Disclaimer: I don't know the BSB or Nsync. I have on the other hand met Nsync for a very short amount of time at an after party. I will not go into that I will also be using Britney Spears a lot I don't know her either. I have not ever met the BSB I pray someday I do. Also I will add this. This is not a Justin friendly story in anyway. As for the rest of Nsync it is since their nice.
Authors note: These *** mean a character change in the story. A name will follow the *** that is the character that is in charge. The main character that I'll be using will be Kevin, Tom, and Sarah. I'll try not to jump around a lot. I would like to thank all the people that wrote me. Your words have meant a lot to me more than you know. So thank you so very much. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------
Kevin
It had been two week's now I didn't know if I could go on. I had fallen to sleep a few time's since then. I would always wake up with a start looking around. My dreams were filled with memories of Tom. Sometimes I would wake up crying trying to pull the memories back. I was now laying beside Tom holding his hand. I could tell his body was getting weaker. He had lost most of the tan he use to have. The guys were doing there best to keep management off my back. We had already missed seven shows but I didn't care any more. "Tommy I'm right here beside you I promise I won't leave you. Please wake up I need you so much." I felt his hand tighten around mine for a second. Then it went back to a lifeless state. "Come on baby wake up I'm right here I won't leave you." His hand moved again this time a little stronger. "Kevin why don't you love me anymore?" I was shocked that he would ask a question like that. "I do love you Tom I really do please open your eyes." His eye's opened slowly and he looked at me. I could see the tears hanging on his lids. I pulled him into my arms and held him there while I cried.
*******Tom
I had regained my memories it had taken a while. But I understood why I had been alone. It was all a dream world that I had made up. I knew where I was and who I was with. I could tell that Kevin was holding me but my arms felt so tired. I had to wonder how long I had been asleep. "Kev how long have I been here?" I looked around the room and out the window. The sun was starting to rise and I could feel the heat. I had missed that feeling a lot. It took a few days but I was back on my feet. I learned that Justin was still in jail. I knew I had to drop any of the charges that I could. It was time to heal and let thing's go. The time I had spent in my mind had helped a great deal. While I sat in all that darkness I really saw what was bothering me. I didn't know how to brake it to Kevin but I would find a way. I loved him with all my heart and soul. I just couldn't go on like that anymore. I couldn't hide it unless I ended it I was already trying to put the word's together. I was back at my apartment talking to my sister about everything. "I knew this would happen sooner or later. Are you sure you can't try a little longer?" I was really listening to her I just couldn't answer.
I looked into her eye's and asked myself how she got so smart. "I can't it just hurts so much. I wish I could go on but theirs just so much. I'm going to talk to Brit and end our little game. I have to or I'll go nuts." She just sat there and nodded the whole time. "You know I'm here for you no matter what, do what you have to do." I nodded and moved toward the door picking my keys up on the way. I walked out the door and down the stairs. Once I was in my car I started it and went to the hotel. I pushed into the hotel trying not to get mobbed in doing so. I went to the front desk and asked for the key to the boys room. After I showed her my ID and gave her the secret word I was given the key. On the way up to the room I had to keep telling myself it was for the best. As I walked into the room I was greeted by Nick. "Have you seen Kev I need to talk to him." I didn't try to hide the pain in my voice. Nick nodded and pointed to a room not that far off. I knocked on the door and waited for an answer. Kevin opened the door smiling, his smile faded when he looked into my eyes.
I walked into the room and took a seat on his bed. Kevin walked to the table and took seat on top of it. "This is really hard for me to say so please just listen first. I love you so much it hurts when I'm not with you. But I can't do that anymore, I can't keep going on like that. I wish I could and I've thought about how to say this. There is no easy way so I'm just going to say it. I'm done with the heartache and pain all of the hiding it's over. I'm sorry I had to hurt you I just can't do this anymore." I could feel the tears sliding down my cheeks. I waited for the anger that should be coming but it didn't. "I'll quit the band and tell the world I love you. Just don't do this please don't end it." I looked up into his eyes I couldn't stand the pain that I saw. "No, you can't you'll hate me for it later I know you will. I've seen you when you walk on stage, it's your life. I didn't come here to get you to quit I came here to here to end it. That way you can move on maybe find someone better. Someone that can live this life I can't. I hope that someday you'll understand. I'm quitting as the PR agent for you guys. It'll make it easier on all of us, trust me I know. I'm sorry I love you, good bye." I ran out of the room and to the elevator. I watched the door's close as Kevin came running after me.
I ran out of the hotel and jumped into my car and took off. I don't know where I stopped but it wasn't far from the hotel. I was trying to regain some kind of control over myself. I didn't think it would hurt so much. I knew that it would hurt but just not so much. Once I could see clearly I started driving again. This time I was heading for the apartment that Britney was staying at. I had to end everything today or I wouldn't end it at all. I pulled up and walked up to the door. I knocked softly at first then a little harder. I heard someone on the other side unlocking the door. When Britney opened the door she smiled and pulled me in. I guess I hadn't really gained any control over myself. Since I started crying once the door closed. I told Britney everything between sobs I even told her I had to stop what we were doing. "Tommy I knew that it had to end sooner or later I'm not mad. But I am a little pissed that you broke up with Kev. I really thought you two would make it, I kinda looked up to you in that way. I had thought that you and him would prove that love did exist. But I do understand why you did it so I'm not going to bitch about it anymore." I looked into her eyes and found that I really was a lucky guy to have a friend like that.
After a while I left and headed home to get some rest. As I walked into the house I saw that Brian was waiting for me. "Ok I'm not here to bitch I just wanted to see if you were ok." I walked to the couch and laid down looking up at the ceiling. "I'm about as ok as I can be Bri. I just broke the heart of the only person I've ever loved, in turn my heart is braking." I looked up at him slowly to see if he understood. He nodded and pulled a chair into the room. "I'm not going to say I'm happy about your choice, but I'll respect it." I looked around the room now was not a time for me to cry. So I tired my hardest not to do so, so I didn't move or speak. I felt the tears and tried to hide my face with my hands. I almost started laughing at myself while I sobbed at the same time. Brian tried to help but I pushed him away. "I'm sorry I can't, I have to get some sleep. I'm sorry Bri but I have to ask you to leave." I left the room and walked into my own. I heard the door open and close as I laid down. I pulled my pillow to my chest and held on for dear life.
**********Kevin
I looked out the window trying to stop myself from crying. I couldn't seem to stop myself from shaking. I had tried sleeping but it didn't work. I had talked to management telling them to set up the next spot. I had to start working or I would lose my mind. I knew that this day was coming. I just had hoped I could stop it from happening. I had faced the guy's long enough to tell them we would be leaving in the morning. I had called Rachel hoping she could help me out. She didn't know what to tell me or do. She told me she would try to talk some sense into Tom. I asked her not to that he was right until I could settle down it wouldn't work. I just hoped that when I could stop that he would still be around. I knew that was unlikely but I could hope couldn't I? I got into my bed pulling the pillow's to my chest. I had to make myself imagine it was Tom I was holding before I fell to sleep. My dreams were filled with his last words to me. I felt so alone I didn't know what to do. The next morning I moved around like a robot. I turned on the new to find out that Britney and Tom had broken up. Britney had faked some tears and that was it. The reporters were looking for Tom to ask him what had happened.
I had turned the TV off and woke the guys up. Once they were up we left the hotel. As I got onto the plane I said my own good byes. When the plane was off the ground I started to cry. I couldn't believe that it really was over. I held my head in my hands as since the tears wouldn't stop. I would have to get over Tom and move on. It shouldn't be that hard I could find someone else someday. I could have sworn that I had heard his voice. I looked around trying to find him hoping against hope. Then I saw a man talking on a cell phone. His voice almost sounded like Tom's. I knew that I would have to push all the memories of Tom out of my mind. I took a few sleeping pill's and drifted off into a peaceful sleep. I knew I couldn't look back even for a second. I now knew that dreams did come to an end. I just prayed that time would wash away the pain.
************Tom
It had been close to a year since I had last seen Kevin. I had talked to the guys a lot over that time. I knew that we were drifting apart further than we already had. I knew that I would always be able to talk to Howie. My sister had moved in with him a month ago. They were talking about getting married in June. I had thrown myself into my job and never looked back. I still cried every night when I went to bed. I still missed Kevin with everything that I was. I never asked the guys about him I didn't need that pain. In return they never asked me certain questions. I was doing well with my job since I showed up before the place was open. I left well after everyone else was gone. I had found that some days I just didn't have any work to do. I hated those days it caused me to think about stuff that didn't involve work. I had talked to Rachel a lot but never the forbidden topic. I just couldn't deal with it, I knew that I never would. I just worked until I couldn't then I would work out or eat. I never stopped moving from the time I got till the time I fell in my bed. I sometimes tired to stay up days at a time. Then I wouldn't feel that emptiness beside me.
I knew that I was going to see Kevin soon. June was getting closer and closer. I was going to fly to Florida for it. I wasn't the best men but I was giving my sister away. I hated that thought more than anything. I liked Howie I would even say I did love him. But he was taking my sister away forever. I knew she was already gone but this made it final. I had gone out and got myself a nice suit to wear. I found that I had more money that I use to. I hadn't really been shopping in a while close to a year. I still went with Britney to the mall but I never got anything. I didn't have a reason to look good any more. I even let my hair grow out, it was down to my shoulders. I still shaved and did all that junk I'm not nuts. My phone was ringing off the hook waking me from my daze. "Hello Tom Jets speaking how can I help you?" I didn't hear anything for a minute. I was about to hang up with the voice came on the phone. "Tom this is Nick would you turn you TV to MTV real quick?" I was a little confused but did what was asked. It was TRL and Kevin was on the stage. "Nick I think it's really mean of you do this." I hung up on his and was about to turn the TV off. But I stopped in my tracks as I looked at Kevin. He wasn't looking to good. He had dark circles under his eyes and he looked almost dead tired.
I turned the TV up a bit listening to Kevin talk."Welcome to the show Kevin. We were a bit stunned when you called us. What is it you wanted to tell the world?" Carson asked him. I fell into my chair and watched carefully as Kevin cleared his throat. I was taking deep breaths trying calm myself down. If he did what I thought it was going to do I was going to kill him. "Well, it's not just me I've got the guys back stage." I watched as Nick and Brian walked out on the stage. My heart was beating so hard I couldn't see straight. Nick waved his cell phone on the screen. I was tempted to call him back just then. Then all at once Kevin, Brian, and Nick said. "We're gay" I just froze I couldn't breath I almost passed out. "Wow that's weird since two of you are married would you care to share a little more?" I could have killed Carson just then in fact I was planing on it. "For one both of our marriages are fake. I've been with Nick since we were younger. And Kev over here came out to try and win his lover back." Ok I now had my next target set up. "Tommy I hope your watching this. For the last year I haven't been able to sleep a whole night without crying. I miss you so much I can't think straight." Kevin had tears falling down his face.
I couldn't stop my own tears as I watched him continue. "Every night I look out at the crowd searching for you. Every time someone walks by I turn still searching. You told me that you couldn't take hiding it anymore. Well, I'm not hiding anymore I can't. I know this may not even work out in the end. But I love you and I can't live without you anymore. So I'm begging you please come back to me. I would give up anything if you would just say yes. Nick has his cell phone on please call. Even if it's no I have to know please." The crowd was cheering wildly, screaming for me to call. I picked up the phone and dialed the number. It was like time stopped when I heard his voice on the other line. "Yes, I want you, I need you, I love you." It was all I could say before I started crying again. I looked back at the TV to see Kevin smiling and crying. "He said yes" Kevin shouted sending the crowd into a frenzy. I held the phone to my chest and cried. I head someone talking into my chest so I put the phone back to my ear. "Tommy are you there?" Nick asked slowly thinking I must have hung up again. "I'm here and I'm so sorry for hanging up on you." I couldn't thank Nick enough for calling.
I talked to Kevin the next five hours without hanging up. He was on his way to LA while we were talking. For some odd reason the Cell phone never went out or anything. It was like someone was watching over us. "Ok the plane is landing so I'm going to get off of here and I'll see you in a few." I didn't want to say good bye I didn't want to hang up. "Ok I'll see you then please hurry." We said good bye and I hung up the phone. I started running around the apartment picking everything up. I was moving at warp speed trying to clean the place up. I was in my bathroom fixing my hair and everything. I wanted to look perfect for Kevin. I pulled my hair into a pony tail and brushed my teeth again. I heard someone knocking on my door. I washed my mouth out and almost killed myself getting to the door. I opened it up smiling seeing Kevin standing there. I jumped into his arm's and kissed him. After that everything was a blur as we moved to the couch. After an hour of making out he pulled away. "I need to ask you one more thing?" I looked up a little worried at first. He stood up and moved a little bit away so I could sit up. He then knelt down on one knee and pulled a box out of his pocket.
I couldn't move or speak I felt like I had been setup. I wasn't minding it one little bit I was in a very good mood. "Tom will you marry me?" I screamed like a school girl and jumped into his arms. "Yes, I'll marry you" I shouted pulling him in for another kiss. For the first time in mouths I was hyper and happy. Kevin wasn't much he was as bad as I was. I noticed that he really did have an accent I hadn't heard before. We were all over the place then we stopped to make some phone call's. I was talking to Sarah while Kevin called Brian. Sarah told me that she couldn't wait for the wedding then she had an idea. I listened carefully as she filled me in on her idea for a double wedding. After that I said my good byes and called Britney. She was crying her eyes out but not in the bad way. She was so happy for me that when I asked to the wedding she screamed the answer. I think I might have lost a little of my hearing after that. When I saw that Kevin was off his phone told Brit I would call her back. "Kev, Sarah wants to have a double wedding. I think it's a great idea but if you want to wait a little while I'll understand." I didn't want to rush anything or screw it up. "I think it'll be a great idea but we have a small problem." I held my breath trying to find the problem myself. I couldn't think of what the problem could be. "I kinda promised Brian we would have a double wedding with him and Nick." Did I tell you I could scream like a school girl?
I picked up the phone and dialed my sisters number again. "I'm sorry but we can't have a double wedding with you." I heard a few words I will not repeat once she calmed down enough I continued. "I know your upset but the reason why is simple. We're going to have a triple wedding so a double won't work." I didn't hear anything on the other line for a few seconds. "Ok I love that idea, and don't you ever do that again Tommy. So Brian and Nick's getting married to I'm so happy. That means you have to come here sooner. I'm not planning this all alone so you get you ass down here. Bring Nicky with you while your at it. I also think that were going to need a bigger place to do this. I'll fill you in once you get here but until then why don't you and Kev have some fun. Bye big brother don't do anything I wouldn't." I didn't even have time to reply she just hung up. I looked at Kevin and shrugged it was a good idea after all.
The next few week's went by in a flash of time. I had been in Florida for the last two weeks. We had the wedding planned down to the last detail. My sister had called Britney without my knowing and invited her. I thought that was sweet since I had already done it. Then my sister surprised us both by asking her to be the maid of honor. Everything was setup and I would be a married man in a few days. I spent every waking moment with Kevin I hadn't really left his side for more than an hour. Kevin and Brian had already gotten the divorce. Since it was nothing more than a contract it was easy. Then the day came and I wasn't allowed to see Kevin until the wedding started. I jumped all over my sister for little idea. I wasn't wearing a dress I wasn't a bride damn it but Kevin tought it was cute. Then I heard the music start and I couldn't stop the tears. I was so happy it hurt but I liked it. I found out that day that dreams come true and love always wins in the end. The moment I said I do was the happiest of my life. I kissed Kevin and looked to the future. I let my mind wonder back to the dream I had so long ago. This time I wouldn't be alone as I walked up those stairs. This time I would live my life out in his arms. I looked forward to moving to the country and star gazing till the end of time.
The End ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Ok ending's are not my strong suite in any way shape or form. I hope you all like the ending write me and tell me what you think. I'm sorry if it wasn't the best ending but I tried my best thank you for reading.
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