This story is a work of pure fiction taken from the authors? feelings, thoughts, and at times his own experiences. There maybe some sexual encounters between guys as the story goes on so if this offends you please stop reading. Also if you are too young or it could be considered that you illegal to be reading this story stop now, you shouldn?t be reading this. This is also the authors work and may not be used without his permission. And now most importantly? Enjoy!
** This is my first story I?ve written so if at times it seems dodgy please bare with me. **
The Dunes
Chapter 1: Nobody Knows Me
Life on your own is pretty interesting, let alone when you?re in college sharing an apartment with someone you just met. My freshman year here at Grand Perrier State University was turning out to be really interesting. Aside from living on my own I was basically still at home. I live about a half hour away from campus but choose to live on campus because driving a half hour everyday would get annoying to be a bit much. But I get to come home whenever I want so I still get the feeling of being independent and being in my safety bubble. You could say that I wasn?t ready to leave and to be totally honest, I don?t know if I am.
The great thing is that almost all of my closest friends went to Grand Perrier too. We kind of decided to stay around the area for our first year of college because we were having too much fun together the past 3 years. However no matter how close I was to my friends, there was something that I hid from my friends. I hid the fact that I was gay and the fact that I have had a boyfriend for the past 6 months. The only people who know are my family and they?ve promised to keep it quiet until I was ready.
I almost forgot my name is Tristan and I live in what my friends and I have affectionately come to call, ?The Dunes? short for the city we lived in. It?s a nice city and right on the coast of Lake Michigan. Growing up in ?The Dunes? has had its share of good times in bad. I have learned a lot and seen a lot. I got to say without pumping myself up too much my parents did a good job.
A little more about myself, like I said my name is Tristan. I?m 19 5?11 about 175 and pretty well built, I keep my hair buzzed right now, but its brown and have brown eyes too. I?m pretty tan for living in the Midwest but that has to do with being at the beach as much as possible during the summer, I don?t fake bake, it looks gross when you?re a copper color... not attractive. I was on varsity soccer and basketball since I?ve moved to ?The Dunes.? I?m straight acting, yea it sounds so stereotypical but I just don?t flaunt my sexuality. I have a lot of friends and we?re all pretty much spending this year together too. Only thing is I live on campus with my roommate Kenny and they all live in the area too, I just wanted to get my own apartment. My roommate Kenny is one of the coolest people that I know. We?ve lived together since August and it?s been a trip since then. Then there?s Ryan, he?s my boyfriend, we?ve been together for 6 months and it has easily been on of the hardest, happiest, stressful, loving 6 months of my life. He?s away at school right now so we don?t see each other as much which makes it a little easier trying to our relationship secret from my friends. My best friends consist of Lauren, Steve, and Talan. We?ve been best friends since our sophomore year when I moved here.
I am pretty well off financially. My dad Jordan is an architect who owns his own firm. My mom Rita is a partner in a Real Estate Company. I have two sisters and a brother. My sisters are both older than me and my brother is a year younger. My sisters Mel and Alex both live in Chicago. My brother Jason is a senior now and is like one of my best friends. We tell each other everything and I miss seeing him everyday. I miss my house, but I felt like living on campus in one of the apartments was the right thing to do? even if it meant roughing it a bit. My parents did a good job, just sometimes are hard to get, when I moved out they gave me a 06 Mustang GT as my going away gift... It?s a bit funny. I work in a coffee shop which is between my house and campus so I?ll be keeping my job there, I didn?t have to work, but I like to.
The stress of living by myself has recently put a stain on mine and Ryan?s relationship. That and the fact that he?s 2 years older then me, goes away to college, and that my friends know him as my friend from the coffee shop. I don?t know what?s holding me back from telling them but I?ve got to get over it. I love Ryan and he says he loves me too but there seems to be like a wall growing between us and I don?t want to lose him either. He?s actually on his way over right now because he came in for the weekend since Kenny is gone for the weekend.
I decided I would lie down while I waited for him get here. He couldn?t do much besides park since they are pretty anal about people walking around who don?t live in the apartments. I must have fallen asleep because when I woke up to my phone ringing it was already 4 and the sun was setting. Checked my caller ID and it said Ryan I picked it up.
?Hey babe, you here, I?ve been waiting for you.? I tried to sound not too excited but we definitely needed this weekend for us. I couldn?t wait to see him again, last time he left we didn?t exactly leave on the greatest terms due to his bitch of a boss while at a bar that he worked at. She wasn?t too happy when we came in for drinks one night because she knew I was under age and all and Ryan had the night off and they were very busy. So he decided to help her out for an hour and I started talking to another bar tender and Ryan got a little jealous.
?Yea can you come down and get me, it?s pretty cold out. What were you doing, I?ve been trying to call you for bout twenty minuets now. I stopped by the coffee shop and picked us up something to drink.? He always knew how to put a smile on my face. For the couple of bad times we have had, the good times definitely out weigh them.
I ran down the stairs not wanting to wait for the elevator to come to the 6th floor. I got to the front door and noticed the snow and forgot to grab a jacket so I waited for him to come to the door. He looked so cute in his beanie, hoodie, and jeans. I have to say I love the boy. He had this big grin on him like he knew he was the shit.
?Hey Ry! I missed you so much, hurry lets go upstairs, I?m freezing my ass off.? I gave him a hug and kissed him, no one was around and I really didn?t care what the people who lived the apartments thought. He hugged me close and looked at me with them blue eyes that reminded me of what made me fall for him in the first place.
We took the elevator back up to my apartment and exchanged in the small talk. I hadn?t talked to him in 2 days because both had been very busy. I don?t know why but whenever I am around him I just can?t stop smiling.
?Aw look at you, I can tell you missed me without even saying a word.? It was true I did miss him a lot; he?s been my crutch for days when I just wanted to give up this semester. I kissed him again right before we walked into my apartment. We kicked off our shoes and walked to the couch in front of the T.V.
I took a drink from my coffee, ?Just how I like it, I?m guessing you talked Jess into letting you make it huh?? Jess is the shops manager and Ryan?s sister?s best friend.
?Yea, I tried to order but she was like get your ass back here and make it yourself. You know Jess, never the subtle one even in front of customers.? I laughed because that was just like Jess.
?Yea but I still make a better cup then you, who was the one who spilled the iced latte all over my dad when he came in to bring me my keys that I forgot!? Ryan had to be nervous he never had met my dad before that and we had been dating for about two weeks before that. My dad came to the shop to drop off my keys and Ryan never seeing my dad before took his order and then came and told me that someone was there to see me. I was in back with Jess making the schedule for the next week. So Ryan was making my dad his latte, well my mom?s when I told my dad I wanted him to meet Ryan and as I said that Ryan had passed the latte over the counter hitting my dads hand who extended it to shake his had and it went all over my dads jeans. We had a good laugh about it, but Ryan was VERY embarrassed. He wouldn?t come into my house if he knew my dad was there and up for about a month after that.
?Hey! Don?t remind me! That was so not funny, you caught me off guard, and I didn?t know what to say. What did you want me to say? Hi I?m Ryan and I?m banging your son? Oh and by the way I?m 21 too.? He smirked at me and pulled me under his arm.
?Well at the time there was NONE of that going on so why would you even say such a thing? And 21 big whoop, my sister and Jose are 2 years difference too.? I said matter of fact like while I got up to pop in a DVD that I had just gotten for my birthday a few days earlier. I figured we?d watch it and just spend some time together in each others presence first.
Ryan sometimes makes a thing about him being older; I don?t listen to him when he goes on those rants because it?s the same time and time again. The movie was good and I was spending time with Ryan who I didn?t get too much since school had started up.
?Trist.. Tristan? Tristan!? I must have fallen asleep because Ry was lying under me and the movie was about to end.
?I thought I would wake you up since the movies done; that and the fact that my arm went numb under you too.? I turned off the TV and sat up; I must have been tired because I felt refreshed when I sat up.
?Sorry Ry, you like the movie? Since you didn?t come and see it with me the night I asked you to come out with me and Lauren.? Ryan is cute because he?s shy around new people and we had just decided to be each others boyfriends and hadn?t met any of my friends yet.
?So what do you want to do then? We can go do dinner, walk the beach?? The beach, what was I thinking, it?s freezing outside with snow on the ground. I guess Ryan had thought the same too because he gave me this crazy look too.
?So the beach huh? really?? Man I thought the look was an are you crazy one but I guess it was a look of oh, that sounds good.
?We could do the beach, and then stop by your house; I wanted to tell your dad thanks for giving you my birthday present since I couldn?t make it that night.? He had brought me 2 pairs of jeans, 3 t-shirts and a jacket which I love. I felt a little bad about him spending so much money on me because Ryan works his ass of for everything he has, his parents while they support him, they?ve taken the more we?ll pay for school you pay for everything else approach for him. I guess that?s okay since he?s old enough but I didn?t want to burden him.
?I guess...? I tried not to sound too enthused at the idea once I realized that it was going to be pretty cold.
?Yea let?s go, put on some warmer clothes and we?ll go sit by the lake like we did in the summer.? I got up to go grab a hoodie that was his to put on grabbed a pair of gloves and my beanie. I almost forgot a covers to sit on but Ry reminded me before we left. Turns out it had warmed up a bit so it wasn?t that cold out.
The drive up to the spot on the beach we go to was a familiar one. I?ve driven up and down the road so many times and had many memories. I held Ryan?s hand and he gave mine a squeeze. Its things like that, which makes me happy that I have him in my life. He leaned over when we were at a stop sign and gave me a kiss. When I?m with him there?s no one else that I think about. He was my first real relationship so its times like this that I?m happy I have him. He puts up with my crap and for that I?m happy. He could easily get any guy he wants. Ryan?s very cute, and has a great personality. There are times when I just can?t believe how lucky I am even if as of late our relationship hasn?t been the greatest.
We pulled up to this spot rite on the edge off a cliff that looked down into the lake. I turned off the car and grabbed one of the blankets and Ryan grabbed the other. I laid the cover in front of my car and sat down next to Ryan. We sat there for a few minutes in silence just listening to the waves crashing against the rocks below.
?There?s nowhere I would rather be right now Trist. Just being here with you after what we?ve been through has made it worth it.? I looked up at him and his face was beautiful in the moonlight.
?I know Ry. But we need to take this time to talk about what we each want from this relationship. I can?t keep getting into arguments with you. I love you and I just need your reassurance that this is what you want, if not that fine, if you want to walk it?s going to hurt a lot but I can allow it.? I can?t believe I am saying this; it?s like word vomit because I may have thought that it?s not what I wanted to be saying at this moment.
Ryan sat there for a second, took a hit of his cigarette and looked at me. ?
You know Trist, I don?t know where this all came from. I thought this weekend was going to just be about the both of us and spending time together, but now that I think about it this was bound to come up sooner or later. I?d be lying to you if I said I wasn?t thinking about the same thing but I?ve always come to the conclusion that you were the one for me right now. So if you?re asking if I still want to be with you the answer is yes. But there are some things we have got to work on, compromise from each of us.?
I was glad he was thinking the same and still wanted to be together but was interested in seeing in what he had to tell me.
?So what is it, that do we need to do?? I asked him wondering what he had on his mind.
?Okay, well I?ve been thinking, it?s been six months and your friends still consider me your friend and I feel like it?s become somewhat of a cop out for you. Tristan your in college now, these people are you friends and will accept you for who you are.? He took another hit of his cigarette and looked out at the lake seemingly looking for what he was going to say next.
?I?ve been able to hide it while we were together during the summer but now I want to be able to tell people who I?ve known all my life that you?re my boyfriend. You don?t know how much this is taking a toll on me and how it?s starting to hurt our relationship rather you want to admit it or not.?
The truth is, I did realize that these secretes are hurting our relationship. As much as I hate to admit, unless something happens I can?t let this go on because it?s hurting Ryan too much. I can see it in his eyes because they?re starting to get watery and he?s not the type to cry.
?Ry? look at me? He looked over at me I was scared at what was going to come out next because I didn?t even know what I was going to say.
?I always told myself that I would wait to come out until I was ready. I never thought that would include having a boyfriend to factor into the situation. I feel like I?m putting you through hell by having to lie to your friends and mine. But I can?t let that affect how I do things??
He turned away from me and I gave him a squeeze. He was shivering and being the vulnerable one for once.
?But I now know I have all the support I need and that I will start telling my friends about us. I don?t want to live a lie anymore and don?t want to continue hurting you anymore.?
Ryan looked at me for a second; I couldn?t believe what just happened. I thought he was going to say something but instead he leaned over and began to kiss me under the moonlight. Like many times before we made out under the moonlight just enjoying being in each others presence. It was around 1030 and I told him we should leave if he still wanted to talk to my dad.
We got into my car and Ryan lit another cigarette and off we went. Leaving the cliff I had a feeling everything was going to be fine. I took Ry?s square and took a couple of hits.
?You know, thanks for making me realize everything Ry.? He gave my hand a squeeze and looked at me.
?Not a problem Trist, you had me scared for a second though. I didn?t know what you were thinking at first.? I gave him a kiss on his cheek feeling his stubble from not shaving today. As we drove to my house we exchanged in more small talk even though nothing really had to be said. I had a guy I was crazy about and he had me. I just knew this was going to work out, and that this weekend is going to be a crazy one with me starting to tell my friends about everything. But I had Ryan with me and that?s all I needed.
To Be Continued!
Alright so what did everyone think of this first chapter? Any feed back would be considered great. I?d like to hear what you though about life in ?The Dunes.?
This story is planned to be around 10-12 chapters. I have a map of where I plan on taking the story but it could change at anytime. I try to stick to a basic outline and go from there. I write the stories with no prewriting other then a VERY rough idea of where I plan on going. There was supposed to be a lot more to chapter one but I thought it was getting a little long so that?s why I cut it off where I did so there is already going to be one extra chapter I didn?t plan on writing.
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