Hello Everyone!
I'm at home, sick and bored and watching Star Wars. SO, this was started.
Please know this is only the first chapter, and as such is only to set the scene of the story going forward. It will become 18R hehe so make sure that you're old enough! And be patient if you are, it is coming. I'm already working on chapter II.
I do hope you all enjoy this story, please let me know all your feedback, as I love to take the story where people want it to go, though I of course have my own dream of where it's going.
I am a huge Star Wars fan, albeit not an expert of all things. I try to make it accurate but please don't be rude if I get it a little off, I do my own research but I'm not perfect
May the force be with you all!
The ambience was quiet in the records room as I finished up my report for the council. I always preferred writing them here. I can feel the years of wisdom and knowledge locked here, and I can I looked at my report, grateful to be finishing it up. I signed the end, Jedi Knight Myko Da Ruun. "How was your mission to the outer rim territory?" A voice rang out from behind me, causing a big smile to paint itself across my face.
I saved my report and turned slowly to face my questioner getting up in the process, "I am grateful to report it was entirely successful!" I eagerly shared.
I happily smiled up at my friend, Aashel daan. He was a little younger than I, but was half a head taller. His stature was lean but strong, with big hands folded gracefully in front of his torso. His tan coloured skin matched his dark brown hair that was disheveled and went in every direction. His features were contrasted on his skin, with big bold lips and piercing golden eyes.
"That is most pleasing to hear, Myko! I trust you were of the utmost help to Masters Obi Wan and Anakin Skywalker?" He questioned complimentary.
"Oh they hardly needed me to help, but I was grateful for any and all help I could provide them" I said obligatorily, looking over my friend. He looked different to me, taller even than the last time I had seen him. The obvious change is that he has traded his modest Jedi robes and is now wearing Jedi armor.
"I am sure you were pivotal in their success" he graciously said to me. His smile got bigger and his chest puffed out a bit as I looked him over trying to figure out his newfound confidence. Suddenly I noticed it - his padawan braid no longer decorated his hair!
"You're now a Jedi Knight, aren't you young Aash?" I asked him, barely obscuring my excitement, using my nickname for him. He nodded and I threw out my hands and pulled him in for an embrace. "I am so happy for you! Though it is of no surprise to anyone, your skills are exceptional."
The embrace lasted only a moment but we held each other tight and I could feel a flutter of feelings in my stomach. I enjoyed this. As a Jedi I knew only to suppress any thoughts so that feeling was gone as quick as it came. However the fluttering remained.
"I was wondering how long it would take for the ever astute Ko Da to notice this change." He jested at me, pulling back out of the hug nervously. I softened at his use of my nickname. "But now, no need to change the subject - you must tell me more about Anaxes! Is Admiral Trench defeated?" He asked eagerly, obviously embarrassed about my praise.
"Ah yes, well..." I started, wrapping my arm around his shoulder as we walked towards the hall. "It all started when Master Obi Wan arrived, the command center I was barely holding was getting bombarded by droids on two different sides. The onslaught lasted no longer than it takes to leave to the atmosphere here on coruscant before he was able to send them running."
He stopped to look at me and said "stop being modest, I'm sure you were holding your own perfectly fine!" He stopped and I don't know why I didn't answer, but he didn't seem finished talking. "I wish I could be as strong as Master Obi Wan..." he spoke quietly, trailing off at the end.
"Whatever do you mean, Aashy? You are younger than even Master Obi Wan was when he was knighted and he was considered young himself! I can foresee you becoming an equally masterful Jedi, don't you fret young Aash." I said reassuredly.
"Y-you always think too much of me, Ko Da." He stuttered out abashedly. My eyes fluttered a bit, worried he meant something more with his words
"Only as much as you think of me" I responded nervously, trying to contain my composure.
He looked at my inquisitively, my heart beat faltering for a moment. He then turned and we resumed walking "now, tell me more of your singlehanded victory against Admiral Trench!" He prodded.
I smiled and continued on where I'd left off.
I finished my meal and was returning to my quarters when I sensed a presence watching me from somewhere. I faltered for a half second but forced myself to continue walking normally, my footsteps suddenly seeming so much more loud in the still hallway. I inconspicuously darted my eyes around without changing my pace or stature, seeing that there was no one else around. My body was tense but I tried my best to not let it show.
Click.... Click.... Click....
The sounds of something small and... wooden, perhaps? Tapping the flooring of the temple halls filled the air even though it was quiet. I couldn't see anything at first and then suddenly - I turned quickly around, not being able to conceal my fear of being surprised.
"Appear to be nervous, you are young Myko Da Ruun."
I turned and bowed in respect, unsure what to say to Master Yoda.
"Something on your mind, there is?" He asked inquisitively. My head fell farther without thinking, possibly in shame.
"About your successful mission on Anaxes, it cannot be... hmm." He said knowingly.
I was about to lift my head and respond when he continued "to do with your friend, it is." He no longer sounded like he was asking me questions, but rather was stating what was, to him, obvious.
I looked up and saw him looking at me with compassion and knowledge. His small green frame the source of centuries of wisdom and power. "I...." I couldn't finish my thought out loud because I wasn't sure how to say anything.
"Hmm?" He responded, encouraging me to continue.
I opened my mouth to speak "....", then closed it and looked down again. I don't think I could bear to ask the questions I really want to.
"I wonder sometimes, Master Yoda, if we as Jedi are the right people to protect the galaxy. If I am right to be a Jedi to protect the galaxy." My voice wavered a bit, but I was surprised these words slipped out my mouth.
He looked deep into my eyes for a moment before answering. "Ah... yes. Bigger thoughts, you are having." He said before turning and continued to walk. I turned and matched my pace with him.
"Myko Da, perfect, the Jedi are not. Difficult and complex, this topic may be. But if not for the Jedi, protect the galaxy who would?" His question hung in the air, and it sounded like he has talked about this before.
"Alone in these thoughts, you are not. Included in this thinking, I am. Many indiscretions with Jedi law, it is possible there may be." He was quiet for a moment, only the clicking of his cane and my boots filling the silence. I noticed we were heading away from my room, and towards the meditation rooms.
"Aspire to be keepers of wisdom, we are, yet too often in our way our wisdom gets. Keep peace in the galaxy, we are tasked with yet struggle to not fear losing peace, we all do. Being compassionate to all, we strive to be, yet causes more fear and hate does too much become. Difficult to find the balance in these, many Jedi do." He said, looking my way.
"I want to have balance. I want to be kind and compassionate and wise, but I worry I fall short all too often. How does one find this great balance, Master Yoda?" I asked, stopping in front of Yodas meditation room.
"Hmm, yes... Balance... A lifetime to master, it takes." He started slowly, articulating his words well, standing next to me.. "Compare yourself to others, do not. Fulfill your own destiny, you will. Trust in the force, you must." He said absolute in his advice.
He turned and went through the door which opened automatically for him. "Here, come child. Meditate with me, you should. Let the force guide you."
"I am most grateful for your help, Master Yoda." I said following him in.
Once returning to my room, I realized it was quite late, very few people were wandering the halls anymore. I walked to my room, my thoughts focused but confused. Yodas help with meditation is renowned and it simultaneously had my mind racing but also quieted down; the most surreal feeling, similar to the feeling when I used the force.
I got to my room and walked to my bed and sat down. I started sifting through my thoughts, they were multiplying by the second.
I fully believed in the Jedi order, and it's purpose to protect the galaxy. But sometimes I wondered if indeed we cause more harm then good. Not all Jedi feel so reserved in their choices of killing, and not all think that we should be solely peacemakers. I don't enjoy killing anyone, my real purpose shining through when I am able to release prisoners or help villages retake their towns that have been reduced to rubble by the separatists.
I do what I must to help those who need it, but I wonder where the line is drawn for "must" is.
Suddenly Aash's face popped up in my mind and I froze for a second.
A thought flew through my head, the question I truly wanted to ask Master Yoda, and I barely had time to register it before I forced it out.
I don't know why Jedi aren't allowed to show compassion through romantic love.
I shook my head and saw something glisten as it struck the ground. My head jerked up and my mouth fell open. I lifted my hand to my face and touched my cheek. It was wet.
I stood up and took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I go over my list in my head to squash these thoughts; it's a week practiced list.
- I know these feelings aren't allowed by way of the Jedi order.
Attachment leads to the dark side, and I cannot and will not bend to
the will of the dark side.
- Two men being together isn't taboo in most cultures, in some it's
the main form. But in the culture of my people, the people of
Serreno, it is not seen as proper.
The last point is the one I hate bringing up but is important to use for my ability to squash the thoughts.
- Aash doesn't feel the same way about me, so it wouldn't matter if
the other two points weren't a thing.
I sighed and sat down, my head feeling fatigued from its unrest. I undressed completely as I usually do and got into bed, my head hitting the pillow and passed out moments later.
Knock knock knock! I awoke to the sound of soft knocks, then heard "Ka Do! It's me." Aash! I became flustered "Hey Aash! Come on in." As I sat up in bed.
The door opened and he walked in, in his armor again, his hair disheveled like always, hanging off his right side. His lips were peeled back in a huge smile as he rounded the corner into my room.
As he turned, his eyes widened a bit, and I suddenly realized I was completely naked under the bedsheets and instinctually tightened them around my waist where they had fallen. He then stared intently at my eyes, trying to be kind and not look at me in my immodest state.
"I was just thinking of running some simulations, and it's been awhile since we've done some together. Would you like to join me?" He asked with a hint of excitement in his voice.
"Uh sure." I said uncertainty, noting his shoulders dropped a little with my hesitation. "Yes, that sounds like the perfect thing to do today." I added trying to reassure him that I did indeed want to go with him.
It helped, he straightened up and his smile grew somehow bigger. "Perfect! Shall we?" He asked while gesturing towards the door then looking back at me.
"Yes well, um..." I started looking around nervously, then gestures towards myself then looked up at him and nervously half smiled.
"What? Is there something wrong?" He took a step closer and gestured towards me. "NO- no, sorry, I just have to get dressed" I quickly interrupted his advance and stood up wrapping the sheet around me.
His face turned a shade redder as realization set in, and he responded with "Oh! Of course, I-". He broke off as his eyes moved down the thin sheet. His jaw was still open but no words were coming out, and his face was growing redder by the second.
I glanced down and saw that, while I was wrapped with the white sheet, it did nothing to conceal my morning wood that sported and caused a very defined tenting in the lower half of my figure. I quickly moved my hand to shield it as he found his voice "I am so sorry Ko Da, I uh, I will meet you um, yeah, meet you outside your room, so sorry." He dropped his head and was out of my room before he was even done speaking.
Shit.
I stood there staring at the door where he had left in a hurry, not moving or even breathing. I blinked my eyes a few times quickly and inhaled sharply, suddenly realizing I must get dressed.
I threw my sheet on the bed with more frustration then I meant and stared at my boner. I wasn't embarrassed about my dick, it's really quite nice in my opinion. Long, about 8 inches, with a nice foreskin that had the slightest overhang. And it was thick, honestly giving my lightsaber a run for its money. But I couldn't believe I let Aash see me in that state. Had I realized... I stopped suddenly and wondered about that thought. There was a small part of me that was excited that he saw it. Perhaps there was a part of me who knew that I had it, and enjoyed the feeling of him not being able to speak when he saw it. Perhaps he was impressed?
Nonsense, I said to myself, he doesn't think about me like that. I then went through my checklist with a large sigh and quickly got dressed in my Jedi armor and met him outside.
Aash was still a couple shades redder than usual and didn't look my in my eye as I walked up next to him. We turned and started walking, wordlessly.
"Um... I'm sorry for you having to see that, Aash. I didn't realize it when I stood up" I started, though the apology sounded flat and awkward.
"No, I am the one who should apologize, Ko Da. I should have left when I saw you weren't dressed, I guess I just..." he trailed off, looking away. My curiosity was peaked but the way he was speaking... well I just couldn't push him to say anymore.
"No Aashy, it is alright. Now, let's go so I can save your butt 10 times over in this simulation!" I jested towards him, weakly pushing him with my arm as we walked. He chuckled and responded "I regret to inform you that you have it all backwards, but don't worry. I'll protect you, Ko Da." He winked and we walked off towards the simulation room.