Jackson wasn't sure why he was watching Blake and Todd. The last thing he wanted to do was hurt even more, but something came over him and he unplugged the little hole right as they were taking each other's underwear off. He also knew that he shouldn't watch because this was a private act, but after the hurt he felt from Blake, it was his little way to get back at Blake for not feeling the same toward him. At least, that's what he was telling himself. He watched for a few minutes until the action started getting heavy, he then replaced the plug and went to his bed. His heart couldn't take seeing Blake in so much pleasure, especially since he wasn't the one giving it to him. He closed his eyes and willed himself to fall asleep as soon as possible. He didn't want to hear anything that might escape the room next door.
Once Blake understood Todd's request, he was flabbergasted for a few moments. He went through the motions of what he was doing because Todd was leading, but was still shocked by what Todd told him. After a few more moments, he brought his mind back to the situation at hand. Todd used his powerful arms and flipped Blake upon his back and Todd lay atop him. They kissed for a few more moments and then Todd slowly started snaking his way down to Blake's crotch. Todd's tongue hit every sensitive area between Blake's neck and waist, and when he reached what he was looking for, Todd skipped it, going for the sensitive sack first.
After giving Blake's scrotum a good soaking, he tongued his way up Blake's throbbing shaft until he had the head at the tip of his tongue. He looked up at Blake and smiled, then grabbed the member and held it upright. Blake was looking forward to Todd putting his mouth on him so much that his mouth was hanging open, trying to control what Todd's mouth was doing. When he finally felt Todd's wet, warm mouth engulf him, he put his head back and gulped the air around him. His moans started out soft, but Todd was working his magic and soon they were growing in decibels. Todd had to caution Blake about being loud, and Blake grabbed a pillow to cover his face.
No matter what Jackson did, he couldn't fall asleep, and when he started hearing Blake moan, he put a pillow over his head, trying to block out the sounds of ecstasy coming from Blake's room. It didn't work and he was soon humming to himself, trying to block out the moans. He stopped his humming for a moment and didn't hear anything. He listened more closely and the noise had stopped. He replaced the pillow under his head and closed his eyes.
Blake never remembered Todd giving such wonderful blowjobs, but he figured that it had been so long that it was probably the same as the last one they shared. He tried to control his moans and removed the pillow to look into Todd's eyes. He put his right hand on Todd's head and let it rest, but a moment later, Todd grabbed it and their fingers were intertwined, tightly holding each other's hand. Todd held Blake's hand while he pleasured his boyfriend the best way he knew how. Blake's body was lifting up off the mattress as Todd pulled away from Blake's body, and when Todd would go back down, Blake would slowly lower his body back to the bed.
Todd's free hand was between Blake's legs, alternating from scrotum to pucker. He would play with, even tug. Blake's balls slightly then move his finger down to caress Blake's hole. He knew the hole was more sensitive and because of that he wanted the pleasure to last so he kept up his alternating routine.
After about ten minutes, Blake begged to service Todd, and reluctantly, Todd pulled away. Todd walked his way up Blake's body and when he got to Blake's mouth he kissed him, deeply. Todd grabbed Blake and pulled them chest to chest, then Todd turned them both once more, until he ended up laying on the sheets. Blake got his bearings and started his own tongue bath from Todd's neck to his crotch. He made it as far as the navel before he couldn't hold out any longer. He grabbed Todd in his hand, then lowered his mouth over Todd, engulfing him to the base.
Since Todd asked Blake to penetrate him, Blake started playing with Todd's hole, getting him used to the feeling. He put one finger in his mouth, then told Todd he was about to enter him. The only thing Todd said was, "Slowly."
Blake smiled, and continued his assault on Todd's body. His finger was wet and he massaged around the sensitive hole, getting Todd ready for entry. He wet his finger again, then placed it in the center of Todd's pucker and started to put pressure on the opening. After a few seconds, it slipped in and Todd bucked his hips, sending his cock into Blake's throat. Blake held his finger still, but kept working on Todd's member. After a few minutes, he started wiggling his finger inside Todd, again, letting him get used to the feeling.
Todd's moans were louder than usual as well. He had missed Blake's mouth making love to him, and he didn't realize how loud he was being. He hoped no one heard, but if they did, he hoped they understood. Little did he know that Jackson started humming again.
Blake pulled off of Todd's hard muscle and grabbed Todd under his legs and pulled him backwards, so that Todd was laying flat on the bed. When he was, Blake lifted Todd's legs and dove onto his sensitive pucker. He used his tongue for a few minutes and then started incorporating one finger in the mix. After a few more moments, in hopes of distracting Todd, he slowly started pushing his finger inside while letting his tongue continue the lashing it was providing, It worked!
Todd felt pressure, but it wasn't uncomfortable. He actually started to enjoy it after a few minutes. His moans stayed at the same level as they were when Blake was sucking him, but when Blake introduced a second finger, they jumped in volume, slightly. Blake got a second finger wet and started slowly working it inside Todd. The pressure Todd felt increased and he didn't like it. Once Blake told him it was inside, he relaxed as best he could and tried to enjoy the sensation of Blake's fingers.
After only about five minutes, the pressure was gone, but in its place was a strange feeling Todd had never felt before. It was weird, at first, then it turned to pleasure. His moans returned and he was enjoying the treatment Blake was giving him. Blake kept working his fingers inside Todd, pushing them in, then pulling them out, twisting them, loosening the ring of muscle that Blake knew would be stretched a little later on in the evening. He moved his mouth back to Todd's engorged member while his fingers kept working their magic.
Before he knew it, Todd wasn't feeling anything but pleasure. He didn't know that having his ass played with like this could feel so good. He never really understood why Blake liked to get fucked, but he was happy that's how the cards fell. Now, he possibly understood why Blake liked it. It was pleasurable and he wondered if the final act would be as pleasurable, if not more so.
Blake cautioned Todd that he was adding only one more finger, but to let him know if it bothered him too much. "I'm about as thick as three fingers, so if you can't take those, you probably won't be able to take me," Blake told him.
"Okay," Todd said. "Just, please, go slow."
"Of course, baby," Blake said, then wet a third finger and let it join the others.
Todd jumped a few times as the last finger made it way with the others, but Blake held still every time allowing Todd to get used to the feeling of being stretched. When the third finger was in place, Blake held still for a few moments, then started the same routine. He watched Todd's face and saw it was bothering him, so he started to pull out, saying it might be a bad idea, but Todd said no. He told Blake to keep going, that he had to get used to it for a few minutes. He explained that it was a bit uncomfortable, but that it should feel better soon.
Blake kept up the slow movements and went back to Todd's cock, bathing it with his tongue and mouth. This helped distract Todd from the uncomfortable feeling in his ass and pretty soon, the feeling was gone. Nothing but pleasure was running throughout his body and before he knew it, he was begging Blake to make love to him.
Blake was a little shocked at the statement and hoped Todd would still enjoy fucking him when it was done, but he didn't keep Todd waiting. He lowered Todd down to lie on the bed, then slowly removed his fingers. Todd reached over and grabbed the lube and gave it to Blake. Blake covered Todd's ass with a generous amount of lube, then did the same to his throbbing muscle. Laying the lube aside, Blake lifted Todd's legs and scooted in close. He could see the panic in Todd's eyes and said, "Don't worry, puppy. I'm gonna go as slow as you need."
"Do I look that scared?" Todd asked, giving a breathy laugh.
"Yeah, you do, actually. Put your hands on my thighs and if I go too fast or too hard, push back. I'll stop when you do."
Todd did as Blake suggested and placed his hands on Blake's thighs. When he knew Todd was ready, he started rubbing the head of his dick over Todd's quivering hole. He made a few strokes, up and down, and side to side, then told Todd he was about to start. Todd nodded his head and closed his eyes.
"Look at me," Blake said. "Same way I do when you enter me, remember?"
Todd opened his eyes and Blake looked down, lined up and started putting pressure on Todd. He could feel Todd push back, but he didn't know if it was from anticipation or pain, so he held still, but kept the pressure against Todd's opening. After a few moments, he felt Todd's hands give a little, so he pushed in a little more only to feel Todd's hands return. Once again, he held still.
Todd's eyes showed the beginnings of panic and fear, but Blake didn't stop, instead, he reassured Todd he wouldn't hurt him. He wanted Todd to stop him if he realized he couldn't go through with it. Blake only continued because he knew Todd wanted to try it. A few minutes later and Blake was still not inside. Todd was growing frustrated because he felt as if he got Blake's hopes up, but now he felt as if he might not be able to do it after all. He thought of one more suggestion before he would call it quits.
"Why don't you lie down and let me sit on it. I'll be able to control everything, at least, until I get used to it," Todd suggested.
Blake pulled away from Todd and as Todd got up, Blake took his place. Todd straddled Blake's hips and reached back and found Blake's cock. He lined it up with his hole and he slowly started to sit. From this position, Blake felt himself slip inside Todd, probably just a little too fast and Todd let out a small yelp. Todd held still and Blake tried his best not to flex his sphincter, knowing it would affect his dick. He let Todd move at his own pace and after a few minutes, he felt his head slip past the ring of muscle in Todd's anus.
By this time, Todd had watery eyes. He knew there would be pain involved and Blake told him he didn't need to continue, but he wanted to. Todd wanted to understand what Blake went through all those times he made love to him and in doing so, he had to push through the pain. After the pain eased, Todd lowered himself down a little further and didn't feel much pain at all.
"I think you're through the worst of it," Blake said.
"I think so, too," Todd agreed, moving just a little more.
"Go as slow as you need to, but when you're down all the way, just sit there and relax. Then slowly start squeezing your ass muscles. Let them get used to me," Blake said, holding Todd's thighs.
"Okay," Todd said and nodded as well.
After about ten minutes, Blake was completely buried inside Todd for the first time. He loved this feeling and hoped it only got better, but he also hoped that Todd was enjoying it as well. If he had to go by Todd's face, he didn't think he was. As Todd sat there, he did what Blake told him and started squeezing his ass. As he did, Blake asked Todd where he wanted him to cum.
"Inside. I do it to you all the time," Todd said, adding a little rocking motion to his squeezes.
"Just wanted to be sure," Blake said, then grabbed one of Todd's hands and held it.
A few moments passed and Todd felt no pain, but he did feel a lot of pressure. He slowly started lifting up from Blake, then he would settle back down. After a few of those, he said, "Damn, you're so thick."
Blake gave a small laugh and said, "And you're so tight."
Todd gave a chuckle, then concentrated on his lifts. He picked up in speed and the pleasure only doubled. He started to moan, which surprised Blake. He had felt as if Todd wasn't enjoying it, but was just going through the motions for his benefit. He was happy to know he was wrong.
"Just wait until I hit your prostate," Blake said with a big smile.
"Oh, God. If it feels as good as this, I might explode," Todd said, smiling back at Blake.
"Maybe so," Blake said. "When you can, lean down here so I can kiss you. I'll take over the hip action."
A few minutes later, that's what Todd did. He lowered himself down and locked lips with Blake. Blake held steady for a few seconds before he slowly pulled himself from Todd. For fear of hurting Todd, he only pulled a couple of inches out before he slowly pushed back in. When he did, Todd moaned into his mouth. Blake wrapped his arms around Todd and held him as his hips slowly worked their way up and down.
Blake knew that being a top was going to feel wonderful, but he had no idea the pressure and warmth and pleasure being a top could bring. He had never felt as good as he did at that moment. He loved knowing he was inside Todd and he was bringing Todd pleasure, but he also loved knowing Todd could bring him this much pleasure as well. He loved when Todd was inside him, but now he also loved being inside Todd, knowing Todd was giving his dick more pleasure than he had ever felt before.
Todd couldn't believe how great this felt and wondered what he had been afraid of all this time. Secretly, he knew, but he never admitted it. Feeling Blake fill him like this, he was more in love with his boyfriend that he thought possible. He also, finally understood why Blake loved being his bottom.
Jackson would hear noises and then it would get quiet. He wondered what was going on in the next room over and curiosity got the better of him. He tried to sleep, but it was useless so he got up, removed the plug and looked through. He couldn't believe what he saw. He always pictured Blake as being the bottom. Especially with someone as big as Todd. He couldn't believe Todd was the bottom in the relationship. He couldn't believe that Todd, a big, strong man, loved getting fucked. Before he realized what he was doing, he started feeling good between his legs. He looked down and saw his hand stroking his cock.
Blake had increased the length and speed of his strokes, eliciting a constant moan from Todd. Todd soon became breathless and broke the kiss and put his head on Blake's shoulder as Blake kept making love to him. Todd would talk to Blake in breathless words, telling him how good Blake was making him feel. Giving him instructions such as slower, faster, harder. A few times when Todd would tell him to go faster, he would get a little over rambunctious and slip out. When he would re-enter Todd, it slipped in with ease and with much pleasure for Todd.
After a few more minutes, Todd said, "I want you behind me."
"Doggie?" Blake asked.
"Yeah," Todd said, eyes closed enjoying the love Blake was giving him.
Blake slowly pulled out of Todd and Todd moved so Blake could get up. When they were in position, Blake buried himself back to the base and said, "Then, I want you on your back so I can see your eyes when I touch your prostate."
"Okay," Todd said, throwing his head back with pleasure.
Blake started his thrusts slowly and then increased the speed. As he did, Todd lowered his chest to the bed and opened himself up a little more for Blake. Blake heard Todd moan with pleasure on every in-stroke he gave Todd. Before long, Jackson started hearing slapping of skin as hips slammed into ass. His strokes increased with speed and he was actually impressed with Blake's technique. He had to stop stroking a few times, feeling the impending orgasm approaching, but when it passed, he grabbed himself and started again.
Blake was soon lying over Todd's back as his hips kept up their pace. He loved being inside Todd and hoped that this wasn't his only time getting to enjoy this feeling, but only if Todd agreed. If it was, then he wanted to enjoy it. He knew he loved being fucked by Todd and if that was what happened from that day forward, Blake would not be disappointed.
Blake's arms wrapped around Todd's large body as his hips moved with shorter strokes. He reached down between Todd's legs and found that his penis was as hard as a rock. Either he really was enjoying it, or the body was just taking over. He started to stroke it, but Todd grabbed his hand and said, "No. I'll get too close if you do."
Blake dropped his hands and leaned back up, placing his hands on the top of Todd's ass as he started to increase his thrusts. He started banging into Todd so hard that Todd's moans were only audible when Blake hit bottom. As soon as he pulled back, Todd went silent again, until the next thrust came.
After a few minutes, Blake said that he was getting close and he wanted Todd on his back. He pulled out of Todd and Todd turned over. With his legs up, Blake re-entered him and Todd's eyes rolled to the back of his head with pleasure. Blake started his thrusts again and after a few minutes told Todd to get prepared for his prostate massage. Todd nodded his head and stared into Blake's eyes as he adjusted his angle and slowly pushed in.
Blake knew the instant he touched Todd's prostate. Todd squeezed his eyes tight, gulped in air, thrashed his head from side to side and then opened his eyes wide to look at Blake. It was such a funny look that Blake almost started laughing.
"You like?" Blake asked through his suppressed laughter.
"Holy, shit. It's fucking amazing," Todd said, lowering his head back to the pillow.
"Believe me, I know. I love that feeling," Blake said, grabbing Todd's legs tighter in his arms.
"Now I know why," Todd said.
"Okay, get ready for constant rubbing," Blake said. "If it gets to the point where you can't stand it, let me know and I'll move the angle."
Todd simply nodded and before he knew it, he felt the adrenalin running through his blood, giving him the most intense high he's ever felt. Blake was rubbing his prostate on a continuous basis and Todd almost passed out with pleasure, until he told Blake he couldn't handle anymore. Blake adjusted his angle, then leaned down and took Todd's tongue in his mouth. They kissed as Blake's hips kept up their motion for a few minutes, before Todd broke the kiss saying, "Fuck me hard, baby! I gotta cum!"
Blake sat back on his knees, then lifted Todd's legs to rest on his shoulders and started hitting Todd's ass hard, sending his cock in as far as he could. Todd started his moaning again, and Blake reached down and grabbed Todd's left hand in his right. A few more minutes was all Blake could take.
"I'm getting close, baby," Blake announced.
"I'm already there," Todd said, then let out a constant moan as his orgasm flew over his head, hitting the wall.
The pressure his ass exerted when he climaxed was more than Blake's cock could stand and within a second he was joining Todd in pure ecstasy. He let lose the most fulfilling orgasm of his life inside Todd and it lasted longer than any other he had ever remembered. He tried to keep his eyes open, but the orgasm was too strong. He wanted to watch Todd as he came, but it just wasn't possible.
Both boys were grunting and pushing and pumping when Jackson let loose with his own wonderful climax. Lying on the floor, he jerked furiously to catch up to the two hot hunks in the room next door and when he finally saw and heard Blake cum, he let his climax erupt. As he watched the two boys, he felt his face get wet, then his chest and stomach. Watching them cum gave him an amazing orgasm. Just as he was done with his orgasm and slowly stroking himself down, he saw Blake do something that sent him over the edge again. His second orgasm was just as powerful as the first.
When Todd and Blake were on the road back from their orgasms, their breathing was heavy, but Blake couldn't help but want to taste his boyfriend again, after so long. He saw a puddle of Todd's cum on his chest and reached up, running his fingers through the liquid, then brought his fingers to his mouth, to lick them clean. As he did, Todd smiled at him, and said, "I can't taste yours. At least, not this time."
Blake smiled and leaned down and took Todd in a loving embrace while their mouths connected, tongues fought, then finally, relaxed. A moment later, Blake slipped out of Todd and lowered his body down to lie on his boyfriend. Todd lowered his legs and wrapped them over Blake. Blake's cheek, chest, and stomach landed in the puddle of Todd's climax, but he didn't care. He wanted to hold Todd and wanted to be held by him.
After a few minutes of silence, Blake asked Todd how it was.
"A lot better than I thought," Todd said, running his hand through Blake's hair. "And for you?"
"Same here. I loved it, but I still think I like being the bottom more," Blake said.
Todd laughed and said, "And I think I prefer to be the top, but I could do this every once in a while."
Blake smiled and closed his eyes. He meant to get up and get a shower with Todd, to clean up, but before he knew it, he had fallen asleep listening to the steady rhythm of Todd's breathing and heartbeat.
After enjoying his second orgasm, Jackson lowered his head to the floor for a moment to catch his breath. After he did, he looked back through the hole and saw Blake on top of Todd. He smiled to himself, but then it disappeared. He felt bad about what he had done. Not the spying, but enjoying the fact that Blake gave Todd the pleasure he wanted to feel. He plugged up the hole and stood. When he did, he could feel the wetness drip from his body and he made a quick trip to the shower to clean up before getting back in bed. When he got the covers pulled up to his chin, he was asleep in no time at all.
A few hours had passed and Blake woke for no reason. He was in the same position he was when he fell asleep. His cheek was stuck to Todd's chest by way of Todd's cum, so he carefully pulled his face away from the sticky, dried mess. When he did, he rolled to the other side of the bed and stared at Todd. The moonlight was illuminating the room enough for Blake to make out the body of his beloved. He scanned Todd's face and saw that he was asleep with a smile. Blake wondered what Todd could be dreaming about, and when he scanned lower, he figured he understood.
Lying on Todd's tight belly was his erection. It had grown to its full potential under Blake's body. Blake reached out a hand and ran it over Todd's member and Todd gave a small moan of pleasure. Blake thought maybe Todd was having a sex dream, so he wanted to make it feel more real. He reached for the lube and slowly covered Todd's cock. He gave a few long, slow strokes, then let it go. He lubed up his hand and worked on his own hole. After he was ready, he slowly straddled Todd's hips and held still, making sure he didn't wake Todd.
He lined Todd up and after relaxing his body, he slipped down onto Todd, taking him after a few moments of pain. When he was down completely, he held still for only a moment before he started gyrating his hips around. He could feel Todd hit his prostate with every circle his hips made. He made sure Todd was right on his prostate and he held it steady, as he moved up and down, slightly.
Doing this was sending Blake into fits of ecstasy. Having Todd do this to him, even though he was asleep, was the best feeling he could remember. He just couldn't understand why he was able to go so long without it. This feeling, Blake told himself, was very addicting.
Todd's smile only increased on his sleeping face. Blake could see his eyes rolling under their lids and Blake loved watching this happen. He was making Todd's dream more alive. He lowered himself over Todd a little and started lifting his hips. When he was about three inches up, he lowered himself back down. He was sure to go slow and not make too much movement, for he wanted to make love to Todd as he slept. Unfortunately, this only lasted a few more moments.
As Blake was slowly moving up and down, Todd started to stir. Blake had his eyes closed and he didn't see Todd open his. When he did, Todd asked, "How long have you been doing this?"
Blake was so startled, he sat up, quick, and sank down on Todd's cock, completely.
"Jesus, you scared me," Blake said, putting one hand on his chest and the other hand on Todd's stomach, trying to catch his breath.
"I can see that," Todd said, putting his hands behind his head and sporting a huge smile.
After a few moments, Blake looked at Todd and he still had that big smile planted on his lips. "What?" Blake asked, innocently.
"How long have I been inside you?" Todd asked again.
"About fifteen minutes, I think," Blake answered.
"You made me have the weirdest dream," Todd said.
"What was it about?" Blake asked.
"I was throwing the football with Jason, and the next thing I saw was him on his back and me fucking the daylights out of him," Todd said.
"Paige's Jason?" Blake asked.
"The very same," Todd said, laughing.
Blake laughed with Todd, then asked, "So, how was he?"
Todd thought for a moment, then said, "I like reality more than the dream."
"Good," Blake said, then started lifting himself off Todd again.
As he lowered himself down, Todd started to lift his torso and grab Blake around the waist, but Blake put a hand on Todd's chest and said, "No you don't. This is what I want to do. I want to feel you inside me, and I want to go slow. We are both going to enjoy this. You stay right where you are."
Todd smiled and wanted to flick his cock inside Blake and squeezed his sphincter, but said, "Holy, shit," instead.
"What?" Blake asked, sitting still.
"I just squeezed my ass, wanting my dick to move inside you and I'm sore as hell," Todd said.
Blake sat back and laughed. A moment later, Todd joined him, causing his dick to move as he originally intended.
After the laughter subsided, Blake started his motions again, moving up and down, then gyrating on Todd. As the time progressed, he tried numerous positions while still remaining on top. He leaned back, planted his feet on the bed and moved up and down with increased speed. Todd tried to move his hips, but Blake fell on him telling him not to move. When Todd lay back down, he had a smile on his face, but did what he was ordered to do. He didn't move again.
A few minutes later and a few more positions, Todd told Blake he was about to cum. When he did, Blake increased his thrusts and as Todd's climax hit, Blake pushed down with everything he had. He moved his hips back and forth, giving Todd the wonderful sensation he had received only a few hours before. When Todd's face went from pure pleasure to uneasiness with the sensitivity of his dick, Blake pulled off Todd and straddled Todd's chest.
Todd didn't waste any time and took Blake in his mouth. After using his mouth and tongue for about five minutes, he was rewarded with Blake's climax. It had tasted the same as Todd had remembered. After he swallowed, he continued to suck Blake because he knew the sensitivity of Blake's spent cock wasn't nearly as bad. The blowjob ended when Blake pulled his flaccid penis from Todd's mouth. He lay down with Todd and they kissed, passionately, for about ten minutes.
When the kiss was broken, Todd smiled at Blake, and got off the bed and went to his suitcase. He unzipped the front pocket and reached in and grabbed something Blake couldn't see. When he returned, Todd held up a small golden ring and said, "Happy birthday, baby."
Blake was floored. He had forgotten it was his birthday, and Todd had let him make love to him, and also gave him his promise ring back.
"I thought you threw it away?" Blake said, holding out his left hand.
As Todd slipped it on Blake's finger, he said, "I did. But mom got them out. She knew I would regret it if I threw them away. She was right," Todd said, then he slipped on his own ring.
Silence engulfed the room for a few minutes while Blake looked at the ring, sparkling in the moonlight. A few moments later, he asked, "What made you come after me?"
Todd put his arm around Blake and pulled him close and said, "A song I heard broke my heart so much, I finally broke down and cried over losing you."
"What song?" Blake asked, putting his head on Todd's chest.
"I can't remember the name of it, but I'll find it soon, and let you listen to it. It just described everything I was feeling. When I heard it, I just lost control. Zack told me I needed to do something about how I was feeling and he suggested I come after you. Dad did the same thing, and when I told him I didn't have any money, he gave me his credit card."
Blake threw his right leg over Todd's left and pulled their bodies tight together as Todd continued.
"Then when I got here, I looked around. I went to every little shop in town and showed them your picture. Nobody knew who you were. Finally, I went to the bookstore and the lady there told me you were working here. I suddenly became real nervous. I went back to the hotel and stared at the wall for almost three hours."
"Why were you nervous?" Blake asked, tilting his head up, looking at Todd's face.
"Before I left, mom said something that suddenly came back to me. She said, `what if Blake doesn't want to be found?' I told her I didn't care, that I was going to find you anyway. But when I found out where you were, I got scared, thinking she might be right."
"Ridiculous," Blake said. "I didn't leave not to be found. I wasn't expecting to be found, but you found me and I am happy you did."
"Me, too," Todd said, and gave Blake a squeeze.
"Okay, change of subject," Blake announced, then lifted his head to look into Todd's dark eyes. "Why did you want to bottom?"
Todd smiled and looked away, then looked back at Blake and asked, "You mean, you didn't want to top?"
"Yeah, I did. I've wanted to for a long time, but I wasn't ever going to push it," Blake said.
"I know, and I thank you for that, but I wanted to know what you felt. I wanted to know what it was like to get fucked," Todd said.
"But why now?" Blake asked.
Todd gave a sigh, then said, "Two reasons. The first was that I was kinda afraid of losing my masculinity. I mean, in `normal'," he said, using air quotes, "relationships, the woman is getting fucked. I mean, that's what society teaches kids. Dads go out and work and moms stay home. But that never fit for me. Mom always had a job when I was growing up. I mean, she brings in more money that dad does. I know that's not how it works in gay relationships, but that's kinda how I felt."
"But we're not normal," Blake said, using air quotes himself.
"I know. That's the reason I wanted to try it. If anyone is feminized when we have sex, it's always you, and I didn't think that was fair," Todd said.
"Hell, I don't mind. I'll be your woman any day," Blake said, causing them both to laugh.
"I don't want a woman. I want a man. I want you," Todd said, then leaned in and gave Blake a kiss.
"And what was the other reason?" Blake asked after they broke their kiss.
Todd felt a little bad for this reason and when he said it, Blake couldn't hear him.
"You're gonna repeat that, right? You know I couldn't hear you," Blake said, smiling at his boyfriend.
"In a very small way, I thought that might have been one of the reasons you left," Todd said, then closed his eyes.
"You thought I left because you wouldn't let me fuck you?" Blake asked.
"It was the smallest of all the reasons, but it was one of them, yes," Todd said, looking back into the silhouette of Blake's face.
"Okay, that's deranged. I don't care what happens as long as when I make love, it's with you. I don't care if I'm the bottom until the day we die, as long as I'm your bottom. I don't care if I don't ever get to top you again. Just knowing we're together, even when we're 2000 miles apart, is all I want," Blake explained.
"I know, me too," Todd said.
"Now, what's another reason you thought I left?" Blake asked.
"I thought you stopped loving me," Todd said.
"Ha," Blake said, then got up and straddled Todd's stomach. "Like that could ever happen."
"And I thought..."
Blake cut Todd off by putting his hand over his mouth and said, "Never mind. I don't want to know. We got through all that stuff. I love you and you love me and that's all that counts," then he leaned down to kiss Todd.
Sitting back up he said, "And I think it's about time for one more of these," Blake said, reaching back and grabbing Todd's penis, stroking it to life.
"Again?" Todd asked, though he was smiling in the dimly lit room. "You're gonna wear my dick out."
Blake leaned down to whisper in Todd ear. "And you're gonna love every minute of it, too."
Todd kissed Blake again with fervor then turned them both over until Blake was on the bottom. Todd's cock took no time to get hard and when Blake was on his back, Todd lined up and said, "Here you go," and slid into Blake with ease, but very fast and hard.
"Oh, yeah," Blake said, smiling big. "That's how I like it."
They made love for a couple more hours and sent Blake's birthday out with a bang. Around four, they finally got their showers and fell asleep. They woke the next day around noon and were instantly famished. They showered again, just to be sure, and headed over to Missoula to get some lunch. After lunch, they decided to surprise the cousins and headed over to the apartment.
Blake knocked, but no one answered. He double checked the lot and both cars were there so he used the spare key he still had to unlock the door.
"Should you be doing that?" Todd asked, grabbing Blake's wrist.
"Yeah, that's why I have it. They said I could use it when I needed to," Blake said.
"What if they're asleep?" Todd asked.
"Then we'll leave and lock up behind us," Blake said, holding up the key.
Todd shrugged his shoulders and followed Blake into the apartment. Blake let Todd through, then closed the door behind him. When they walked in the living room, Todd instantly turned around while Blake stood there and smiled.
"At it again, I see," Blake said, smiling at his cousins.
The boys were getting busy on the couch and when Blake announced his presence, they didn't look startled. They simply looked up and smiled back.
"Hey, Blake and Todd," Tripp said, pulling out of Mark and walking over. On his way, he removed the condom he was using and held it in his left hand as he wrapped his right arm around Blake and gave him a hug. Then he did the same with Todd.
Soon behind him was Mark. He hugged both boys and stood back looking at them.
"We can leave you guys alone so you can finish up," Todd said, finally looking back.
"Nah, no need. We've been playing on and off all day. It's time for a break again, anyway," Mark said, waving them over to sit. Blake and Todd took one end of the small couch, and Mark sat on the other.
"What are ya'll up to today?" Tripp asked, going to the kitchen and washing his hands.
"Not a whole lot. Just had some lunch and was in the area and decided to drop by," Blake said. "Wanted to see if you guys wanted to get together for dinner tonight."
"That sounds great," Tripp said, coming back and sitting next to Mark, hanging one leg over Mark's knees. With him there, there wasn't any room left for anyone or anything else. Blake's and Tripp's legs were touching as they were pressed into their boyfriends.
"What'd ya'll have in mind?" Mark asked.
"You guys live here. We figured we'd let you pick," Todd offered.
"You guys like Chinese?" Tripp asked. "There's this great little Chinese place that just opened downtown. Great food."
"Sounds great," Blake said, looking to Todd for confirmation.
"Excellent," Tripp said, absentmindedly playing with himself.
"You know, if you guys want, we can meet at a specific time so you guys can keep playing," Blake offered.
"Nah. Like I said, we've been playing on and off all day," Mark said. "In fact, if you want, you can join us."
Blake looked at Todd and smiled and said, "Well, we had five sessions last night. We might be too pooped to play."
"Damn, guys. When did ya'll get to sleep?" Tripp asked.
"Around four this morning. But it was the first time in months," Todd said. "And, last night, I was a bottom for the first time."
"No way," Mark and Tripp said together.
"Yup. He was and it was great," Blake said, then gave a fist bump to Mark.
"Alright," Mark said, smiling big.
"How did this happen? You love being a top, at least, from what we saw last time," Tripp said.
"I do, don't get me wrong, but I just wanted to try it out. I remembered you guys and how you like to flip flop, and I wanted to see if I liked it or not," Todd said.
"And did you?" Mark asked.
"It wasn't half bad. Took me a while to get used to Blake, but when I did, it was actually great," Todd said.
"As thick as Blake is, I can imagine it takes a while to get used to," Mark said.
"Yeah. I'm still sore today," Todd said.
Changing the subject, Blake asked, "When we came in, you were taking off a condom. When did you guys start using those again?"
"We only use them to help it last. Takes away some of the sensitivity," Tripp said.
"But when we're finishing up, we don't use them," Mark added.
"Helps the orgasm reach its maximum potential," Tripp said.
"Oh, yeah. We know," Todd said.
They talked for another thirty minutes or so before Tripp pull the attention back to his crotch. "Well, boys, if you want to play, you're welcome to, or just watch if you want, but as you see," he said, grabbing his throbbing member, "I'm ready to play some more."
Todd, Blake, and Mark all looked at Tripp as he stroked himself, and it only took a second before Mark went down on his boyfriend. Todd and Blake didn't move. They watched for a few minutes, then they both started to get that itch they both needed to scratch. With their shirts removed, Blake leaned over and started licking Todd's nipple. Todd grabbed Blake's head and pulled it into his chest with more force. With his free hand, he went to Blake's crotch and started massaging the muscle through Blake's jeans.
It only took them about five minutes before they were as naked at Tripp and Mark. By this time, Mark was on the floor between Tripp's legs giving him a blowjob and Todd was in the same position doing the same thing to Blake. Tripp reached over and placed his hand on top of Blake's and Blake looked at him a moment, then smiled. He turned his hand over and their fingers wrapped around the other's hand.
As their boyfriend's blew them, Blake and Tripp were moaning with pleasure. They would squeeze each other's hands, silently telling the other how they were feeling. A few minutes later, Tripp broke the silence and moaning, begging his boyfriend to fuck him. Mark stood on his knees and pulled Tripp so his ass was hanging off the edge of the couch and Todd and Blake stop to watch them for a few minutes.
Once Mark was in, he started his slow movements, enjoying the friction he and Tripp were making. When he started to pick up speed, Todd stood and got close behind Mark and pressed their bodies together so he could look over Mark's shoulder and see the action from Mark's point of view. His erection was hitting Mark's upper back and his right leg was pushed against Mark's butt on his outstroke of Tripp. As he did, Blake leaned over and was only inches from Tripp, looking at the action from his angle. A moment later, Blake and everyone else, heard Tripp tell Blake to kiss him. Blake looked at Tripp then at Mark, who didn't say anything, then finally at Todd, where Todd gave a nod of approval, with a wicked little smile, and Blake locked lips with his cousin's boyfriend.
As he did that, Mark looked up at Todd, and Todd lowered down and placed his lips upon Mark's. A moment later, he kneeled down, one knee between Mark's legs and the other on Mark's left side. Todd moved his right hand and placed it on the top of Mark's ass, then slowly moved it up and around his torso to tweak his nipples. Mark broke the kiss, only for an instant, saying, "Oh, fuck yeah. Tweak those nipples," then locked their lips again.
Blake used one of his free hands and reached up and started playing with Tripp's nipple, but Tripp didn't say anything. He kept up the tongue fighting with Blake as he enjoyed the fucking his boyfriend was giving him. Blake broke their kiss and looked over at Todd and Todd had broken the kiss with Mark. He was watching the slow thrusts Mark was giving Tripp.
A few minutes later, Blake said he wanted to see the action from Todd's point of view, so they switched. When they did, Tripp reached up and grabbed Todd's head and brought it down so they could kiss. Todd gave into it and actually enjoyed it. Blake had taken up his mark where Todd was only moments before and he watched, still as close as Todd was to Mark. Mark looked at Blake and Blake looked back and their lips touched for a moment. Their tongues touched and then they broke the kiss.
"It was as good as I imagined, but it was also kinda weird," Blake said.
"Yeah, for me too. You got a soft tongue, though," Mark said.
"And you have soft lips," Blake said, laughing with Mark.
Todd looked up and asked, "You guys just kissed?"
"Yeah, just wanted to see how it was. Good, but weird," Mark said.
"Agreed," Blake said.
"Hot," Tripp said, and everyone looked at him. "Do it again. I wanna see."
Blake and Mark both shrugged their shoulders and kissed once more. It only lasted for about three seconds, then it was over.
"That was fucking hot," Tripp said again.
"It was kinda stimulating," Todd agreed.
Blake hung his right hand on Mark's shoulder as Mark kept up his motions. Mark looked over, then back at Tripp. After watching for a few more moments, Blake moved closer to Tripp and reached out and grabbed his cock. Tripp broke the kiss and looked up, wanting to know who grabbed him, then after he saw it was Blake, he looked stunned.
"Just paying you back for that other time," Blake said to Tripp, but looking at Todd.
Blake watched Todd closely for the next few minutes for any sign of getting upset, but he saw none. They, he and Todd, had only used their hands to touch and explore and their mouths to kiss. They really hadn't broken any rules, so they didn't let what they were doing bother each other.
Since Blake was jerking him off, Tripp reached up and grabbed Todd in his hand, but Todd grabbed his wrist and said, "I'm okay. Let's just kiss."
Tripp seemed hurt by that, but his feelings dissolved when Todd started kissing him again. They all held their positions for another ten minutes or so, until Blake finally said, "Okay, that's enough kissing. I want my boyfriend back," Blake said, standing next to Mark and talking to the pair on the couch
For only a split second, Mark thought of reaching over and taking Blake in his mouth, but thought better about it. He was so in the zone of sex and when Blake stood, his erection was just two inches from Mark's mouth. He had to tell himself that Blake's body was off limits. Though, if he and Blake weren't cousins, he would have taken him in a second. He turned his head and mind back to what he was doing, and saw Tripp look up.
"You okay, baby?" Tripp asked of Mark.
"Oh, yeah. I'm fine. We haven't really done anything but kiss. It's better than when we had what's his name over that one time," Mark answered, specifically not saying the name of the last boy they had their three way with. "How about you?"
"I'm great. Nothing to get jealous for. You're all mine today," Tripp said, smiling back.
"Blake, why don't you come over and let me have that ass for a few minutes," Todd said.
"Love to," Blake said, then stepped around Mark over to Todd.
Blake didn't give Todd a chance to stand. He grabbed the lube from Mark as he walked around and while Todd was sitting, he turned the bottle upside down and dropped a few dollops of the clear, thick liquid on Todd's cock. When he worked it in, he straddled Todd and sank down. Blake's head dropped back and he closed his eyes. He was still a bit sore from their four other times he was a bottom last night, but once Todd was in, the soreness went away. Todd grabbed Blake's head and pulled it to look at him then kissed him.
Blake wrapped his arms around Todd as they kissed. Their heads were tilting back and forth, opposite each other's, then they would break for a moment, take a deep breath, then start back again. As they did this, Mark and Tripp switched and Mark had his ass hanging off the couch as Tripp slipped inside him and started pivoting.
Tripp and Blake were moving in unison, Blake sinking down, as Tripp pushed in. Todd and Mark looked at each other and smiled, then Todd looked back at the ecstasy in Blake's face. His eyes were closed and his head was down, as if he was looking at his hands on Todd's stomach. Every few minutes, he would shake his head back and forth, as if saying no. All the while, he never lost his rocking motion on Todd's cock.
Blake was getting so worked up, that he scooted his hips forward a little so that Todd could rub his prostate on a continuous basis and when it did, he knew the end was near. He leaned his body back to put more pressure on his prostate, while keeping his hips forward. After a few more thrusts, and his moans gaining in volume, he couldn't hold back any longer.
"I'm about to cum," he announced to Todd.
Todd grabbed Blake's cock and started jerking it at a medium pace while Tripp and Mark looked over and watched. As Blake sent his first volley onto Todd's chest, his moaning started getting louder and then it was nonstop. He couldn't hold back how it felt and everyone in the room thought that the apartment complex could tell. Todd scooped up some of the first shot, and caught the second and third in his hand. When he put it to his mouth, Mark was the second to explode.
"Shit, I'm cumming," he announced.
He shot up in the air so high, it was astonishing. It rose to about five feet before gravity brought it back down landing on his and Todd's arms with a splat. His moans were just as loud as Blake's and he kept cursing as his orgasm continued. Because of the power and the visual aid, Tripp was the next to go. Mark had clamped down on him and when he did, he let loose. He leaned over Mark, thrusting his hips harder and harder when each wave of pleasure hit him. When it was finally over, he leaned forward, slipping out of Mark, ran his tongue over Mark's chest, picking up what he could. Before anything else happened, he lowered his head down and took Mark's sensitive dick in his mouth.
When Mark started writhing, Todd started bucking his hips a little faster and Blake squeezed his ass to give Todd more friction. After another couple of minutes, Todd let out a yell and a grunt and shot his orgasm inside Blake. Blake leaned down and locked his lips on Todd's and Todd reached around Blake and pulled him close, all the while, keeping his dick moving to make his orgasm last. After a few minutes, it was all over.
All four boys were sitting in their positions, calming their breathing. Todd pulled Blake back to him and they kissed, softly but with passion for a few minutes, then Tripp stood and half lay on Mark to do the same. After a few minutes, Tripp broke their kiss and lay his head on Mark's chest, pressing his stomach into Mark's privates. Todd had lost his erection, but remained inside Blake while they kissed. Blake made sure not to move, knowing the sensitivity Todd would feel if he did. After they broke the kiss, Blake asked if it was okay to move. Todd said that he thought the sensitivity was gone and Blake lifted himself up, slowly. Todd made a face that told Blake the sensitivity was there, just not as powerful.
When Todd was out, his face relaxed and Blake took up the same position as Tripp, leaning into Todd, head on his chest and stomach on his private region. They all closed their eyes for a few moments, then out of nowhere, Tripp broke the silence.
"That was fucking hot, guys."
"Yeah, it was," Todd agreed. "Sorry about the jerking off thing. It's just that we haven't done this before and I didn't want either of us to get upset about anything. We've never really talked about doing something like this."
"It's okay. You got a nice cock, but I have to say, I love Mark's more," Tripp said, looking and smiling at his boyfriend, then he kissed him.
"It's impressive," Todd said.
"Very," Blake agreed. "But as you can see, I got a little of the family resemblance, just a few inches shorter."
"It's not bad," Mark said. "I've seen cousins Alex and James naked, and ya'll are about the same."
"How'd you see them naked?" Blake asked.
"Both families went to the beach and the showers they had were open. As we rinsed off, I got a look. They made a big deal about me, but I just laughed it off. They both have nice bodies and great looking cocks," Mark explained.
"I haven't seen them in years. Since they're Aunt Connie's, sister's kids, I probably won't see them again," Blake said.
"They're both married now. I could have sworn that Alex was queer. I bet he is, but he's trying to hide it. He might not be, but he sure gave me a vibe," Mark said.
"If he is, he won't be happy until he finds the right guy. Just like us," Blake said, smiling at Todd.
"Amen, brother," Mark said, lifting his hand to give Blake a high five. Blake hit it and Todd pulled him in for another kiss as Mark did the same to Tripp.
The conversation lagged and they all ended up dozing for about half an hour in the same positions. When they woke, Tripp and Mark offered the spare bathroom for Todd and Blake. They thanked them and then got in the shower together. While they were there, Blake asked Todd a question.
"Why didn't you let Tripp jerk you off?"
"I didn't know how you'd feel about it. I didn't want you hurt or angry, so I didn't want him to," Todd answered.
"It wouldn't have bothered me. It was just a hand," Blake said.
"Well, I didn't know. I'd rather you jerk me off anyway, or we have sex. Kissing was enough. We didn't need to do anything more," Todd said, soaping up Blake's back and butt. "And you kissing Mark was kinda hot," he added.
"It was, in a weird way. If we weren't cousins and I wasn't with you, I'd have sex with him. Don't know if I could take him, but I'd try. He's a hot guy, but we're family. And," Blake said, turning around, "I do have you and that's all I need."
"Me too," he said and then gave Blake a quick peck. "Turn back around. Let me finish your back."
Blake did as he was told and when Todd was done they switched places. Once they were finished washing each other, they rinsed and got out of the shower. When they were done, they walked back into the living room to dress. Mark and Tripp were already there and watched them as they did so. After they were sufficiently covered, all of them sat around and talked for a while longer until it was time to go to dinner. That night in bed, Todd and Blake decided against sex, and held each other while they slept.
Over the course of the next three weeks, they made love as often as they could and unfortunately Jackson had to endure the pain of listening to it. Even though he had gotten to know Todd and actually started to like him, it still hurt him that he wasn't with Blake. He had hoped that he would have gotten over his feelings for Blake after getting to know Todd, but he was wrong. He still liked Blake so much that listening to them have sex brought a tear to his eyes more than once. Once Todd finally left the ranch to go back home, Jackson was happier than he had ever been. Sadly, he also knew that there still wouldn't be anything between him and Blake.
The day before Todd left back for Georgia, Blake had begged him to stay, but conceded to his leaving, knowing Todd had to return to college. Todd had actually said that he could transfer out to Montana, but Blake said no. He and Todd came to the understanding that they needed their own time for their own adventures. They both agreed that they didn't want to look back on their lives and regret anything, so they both had their own adventures to live.
That evening, in bed, Blake made love to Todd one more time before they switched roles and Todd made love to him twice more. When their night of passion had ended, they fell asleep in their usual positions: Todd holding Blake close as they both dreamed about the other.
It was tough for Blake to watch Todd leave. He had missed him so much over the last year and when Todd showed up, proving that he still cared, Blake was happier than he had ever been. Now his heart was breaking. He knew it was going to be awhile before he saw Todd again, but Todd said that he would be back every summer, spending more than a month. And he and Blake were both coming home for Christmas, so they could see each other then. Blake also said that he could take another week off to come see him in New York, which make Todd happy.
They made sloppy plans for Blake to come and visit, but they would have to confirm the dates later just to make sure everything would work. After saying their `I love you's' for the umpteenth time, they shared one final, lingering, soft kiss before Todd got in the car. Everyone else had said their goodbyes the night before so they could have this time to themselves. Blake leaned in the open window and planted another kiss on Todd and a tear escaped his eyes.
"Don't cry, baby," Todd said, wiping it away.
"I'm just going to miss you so much," Blake said.
"I'll miss you too, but we'll still have our webcam dates. We'll talk on the phone every day. It'll be like I'm right down the hall, only you can't see me. We'll make it through. Now that I know where you are, we'll make it through," Todd said, smiling.
"I know, but I'll miss you holding me at night. I'll miss the kisses and you making love to me," Blake said, holding in his tears.
"I know, baby, but we'll only be apart for a few months at a time. Before you know it, summer will be back and I'll be back here for a month or two. Only three more years then we can have the life we want. We'll be together forever," Todd said, getting a little emotional himself.
Blake leaned in and kissed him one last time, then pulled back out of the window and stood. Todd smiled at him as he started the car, then said one last time, in person, "I love you so much, Blake."
"Me too," Blake said. Todd then pulled away and disappeared through the gate.
Before Todd had gotten out of Eureka Falls, Blake had already broken down on his bed for a good cry. He knew it wasn't going to be long before they saw each other again, but he still knew he was going to miss Todd terribly.
A couple of hours later, Blake had dressed and joined everyone under the big tree for breakfast. When he arrived, he was greeted warmly. Everyone knew what he was going through and they were doing their best to be supportive, except for Jackson. He sat opposite his usual seat, and when Blake sat, he was sitting next to Dwight. He tried to meet Jackson's eyes all through breakfast, but he was unsuccessful. He didn't know why, but he knew that Jackson was giving him the cold shoulder.
After breakfast, Blake decided on a shower, and was coming out of his room, wrapped in his towel, as Jackson was stepping into his room.
"Gonna get a shower. Wanna join me?" Blake asked, chipper.
"No thank you," Jackson said, then stepped in and closed his door.
Blake shook his head back and forth and then headed down to the bathroom.
Over the next week, Jackson was avoiding Blake and Blake was getting tired of it. He had stopped trying to talk to Jackson because he knew the answers would be short. He wasn't trying to avoid Jackson, but he got tired of trying, especially when he didn't know why Jackson was treating him this way. On Saturday, Blake followed Jackson back to the house and tried, one more time, to talk to him before he entered his room.
"Hey, Jackson," Blake said.
"Hi," Jackson said, then opened his door and went in.
"Wanna go to Starbucks with me? I'm in the mood for some coffee?" Blake asked, keeping Jackson from closing his door.
"No," Jackson said, trying to close his door, but Blake put his hand out and stopped it.
"What's going on? Why are you not talking to me?" Blake asked, losing the chipper bit.
"I am talking to you," Jackson said, looking at Blake like he was crazy.
"You've been avoiding me and you won't talk to me. Why?" Blake asked.
Jackson dropped his hand from the door and walked over to his bed. Blake didn't know what to do, so he followed Jackson in and closed the door.
After a few minutes, Blake grew impatient and said, "Well?"
"Well, what?" Jackson said, not looking up at Blake.
"Are you going to tell me why you've been avoiding me?" Blake asked.
"No," Jackson said.
There was a few moments pause until Blake said, "Fine. In fact, don't talk to me again until you tell me what I did to piss you off," as he opened the door and left.
Jackson was about to say something, but before he could, Blake slammed the door behind him. "Great," Jackson said, falling back on the bed.
Later that afternoon, Jackson finally found the courage he needed and went to knock on Blake's door. Blake opened it and looked at Jackson and said, "Are you going to tell me, or am I going to close the door on you?"
"I like you," Jackson said, weakly.
"So, you've been avoiding me because you like me? I like you, too. But that still doesn't..."
Blake's words were cut off when Jackson said, "No, Blake. I like you. I thought you left home because you didn't love Todd anymore."
Blake listened to Jackson and realization hit him.
"But Jackson, I told you why I left. I told you I still loved Todd," Blake said, pulling Jackson in his room and closing the door.
"I know you did, but I thought you weren't telling me the truth. I mean, I got to know Todd, but before I knew him, I thought you left because he wasn't the right guy for you. I thought you didn't love him. Not a lot of people tell you the truth when you first meet them. I thought you were one of those guys," Jackson said, sitting on the edge of Blake's bed.
Blake went over and sat next to him and said, "I was telling you the truth. Jackson, if I led you on in any way, it wasn't my intention. I do like you, but only as a friend."
Jackson sat quietly for a few moments, then looked at Blake and said, "You know, I've only fallen in love with two people. The first was that guy in San Francisco. Before I found out he was a monster. What we had in the beginning was wonderful, but he couldn't see how wonderful it could be with me. He was more focused on his career than anything else. He couldn't see that I could love him with all my heart and that we could have been happy together."
Blake sat there as silence engulfed them once more, then said, "He was crazy for letting you go," and bumped him with his shoulder. "You are a great guy, Jackson. You're beautiful on the inside and out. You're funny, you're caring. You'd be a great catch for any man."
"Almost any man," Jackson said.
"So," Blake said, "who was the other guy?"
Jackson looked into Blake's eyes and said simply, "You."
Blake was stunned. They had known each other for a little more than two months and Jackson just admitted that was in love with Blake.
"What do you mean, me?" Blake asked, looking back with surprise.
"I really started to like you and I was going to let you know the same day Todd showed up. I think I fell in love with you."
"Jackson," Blake said, grabbing his hand, "I'm sorry. I didn't know. But you know I love..."
"Please don't keep telling me that," Jackson said, standing up, pulling his hand away.
"But it's true," Blake said, staying put.
"I know. I didn't mean for this to happen, I really didn't. The problem is, I couldn't control it. I fell in love with a great guy. All those things you said about me, that's what I fell in love with in you. Plus, you're a smart, wonderful character, great attitude about life. Everything I want in a partner." Turning toward the door, he said, "Why is it every time I like someone, they don't like me?"
"I do like you, Jackson. I really do, but I don't love you like that. I love you as a friend. A really good friend, but only as a friend. I know you don't want me to say his name, but I know that Todd and I'll be together forever. It's like we fit together perfectly," Blake said, going over to Jackson.
Jackson lowered his head and Blake could see his shoulders move with emotion. Blake stepped around Jackson and pulled him into a hug. Jackson tried to pull back, but Blake held him tight. "Jackson, I am so sorry."
"It's not your fault," Jackson said through his tears.
Blake held him while he cried and rubbed his hand over Jackson's back. "I wish I could do something to take your pain away," Blake said.
"You can't," Jackson said, then pulled away. "I just have to get through this on my own."
"My previous offer still stands," Blake said, letting Jackson go.
"What offer?" he asked, wiping his eyes.
"I can hold you if you need me to, but that's all I can do," Blake reminded him.
"Thanks, but right now, I just need to be alone," Jackson said, turning away from Blake toward the door.
Blake raised his hand and wanted to say something more, but he couldn't think of anything to help Jackson through this. He lowered his hand and watched as Jackson walked out and closed the door.
Blake gave Jackson his space, but kept trying to talk to him during the next week. Jackson was better about talking with Blake, but he still couldn't control how he was feeling. He knew he still liked Blake, but he put it in his mind that he couldn't do anything with him. Not sex, but other things that lovers do. He wanted to hold Blake, or have Blake hold him and not just as friends. He wanted to go out on a date with Blake, but he knew he couldn't.
Blake, on the other hand, wanted to get his friend back. Friday night came around and he asked if Jackson wanted to go out and get something to eat and then come back and watch a movie. Jackson, for the first time in a week, actually smiled and said he'd love to. They chose a restaurant and called ahead so they could go and pick up the food and bring it back. When they got settled in Jackson's room they popped in a movie and started watching while they ate.
After Blake finished his dinner he put his to-go box on Jackson's desk and lay down next to Jackson while he finished his dinner. When he was done, Blake took his box from him and placed it with his own. Jackson lay down with Blake and after a few minutes he asked Blake if he minded him getting comfortable.
"I don't mind," Blake said, keeping his eyes on the movie.
"You can get comfortable too, if you want," Jackson told Blake.
"Is that a good idea?" Blake asked. "I mean, after what you told me..."
He let his words trail off, but Jackson said, "I like you, yes, but that doesn't mean I'm going to attack you."
"I wasn't worried about that," Blake said, sitting up. "I just didn't want to stir up any emotions or anything."
"Just hanging out with me is doing that. I'm the one who has to control it, not you. Just be yourself, and I'll be me," Jackson said, lifting his butt up and slipping off his jeans.
Blake did the same, and a few minutes later, they were both as comfortable as they had been their first time nude together. Blake turned over and put his head on Jackson's shoulder and asked if it was okay. Jackson didn't mind, but a few minutes later, Blake's view of the TV was blocked.
"Would you control that thing?" Blake said, laughing.
"I can't. It has a mind of its own," Jackson said, flicking his penis so it rocked back and forth.
"Well, then, hold it down," Blake said, reaching up and grabbing it and pulling it down to lie on Jackson's stomach. Jackson gasped, and then took hold of it from Blake.
"I'm sorry, Jackson. I shouldn't have touched you like that," Blake said, pulling away.
"No," Jackson said, putting a hand on Blake's shoulder. "It's fine. It was all in good fun." When Blake looked at him, he reassured Blake, "No really, it's okay."
Blake placed his head back on Jackson's shoulder and Jackson held his erection out of the viewing path of Blake. Once the movie was over, Jackson noticed that Blake had fallen asleep. He smiled to himself but knew it would never be more than friendship between them. He slowly moved from under Blake and slipped the covers from under Blake's legs and threw them over Blake. He crawled back next to Blake and grabbed the remote and plunged the room into darkness.
Blake opened his eyes and realized that the movie was over. He moved his hand to his left and felt Jackson's back. He looked over at the clock and saw it was after three in the morning. He debated on whether he should go to his own room, but decided against it. He turned over with his back facing Jackson and scooted back until their backs were touching. He felt Jackson stir, but then settle. He closed his eyes and tried to go back to sleep. Before he did, he wondered if this was breaking any rules. He thought about all that he and Todd did while he was here and wondered if sleeping with another guy, even though there was no sex involved, would break any rules and make Todd angry.
He told himself that he would tell Todd of what happened and see what his reaction would be. He didn't want to hurt Todd but he also didn't want to hurt Jackson. Jackson was a gentleman, from what he could gather, and had simply covered him and gone to sleep. He had decided that was his plan of action and closed his eyes, trying to relax. A minute later, Jackson turned in his sleep and his left arm draped itself across Blake. Another moment later, Blake felt Jackson scoot close to him and then felt Jackson's pelvis settle into his butt. He knew Jackson was asleep, so it was all innocent. By morning, they would surely be in different positions. For now, he enjoyed the feel of another body next to him while he slept.
As Blake imagined when he woke, they were in different positions. Instead of Jackson spooning Blake, Blake was the one spooning Jackson. He had his arm between Jackson's side and his right arm, and it was bent, holding Jackson's chest. His left arm was being used by Jackson as his pillow. He realized that this was the exact same position as he and Todd were usually in, only in different roles. He allowed his body to wake up and when it did, so did his bladder. He felt his hardness pressed against Jackson's butt. He had to pee but he also didn't want to wake Jackson and he knew if he moved his arm he would surely do just that. He tried to put the feeling out of his mind and closed his eyes and relaxed.
About thirty minutes later, Blake felt Jackson push back against him. For a moment, his instincts told him to pull away, but when he didn't, he felt Jackson's butt cheeks pressing into his pee boner, causing Blake to close his eyes and concentrate on squeezing his bladder muscles tighter. When he did, he felt Jackson jump a little and then saw him as he turned his head.
"Are you trying to have sex?" Jackson asked.
"No," Blake started, and then explained. "You pushed against me and I have to pee so bad, so I squeezed my bladder off and my dick moved."
"Go and pee," Jackson said, moving away from Blake and lifting the covers.
"I'll be back in a sec," Blake said, scooting out from under the covers, exposing his hardness to Jackson. A minute later, he was back, flaccid as ever. "Wow, I feel much better," Blake said, getting back in the bed.
"Good, now get back up next to me. I'm getting cold and you're very warm," Jackson said.
Blake smiled and moved his body into Jackson's and put his arm around Jackson's chest. "Better?" Blake asked.
"It will be in a minute. We gotta generate some heat," Jackson answered. "Without sexual energy, of course," he added, wanting to clarify for Blake.
As they lay together, the heat started to come. They talked for about an hour before Jackson announced he was going to get a shower. Blake went to his room and grabbed his towel and joined Jackson in the bathroom. After breakfast, Blake excused himself and walked to the barn while he called and talked to Todd.
"Things are fine. Just getting things back together so I can go back to New York," Todd answered Blake.
"Good. Are you leaving anything this year?" Blake asked.
"Nah. I need it all, so it'll be another trip for the three of us," Todd said.
"That's good," Blake said. "When are mom and dad coming back?"
"They're taking a vacation. Pax hooked them up at the Plaza and a couple of Broadway shows. They aren't in any hurry to get home."
"Awesome," Blake said. "I hope they have fun."
"I'm sure they will," Todd said, then fell silent. After a few moments, he said, "What's bothering you?"
Blake was about to ask how he knew, but figured that Todd's intuition was right, as usual. "I need to ask you a question about crossing the line."
"What line?" Todd asked.
"Sexual line," Blake said.
"Okay. What'd you do?" Todd asked, feeling skeptical.
"Nothing, really. Last night, Jackson and I ordered food and watched a movie. We got comfortable, like we always do, but I fell asleep before the movie ended. He covered me and joined me in the bed. We slept, that's all. And this morning, I woke up with him in my arms, like I usually am in yours. I don't feel as if I did anything bad, but I wanted to see how you felt about it," Blake concluded.
"Any sexual contact?" Todd asked.
"No. I mean, we were both naked and we spooned each other, but that's about it," Blake said.
"Okay. No harm done," Todd said.
"So, you don't care that I slept with him?" Blake asked, wanting to be sure.
"No. You guys slept in the same bed. You didn't have sex. There's nothing to get upset about," Todd confirmed.
"So, you wouldn't care if it happened again?" Blake asked.
"No, but like I said, nothing sexual," Todd clarified.
"And that would be?" Blake asked, wanting to be crystal clear.
"No blowjobs, no rimming, and no fucking," Todd said.
"Okay. None of that is going to happen. I promise," Blake said.
"Good. Now, get out of your mood and make me smile," Todd said.
"If I was with you, I know I could make you smile," Blake said, slumping against the barn wall.
"How?" Todd asked.
"I would take you in my arms and give you small kisses and tell you how much I love you. I would then give you a long, lingering kiss to show it," Blake explained.
"That'd do it," Todd said, and Blake could hear his smile through the phone. "I wish I was still there with you."
"Puppy, I wish you were too. I miss you so much," Blake said, sliding down to the floor.
"And I, you. But it won't be long before you're in New York for a visit. Just a couple of months," Todd said.
"And I'm counting the days," Blake said.
Their conversation continued for another half hour before Todd told Blake he needed to get back to packing, but suggested that if Blake wanted to have a sexy date that evening, he could be available for that. Blake smiled and said that he would definitely be available for that. After they said their goodbyes, Blake headed back to his room to relax for the day.
Todd hung up and finished packing everything he could to get ready for his trip. Once he was finished, he called up Zack and asked if he wanted to go out for dinner before Todd left town. Zack accepted and they met at the local Applebee's.
"Are you ready for another year?" Zack asked after they were seated.
"Might as well be. I just hope I don't have an asshole for a roommate again this year," Todd said, looking over the menu.
"Oh, yeah, you told me about what's his name," Zack said, looking at Todd.
"Martin, and I don't want to think about him anymore. If this new guy is a homophobe, I'll fuck him up, I swear I will," Todd said.
"Don't go beating anyone senseless because they're close-minded," Zack said, laughing.
"I won't touch him, but I swear I won't hold back who I am. I will stay in my room this year when I want to. No one is going to run me out of it," Todd said.
"Just think positive," Zack said, then turned his attention to his menu.
They ordered and talked like they were friends for years. Zack had heard the story of when Todd went to Montana, but he was asking more detailed questions to Todd's short adventure on how he found Blake. Todd filled him in and told a little more than Zack wanted to hear, but Zack played it off. Secretly, he still wanted to be with Todd, but he knew it would never happen. The one thing he cherished was the kiss that he and Todd shared. He only wished it had gone further, but he knew it couldn't.
After dinner was over, they talked a little longer before they left. Out at their cars, Zack reached in his and pulled out four CD's and handed them to Todd.
"What's this?" Todd asked, taking them from Zack.
"Levi's albums. Even that song that got to you is on it," Zack said, picking up a case and turning it over. "Right here," he said, pointing to the song that made Todd feel all his emotions.
"Great. I'll be sure to avoid that one for a while," Todd said and laughed.
"Everything's okay now, right?" Zack asked.
"It is, but I don't want to remember it for a while if I don't have to," Todd explained.
"Understandable," Zack said.
Todd looked at his watch and told Zack of his upcoming date with Blake and hated to run, but he insisted that he had to.
"Take care, okay?" Zack said, lifting his arm to take Todd in a hug.
Todd stepped closer and gave Zack a kiss on the lips before taking the hug that was offered. Zack was stunned with the kiss and was instantly confused, but yet, slightly aroused.
"Is it okay to kiss?" Zack asked, still in the hug.
"Yeah," Todd said, pulling back. "Kissing isn't crossing any lines between me and Blake."
"Did you tell him that we kissed before? You know, back at my place?" Zack asked.
"Yeah. He didn't want to hear it, but I told him anyway. I needed to be honest and up front about everything, so I told him," Todd explained.
"What did he say?" Zack asked.
"That he couldn't be mad because of the way he left. He felt that if anything had happened between us, he would have just had to deal with it. He admitted that he left things up in the air, so he wouldn't have had a say so," Todd responded.
"Oh," Zack said, looking past Todd at nothing, then looked away.
Todd saw something there and asked Zack what it was.
Zack put his hands in his pockets and gave a half smile to Todd and said, "I was just thinking about that kiss we had. The first one."
"The make out, you mean?" Todd asked, and smiled.
"Yeah. It was good. I just wish there could have been more," Zack said.
Todd looked at Zack and gave a smile then stepped closer and said, "It's not breaking the rules, but it would be all I could do."
Zack, nervously, looked around and said, "I'd like that, but we're not in Midtown. We couldn't do it here."
Todd reached up and cupped his hand behind Zack's head and pulled him into a kiss. At first, Zack was nervous, but soon, gave into the kiss and wrapped his arms around Todd and enjoyed the softness of Todd's lips. Todd, slowly, pulled away and said, "It was a great kiss."
Zack still had his eyes closed and was reliving the moment they just shared before he slowly opened his eyes and said, "Yeah, it was."
Todd looked down at the ground and noticed Zack adjusting himself. He gave a little chuckle and asked, "Did I do that?"
Finishing the adjustment, Zack said, "Um, yeah. Todd, you're the sexiest, nicest guy I've ever kissed. You get me a little excited."
Todd put his hand up and caressed Zack's cheek with his thumb and said, "Thanks, Zack. You're pretty special, too. If Blake wasn't in the picture..." He let his words trail away, knowing Zack got the point.
"I know," Zack said. "It's comforting to know. Thanks."
They said their goodbyes one last time before they both disappeared into the night. After Todd got home, he and Blake had their sexy date and took care of each other over the phone while watching each other on their computers. After their orgasms, they talked for a bit longer before they shared their love for each other and said goodnight.
The next morning, Todd, Christine, and Don piled into the car and headed toward the Big Apple for another year of learning, and a new adventure that would leave Todd worried about his future with Blake.
To Be Continued...