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Author's Note: Wow! I had a lot of emails and I really appreciate them - honest! When I get emails it make my whole day so much happier. And if you haven't guessed I'm a geek - I practically live on my computer - I can't even imagine life without a computer. Well, to paraphrase some famous words - "Go ahead! Make my day - Send me an email." - Sebastian
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Chapter 2
Mark's POV
I have no idea what possessed me to jack-off Jeff. He's not even cute or good-looking. I don't know, I was just horny and I thought if I did him, he'd do me. When he said he was going to out me, I panicked.
I was sure my parents would kick me out, and I'd end up being a boy-whore to survive, and get beaten up by my pimp.
Can you say over-active imagination? That's me. I have a wild imagination. My Dad once said I was like Walter Mitty. I had no idea who he was, but we had some great adventures.
I'm gay. I know it. It's not a phase because, if it is a phase then it has been going on for a long time - since I was a kid. If I saw a kid, in a movie, or on TV, who was near my age - off my mind would go, having some wild adventure.
I'm really scared of being gay, or rather, people knowing that I'm gay. There was this boy that went to our school Jerry Walsh. He died - they say it was an accident I didn't know him, but I saw what he went through. I saw people making fun of him, and harassing him. Some of the teachers saw it too - they just ignored it.
There is a boy in my homeroom class. His name is Josh Keller. One day I heard him tell Mr. Becker what was happening to Jerry Walsh. After Jerry Walsh died Becker began to pick on Josh. Rumor is Josh hacked into the computer system, and modified one of Becker's tests.
He is my secret crush. Josh! Not that creep Becker. I tried talking to Josh once in homeroom, but he either doesn't like me, or is shier than me, and I am very shy. Josh keeps to himself. I never see him talking to others.
Gigabit is another crush I have. I've never seen him - he could be twelve or sixty - we've had hundred of chats about hacks - he's a genius! In my imagination he and I have adventures fighting criminals and crooked politicians.
I know he was worried about me. I knew he cared. He said it didn't matter that I was gay. Then he surprised me - he made a porno picture of Jeff giving some guy a blowjob. I thought he must be an older guy, because no kid could make a picture like that, in so little time. Gigabit never talks about himself, or answers personal questions. I wonder who he really is.
Josh was so brave. Get this, he was forty-five seconds late and Becker tells him to go to the office. What an asshole! Not Josh! Becker! I mean forty-five seconds late - Becker hadn't even started roll call. Josh mumbles something and Becker tells him to speak up. Josh goes 'Woof'. Everybody cracks up. I could never do that.
I sent the photo to Jeff. It worked. Jeff said at lunchtime that he was only kidding. Yeah right!
I went to sit with my best friends, Malcolm and Mandy. I've know Mandy since I was a baby so it's like I've always known her. I think she knew I was gay before I did. That's how close we are and I really like Malcolm, her boyfriend. I introduced them!
Okay, I am really shy, and I embarrass easily, but I do have friends, and when you have a friend like Mandy, she makes sure her friends are your friends. She's like an older sister that looks after me. I love her so much - I can never keep a secret from her. So of course she knows about Josh and gigabit.
She was pissed when I told her what happened with John. "Mark, you are so stupid and impulsive sometimes! I thought you were madly in love with Josh. How could you betray that love? (She is such a romanticist!) You are so fickle!"
"I do love Josh. He just doesn't know I exist, and beside I don't think he likes me. I don't even know if he is gay or straight."
"He's gay," Mandy said.
"How do you know?" I asked.
"One - he is totally cute; two - he is totally shy - worse than you! He keeps totally to himself like he's afraid to make friends; three - three," she thought for a minute, "you said yourself he spoke up to Becker, about what was happening to Jerry Walsh, so he's not a homophobe. I wonder if he and Jerry had something going? Nah, Jerry had a thing for Brad; four - woman's intuition!"
Wednesday evening I chatted with Gigabit. I told him things were cool.
dude tks agn. One question? k Do u like me or were u jes doin a good deed? Almost two minutes passed. I'm breaking a rule here...never get personal...2 ans ur q - both. no mor pers stuff i'm jes ur typical teenage hacker - no life, no friends, boring life - nothing else to do xcept hack. LOL so! we are just a couple of teen hackers! I knew it! LOL oops! hmmm :P I'm writing a new pgm - its gonna be cool
He went on to tell me about the program he was writing. I wanted to tell him I loved his voice. It's weird I could swear I've heard his voice before.
Thursday I have computer club meeting. I only go cuz Mandy and Malcolm make me go. I was surprised to see Josh there. He caught me staring at him and I blushed. I think he smiled at me.
Malcolm arrived, and coerced me to go welcome Josh to the club. Malcolm introduced us. I could feel myself blush a bit. A lock of hair falls down covering his right eye, and he does this cute little flick of his head. But then he stood up and left. I know he must hate me! He stood up and left. I got really upset, and it was hard not to cry, but I managed it. Mandy was pissed.
"You deserve someone better than him!" she said.
My heart was breaking and then he walked back in. Malcolm tried to get me to go back. I wouldn't go, so he went. He came back with a smirk on his face.
"What?"
"I think he secretly likes you."
Mandy rolled my eyes in disbelief, "Oh, right," she said, "He has a weird way of showing it."
"No, really. I told him. Mark thinks he hates him. And he said he didn't mean to upset Mark. Then he said," Malcolm purposely stopped talking. I hate it when people do that.
"Malcolm!" said Mandy. He smiled.
"Huh?"
"What did he say?" she demanded.
"Oh, just that Mark has nice eyes and then he blushed."
"I knew it! He's gay, and he has a crush on Mark!" whispered Mandy excitedly. I blushed. "Mark you should go right back there, and confess your love to him."
"No way! He said I have nice eyes. He was probably being polite to Malcolm."
"Well, tell you, what I'll talk to him after the meeting is finished."
Later that afternoon, Malcolm dropped over. I always have to do my homework when I get home, and I had just finished my math. It had taken me twice as long as usual, because I kept daydreaming about Josh.
Malcolm didn't look too happy.
"Dude what's up?"
"I screwed up I think. I'm not sure. Did you know Tobler is his aunt?"
"No. So, what happen?"
"I thanked him for saving your life - he's gigabit."
"He's gigabit? I knew his voice was familiar!"
"Mark! Hear me out - he ran off from me - very upset. I think he really likes you a lot, because he said he likes your eyes, and I said something stupid, but I think he misunderstood. I said your eyes really sparkle, especially when you're talking about your crush - he didn't ask who your crush was and I think - he thinks you like someone else. He started to deny that he was gay. I could see tears forming in his eyes, and then he ran off! I chased after him, but Tobler stopped me to find out what was going on. She's his aunt."
"You said that."
I was shocked. I was happy. I mean - the guy I've had a crush on, for ages, likes me. He was gigabit! He was upset! I decided to send him an email. I waited online, until one a.m., hoping he'd sign in.
The next day, at school, he wasn't there. I hurried home to see if there was a reply to my email. Nothing. I fell asleep at eleven, waiting for him to get online. He was missing from school again. I was a wreck by the end of the day. I had to know if he was okay.
I went to his home, rang the doorbell, but no one answered. I tried the doorknob, and the door opened.
"Hello?" I called. No one answered. I heard a crash from upstairs.
"Hello!" I called out, as I ran up the stairs. The first door I came to, I looked in -and there was Josh lying on his bed. At the end of his hand was a bottle of medicine and there was a clock on the floor. I freaked. I knew he must have taken an overdose of sleeping pills.
I tried to wake Josh up. His eyes were glazed, and then he shut them again. I shook him. He wouldn't wake up! I heard someone downstairs.
"Help! I need help!" I screamed.
Up the stairs ran Ms. Tobler. "Mark? What's wrong?"
"Josh, I can't wake him up!"
She went into his room and said, "Oh God! Mark, look in the medicine cabinet see if there is any syrup of ipecac."
I checked the medicine cabinet, found some, and returned to the bedroom.
"Help me get him to his bathroom." Once there she gave him a dose of the syrup, and, shortly after, up came the contents of his stomach. She said she was going to make some coffee, and for me to stay with him. He was moaning, and then vomited again.
After several minutes, he looked at me.
"Mark? Why are you here? Why am I here? I'm tired, I want to go to sleep."
"No! You can't! I'm not going to let you die! Josh I love you!"
"I'm not going to die. I'm going to sleep."
He closed his eyes.
"Wake up!" I shook him.
He opened his eyes. "You're crying. Oh, Mark don't cry. Did you say you love me?"
"Yes! Yes! I love you Josh! Please don't die!"
He giggled. "This is the weirdest dream I have ever had. Just don't wake me up. Okay. Cuz there is something I need to tell you." He closed his eyes again.
I shook him again. He smiled, "I love you too."
"Mark, bring Josh down to the kitchen," called Ms Tobler.
I helped Josh down the stairs, into the kitchen and sat him down at the table.
"Aunt Lil? Why are you here?"
"Drink this?"
He took a sip of coffee. "This isn't a dream is it?" he mumbled.
"No. It's not a dream," she replied.
He smiled, then blushed, and looked at me - "Hi, Mark. Uh, you really love me?"
I blushed, "Yeah, I really love you." He took another sip of coffee. I glanced at Ms. Tobler, she was smiling. I blushed again.
He looked at Ms. Tobler. "This is so embarrassing Aunt Lil." He took a big sip of coffee, set the cup down, and gazed at his hands, for a moment, and smiled, looked at me and said, "I love you too. In case you haven't guessed I'm gay." He looked at his aunt. She was smiling like a Cheshire cat. She seemed to be happy with him being gay.
My eyes filled with tears. "Sorry, tears of joy."
He smiled.
"I have a question. Why did you give me that foul tasting stuff, Aunt Lil? It made me throw up?"
"You took an overdose."
"I what? When?"
"There was a prescription bottle, of your mother's, on your nightstand, and Mark couldn't wake you up."
Josh has the most beautiful laugh. "Those are vitamins! Mom gave them to me, ha-ha he-he. Aunt Lil, you know me! I never even take an aspirin!" More laughing.
"But I couldn't wake you!" I said.
"I was a little upset, so I stayed up and drowned my sorrows in a program - you know the one I told you about. After two days I was exhausted."
"I feel like a total fool, I thought you were dying," I said, feeling like an idiot.
"Aunt Lil, can we have some privacy."
"Sure, and for what it's worth, Mark, I'm the real idiot here. I should have known." She passed by Josh, and gave him a kiss on the head, "You are my favorite nephew."
"I'm your only nephew, Aunt Lil." He looked up at her then gave her a peck on the cheek.
"True, but if I had a million, you'd still be number one." She left the room.
"I thought you were a dream, and I was so happy. I was happy because it felt so right. I am so afraid of loving you, of being gay. I'm scared, scared to be me. I know on Monday at school, I will still keep to myself and ignore everybody. I know that will hurt you. Mark, please, don't love me." He was crying.
"I can't Josh. If you want to ignore me - then ignore me. You have, for the last six months, and I still can't stop thinking about you. I won't talk to you at school if that's what you want. I won't even tell Mandy, but, please, don't shut me out completely." Now I was starting to cry. "I'm scared too, Josh. Yeah, I don't want to come out to the world. Mandy and Malcolm know I'm gay. My parents don't. But isn't happiness and love worth something? Isn't it worth fighting for?"
He said nothing.
I stood up to leave. I hurt so badly. "I'm sorry I woke you. But I'll never be sorry for loving you. And, I believe, you are worth fighting for. Now that I know you love me - I will never give up. Go to bed you're tired."
I left for home. Mom and Dad saw me.
"Marky, what's wrong?" Mom asked.
"I'm gay. I'm in love. I hurt."
Dad jumped up, grabbed my arm. For a second I thought he was going to hit me but he didn't. He pulled me into a hug. "How can I help?" I began to sob. He held me. He told me he loved me, and when I wanted to talk, he and Mom would be there for me.
TBC - To Be Continued. Meanwhile keep the emails coming!!