The Final Nexus – Chapter Thirteen
The Final Nexus – Chapter Thirteen
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I was woken up the next morning by Xan nuzzling against me and stroking me gently, which was a lot better than his more favoured method of jumping on me and initiating a wrestling match. I’d been doing my best to persuade him that slow and gentle was at least as nice as fast and rough, but so far I didn’t think I’d managed to convince him. So to be woken up like this was a pleasant change.
“You deserve it,” he said, when I queried this. “You did something amazing yesterday, and you made me look really good in the process.”
“You’re confusing me with Dec,” I pointed out. “If he hadn’t been with us we’d never have even got on the crawler, far less up to Deck One.”
“Yes, but it was your plan. You worked out how to use his abilities. He got us up to Deck One and Ilse, Miro and I did the strong-arm bit on their crew, but none of it would have happened without you. And the general was very pleased with me, which is why I thought it would be nice to do things your way this morning.”
And so we did, with lots of nuzzling and stroking and caressing and no violence at all, and it was a far better start to the day than anything else would have been, so that by the time we had finished and showered I was feeling a lot more positive than I had the previous evening. After all, the fighting was over, I was still alive and in a week or two I might even be on my way back home, provided that we were able to open a portal that led somewhere useful.
It transpired that we were going to be staying where we were for a day or so in order to give Khan’s engineers, and the ones we sent to help, a chance to find out what needed doing and whether we had any material on board that might be useful. The aliens had fitted some machines down on Deck Six that could do a certain amount of repair work, but if something had been destroyed completely – like the window at the front of Deck One – it would have to be replaced from scratch, and in a world such as this that was only very sparsely inhabited a lot of raw materials were hard to come by.
I learned that as the crawlers had made their way westward they had stopped, often for long periods, to set up mining operations, either reopening facilities that had stopped production when the plague struck or digging new ones, and that as a result there were mines producing ores for most metals back on the continent. But because the crawlers had only just reached Britain there were as yet no mines here, except perhaps some that had been abandoned for two hundred years, and that might mean that Khan would have to return to Europe to refit his crawler if the damage was too extensive to be repaired using existing resources. I thought this would be good news, since it would leave us in undisputed control of Britain, but of course I was wrong.
“Who are we going to fight if we’re the only ones here?” asked Xan. “It could be years before any of the other generals cross the Ditch. Probably if Khan goes back we’ll have to go with him. If we can’t fight we might as well just stay here and raise sheep, or something.”
“I can think of worse ways of living,” I said.
“It’s dull! I don’t understand how people can live like that, just sitting on the same patch of mud for the rest of their lives, doing nothing except watching sheep eating grass. I think I’d go mad with boredom! Here we get to test ourselves, to live a life of action and excitement…”
“And to die before you’re sixteen,” I interrupted. “Is this life any less pointless than the life of a shepherd?”
“Jake, you have the soul of a farmer! If you’re any good you won’t die young. I certainly don’t intend to. And even if I do, to me it’s better to have lived life to the full for ten years than to have spent fifty wading through sheep-shit. All life is basically pointless, so you might as well make the most of it.”
“There are other things you could do besides killing people,” I said. “And you wouldn’t just have to sit around raising sheep, either. You could study, learn more about the world, or you could travel and find out about other people and how they live. You could make friends with people from other worlds and other backgrounds, or even with other species. Or you could find a good place to live and settle down with your friends, growing up together, helping each other, having fun together – but without having to hurt other people. I know your people have lived this way for two hundred years, but it isn’t the only way.”
“I know,” he said, quietly. “I’ve spoken to Dec and Sam, and I know there are other worlds where things are very different, worlds with proper, permanent towns and cities, worlds where you can travel long distances quickly, or even fly… but I wouldn’t fit in there. This is the world I know, and it’s where I belong. Anywhere else I’d just be another face in the crowd… Sam told me about the city called London, where millions of people live – millions, Jake! How can people live in places like that without being utterly lost in the throng?”
“Well, I lived in London for more than ten years, and I never felt I was lost in a crowd. And now I live in quite a big city, too… well, it’s true that I live right on the edge of it, but even so… but most of the time you’re not aware of it. My world is the Home where I live with my friends, and the forest where we go to play, and the local shops and swimming pool and our school and so on. I hardly ever go into the centre of Milhüsa – I don’t need to, because everything I need is close to where I live.
“The thing is, this isn’t a normal world. In a normal world you can generally choose to live in a town or in the country, and you can find a job that interests you, and if you want to travel and visit other countries it’s usually possible if you have some money. If you’re really lucky you might even be able to travel to other planets - I have a friend from another planet who could probably arrange it if I wanted to do that. If you were to come with me when I go home you could see all that for yourself.”
He was silent for a few seconds. “Maybe I’ll think about it,” he said, eventually. “But not yet. Right now I fancy a ride… come on, let’s go and see how they’re getting on with the repairs!”
So we put on our riding uniform, walked down to the stable, saddled up and rode the half mile or so to Khan’s crawler. The front of it looked a mess, with a gaping, blackened hole at the top, though there were already engineers at work fitting replacement armour over the hole.
“We’re going to have to fix our guns so that you can’t do that,” Xan commented as we rode along the side of the crawler. “I suppose the aliens never envisaged the guns being captured by an enemy, but now that we know it’s possible we’ll have to fit some sort of a blocker that makes it impossible for the guns to be aimed at our own crawler. To be honest, I didn’t think it was possible now until you showed me differently. “
When we got around to the rear of the crawler we found that there were no sentries on duty today: instead one of the ramps had a sign on it bearing the hanzi for ‘Lee’, and when we rode up it we found one of our own stable-masters inside, working alongside the Khan deck-master and ground crew.
“Here to see anyone in particular?” he asked us as we handed our horses over to the stable-hands.
“Not really,” said Xan. “Just want to see how the work is going.”
I had a thought. “There is one thing,” I said. “Could you tell me where the infirmary is, please?”
“Same place as ours,” said the stable-master. “But all of our own people were taken back to our crawler yesterday afternoon.”
“Alright, thanks,” I said, and I followed Xan out of the door and into the crawler proper.
“What was that about?” he asked.
“You remember I said I thought I killed someone yesterday?” I asked. “Well, I’d like to know if I did kill him or if he made it.”
“Why? There’s nothing you can do about it now, is there?”
“No, but… I’d still like to know.”
“Come on, then,” he said, and he led me through some corridors and up some stairs until we reached an area to the rear of Deck Three.
“If their layout is the same as ours their infirmary is through this door,” he said. “We’d better ask at the office first.”
He led me through the door and into an office to the side, where we found a short, dumpy woman with her hair done up in a bun.
“Yes?” she said, looking at us suspiciously.
“We’re looking for someone who might have been brought in yesterday,” said Xan.
“Why? Hoping to finish what you started?”
“No, it’s nothing like that. My friend here hasn’t been with us long, and he has unusual views on war. See, he injured this boy – maybe killed him – and now he’s worried about him.”
She didn’t actually say “Pull the other one!” but the look she gave me was very much of that flavour.
“It’s true,” I said. “I was only trying to warn him off – I didn’t mean to actually hit him with my sword.”
“I see. So you were in a pitched battle and you were trying to warn your enemy off instead of killing him?”
‘”That’s right.”
She gave me another disbelieving look but then shrugged. “I don’t suppose you also stopped to ask for his name, did you?”
“Sorry.”
She sighed. “Describe his uniform,” she said.
“Well, he was wearing a dark blue jacket with fur trim, black trousers like ours, and a plain round helmet with a flared rim and a ridge at the top. And he fought with a type of scimitar, rather than a straight sword like we use.”
“Sounds like Amin’s Tartars,” she said. “We’ve got five of them in Recovery at the moment. Go through the second door on the left. Are either of you armed?”
We shook our heads.
“Go on, then,” she said. “And come and see me again on your way out.”
So we went through the door she had indicated and found ourselves in a largish room quite like our own accommodation area, except that here the curtains were mostly pushed back and the beds were proper beds and not merely mattresses like ours. There were a dozen beds in the room, and I was delighted to see the tall kid in the fourth one along on the left hand side.
“You!” he gasped, as I stepped close to his bed. “What are you doing here?”
“I came to see if you were alright.”
“Why?”
“I was afraid I’d killed you.”
“What do you mean, afraid? Weren’t you trying to?”
I shook my head. “I was trying to protect my friend, that’s all. I wasn’t trying to hit you with my sword, but you were too quick for me. I was afraid I’d cut into your lung.”
He shook his head. “A cut to the skin and two broken ribs, that’s all. An easy repair job for the machines, but it’ll be sore for a couple of days, they tell me. And talking hurts, too.”
“Sorry. I had a cracked rib myself last year, so I know it’s uncomfortable. I’ll go now. I just wanted to see how you were.”
“Wait. I banged my head when I fell over, so I was out of it, more or less, but I remember you tying my belt around my chest. Why?”
“I was hoping it would control the bleeding until help arrived, and maybe help to seal it if there was a hole in your lung. And then someone else attacked me and I got distracted. I’m sorry I didn’t stay with you.”
“Sorry you… what sort of a soldier are you?”
“A very bad one, I’m afraid. I didn’t want to kill anyone.”
“He hasn’t been with us long,” put in Xan, and I could almost see him making ‘crazy’ gestures behind my back.
“Well, then, I’m glad you’re a bad soldier. Thanks. But I’ll still be trying to kill you next time.”
“Really? I think if I saw you again I’d try to stay away from you. Would you really be able to kill me if you came up against me next time?”
“Probably. It’s not that I’m ungrateful, but… well, that’s what we do, isn’t it? Although maybe I’d try not to fight you one on one if I could leave you to someone else. . What’s your name?”
“Jake.”
“I’m Ruslan, of Amin’s Tartars.”
“I ride with Xan’s Golden Riders,” I replied. “This is Xan.”
“Hello,” said Xan. “Look, can we go now, Jake? I feel the same way that Ruslan does about this: we’re likely to be trying to kill each other at some point in the future, so it’s probably better that we don’t make friends now, don’t you think?”
“Sorry,” I said. “I just prefer making friends with people, rather than trying to kill them.”