this story isn't for anyone under the age of 18!!! so don't read it if you're younger ok?!
To some kids highschool goes by too slow but for me it went by too fast. If i could i'd trade anything just to go back to those years but now i'm in college at UCLA living a wonderful life yet my mind always brings me back to Highschool. My name is Cindy and I'm about 5'6, black short hair, tanish, brown eyes, athetlic build. I was the one who was friends with everyone even though you could label me the punk/scenster kid. Music is my life and ever since 8th grade i've been playing the drums, the bass, the piano and the guitar and i've been in a band since then too. Anyways, I grew up in Tucson, AZ and once it was time for me to leave i felt like i had to escape town due to what happened.
There i was a sophmore and everything was going perfect until she walked into my life. Her name was Nicole. She was a senior at the time, brown hair, blue eyes, very atheltic yet she was also the girly girl. Her and i didn't really talk for the first part of the year but at a local show i noticed her and asked a few friends if they knew her. I came to find out she went to church with one of my best friends. So as the months passed i slowly began to hang out with her and before I knew it we were best friends.
"Cindy, what are you thinking about? You seem like something is wrong." Nicole said.
"oh i'm just thinking about school and stuff..." I said this trying to throw her off but really i was thinking about her... I mean i realized how amazing she was and how much i liked her but at the same time i knew she'd never go for me..she's straight so i had to move on.
As a few weeks passed we didnt talk as much but when we'd see each other around school we wouldnt say anything to each other either. every once in awhile I'd look up and see her looking at me and i'd notice that whenever we would talk she'd get mad or upset whenever i'd mention someone was cute. My best friends amber, alexis, breanna, stephanie and sierra knew i was gay and they knew i had liked nicole but they also noticed how odd she had been acting lately. Amber (the one who went to the same church) one day asked nicole if everything was okay with her and i. Nicole looked at amber and looked like she wanted to cry but then got up and ran off...so after these weird incidents i thought i should just tell her how i feel for her.
I had it all planned out and there we were acting like the old friends we were but before i knew it it was time. We were outside her house as i was about to drop her off when i said, "nicole, can we talk please?"
"Um okay...are you alright?"
"yea, i'm fine it's just listen...i've been meaning to tell you this for a long time but you mean alot to me...not just as friends but I like you."
There was a moment when we just looked into each others eyes and nothing was said.
" Wow Cindy...I mean i don't know what to say..You know I like boys and i mean just wow...well at least im happy you told me because that means a lot to me..." she said this and then gave me a hug and walked off. I never have been that confused in my life before. As days went on we drifted apart again and I relaized i had to move on.
It was around the month of April when i met this girl sara. She was wonderful and everything I had wanted yet i still thought of Nicole sometimes. Sara was about 5"7, tanish, black long hair, i mean she was the hollister sort girl. Anyways we started to date and it was really fun being with her because she'd make me so happy. How i found she liked me was when her and I were up at this place that showed all of the city's lights. we were sitting in my car talking about everything when the topic of being gay came up. She knew I was gay so it wasn't that difficult for me to talk about it.
"Cindy, what's it like to kiss a girl?" Sara said.
"Hmm well kissing a guy is fun and what not but when you're kissing a girl, well at least for me, there's way more passion and it's not all about the lust."
After i said that there was a few moments of silence but i really didnt care...nothing bothered me that much so oh well.
" Cindy, would you kiss me?" Sara said this and i was shocked as all hell.
"wait...i mean are you sure?" I said
Sara just nodded her head and then i turned to face her when she began to lean in. I put one hand on the back of her head nad just gave her a few little kisses at first but then that escalated to more passionate kisses. I thought this would barely last but before i realized it we were making out for a ver long time. In the middle of this though she backed up and said, "i could see why your gay" and then we went back to kissing. Minutes later she was on top of me and everything kept moving faster and faster. Soon we were in the back of my car with her on top of me kissing every part of me. I just couldn't believe this was happening though. The hottest girl in school was doing this with me. Well soon i was on top and i went from her lips to her stomache and then i slowly pished away her pants and underwear. I looked up to see if she wanted this and she just gave me a nod. Sure enough i began to lick the insides of sara and within minutes she began to moan louder and louder. Once she reached her point i went back up and we just layed there smiling at each other. We probably stayed in that spot for a few hours.
After that night it was offical that sara and I were going out. At school we werent the couple to hold hands and be flammers but everybody knew we were dating. If you saw me then you saw sara right next to me. Everywhere we went though it was us two. All of our friends were comfortable with it which was kickass. Only one person seemed to be affected by it though..guess who that was. Yeah, Nicole.
One night sara and I went to a mini golf place with some friends but this place had arcade games inside, a laser tag building, golf carts and what not. Well Nicole was and is still friends with some of my best buddies but i guessed nicole was invited to hang out with us that night yet i wasnt warned of this and neither was she. So there was sara and I playing minature golf when everyone came otuside to meet us. Along with our friends was nicole. She looked hella shocked to see me especially with sara and I holding hands.
"Hey cindy and sara, you fools ready for a game of laser tag?!" amber said this and then grabbed us to go follow everyone else.
Once we got to the laser tag place i just threw out the fact that nicole was there and still wanted to have fun with sara. Well as we were playing laser tag which is in a three story building with all the lights off except for black lights and there were also fog machines so of course its hard to see people right? Well i guess not. Sara and i were in one of the corner watching out for people and we realized it had got boring so being the kinky couple we are we began to make out since we thought nobody could see us. We were wrong, nicole walked right into that room. Sara was only embarassed but i was worried. That whole night nicole wouldnt talk to me. With my luck though i had to drop off amber, nicole and sara. Well i thought to myself that nicole should be the last one so that i can talk to her.
"nicole, im soooooo sorry about earlier tonight."
"yeah, it's okay cindy i mean at least you've moved on."
"Well look you didn't like me right? what was I suppose to do?" I said this with some attitude though because it was the truth.
"whatever cindy...I'll talk to you later" she said as she was getting out of my car. I couldn't just let her walk away though so i ran up to her and pulled her arm back.
"Nicole listen, you knew damn well i liked you and you didnt do anything so dont blame me for this!"
Nicole turned around and just looked at me. Suddenly she leaned in and kissed me. I was all too shocked with what was going on...i couldnt let go though, i mean this was the girl of my dreams finally giving in. Yet when i let go she just turned around and walked off. Ever since that night sara could tell something was up with me. I never told sara about that night because i assumed it was a one time thing...was i wrong...
Spring break came and amber, alexis, stephanie, breanna and I were going to go to mexico for five days. I invited sara but she was going to florida with the family.
"Hey babe, i'm going to miss you soooooooooooooooo much!" sara said over the phone.
"god i know, i'm gonna miss you too! I'll bring you something back from mexico though okay? But listen i have to go because the girls are here, i love you though!" I said.
"I love you too!!!!!" sara said.
I hung up the phone, grabbed my bags and everything i needed and headed outside. When i got their i noticed breanna wasn't with the group and instead nicole was there. Shit i thought to myself.
"Hey amber, where's breanna?" I said.
"Oh she couldnt go due to her parents but I invited Nicole if that's cool?" Amber said
"oh yea, totally. So are we ready to go?" I said.
Hours passed as we drove to mexico but when we finally got to our condo i was tired as shit. Everyone wanted to drink so they went out and came home around 11 piss ass drunk. I couldnt help but laugh though because the things they were saying were funny as hell. I mean one friend was talking about the pope when another was laughing about HIV. If you were there you'd understand.
Nicole was buzzed but was being very quiet.
"Nicole, you didn't drink like the others? What's up with that?!" I said
" Nope." Is all she said.
An hour passed by when everyone was on the floor sleeping except for nicole. Her and i were talking about school and how she was graduating in a month. It was really sad that she was leaving but it's life.
"So nicole, are you nervous to go to the U of A?" I asked. "not really, it's still in town but i'm going to miss some people..." She said. "You'll have fun there, don't worry." I said trying to comfort her. "Well i'm going to get ready for bed alright?" She said this but i noticed she finally began to slur her words. As she stood up to go to her room she tripped and i coudlnt help but laugh, i mean maybe the drinks did get to her. So i stood up and helped her to her room because i felt bad and plus i was being a good friend, yea friend.
As i was putting her down on her bed she looked up and put her arms around my neck. I just stood there in awe and didnt want to let go but i had to. Sure enough she pulled me down and began to kiss me. Me being the horrible girlfriend i am gave in and began to kiss Nicole back. Nicole and i tossed and turned and eventually she landed on top. She took my shirt off as i did the same to her. i then began to fumble to remove her bra and as i did so she just smiled. Finally it was off and i soon realzed mine was off too. We went back to kissing but i let my hands roam all over her back and then over her butt. She didnt seem bothered by this. She then slowly moved from kissing me to my boobs. She kept kissing them but moved to my stoamche. I couldn't believe this was happened though. She finally got to my pants and just took them off along with my thong. She began to lick all around my pussy and i began to moan louder and louder. I was suprised that a girl who has never had sex with another girl could be this good. After i climaxed she came up and then i we began to kiss all voer again. Finally i won and got top and i did the same except i wanted to give her more. So after i made her climax due to my tongue i put three fingers inside her and began to finger bang her. While i was doing this her and i where still kissing. Finally she climaxed and i went beside her and just layed there.
"Cindy, I love you." She said...i wasn't expecting her to say that at all.
"wow, nicole i like you but i mean wow...how do you know what love is?" I said
"I know what it is because whenever i look in your eyes i feel something so strong for you. You make me feel complete and i don't want to lose you." She said.
After that her and i cuddle and fell asleep in each others arms.
The rest of that spring break was awesome, i mean every night and every chance nicole and I had sex. The only downside was sara. I had to tell her when i got home. Well it was a friday when got home and the first thing i did was call sara's cell. Instead of sara picking up some guy picked up.
" Um is sara there?" I said.
" Yeah hold on, shes just waking up though." The male voice said.
This was going to be easier than i thought it would be.
"hello?" she said.
"hey sara, its me cindy...we need to talk." I said
"oh...um letme explain...i mean it happened all too fast and i was drunk, he was drunk im so sorry..i mean oh my god..." She said.
"haha sara don't worry because i had the same situation but can we just be ona break? I mean i need some time to think things out." I said.
"oh god yea, whew..i'm happy you're okay..but yea babe that sounds fine." With that her and i saw less of each other yet we'd still keep in contact.
A few weeks passed and Nicole and i were fine yet nobody really knew about her and I. I didnt care because at least I knew she loved me and that was all that mattered.
Graduation time came and i couldn't believe nicole was leaving school. Not just her but about 20 other of my friends were leaving...it was very depressing yet it offered a new begining for them. Of course we all promised to stay in contact but i wondered how long that'd last.
The night before graduation i went over to nicole's to drop off her back pack she left in my car. Nicole lives two houses down from stephanie so i was always by her house and what not. Well as i was driving towards her house i noticed somebody's car was there. i knew it wasn't her families because they were out that night in phx. I decided to park at stephanies house and walk over to nicole's to see what was up. As i got to her house I realized that it was Mike's car who was there. Mike was friend of hers yet i knew he had liked her. I knocked on the door but there was no answer. The lights were on so she had to be home. After a few minutes i just walked in and nobody was in the living room or anything. I then heard a few noises coming from her bedroom. I slightly opened her door and saw her and Mike having sex on her bed. I didnt want to believe it but there it was. I just left her house and her stuff there too. I dont think they heard me but as i made my way back to stephanies house stephanie saw me crying.
"Oh my god, what's wrong cindy?!" She said.
"Fucking Nicole is in there having sex with mike...fuck this...how could i ever fall for her? total bullshit.." I said said this in sobs.
"Listen, you don't deserve that shit and i'll go kick her ass if you want me to babe!" Stephanie said this being an honest friend.
"Yea it's okay, i'll figure it out but thank you stephanie." I said.
That night i went to my house and threw away everything that reminded me of her. I threw out every present she ever gave me, every picture of her and I and i just sat there crying . I couldn't beleive i'd be that stupid to fall for her...
The next day was graduation and as a custome this is the day all the seniors ditch. Well i didnt see her that day which was a good thing yet i was bitter as all fuck.
That night though i had to go to graduation to see the rest of my friends. I invited sara to go with me and she seemed happy to be around me again. Her and I showed up and sat by the rest of our friends famalies and by some other friends. It was crazy to realize they were leaving but oh well.
After they all had walked i told sara to go with amber and the girls because i had to go talk to someone. She had left with them and as i was heading towards my car i heard someone calling my name.
"CINDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" It was nicole...shit...
"where were you?! I didnt see you by family or anything? what's going on?" she said.
"What do you mean what's going on? I should be asking you that." I said this and turned around to walk to my car.
"what is wrong?!" Nicole said.
"ha, Nicole don't think i'm stupid. I saw you and mike last night having sex..i went to your house to drop off your stuff but fuck it. We're threw...i don't want to hear your lame ass excuses.." I said this and looked at her one last time and left. As i was leaving i noticed she was just standing there and fell to the floor crying. I wasn't going to stop though, she had screwed me over.
after that night sara and i got back together and we realized what we did to each other was wrong and we made up and everything..things were back to normal except for a few days following graduation all i got were phone calls, texts, and emails from Nicole. I'd just delete em..she had already hurt me way too much.
During the following months my band began to take off and play a lot of local gigs. everyonce in awhile I'd see nicole at the shows with a few friends and yea she'd tried to talk to me but i'd ignored her every time. Before i knew it though i was a senior. I was excited to move on and graduate and plus my band, sara and I were moving to Los Angeles. I was all too excited for this.
The night of our graduation i sat there in the chairs thinking of times i spent with my friends. I was called up, got my diploma and what not and sat back down only to wait for the other 300 kids. What i had forgotten about was that Nicole had a younger brother and he was in the same grade as i was. This meant she was here. After everyone was called up and we were threw i went to say hi to my family and my friends famalies when i felt someone tap me on the shoulder.
"Hey, congrats." It was Nicole.
"hi...um thank you...I have to leave right now but thank you again. " i gave her a fake smile and looked down.
" Listen, i'm so sorry for what i did that night... I know you'll never forgive me but i'm sorry..."
"it's totally okay, i understand..things happen for a reason. Why they do, i don't know but they do." I said.
She looked very sad and looked like she was going to cry.
I turned around to walk away but then i said, "hey nicole, tell you're brother congrats!" I think she was expecting me to say something else but i couldnt find the words to say...yea i loved her but she hurt me too much that i as too scared to love her.
I was finally free from higschool and the troubles it gave to me. I was getting into my car to go to my house for the party when nicole was tapping on the window. I rolled it down and said, "hey are you okay?"
A split second after that she leaned in and gave me one last kiss. She started to cry and said she was sorry but had to kiss me one last time.
"Wow...i'm speechless nicole...Please don't forget that i love you but please realize you have to learn from your mistakes..." after i said that we parted ways...
I'm now Living with Sara still In L.A. along with my band. everything is perfect because school is great, sara and I have been dating for a few years and plus my band might get signed soon. whenever i go back home though to visit everyone i always drive by nicole's house and wonder what would have ever happened between her and i...i wonder if her and i will ever meet again...