Warning: This story doesn't contain any sex. It's the story of gay teens. None of the characters are based on real people nor are they meant to resemble any living or dead people.
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Chapter 25 -- More Than Just A Note
Everyone close to Pete is really shaken up over his suicide attempt. It came as quite a shock to everyone. Pete use to be public enemy number one, but around the time that Alex came out, he became more a friend. After my attack, he became one of my best friends. As Doug and Alex grew closer, he seemed to revert back to his old ways. His rage secretly fixed on Doug. Although, it didn't take a brain surgeon to see what was going on. The last straw was the pool kiss. He dropped off the face of the planet after that, withdrawing away from almost everyone expect me, but he rarely smiled. I have to admit that I felt sick when I got the news from Pete's mom.
Pete's mom was franticly trying to piece his world together. His note to his mom mentioned me as his only friend and that I was to receive a journal that he was keeping. It also put Alex and Doug in a bad light. Somehow, he managed to blame Alex for not seeing his pain and for not stopping his descent through hell. It was written by someone who wasn't thinking right. I believe Pete secretly loves Alex, but couldn't tell him, because deep down inside Pete didn't want to be gay and yet he couldn't deny his love for his best friend. His jealously was tearing him apart inside.
In a search through the journal, I found poems some dark and others that were full of life. There are literally pages of entries where he admits to himself that he's either bi or gay. This journal is all the proof that anyone needs to realize that Pete was on thin ice. There were also a few pages where his hate for Doug was clearly evident. Some pages were filled with fantasies that left nothing for the imagination to fill in, that were meant for Alex and him to live out at some point. There were even drawings of him and Alex together. Finally, I found a poem tucked into the pages of his journal. It vividly spelled out his pain. He describes his gayness as venom, that's responsible for being all new feelings to his life. He describes Alex as "the one who gave birth to the corruption of my soul." He goes on to say that he hold no anger towards Alex. Still he goes on to describe the kiss between Alex and Doug as vile, that watching it was like being struck by a bullet.
Chapter 26 -- Another's Kiss
After everything was explained to Pete's mom, she consented to let me visit her son at the hospital. My mom drove me up just minutes after Pete's mom cleared me with the hospital's front desk via the phone. I didn't want to stay long, because I hate hospitals. They stink like the nursing mom that my great grandmother Daniels was in after her stroke. Walking up to the front desk, I imagined that the staff knew my visit was partially driven by guilt. Pete's mom's words filled me with a twisted guilt. "I'm here to see Pete Franklin." The older gentlemen behind the desk spoke as he looked into my eyes "He's in room 420. Go to the 4th floor and head to the left." I hate this sterile stench. I'm also getting a case of the butterflies. Room 420, I've arrived.
His is open so I just walk into the room. "Hey Pete!" I said as he hid his hands under his covers. "Alex, where is Doug?" He seemed shocked, and yet pleased that Doug wasn't with me. "He's not here! How are you doing?" He was quiet for a few seconds before looking at me and replying "I've been better. The food here really stinks but the view is pretty good from here?" I thought he was talking about me, but his eyes lead straight out his window. His room overlooks the river walk, and he's right the view is great. I returned my vision to Pete. "So when are they going to release you?" "Not for another day at least, the shrink wants to make sure that my head is screwed on right. You know what; it's really good to see you. I'm sorry for being an ass. I've had to admit to myself that I'm bi..." "I think that is awesome!" No, I don't, not really. Not if he still wants to be with me. "...and that I can't be jealous of what Doug and you have. Since I can't be with you, would it be okay to have a kiss?" I should tell him no. What if Doug found out? Doug is everything that I need and want. I don't want this kiss to mean anything. I leaned in for the kiss and Pete rose up to meet my lips.
Pete not only gave e me a kiss, but his kiss was charged with heat. Its warmth seemed to flow through me. We never embraced each other but there was a yearning for an embrace with me. For a brief moment, all I could feel was the strength in the kiss. I selfishly want the kiss to last. It then dawned on me that I needed to break off the kiss. Pete seemed happy with himself. He had taken a part of me and I seemed to have taken a part of him with me.
I felt something. There was no doubt that at some level I loved my friend. No...no, I love Doug. This thought of loving Pete is wrong. Yes, there is something running through me. I belong to someone else. My body, my heart, and my mind all belong to Doug
Chapter 27 - A Night Out Or Maybe Not
After my visit with Pete, I decided to hang with Jeff. I needed to avoid Doug. He is the last person that I need picking up on my confused state. After everything that has happened I'm sure, that Doug would freak out if he knew about the kiss. I need to talk the entire mess over with someone. Any way, it's time to pick up Jeff.
I'm ready to step out the door when someone knocks. Opening the door, I find Doug. He looks visibly shaken. "So where are you going, off to see your boyfriend?" He knows but how. "I think we need to talk." I said trying to come up with something half way intelligent to say. "About that, ummm...I think we need to do more than talk." Doug's voice now had a sarcastic tone to it which I've never heard before. Each of his words stung like an angry wasp. "You haven't even asked me why I'm mad, but I think you already know." Doug said as tears started to slide down my face. As I pulled my cell phone out of its holder, Doug took my phone from my hand saying "No, we need to talk" I looked at my phone and then looked at Doug. I already had Jeff's number ready to send. I watched Doug click send. I heard Jeff pick up and then Doug started talking "Hey Jeff! Yeah, well me and Alex need to talk so I'll have him call you back." Doug clicked the end button and then turned and headed up to my room with me following right behind.
We entered my room and Doug wasted no time. "YOU...YOU KISSED HIM! How could you?" I looked into his eyes and could see tears forming. I kept looking trying to gaze into his soul. "Yeah, I kissed him, but in case you haven't noticed, I love you." My words did nothing but bounce off his heart. "Bull, if you loved...if you really loved me than you wouldn't have asked for the kiss." Suddenly, I realized why Pete was so happy. He took advantage of the kiss and used it to betray me. "You have it all wrong. He asked me for the kiss. Yeah, I should have refused but he seemed to need it." He shrugged his shoulders and walked out of my room, and then he turned and said "I believe you, but it still hurts." I grabbed Doug and gave him a kiss. Each bit of stray confusion melted away into the air.
"Okay, okay, I'm not mad! Just promise me, there won't be any more visits with Pete without me, okay?" Doug said smiling. "Okay, I guess it's better than facing him alone." Right now, I'm not even sure how I feel about seeing Pete again. He certainly has broken my trust. He must have told Doug about our kiss or maybe he told Jeff. Doesn't matter, he has seriously ticked me off. Pete was looking for a way to get Doug mad at me. I just can't believe, he would kiss me and then pull a stunt like this to me. I kiss Doug again making sure, that he knew how much I loved him. We hugged each other and then he made his way out the door. I wonder about me and Doug sometimes. One thing is for sure, I'll never trust my best friend again.
Chapter 28 -- Jeff and Pete
Three months have come and gone since Jeff was attacked. I didn't think to o much about it, but Pete seemed drawn to Jeff after the attack. Was Pete being nice or was it something else? After his little performance, I am almost positive it was all an act. After all, Pete had bullied Jeff on numerous occasions prior to all the hate crap taking place. At some level, I have to admit that I still for him. Jeff on the other hand may very well have a different feeling on this situation. I picked up my phone and made a phone call:
"Hi Jeff, how are you?" "Hey Alex, I'm doing okay. What's up?" "I need some answers..." "Oh?" "Yeah some answers about Pete! When did he become buddy, buddy with you?" "After you came is out is when he started getting friendlier. We didn't start hanging out till after I got beat up. It was kind of weird at first." "What do you mean?" "Well, I kept waiting for him to hit me or to call me a "faggot". He seemed to change overnight. A couple times, he even spent the night at my house. At other times, he seemed on edge and then there were other times when he acted like a boyfriend. Sometimes, he was nice and other times he was just plain weird. He would start asking me stuff about being gay, ask me questions about you, and about sex..." Jeff paused for a few seconds. I knew something was wrong but I didn't expect to hear what he said next.
"...and he would touch me. I was living my dream, Alex. I had a jock as a boyfriend, but as you and Doug were getting closer, he seemed to withdraw. Alex, he even hit me once because I wasn't willing to turn my back on you. He didn't want me talking to you when that started I had to stay to close him." "Why, I would have walked away the minute he hit me?" "Because, I was afraid what he might do to you or Doug. Alex, he was never my friend. I can't prove it but I think he knew about the hate notes and even the beating." "Can you prove it?" "No, but I don't need to prove it. Look at he did to you! I have proof that the suicide attempt was done on purpose." Now, I was a little bit steamed at Jeff. How could he accuse Pete of that? "Why would he do it? He could have died." "Simple, he wanted you Alex. Pete knew, you would come running the minute you found out, and then he could get you. He thought that, he could lead you away from Doug. He figured that maybe he could trick the two of you into breaking up, so he could be with you. You see I had to be there to keep an eye on him for you." Jeff stayed in a bad situation for his friends. How many other people would do that? Suddenly, I felt a little ill! "Thanks Jeff, I've heard enough! I'll talk to you later"