"Anyway," I continued, "it's late and I'm knackered.  We need to shower and then get some sleep."

oo00oo

In the six months or so since that incident neither of us has had any nightmares and there has been no more of the tapping.  Of course there have been many erotic experiences as we became more sexually adventurous, but all of those were of the usual sort, driven by our own desires and totally unrelated to any possible external influence.

That week and many times afterward we discussed our experiences, but never reached any firm conclusions.  We debated several hypotheses, even including the possibility that my mental state or some emotional problems had caused my nightmares, but we couldn't see how that could also explain Tom's nightmares or the experiences he'd shared with me. 

Eventually, we agreed that two of the possibilities were more plausible than any others we could think of.  First, maybe there were restless spirits somehow placated and laid to rest by our actions and second, perhaps there was an imprint of old unhappiness in that room, and our happiness wiped it clean.  Of the two, Tom favoured the former and I preferred the latter.  However, we both agreed that the real explanation didn't matter as long as the nightmares stayed away and no weirdness interfered with our future lovemaking.

Sometimes our discussions became quite philosophical and occasionally they were humorous, but one in particular sticks in my mind.  This took place while we were in bed together just a couple of days before Dad returned from his trip to the USA.

"I can't believe it's all just coincidence," Tom mused as we snuggled together.

"Coincidences do happen," I pointed out.

"But not so many all at once.  Just think about it... At the same time I'm living here and looking like Tommy you move up here, choose this house and even this room, and it turns out you could somehow pick up vibes from Edward.  You even have the same birthday as he did.  Besides all that you're gay, I'm gay and we fall in love.  That's a lot of coincidences!"

"Maybe," I conceded reluctantly after a long pause for thought, "But I prefer that to the alternative."

"Which is?"

"That it was all somehow predetermined or imposed on us.  I like to believe I have some free will and control of my own destiny."

"Perhaps for a short while things were meant to happen how they did," he said pensively, "but now we're back in control.  And anyway, I've got you, so I think things turned out very well..."

He paused to squeeze me gently in his arms and kiss my forehead, then continued.

"And if you had been in total control, how would you have arranged things better?"

I couldn't answer his question then and I still can't answer it now.  What I do know, though, is that Tommy and Edward were in the past, but the present belongs to Tom and me.  As for the future, I have no idea, but then who does?

oo00oo

The End

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Author's note:
If you enjoy this story then you might like to take a look at my  first story, 'Not Always Easy', a revised version of which is currently being posted in the gay/highschool section of the Nifty Archive.  You might also like to check out one of my favourite stories on the net - 'What We Are' which is also in the gay/highschool section.