Tears and Happiness Part 5: By muana Pachuau
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Tears and happiness part 5:
"Alex?"... Alex are you home?" Amelia shouted as she entered the house. The family room light was turned on and the television was playing the sports channel.
"Amelia is that you?" Her husband called from upstairs.
Could you please come down? We have to talk??
Alex footsteps can be heard slowly walking down the stairs. When he reached to the bottom of the stairs, Amelia could see the red puffs across his eyes. Yes, he had been crying.
Please, honey before you say anything, He stopped his wife just as she was about to say something.
" I know that I have been harsh on Alex ( he choked abit) I know, honey I don't know why but I wanted what I thought was best for him... Alex.."
"wait let me finish. ( he breathe out nervously and held his emotions from crushing him.) I thought I knew. And tonight, when we reached the hospital and saw the condition of our son'( he started tearing up and continued with so much emotions) I was crushed? Jared told us, me, to accept his brother as he is, but my stubborn attitudes and yes, what you said was true, me wanting the trophy son had blinded my sight so much that instead of seeing my son as he is, I saw only what I believe was good for my son'.
Amelia tried to speak again but he stop her just as she was going to speak out.
... I have been fighting myself for so long since Kiddo died, the day he breathe his last breath, those words he said to me, but my pride just won't let me give in and accept. I blame myself when I am alone, saying I would talk to him, accept our Alex as he is, but I was frightened, and I know now, fully, that my family had suffered enough because of my stupid pride and tonight, honey, I went inside Jared's room I looked at his picture frame on top of the drawer near his bed,"
He stopped and his tear fell down, this time he cried out. Amelia looked at him with tears in her eyes. Her husband, the father of her children, broking down before him and confessing his wrong doings was too much for her. She ran to him, he caught her in his arms and they hug. Both crying aloud. Infact it was the first time in a long time that they felt so close together. Alex continued with his crying words..
" It was the picture we took from the last camping trip we had. Us three, with his brother and me. Honey, I missed him so much. but most of all, I missed Alex. I don't know what came over me that made my heart stone cold, but I hate myself. I miss our family, and I am sorry! o God! I am so sorry."
As Alex cried, Amelia gently stroke her husband's hair while hugging him tightly.
"Alex, I love you, it's okay, and I am sorry I yelled at you at the..." she was stopped by her husband midway, " Baby, you yelling at me tonight gave me a second chance to really figure out what was happening here, I have been keeping our family in the dark, and I am sorry.
"You did nothing wrong, you hear me, I love you and Alex."
"I know baby, I know, and Alex and I, we love you too."
" please don?t leave me, please don't leave me, I had lost Jared but I don't think I can deal with myself if I lost my two jewels."
Amelia hold her husband tight. They cried in each other's hold, time stood still, the darkness that surrounds their family was lifting, and now a new love was born. They stood there and embrace their love for each other in the quietness.
I wake up with the feeling that someone else was in the room. At first I didn't recognize the hospital room. I was reminded shortly that I was not at home with the stinging pain in my stomach. I tried to move but then I was stunned with a voice.
"Golden boy, at ease son please, take rest, don't move."
It was my father, with his voice shaking heavily like he was crying and speaking at the same time. I looked to my right where I heard his voice, and I saw him and mom, both with their tears running down.
"Dad..??"
" no son, it's all my fault, I tried to make you who you are not."
"Dad, what do you mea.."
"I accept you baby boy! I do, its just that I feared for you, for your future and I thought that this was just a phase, and that you would soon grow out of it, most of all, I was too stupid to think of what others would say.? "
I looked at my father, one part of my brain thought I was dreaming. .. the other clueless from where all this was coming from.
"Alex, I would never want to change you, not anymore, after jarse died, you and your Ma had suffered for so long, from missing your brother, from missing my presence, and I don't know what I am going to do coz...( my dad choked and he cried, my own tears starting to form and running down my face) ...I hurt you two to the point where I crushed your hearts and your respect in me, and I am so sorry."
"Dad, its okay.. you " I was cut off again.
"No son, please say you forgive this old retard for screwing his family."
At that point, I cannot hold it any longer, I cried as I talked to my dad.
"no dad! you are not a screw up! You can never be, I understand you."
" no Alex. I was wrong. I accept you now, fully no matter what others say, I will.."
This time I was the one who stopped him halfway.
" Dad, you are the coolest father, you wanted what's best for your son, I am so sorry coz I will never provide you and ma grand children, dad, I tried so hard not be ga.."
Dad hold his hand over my mouth to shut me.
" I don't care about that son."
" but it's true dad.."
" I don't care Golden Boy, please stop saying that' I love you no matter what... do you understand? I don't want grand children, when my son is breaking inside and cannot be who he is?"
I want you my boy. you and your Ma.
I cannot hold back anymore, I cried and my dad and mom cried as well. They both moved near me and they held me in the warmest embrace that I ever felt since Jarse died. I remembered last night when I had that vision, or dream, and I thanked Jarse for everything. I bet he's smiling up there.
My dad took the whole day off as well as Ma, so we spent the whole day together, catching up to each other. I tried to call Richie but for some reason he could not pick up his phone. I was sure that he was not at school because of his new movie that is shooting. I thought he was busy from the hectic situation.
However, I have this feeling in my gut by 3:00 pm coz Richie told me last night that he?d visit me in the afternoon. I told my dad about us and he took it in really well though this whole gay dating was new to him at many levels. I also told him about Josh and our relationship. He and Ma were horrified with how things turned out. Dad blamed himself for not being there yet again and at one point we were comforting each other again.
"I swear I am going to kill that boy. He was your friend, and the things he does are just unforgiveable."
"dad, please leave him alone. I hate him too but we were close friends for so long, no need to bring any negative energy between our families and remember, his father is worst than you, no offend, but I think josh is suffering as much, that's why he acted the way he does."
"I know son, James is a total bigot believe me, when I told him about your situation, he was advising me to teach you well"
Just then nurse Amy, who was incharge of my personal well being came inside.
"Ummm! Alex, I think you better turn on channel 4."
" what is it Amy?"
"its your friend, that famous star?"
My father quickly turn it on and while he was fiddling with the remote, ma came near me and sat on my hospital bed. I was feeling nothing but fear and I guess she saw me through. She took a deep breathe and looked at the tv.
"TMZ? Ofcourse, "
The announcer said, "famous teen actor Richie Daniels comes out of the closet and confirmed he is indeed homosexual."
As the news went on Amy speak out again...
"ummm Alex, there's stuff about you too."
I looked at Amy, confused. "what do you mean by that??"
"Alex honey..." I looked at ma and her eyes were wide shot at the the television before her than I heard the announcer say... "he came out to the press this afternoon after a viral video of him and probably the boy he was seen with a few days ago were kissing... well in some hospital room...
leaked in the internet."
I turned quickly at the screen, and what I saw horrified me beyond any imagination Someone had recorded a video from near the door of my room. " O No." I barely said it.
My father was filled with rage. "I am gonna sue them."
My mother holds my hand tightly. I began to tear up and I am sure I was burning all shades of red due to humiliation. Then I saw Richie again, this time it was some conference hall.. or.. our city mall... he was giving press conference at our city mall. "I am gay, but I don't think any one can judge me for who I am, and this viral video..."
Before he could finished one question was shot up straight, " who is he, the other boy? Are you two in a relationship??"
"I am not going to give out any information on that, look people, you may say anything about me but leave everyone else out of it. Especially him, yes I am in love... give me space, please.?"
I was really shy right now but, hearing him say he is in love, when I know that he means ...with me..
was so nice.
Even my dad expression gone from anger to okay, he is protecting my boy's identity look. That look which can tell that Richie was his new favorite son in law. ma also breathe slowly trying to take it all in, "that poor boy, I feel sorry for him, the both of you actually" she tightened her grip.
Just then my room door opened and there was Richie in person his expression shows that he was shivering out of fear and guilt. We instantly locked eyes, and I was still all red on my face with my tears mixing that he must have felt really bad, he stepped back and turned around while we all looked at him and I quickly call out to him," WAIT RICHIE, DON'T I LOVE YOU."
"my seventeen years old super hunk turned around and with tears flowing down that beautiful face he said, "YOU'RE NOT MAD AT ME?"
"no babe,I am not. I figured out you can't escape from speaking out."
My dad soon joined in, "Son, there's no need to run away now, it's okay."
I could tell that Richie was surprised with my dad's answer and look at him wildly as if he was having a nightmare. Especially since he knew my dad was not supportive...at all.
"Sir?" he said in a timid voice.
" I know that Alex had told you about me, but, son, that has changed, it really is okay. And sir is too formal please call me Alex. wait you called him that already, just call me Old Alex. he was now grinning at my boyfriend." Please come in and make yourself comfortable."
I cannot believ my dad went from a complete jerk to this awesome father, the father I once knew was back again and for some reason I felt so safe. Richie was still there, and even more surprised.
He slowly walked inside and left his gaze from dad to me and Ma.
"Alex, I cannot do anything else.. I know I should've called you first but everything was happening too fast and... and.."
he choked on his words and he started to cry, " I cannot lose you... you meant the world to me... you saw me as another human being, not some stuck up rich kid and... and... I was so afraid that you..."
I took his hand with mine and look at him deeply. He was so scared and full of fear, and at that moment I wanted to hug him but I cannot move so I told him, " Richie, I love you, I understand. Its okay, please don't blame yourself."
"But??"
" you heard him dear," my mom continued, "I think you handled the problem well, come here,"
she said and she was already leaving my other side and stood near him, pulling him into her arms and hugging him.
My dad also got up from his seat and hug him as well. Richie still trembling cried, he cried because he felt more free, and I can tell a huge burden was lift off his back.
I called out to him as they parted and he came over to me and give me the warmest and most romantic hug ever. Dad and Ma were beeming with acceptance and nod their heads together grinning from ear to ear. Just then, we heard the announcer say, "well, an anonymous source tells us that the boy in love with our super hottie is fairmount's very own highschool jock, "Jason Alexander Hudson jr." his father is the known upcoming business man with the new Hudson wine industries, Mr. Jason Alexander Hudson.
"my eyes shot wide at the scrteen once more, and Richie was looking at the screen, wide his mouth hanging wide with yet another surprise.
Ma and Dad cannot believe the whole situation changing again.
"...we have confirmed reports that Richie is with him at the Fairmount hospital, sweet Alex was admitted yesterday evening after a car crash, and our crews and cameras are waiting for the two lovebirds in front of the hospital."
As the rest of us were in shock, Richie was speaking on the phone, "Kranger, what the fuck did I just saw on TMZ?"
My dad looked at him and mouthed to him as Richie glance back at him still holding the phone to his ear? ?NO MOUTHING SON, NO MOUTHING OFF? Richie gave my dad a knowing look and he continued to speak on the phone, while the rest of us looked at him quietly.
He put his phone down, turned towards the rest of us and said, "Jase, it's Josh, he send the whole video to TMZ and some students at the school gave away your name."
That's it. I hate Joshua Matthews, big time. I started crying, I can't believe that he is such a chameleon, two faced piece of shit.
"one minute he said I love you, he let me go, he said I love you again, even worse his friends beat me up again and lied that I try to jump on him with my fag power, and he came here, said he loved me and yet he posted us kissing for the whole world to see." I was speaking in a fast mode, then it struck me, "why josh, why?" I cried harder and Richie came over and hug me once more. I don't know that my dad and ma were chasing after each other out of the room.
"Alex, stop. Alex, what are you trying to do??"
" I am gonna take care of the little prick who made y son cry so much for so long. Please go back and stay with him."
"Alex, everyone knows you, and the press are down there trying to snap a picture for fortune. You are not going anywhere. Come back this instant.?"
"no honey you stay with them coz I am going to..."
Amelia grabbed him and said, "I know you want to, believe me I do too but this isn't how its suppose to work."
Back in the room, me and Richie were still crying and holding each other. While down below, the whole Hudson Police forces were trying to shove back those swarming paparazzi. My mom and dad came back but this time were accompanied by two people and I can tell that they must be Richie's parent coz there was so much resemblance.
"mom, dad, what are you doing here??"
" well son, miss Kranger called us last night and told us the whole situation. So we thought that we should be here." his mom said and then his dad continued, "son we just want to be here for you."
They both turned at me smiling and that is what breaks me down to blush out completely.
"you must be the boy who make our Richie Rich's heart melt." His dad spoke, that made me even blush more.
"Jeez dad, you are making him uncomfortable."
'well', Richie's mom said as she moved beside me, "about the last time when we said you cannot be friends, we are truly sorry, young man. Please try to forgive us, we were only trying to protect our son and his career."
"its okay Mr and Mrs? ummm?"
" call him David and you can call me Darla".
After that Richie's parent and mine started to introduce themselves and were communicating between themselves. David was giving phone calls and was trying to do everything he can to calm down the commotion in front of the hospital. Richie was looking down at me and softly speak, "now I am turning into Britney Spears versus the paparazzi," and he giggled which made me giggle as well.
We look into each other's eyes. I thought at that moment how I became so lucky, everything else disappear and I saw only him, Richie's eyes tell me he was feeling the same emotion. He lowered his head and kissed me. We were kissing, not rough but gently and so passionately.
?CliCk, Flashh?
We both stopped and looked towards our parents who were smiling and his mom and my Ma were flashing their phone cameras at us.
"You two behave we are here," my dad said which in turn gives laughter to everyone in the room.
"mom please, be careful or that will end up front cover on teen magazine."
"Alex, relax, Darla and I are only trying to make memories," she said, and both women were grinning like mad donkeys when they look at their snap shots and darla said, "Awwww they are too cute.' Tim came inside, "well I am so sorry to say that visiting hours are over, but since the paparazzi are down there trying to get inside and all, I don't know, I talked to the hospital supervisor and he told me you can stay abit, but you have to figure a way to stop the craziness down there."
David asked tim to show him where the supervisor was and he asked my dad to join them so they went out. After about five minutes they came back. David talked to Richie saying that his bodyguards were there and he has to straighten himself coz he needed to go to his movie production site. I was feeling a bit down but, the whole day has been so tiresome for me as well so I told him to take care and kiss him goodbye for the day, My parents also said they would be back the next day. The whole party stepped outside and now I was all alone.
Just then the door opens once more and Richie ran inside. He surprised me by kissing me and said for the last time, "I love you Jason Alexander Hudson."
I smiled and blushed deeply looking at him, I continued, "I love you Richard Mason Daniels" he smiled and stood up, wink at me and turn around. He ran out again closing the door behind him. I was beaming with joy and I close my eyes.
Down at the front of the hospital, the paparazzi were swarming at the party that went out. Some were asking stupid questions like, "Is Alex missing you already?" which made Richie so mad. Mr and Mrs Daniels and The Hudsons were caught with other questions like, " are you going to be in laws? how was the first family gathering?" all the while the cameras were flashing and hundreds of paparazzi were swarming to get the pictures...
To be continued.
( this part is inspired by the one and only? my queen Britney Spears? I am having this crazy idea to include Britney in the story? thanks for reading and I promise I will be posting regularly from now on)