Disclaimer: You know the drill. This is a work of fiction, there are not claims about the sexual orientation of any member of NSYNC especially Lance Bass. Thanks to David at Nifty for putting up with me Permission is granted to post this anywhere as long as it is free. Copyrighted March 2000 by tamtaylor_2000. Thanks Rachel and Michael, I appreciate the help and the support. Some stories I like are Escape, Choices, Rob and Lance, Ryan and Lance, Destiny and What Happened.
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Just then we heard a knock. "Come in" I yelled. The door opened and I heard "Tam?" ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Now on to chapter 5:
"Lance?" I asked
"Yea" he replied.
"Can we talk in private" he asked very shyly?
I figured what did I have to lose by talking to him(Just my freedom).
"sure we can" I replied.
Mikey looked at me and gave me a look of support and left them room. Lance came over and sat down on the side of the bed and we looked at each other, both afraid to be the first to talk. I finally decided that I would start this off.
"Lance, I am sorry about last night. I don't know why I did that except that I wanted to." I said as tears started down my face.
"Don't cry Tam, I am not upset about the kiss, I kinda enjoyed it" Lance replied.
"You mean you are not going to hate me or get me in trouble" I asked suprised.
"No I am not, I really have something else to say to you" he paused and then continued " I really enjoyed it and I hope that it meant something to you as well, it has been a long time since I felt this way and I hope that you will hear me out." Lance stopped for a moment and took a deep breath, " Tam, I know that this may sound strange, but I have feelings for you, and eventhough we don't really know each other, I feel a connection to you. I think I am falling for you." Lance stopped and looked at me.
I was stunned. The exact thoughts had been in my mind and he says them outloud.
"Lance, I know what you are feeling, because I feel the same way. I have never loved a man before, but, I know I am falling for you. From the first moment I saw you outside my door, I was captured by you." I stated.
Lance leaned in and we kissed again. No tentative kiss this time, we were tongue dueling and kissing hard and passionate. My mind was spinning and I moaned and fell into this and Lance consumed me whole. We had been kissing for about 5 minutes when we heard someone clearing their throats.
"oh hem" JC called out.
We broke and smiled at each other. JC and Michael came in the room.
"Lance, this is Michael, one of my best friends" I said, and Lance stood and shook Mikey's hand.
"This is JC and I am Lance" Lance said to Michael and Me.
"I know who you are" Mikey replied, "I am a fan as well" Mikey said and we all laughed.
Lance Brought JC over to the bed
"Tam, this is JC, he is my best friend and ex" Lance said.
I stuck out my hand, "nice to meet you JC"
"I am glad you and Lance worked this out, you seem like a good person and kinda cute too." JC replied and I blushed.
Mikey said "Tam, I will see you later, I have to get back home" he came over to the bed and gave me a hug. While he was hugging me he quietly wishpered in my ear "He is a nice guy, try and hold on to him, I want you happy".
"Thanks Mikey" I said "I will do my best". ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- The next 2 weeks flew by, with Lance and I both in therapy, we got very little time together. On the night before we were to leave I got back from therapy to find a message on the bed to call Monica my boss. I dialed the number and she answered on the second ring.
"Hey Monica, Its Tam."
"Hello Tam" she replied quite formally.
"I got your message" I told her "What's up?" I asked?
"Well Tam, I don't know how to tell you this, but I had to replace you this morning. I am truly sorry."
I was stunned, she had just fired me. "Why" I asked
"Well you have missed a month of work" she replied.
"But you know that I am in a rehab hospital" I said
"I know, but the word came down that you had to be replaced. You will get 3 months salary and be paid out on your vacation and your health benefits will continue for 3 months. I will give you a good reference for a new job, I truly am sorry Tam" she said
"I know, thanks for what you did, clean out my office and send everything to my apartment for me" I asked?
"All ready done, good luck Tam" she said and then hung up. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lance was sitting on his bed dressed ready to leave. He was all packed and he dreaded what was next. He needed to walk around to Tam's room. He was not ready to lose him and was trying to figure out how not to. JC entered the room and saw Lance with a far away look in his eyes.
"Lance" JC called out.
Lance jumped when he heard JC's voice. "Hey JC" Lance replied.
"You ready to go" JC asked?
"No, I still need to talk to Tam and I have not figured out a way to not lose him." Lance's voice quivered as he spoke.
"Just tell him how you feel and talk to him" JC replied.
"I am" and with that Lance got up and walked out the door. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- I was sitting on the bed, totally in shock at what had just happened. I had just been fired. I heard a knock and the door and then the voice of an angel.
"Tam" Lance called.
"Come it Lance" I replied.
Lance came in and shut the door and locked it. I was suprised by that because he had not ever done that in the two weeks we had been here.
"What's up Lance, you locked the door" I asked.
"Well, we need to talk and I don't want us interrupted" Lance replied.
"OK, the floor is yours Lance" I replied.
Lance took a deep breath and said "I really need you to let me get all this out. Tam, I love you. I know that it is sudden but I feel that you are the one person I want with me all the time. It is killing me inside to know that tonight you and I are leaving here and I don't know what to do to keep you from forgetting about me. This may sound selfish, but, I wish you could come to Orlando and stay with me for a while. I just don't want to lose you"
Lance stopped and started quietly crying. I was stunned, with all that had happened today, I was expecting him to tell me this was a fling for him and that was it. I was not prepared for this profession of love and him looking for a future for us. It really came at a good time and I made a decision right then, I only hoped that I would not come to regret it.
" Lance" I began, "I love you too, and I really don't want to lose you either. Today has been full of suprises for me. I talked to my boss alittle while ago, they fired me yesterday. If you really want me to go to Orlando with you I guess I could, if you give me sometime to empty my apartment and put stuff in storage."
Lance had looked up at me while I was talking and had a large smile on his face, and I could not help but grin right back at him. Lance walked over and kissed me with more passion that we had experienced in the two weeks we had been together. Our tongues were battling for victory and I gave up and moaned loudly.
At that Lance started laughing hard.
"What you laughing at Lance" I asked quite hurt.
Lance continued to laugh and then said "why do you think I locked the door"
I got it and started to laugh with him. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- When Lance woke up the next morning, he knew what he needed to do. He got his cell phone and dialed the number for the guys manager. Peter was an good guy and Lance knew he could sell this idea to Peter.
"Hello, Peter McCain here" Peter answered.
"Peter, It's Lance" Lance spoke.
"Lance, how are you, we miss you terribly" Peter replied.
"I am good, I will be getting out of here today. Peter I need a favor" Lance said.
"OK, Lance what is it?" Peter replied.
" I know this sounds funny, but I need you to hire a friend of mine. He has been working as a counselor and he just got fired because of an accident he was in. He is a good guy and I think he would be what you guys have been talking about for us when we get at a standstill with each other." Lance told Peter.
Peter was quiet for a moment then said "Lance is he a friend like JC was?"
Lance went dead still, he had not planned on that coming up just yet, but Lance knew Peter had been supportive on him and JC.
"Yes, he is Peter" Lance replied.
"Oh, well lets do this, let me meet him and talk to him and then I will give you an answer, will that work?" Peter asked?
"Thanks Peter, I will go up to the nurses station and fax you his address and you can see him this afternoon after he gets discharged from here" Lance replied.
"That's fine Lance and then you and I will talk tonight, c ya later Lance" Peter said and then hung up.
Lance hung up and smiled. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- I was sitting on the bed thinking, what this last two weeks had been like. Lance had just left here, he had been discharged and had to sneak down here for a quick bye kiss and tell me he would see me tomorrow at my apartment and was then whisked away. Michael was outside putting my bags in his car to take me home. As I walked out into the beautiful Tampa sunshine, I was happier than I had been in 4 months. As we were heading to my apartment, Michael and I rode in silence, he knew me well enough to know when I had something heavy on my mind and he did not pry. When we got to my apartment and we were inside Michael spoke
"Tam, when you get this worked out call me and we will talk about it"
With that he hugged me and walked out the door. I walked into the living room and flopped on the sofa, I don't guess I had even stopped falling when someone knocked on the door. I sighed and got up and opened the door. Standing outside my door was a man in a suite and he handed me a card and introduce himself.
"Mr. Taylor, my name is Peter McCain, and I represent a management firm called The FIRM. I am here at there and Lance Bass's request, May I come in...............
to be continued?
Well that's it for chapter 5. I thought I would throw in a cliff hanger. How do you think Tam will handle Lance's suprise for him. Tell me what you think. Chapter 6 is already in my mind and should be out soon. Thanks for you patience. Please send me some response to this story. I don't care if it is positive or negative. Emails to tamtaylor_2000@yahoo.com. See ya