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Tears and Happiness Part 4
So, the reason why he's staying away from me is because, He's Gay. The reason why he's managers and his teams have chosen for him new friends is because he was seen with a gay kid. I cried looking at my cell phone, He's finally telling me his secret, but it's no use at all. To lose a friend is hard enough. A year ago a boy broke my heart, not just any boy, and now that same boy is breaking me once more, taking the only friend I have left. To my disadvantage the boy is a rising star. Why is this happening to me?
I sat there for a while, looking at Fairmount under the glowing setting sun. I used to come here when I was a kid, with my dad and my little brother. We used to go camping, just the three of us. And now it's just me, my little brother is gone, and dad, well physically he's still here but I know deep down I am nothing for him, he barely look at me, barely make conversations with me, and Josh! I will never forgive him. Ever! The evening sun was yet setting again, as the last light slowly fades away and the flowers disappeared into the night, the green leaves hide their true color, I said to myself, "Don't worry, The sun will shine again, and you'll show your true color once more...' or I thought what if the sun never came back up again. I took out a broken piece of mirror from a trunk, which me and my little brother hid like five years ago, it's still there in the same spot where we hid it. And I hold out toward the sun ray and bounced it with the mirror...
'Jarsy! Bro!' I said, ' if you hear me kiddo, tell me, what should I do?' And with those words I broke into tears for a while...
You know, when you are terribly hurt, deep down with no chances of escaping or finding a way to exit, I guess hopes died and dreams dried up as well. Slowly I went toward my truck, got in and drove home.
Richie's pov:
So today was the hardest day ever. Seeing him so hurt, I should've known what they did to him, but I was too late. When Alex told me to leave him alone was the hardest words I'd have to digest. But I know, I deserved every bits of it. He trust me with all his life, told me his darkest secrets, trust me as a friend and only as a friend, though I could tell he is having a big crush on me, he never act immoral or bad, he was just a friend who cares. And me, I wasn't honest with him from the start; I just told him that I am gay, which I should've told him a long time ago. I mean is that going to prove anything now? I am so stupid to think that he's going to come back just because I spilled out my sexuality.
I was looking out of my hotel window, as I stood there watching at the mountains, a small glass like or mirror that reflects the sun beamed right into my eyes...maybe a mirror, definitely coz it was too bright... causing me to turn away.
Hmmm, people must be out there I simply thought.
The sun was setting; I could see a light daggering down the mountain, moving downwards. Must be a vehicle or something. I should go there sometimes I thought to myself.
I looked at my phone for like the 100th time, wondering nervously if he'll reply my text message.
Still, nothing.
Alex's Pov:
My phone rang. It was dad. I picked it up.
Alex where are you?
I am on my way home; have to go to a friend's house after school that's all.
Don't you lie to me, I know you were not at the school, you're principal called. Where are you?
You better come home fast.
What do you care about where I am, or what do. Just cut the crab dad.
That's it, if you didn't come home right now you are going to....... Beep... I cut him off. I had enough, I had enough of all this. I don't care what he's going to do to me. He is not the world's best dad and we both know it. Tears ran down my face. The thought of dad and I fighting is so much to bear.
As I made it through the woods and into the open, my mind kept on wondering.
Richie. He could've told me before, but, yes I understand the part about his dignity and all, it's just I have been so open to him, he knew about me, every bits of my life in just three weeks.
And I just got a text message saying... the Big Word... And I wander, Was I so desperate? So desperate that I have to tell him everthing? Alex, He knew about you, every crooked corners and all, and you barely even know him, and today he ditched you, and after that told you he's gay just like you?
One part of my mind was angry but another side of me just couldn't do it, No you shouldn't think like that. You know very well that Richie cares for you. It's not his or your fault that you can't be friends. It's Josh.
Than the other side of me spoke: Duh! He still ditched me...
Give him a chance...
Don't you dare?
You know, you two are great friends..
He had turn into a foe... don't give him a chance...
Alex... Richie is waiting.
Let him wait...
And suddenly I screamed out... SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!
And I don't know what happens next but I remembered I covered my ears with both hands trying to block out my thoughts... and I let go of the wheel, something bumped... I can't breathe... everything turns black...
Where am I? It's so warm, the sunlight hitting my face; I am in a wide open field. I know this place, it's where we used to spent our summer holidays when Jarsey was still alive. To my right the little lake looks so peaceful and welcoming. I went toward it.
Wait, someone's behind me. I turned around and saw my little brother dressed in white, smiling at me.
Jarse! Alex! Oh Jarse! I wept and ran to him, hug him, I could feel his scent, he's full of love, I just could feel it. I cried on his shoulder, I wept and wept.
Alex, what's wrong?
Oh Jarse! Why buddy? Why did you leave us?
Alex! I never left you.
But you did.
Alex! I am here. I heard you, I heard your every call.
Then why wouldn't you show yourself?
Coz you know, it's not possible for me to do it.
Wait am I dreaming? Jarse it's really you, isn't it?
(He giggled softly) You stupid big brother of mine he teased. Of course I am real. Tell me what's wrong?
Jarse, everything is not okay, Mom and dad barely speaks to each other. Loosing you is killing all of us. Dad never really cares anymore. You know me being gay and all.
Yes I know you, alright. And yes I saw you all. Alex you have to change it. You have to let me rest in peace. Make ma and pa happy.
How? Tell me how? Me and mom are getting along. But dad?
I know I know Alex! You'll see. Anyway who is that hot guy who follows you around?
Oh! That... well, actually he's not allowed to follow me anymore. But I guess you knew about it all too right?
Jarse laughed out loud.
Yes! Big brother. I've seen you get hurt a lot. But things happens, everything happens for a reason, it'll get better trust me.
How do you know?
I just have This crazy instinct that's all.
You little... I tackle him down on the ground, and like any brothers we started attacking each other, and laughing and panting. The only problem was Jarse always got me pinned down. I couldn't understand, he's physique is still that small 13 years old boy physique but man! He's strong.
After a while, we stopped and we just lay there side by side.
Alex?
Yea?
It's time to go.
Where? Will you come home now Jarse?
No! I am sorry! I can't but I'll wait for you.
How long will it be before I can come, coz I wanna come now?
I know you do. But listen to yourself. What will mom and dad do without you Alex?
They'll be happy, I am only keeping them apart, you know it too. Mom has always loved me for who I am. But dad! he'll never change.
What makes you so sure Alex? Anyway, you should not feel so left out, you have people who really cares about you. And no matter what the hardship may be, you are a survivor. You will get through.
Jarse you know! Let me finish time is running fast. Alex. Don't give up on yourself. Always remember I am always with you. Please fight on and I know you will be happy soon.
Wait Jarse. Wait come back! I love you bro... now go back and live your life. Don't give up, please don't give up for me, alex.
Whispers. Jarse is whispering... I could not see him anymore...
I love you brother... I love you alex... live, I love you...
Wait Jarse...
THUD! What is that thud?
Thud! The field started to disappear... the lake was now gone... oh Jarse.
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Charge... THUD! He's breathing.
Everything was a blur, I opened my eyes.
Keep him constant and get him in one of the rooms, Nurse Angela you and Nurse George bring me his chart.
When did he arrive?
Five minutes ago, the nurse answered him.
Do you have his identity?
Oh yes his parents would be here any moment. We have told them everything.
The doctor came by my side. "Alex, can you hear me?' I tried opening my mouth but then consciousness start to hit my body, every inch of my body hurts so bad. I tried to move and the doctor saw it.
"Wait, wait, young man, you should not move, you have broken your ribs and you got hit in your head, just stay like that for now, we want you to get healthy again as fast as possible right?' "Am I in the hospital?" I asked barely opening my mouth.
"Oh yes!' You are a lucky one, judging from the condition of your vehicle and where you ran over. Tell me Alex, What were you doing out there?
"Excuse me, but, tell me your name Doctor?
Oh yes! You can call me doctor Fraser or just Tim Doctor fraser, how am I in the hospital?
Alex! You have been in an accident. You rolled your vehicle over that cliff just near Little deer valley.
I just opened my mouth in aw when he told me how they found me, it seemed two young men saw me going over. They risked their life to save me by climbing down the stiff cliff.
The doctor called for the men and they came. One of them was a handsome Latino or so I thought, yes he had to be, and the other was a blond with a physique so beautiful.
The latino speaks to me, Hey "My name is Donald and he's Drake! You must be Alex"
And drake continued by saying," you are a tough young man, you know that, judging from the site of the accident, you must've a really good guardian angel"
I looked at them and managed to say, 'Thank you so much, thank you for saving me"
Richie's pov:
I got inside the car and Miss Kranger and I drove out. I just heard that Alex got in an accident.
His mom just called me.
As I sat on the front seat, my tears rolled down.
Oh Alex! Please be alright.
Richie Dear?
Yes Miss Kranger.
Will it be a good Idea to go and see Alex? I mean the media.
Stop it, Just stop it. I am going and that's it. By the way call Byron and Drew. Tell them to come as well.
I am sorry Richie.
It's okay, All I know is that Alex is a great kid, and it was so stupid of me just to let him go like that. He's one of the greatest people I've ever met you know. He's a true friend.
"You mean Just a friend?"
"I don't know... today I told him in the evening?
Told him what?
That I am Gay! Miss Kranger stopped the car all too suddenly. She turned toward me. "Richie! You should not have done that, what if he speaks out? What if he tried to do some uncomforting stunts?
"Kranger! I know Him, okay! And you know how I always keep to myself right?' Don't worry Alex will not tell, at least he deserves the truth because he's the only true friend I have right now.
But What if?
Miss Kranger?
Okay okay! If you think it's okay to tell then, it's okay.
By the way I found out that it was one of Harry's friends who posted a photo of Alex and I walking together. I just couldn't find out who it is?
And I keep on thinking, the first day when we met, the secrets he told me, the way he laughs and acts, his handsome face, his smile... am I ready to move on and never be friends with him?
No... Infact I never want to loose him... everyone can say what they want.
AT THE HOSPITAL:
Mr And Mrs Hudson, I am Doctor Tim Fraser.
"Is my Alex alright doctor? Amelia asked.
Yes he is now.
Mr Hudson Call me Jason, please doc.
Jason. Is there anything that's bothering Alex?
Why is that?
The reason why he just ran over that cliff, we checked him and we found no trace of drug use.
So it seemed he tried to commit a suicide or something.
"What? Amelia screamed.
"Sorry to just say it like that. Whatever the case may be, he's well now, The report of the vehicle got in, everything about his truck is okay. Do you guys know why he would do such a thing?
"I... I called him this evening. He missed school,"
And...
"we argued on the phone and and.."
"Wait, Amelia shouted... " you shout at him again don't you?
"Yea I mean he's my son and Not going to school is not okay."
"No that's not it Jason! It's not just about that, ever since Jared died, you never look at Alex the same way, Why, because you don't want a gay son? Look at us Jason, look at your family, Alex tried, I've seen him looking at you desperate for his father's attention, but you didn't want to see him. You only want the trophy son, the Jock, The straight son. This is all your fault, we'll have a divorce.
"Amelia, what are you saying?"
"Don't deny it Jason, I've had enough. If you can't be a father then fine, your choice.
Amelia?
And Don't you dare come near my son.
Amelia sped out of Doctor's fraser's office.
Alex's Pov:
Donald and drake just left. I lay there alone, the hospital room where I am admitted is so quiet.
I silently whispered, ' Jarse thank you little bro". Coz I know it was him who saved me.
The door opened and in came a figure, the figure came near and it was Josh! Oh! lAlex! What happened buddy?
I was so angry at him.
"Don't you buddy me, you sick freak?
"Alex I am so sorry, When I heard that you got in an accident, I realized how selfish I have been? So I came here as fast as I could.
"Just Shut up, Josh!, we both know you are the reason why Richie and I can't be friends anymore."
"Look Alex! I don't wanna loose you, he came near and tried to touch me.' Get away from me. Please! I cried desperately. Please go away Josh! Alex I love you really.
Get away from me. But he keeps on coming.
Just then Josh was spun around by some one from behind. There was a loud thud and Josh ran out as fast as possible. Me I just close my eyes and cried. I hate him, I hate Josh. For everything he had done to me.
A hand just touched me. I know that scent, that soft breathing, I opened my eyes....
Richie?
Hey there! I thought I was about to loose you.
What are you doing here?
I came. Your mom called. Miss Kranger is outside with the guards. I have to tell you one thing.
Richie?
No wait Alex.
Where's Josh he was just here.
I sent him on his way... Alex, he sigh... I could feel the tension in the air, it's not just him, but I can feel it in me too..
I look into his eyes, and him into mine, I know he reads me inside out, like I did read every inch of his mind... there was nothing to say, everything was where it should be, how it should be, Words are just words, but The heart is another matter.
He bow down towards me, and his lips touched mine. I closed my eyes, trying to feel every part of him, his sweet scent and his soft lips, my heart wept with joy and love. And Richie kissed me, I parted my lips, and our tongues fight each other in a passionate war.
The door suddenly opened. And my mother came in, She saw us and dropped her purse, looking surprise... and happy at the same time... Richie jumped back as quickly as possible and me, I tried to re arrange my position and that's when I totally forgot about my broken ribs, I tried to move and the pain got to me.
"OUCH! Aaaaah! I screamed.
"Oh Alex" they both screamed and rushed to me. Richie holds my hand as I fight the pain and tried to relax. My mom gently rubs my body lightly. Soon the pain subsided. But I cannot move at all. I have to be more careful.
"Oh! Boys, I think I am just going to go out again and let you guys carry on."
"Mom! Please stop it".
I looked at my mom and she foolishly wink at me and smile all the way, as she look at two of us... and she makes that squeaking sound she use to make when she's excited. She went over to Richie gave him a pat on his shoulders. And she's acting like a crazy person.
Richie just looked at me and giggled.
I on the other hand was a bit uncomfortable with my mom seeing me kiss someone.
"mom?"
Yes honey! Is dad coming?
Mom stopped in the middle of the room, she looked at me. She's thinking hard I could tell.
Something is happening.
Mom? What's wrong?
You're father and I are going to get a divorce.
What? Mom you can't. no! Richie got up. "I think I'll leave you two alone for now"
My mom looked at him. "No Richie, you are apart of the family, please stay"
She sounded quiet clear; Richie came near me, and holds me tight.
"Like I said," My mom continued, "Your dad and I are going to.."
"No mom! I don't want you guys to leave each other."
"But look at you,' "Wait mom, are you trying to do this for me?' because if you are, you are making a big mistake, dad loves you, I don't care if he is resistant to my lifestyle and disappointed in me, I love him, he's the only dad I'll ever have. Just give him a chance Ma'.
Alex it's not only about you.
Than what's it about. Ever since Jarsy died, we are on the rocks, us as a family. Mom, shouldn't we fight for Jarsy's sake. When I was unconscious back then, I saw him ma, My mom looked at me," you did, really?"
Yes ma, I said, and I looked at Richie, and my mom and smiled at them. "He said, he want us to be happy you know." It was as if I ws dreaming, but it's so real, ma, its really him. So that's why I am saying give dad a chance, atleast for jared. And I know dad will come around. So please, please ma, O alright, baby!
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Richie stayed with me till it was his time to go, and man, time does goes fast, "Alex baby!' I woke up from my sleep, "yes,"
It's almost 10 in the night, and I have to go.' I look at our positions; He was getting in the bed with me. He was holding me so close.
I looked at him, do you have to really?
O yes I have to, or they'll fine me for breaking the hospital rules, worst they can ban me from seeing you, so my love...
I giggled at his words...
.. I'll go and I'll be back first thing in the morning okay.
Okay my Love....
Hey not fair! What's not fair?
My love was my word... I used it first...
So what?
Choose something else...
Ugh you are so...
Don't say childish. I know but you choose your own word, till then bye, he kissed me fully as if he would never let me go, and I taste him for the last time for tonight.
Before he leave I shout at him again, "Hey Richie,"
Yes My Love?
I think I'd just call u... lover
Somewhere near the hospital, a figure stands under a shady tree. And the person is looking up at the open window on the third floor. Wait. That's Alex's room. The figure saw everything. In his hand was a digital still camera, and the person flips with it around and then... boom... two boys caught kissing in a hospital room... one of them a rising star.....
To be continued