Disclaimer: You know the drill. Sorry it took so long to get this installment out. I had a serious case of writers block and a case of the flu. Thanks to David at Nifty for putting up with me Permission is granted to post this anywhere as long as it is free. Copyrighted March 2000 by tamtaylor_2000. Thanks Rachel and Michael, I appreciate the help and the support. Some stories I like are Escape, Choices, Rob and Lance, Ryan and Lance, Destiny and What Happened.
I woke up around 6:00 am and wondered if last night had been a dream. A little later Donna came in the room to check my vitals and discuss the schedule that would start on Monday. I asked Donna if I was going to be able to get a phone. Donna replied " Your cell phone is in the night stand, your boss delivered it along with some clothes she got from your apartment". Donna left the room and again I was alone with my thoughts. I kept going back to last night and could not believe what had happened. I got out my cell phone and called my brother and told him what had happened. I told me I was OK and I would call him when I got out. I was lying in bed and all of the sudden a name popped in my head. I had not thought about him in 13 years. We had been friends and at that age had decided to experiment with each other. Michael had been my one and only time with a man, and now I remember that I enjoyed it. So with these new memories, the kiss with Lance did not really suprise me. I dialed a number I had not called in thirteen years and he answered the phone. "Hello?" he said. "Michael" I asked? "yea" he replied "who is this" he asked? " Michael it's Tam" I said. "Tam" he replied excitedly "how are you" he asked? " I am fine" I replied. "Michael, I need to talk to you about something important" I stated. "OK buddy, go ahead" he replied. "Mikey, I need to see you, I am having some troubling thoughts and I need to talk to you to ferret them out." I told him. Michael replied, "OK, where are you"? I told him and he agreed to see me this afternoon. I felt if anyone could help me with these feelings he could. I lay there and slowly drifted off to sleep.
Lance woke up that morning and his first thought was about last night. "I hope I can fix this he wondered outloud." "Fix what?" asked JC standing outside Lance's door. "You know what I am talking about" Lance replied. "Well that's why I am here" JC stated as he walked into the room. Lance still loved to sight of JC, eventhough he knew they were over he still had feelings for JC. JC was now more than a friend or ex-lover JC was Lance's confidant, and Lance knew that his and JC's friendship had survived their love affair. "Where is Justin?" Lance asked. "He was asleep and I did not want to wake him, so I left a note and came down here" JC replied. "I want to see him" Lance stated "We need to work sometings out". "Yes you do" replied JC "and when you get out of here you can do that". " Now we need to decide how to handle this situation from last night" JC said. "What room is he in" JC asked? " I think it is room 201" Lance said. "OK, I will walk down there and see what he thinks" JC said. "Thanks JC, I really appreciate it." Lance replied. "That's OK Scoop, you will just owe me after this" JC replied as he walked out the door.
I was lying in bed watching a little TV when there was a knock on my door. I looked up hoping it was Michael and it was. Mikey walked in and I could not believe the change in him. In these last 13 years he had gotten more amazing. He now stood about 5'11" and weighed maybe 175 lbs and looked like a swimmer. He sat down on the bed and hugged me. I just broke down and cried. When I had composed myself, Michael asked "What is going on with you, you never cry and this is now twice you have cried on me" "Mikey I think I am falling in love with this guy I met yesterday, the first time I looked at him he just captured me and I cannot get him out of my mind." I said. Mikey looked extremely confused. "I though you did not swing that way anymore" Mikey asked? "Well I have not been with another guy since you and yes I was married for a while, she and the kids died 3 months ago." I replied. "OK, tell me how you met him" he stated. "Well, I had just gotten settled in here and they were bringing in a new patient. They parked him outside my door and when I looked out the door his eyes just captivated me. I was like looking in a sea of emeralds. I was staring and then he winked at me and that did it. Later I was in the music room and I was playing a song I heard on the radio and was singing along with my playing and I heard another voice and when I turned around it was him, he was singing with me. It was then that I recognized him. I asked him if he was who I thought he was and he said yes, and then I fainted." I was breathing hard after all that and Mikey was about to fall in the floor laughing at me. I punched him and he fell off the bed. "Hey" he yelped hitting the floor. "It's not funny" I told him. "Yea it is" he stated. Mikey crawled back up on the bed and looked directly into my eyes for a moment. "You really are in love with this guy" he stated directly and I just shook my head yes. "Now, tell me what is it that has gotten you so down" he asked. "Well, When I woke up, I was here in my bed and the first thing I saw was those green eyes staring at me. After the nurse left, he asked why I fainted and I told him it was because of who he was. We then started talking about the last three months and I started crying and he hugged me. When I had calmed down we looked at each other and we kissed." I stopped for a moment and Mikey has this stunned look on his face. "You just kissed him" he asked? " Yea, I did" I replied. "Then what happened" Mike asked. "Well, we were both into the kiss and when we broke it, he walked out." and I just lost it again. Mikey gathered me up in a hug and I cried for a while. When I had composed myself again, Mikey asked the one question he had not asked all afternoon. "Who is this guy" Mikey asked? I took a deep breath and replied "Lance Bass".
JC was walking down to this guys room talking to himself "Lance has fallen for someone else and I seem to be very calm about it. I guess I am more over him than I thought. I just hope this guy is not going to destroy Lance over one kiss, I mean come on, Lance did not start it." JC had arrived at Tam Taylor's room and was about to knock when he heard him talking to someone and he heard Lance's name mentioned. JC decided to hang around and listen.
"Lance Bass" Mikey asked stunned? "Yea" I replied. "Are you fucking crazy" Mikey yelled. "I mean he is in the hottest band in the world right now and you cannot be kissing on him" Mikey replied hotly. "Do you realize that he could have you in trouble" Mikey asked angrily? " I know all that" I replied getting pretty pissed off at that moment. "Don't you think I have thought of nothing but that, you asshole. I mean I kiss one of the most popular guys in the world and he walks out on me, my first rational thought was I could end up in trouble for that, but my problem is that I am in love with him and I even know that nothing will come of this, but I cannot help how I feel. I figured that if anyone understood how I felt it would be you and now I see that you are just as closed minded as everyone else is." I replied extremely pissed off, tears are streaming down my face and I am near hyperventilation. I sob one more time and turn over and pull the covers over my head to shut out the world. I am in more trouble than I thought. Mikey does not even understand. I feel the bed sag and Mikey starts rubbing my back and humming. I drift off to sleep.
JC stood outside the door of Tam's room stunned at what he had heard. "He feels the same way Lance does". JC turns and walks back to Lance's room. When he got there Lance has blankly flipping through the channels on the TV. When JC walked in Lance turned off the TV and said, "Well?" "Well Lance, it would seem that the feeling are returned, I heard him talking to someone in his room and he told them how much he loves you, he just expects to be arrested because he kissed you." JC replied. Lance was stunned that the feelings were returned and even more suprised that Tam felt that Lance would have him arrested. "I need to talk to him" Lance stated. "Yes you do" agreed JC. Lance starts getting out of bed, "Give me a hand JC and lets go talk to him" Lance stated. Lance and JC started their slow journey to Tam's room.
I woke up and realized that I was not covered up heads and ears anymore. Mikey had evidently uncovered me during my nap. "Tam," Mikey asked "Yea" I replied. " I am sorry buddy" Mikey replied with tears leaking out the sides of his eyes. "That's OK" I replied, "I was just hoping that you would understand how I feel." I stated. " I do" Mikey replied. "Well, I guess my best bet is to find him and try to clear this up between us, would you not agree?" I stated. "Yea" Mikey replied. Just then we heard a knock. "Come in" I yelled. The door opened and I heard "Tam?"
Well that's it for chapter 4. I hope chapter 5 is not so hard to write. Thanks for you patience and let me know what you think of this. This is my first attempt at writing so be gentle. Please send me some response to this story. I don't care if it is positive or negative. Emails to tamtaylor_2000@yahoo.com. See ya soon.
Tell me that I'm Dreaming Author: tamtaylor_2000@yahoo.com
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