Well we are finally heading up to the cabin. It should be a relaxing few days there right?...
As much as I had wanted to drive up to the cabin, Tay had made the point in the morning that his dad's car was a better option, the Audi being a Quattro A4. The last time I had ridden in it was when we hung out over thanksgiving weekend, and looking back on it, it felt like a long time ago. So much had happened in the past month.
The winter trees looked majestic as Tay drove carefully up the I80. We had, as I had told Tay last night, left around 10, working our way to the I80 to take it straight up to Truckee before turning down the 89 to head towards Squaw Valley. We had just passed Kingvale and already the mountain was covered with snow. Kingvale was not much of a town, more of a cluster of houses. It was an easy place to miss but it was always a check point for me, a reminder that we were on the right track and soon to approach the turn off for the valley.
Michael sat in the back middle seat, taking in the sights as well, like me. His head constantly swerved left, to front, to right then back again to see as much of the snow covered landscape as he could. It was about 9:30 at this time, the sun glistening off the snow to create a glare that only intensified the beauty that surrounded the freeway.
Before 15 minutes had passed, Tay turned south on the CA-89, the final stretch of road laid out before us. Thankfully there hadn't been a snowfall last night, the freeway still clear to drive on. Tay held the speed at a comfortable safe speed, while also itching to get to the cabin. The black Audi seemed to know it's domination over the path, it's tires working seamlessly through the slush to drive a path.
It was not until we turned onto Squaw Valley Road that we had to take it really slow. What normally could have taken an easy 6 to 8 minute drive turned into a 15 minute crawl as Tay attempted to navigate the Audi through the snow covered street, a light dusting starting to drop down upon us.
Michael was too getting itchy, him squirming in the back wanting to get out to feel the cold. I was comfortable in my seat, eyeing out the approaching cabin where we would be staying the next three days.
It was a very nice cabin, our two families pitching in equally to make sure that all bases are covered. When the winter season was in effect we would rent it out for weekends, then stay ourselves, and then in the summer repeat the process. It made for a great relaxation spot, being so close to the mountain as well as the lake.
As Tay pulled into the covered driveway, I took note of every detail of the house, its wooden facade masking the ease and comfort of the complex. It was a nice redwood color, the planks cut from the very trees in the mountain range. As Tay shut off the car, I opened up my door to step out into the growing snow. It was not falling too much, still clear enough to put in a few rides once we got set up in the cabin.
After grabbing my bags out of the trunk, I made my way up the steps towards the door. I was always impressed with the view, a nice outlook over the valley but still close enough to the resort to allow us to walk down there. Michael had grabbed his bag as well, the crunching of his shoes echoing up from behind me as his wide eyes soaked up the environment. "This is soo... awesome..." He muttered to me as we walked inside.
Tay was right behind us as he shut the door, the three of us walking directly into the living room. The kitchen was connected only by a bar, it acting as the dining table, the stools hiding out beneath it. There were four rooms to the house, all upstairs overlooking the living room. Leading the way up, I broke off to enter one of them, Michael following in behind me.
As we dropped our bags on the floor, I caught a quick glint from Tay, a ping of protectiveness flashing out before he turns over to his room. Michael grabs my hands and looks at me, "This place is awesome. Thanks for letting me come up with you." He is slightly oblivious to Tay but I can see that there might be problems down the road.
Squeezing him back, I pull him in close. "It gets better. Follow me." Dragging him back down the stairs, I open up the balcony and step out over the snow. Working over to a mound at the edge of the terrace, I start to brush off the covering, revealing a Jacuzzi. "Help me clean it off and maybe we might be able to use it tonight."
While we wait for Tay to finish unpacking, we clean up the patio, shoveling off the snow and warming up the Jacuzzi. It would take quite some time for the water to thaw out and start warming up. After ten minutes of working, we set it up and then let the hot tub run its course, hoping that it is ready by the time night comes. Working back inside, we shiver off the cold, and then gather our snow gear, prepping to head out for a good ride down the mountain. Tay was already sitting on the couch, his crème pink and white jacket hung over his body.
Looking at him, I eye him cautiously; having an idea of what all is going on. "Give us a few minutes then we will head out ok?" Tay shrugs as he pulls out his phone to play some game.
Before long, we are all dressed up, me wearing a blue and black jacket, Michael a blue and white jacket. Michael only brought up jeans so I let him borrow some of my snow pants, the black leggings clashing with his jacket. Neither of us minded, as long as he stayed warm we were both happy.
Heading out, Tay led the way, grabbing his board from the shed outside. Michael was going to have to rent one, but we both had figured that early on. Mine was a well worn piece of fiberglass, the setup goofy style. The tickets were pricey but worth it, better than an outright season pass. Had we bought them in advance we could have saved some money but the thought had escaped us.
It was about 1 when we finally started our treks down the slopes. I let Tay go down first, holding Michael back to help him down. I didn't know how many times he had gone snowboarding but I figured it was a good idea to start out small. My suspicions were quickly verified as Michael fell down the moment we latched up. Working my way over to him, pedaling with my one foot still unlocked, "Hey you ok?"
Michael moved to his hands, resting on his knees as he worked to get back up. "Yea, this is harder than it looks though. I didn't want to tell you but this is my first time snowboarding. I normally sled on disks..." His voice wavers off as he grunts to pull back into standing position.
Scooting over to him, I latch up myself and then show him how to move. "It's easier than it looks. Just hop." Hopping to reach the crest, I watch as he copies the movement, picking up a little speed as he approaches me.
Working on my next step, I move forward, hoping to get enough room ahead of him so he can see before he passes me. "To stop, bend your ankles backward if you want to stop forward or bend them forward if you want to stop backward." I make the movements, braking facing forward then moving on, braking with my back facing the downhill.
Michael tries to copy me but catches too much speed, zipping past me then tumbling over into a heap. I couldn't help but laugh as I slide up to him. Lifting my goggles, I extend my hand, making sure everything is alright. Michael groans on his back, his arms spread wide. "Laugh all you want, this is embarrassing."
Michael extends his hand up to have me pull him up. I brush off the patches of snow from his back and slide beside him. "It takes time but I think you will get it. Just take it slow. It took me a few seasons to get it down fully." We start to glide down, zigzagging a path between the riders, taking note not to cut off anyone. Thinking that Michael might have it down a bit more, I let him go, only to watch him sputter out like an empty engine, his body flailing as the board flies out from beneath him, his body landing face first into the snow.
Working my way over to him, I stop and hop over to him, hoping to offer my services. Extending out my arm, I look down with a goofy grin. "You look so cute when you fall. I'm sorry but I can't help it."
Michael turns over, a strenuous effort given his board, and looks at me. "Shut up Chris." He leers at me as he grabs my hand, though instead of moving to get up, he pulls me down on top of him. Our faces crash into each other, him smacking his lips against mine in the surprise attack.
Laughing out loud, I kiss him back, pressing my hands into his side in the process. Had we not been where we were, I am fairly certain we could have continued to make out in the snow. But, as I had figured, our embracement was interrupted by a cough, a person standing over us. The voice, recognizing it to be Tay, awkwardly blurts out, "Need any help there?"
I roll off Michael, blushing in the process. "Umm... Sorry Tay, no I think we are alright." I punch Michael playfully as he rolls over onto me, going down for a quick kiss before pushing off to regain his stance.
Michael rubs his head as he looks up at Tay. While the two of them are almost similar in height, Tay stands a little foreboding, his arms crossed. Michael too blushes, then helps me to my feet, er board. "How was the ride down Tay?" Michael attempts to make small talk as we both brush off the snow.
Tay unlocks his arms and glances down the slope. "It was fun, a good refresher for all that I have missed. I see you two haven't gotten too far." There is a slight undertone that I am not happy to hear.
Looking to Tay, then Michael, I comment, "Yea, Michael apparently has never snowboarded before. So I have been attempting to show him some of the techniques." Turning to Michael, I tap him on the butt, "Go on, I'll catch up. I am going to watch from up here."
Michael takes the subtle hint and moves on, leaving me to be alone with Tay. I turn to him and pull off my goggles, "What is going on? You have been in a sour mood ever since we left." Tay huffs and looks away. I prod harder, hopping up to reach face to face. "Spill it TAY."
Tay pulls off his goggles, a slight red to his eyes, "It's hard alright? He is hotter than me and it is making me jealous. He is everything that I wish I could have been. I mean don't get me wrong, I am happy for you but still, Chris, it's hard."
I stood stunned. I mean I should have expected this but to this point? I had never seen Tay jealous before or at least not of me with another guy. Breaking out of my frozen state, I hop next to him and hug him. He only hugged back, releasing a small sigh at the embrace.
Pulling off he looks down the hill, pointing out to a collapsed figure lying in the snow. "One thing though, he really does look cute as a newbie to snowboarding." Tay hops to correct his stance, me joining him to head down to help Michael. When we arrive, Michael has taken off his gloves to release some of the built up snow that had collected in there. Tay quips out as he looks over the beach boy, "Big difference from the beach right?"
Michael only grumbles as he slips his hands back into the gloves, the cold melting snow sending visible shivers down his back. Moving clumsily back to his feet, I assist him as we work down the hill. Tay leaves the two of us to our training, me doing my best to help out Michael.
Around 5, we call it a night, figuring that we had a good day to snowboard. Michael had improved a bit, enough to where I could leave him a few times (even though I didn't let him out of my sight). Tay got to go down a few Diamond skill hills, the challenge appealing to him. I wanted to go down them as well but I didn't want to leave Michael all alone, so I stuck it out and helped him along, boarding here and there.
On the trip back, we bought burgers to grill in the kitchen. The patties and buns were cheap, or as cheap as can be expected when it came to buying food and supplies from the Squaw Valley Resort. The total cost came out around $20 so we were going to make them last as long as possible.
While we were all chowing down on the down on the food, we recapped the day, each of us telling each other what we enjoyed the most. Given that I was with Michael for the majority of it that was my point. Michael's was the fact that he had never snowboarded and that he was happy to be here. Tay was more reserved, telling that he was happy to be back up in the snow.
As Michael continued to chow down on his burger, he squirmed in his seat, trying to adjust his body into a comfortable position. "Does snowboarding always wear you out like this? My body aches all over..."
I grinned over to him, me sitting across from both him and Tay. "It will get easier down the line but yea I still get sore. Snowboarding can really take it out of you."
Tay was quiet, unusually quiet, but then he spoke, "Yea snowboarding can really take it out of you. Almost as much as last night's session for the two of you. I don't ache at all."
I was shocked that Tay would have said anything like that, and Michael had blushed up red, surprised that Tay knew about us having sex. I mean between Tay and I, we both knew it was going to happen but for him to bring it up, that was bold for him. Trying to ease the situation, I jousted back playfully. "Well that's because you didn't get any last night." I glance over to Tay, a slight glare in my eyes.
With that, Tay drops his burger and leaves the table. Michael just sits there, looking out at me, only speaking when Tay slams the front door. "Umm... What just happened? And how did he know about us doing it in the car?"
Dropping my burger irritated, I sigh heavily. "It's something that Tay and I used to do a long time ago. I need to go talk with him." Raising my eyebrows and slightly changing the subject as I exit the kitchen, I offer out to Michael, "If you want, the hot tub should be ready. I will join you when I am done talking with Tay ok?"
Michael only nods as he quietly takes a small bite from his burger. Whispering out, he watches me chase after Tay, "Good luck."
"Thanks. And I'm sorry. He shouldn't be acting like this." I reach the front door and open it, revealing the dark environment outside. I grab two jackets, knowing full well that Tay didn't grab his when he stormed out.
Moving out into the dark, I shut the door and call out to Tay. Moving down to the car, I see him resting against the hood, rubbing his arms from the cold. "Tay, stop being an ass!" I yell out to him as I approach him. Moving up beside him, I rest on the hood as well, taking note of his movement away from me. "Tay, come on, you're going to freeze out here." I urge him to take the jacket but he still refuses.
Moving off the car, I stand in front of him, draping the fleece over his shoulders. As I button it up, Tay shifts his head away from me, avoiding all contact with me. "It's not fair." That's all I hear from him as I enshroud his body in warmth.
Pulling him in to a hug, I rub his back, him opening up with cold tears, "Tay, I know it's not fair. But we agreed about this. We agreed we would move on. I need you to stay strong. PLEASE!" I plead out to him, wanting him to look at me.
Slowly he looks at me, his eyes hurt and angry. "This is bullshit Chris. Come on, I mean really? I know you still love me!" He pushes off of me, working his feet to the ground to walk.
Watching him move away from me, I call out to him. "I still love you. But Tay, you need to understand, we are not together anymore. I love you like a brother!" I cry out to him, shouting for him to stop moving.
"What if I want to be more than your brother? What about all that we had?" Tay turns around, tears streaming down his face. He moves up to me and pounds me on the chest. He could have hurt me if he wanted to but the tears alone were breaking my heart. We both agreed that we would move on when we went to college and this was the biggest test to date.
Grabbing Tay, I pull him close and tight. Speaking softly into his ear, I make my stand, "Tay, I already almost lost Michael. I can't fuck it up again. I need you to understand that. If, down the line, it doesn't work out, then maybe we can get back together but I can't keep having you waiting for me. We both agreed that we would test the waters. I need you to take that step as well. For ME."
His fingers dig into my back as he sobs; the truth that we are finally over sinking into him. It was hard but it needed to be done. We were no longer boyfriend, we were brothers. Family. It was a hard pill to swallow, even on my end. I wanted to be there for him but I had just drawn a line that I could not cross, a line that was now meant for Michael.
Kissing him on his head, I rub his back. Tay sobs out, "What do I do? You always were the more social one. It is hard for me to meet other guys."
Pulling him back, I stare deeply into his eyes, the aqua blue shimmering under the weight of his tears. "It will work out Tay. I know you. You can meet other guys. You live in San Francisco for Pete's sake!" That makes a snort from Tay, the stereotype that the Bay Area is full of gays a joke between the two of us.
"I know but still... I don't know." Tay looks down at the ground. The gravity of the situation settling back to normal: but a change in the air visible. Our friendship just got forever altered, though the effects won't be seen for quite some time.
Taking his hand, I usher him to head back to the house, telling him that it is best he call it an early night. While he isn't sore on the body, his heart is; the weight of everything needing some time to process. As we head back inside, I notice that Michael is outside on the balcony, his head barely visible above the water. Squeezing Tay, I whisper into his ear, "Don't wait up for Michael and me tomorrow. I want you to enjoy the day on your account. Everything will work out. I promise."
Tay only looks at me with heavy eyes, the want and will of his connection craving my attraction, even though it is already taken by another man. Turning, he makes his way up the stairs and into his room, slowly closing the door to a barely audible clasp.
Turning to Michael, I head towards the terrace, dropping my clothes in the process. By the time I reach the door, I stand fully nude. As I start to head out, I turn off the interior lights, my attempt to save electricity and not have to deal with it later. Making a quick dash for the bubbling water, I jump across the snow like they are embers, hopping into the water with a mighty splash. Michael only grins at me, waiting a few seconds before laughing. "That was graceful."
I move over to straddle him, our bodies sharing the heat in an effort to stay warm. "I know; that's why I did it." I coo out to him as our bodies connect. As I had expected, he too is nude, neither of us having brought swim trunks. Before I can kiss him though, he presses his hand against my chest.
"Soo... what was up with Tay? Everything ok?" Michael shows a sense of concern in his eyes, his cock still limp even though I am pressing against him.
Rolling off him, I sink down to the water level, keeping just my head above the line, the rest of my body staying warm in the water. "I needed to set things straight with Tay. He still has feelings for me but I needed to tell him it can't work."
Michael pulls me over to him, my head resting against his chest. "I want to thank you for doing that. I know it was hard but thanks."
Clearing the air, I tell Michael straight, "I still care for him. I still love him but as a brother. I am with you now. He might still hold a grudge but I hope with time it will start to soften. I just wish he would find someone to love him the same way I loved him. He knows you love me, which makes him jealous."
Michael moves over to straddle me this time, "I don't want to drive a wedge between the two of you but I am glad that you choose me. It means a lot to me Chris." With that, he leans in to kiss me, his cock starting to grow with every second his lips stay connected to mine.
I think you all know where this ending is going but I wanted to stop it there for a reason. The next chapter is very romantic (and sexual) so I wanted to cover that in its own section. I know, I know, it's not fair, but trust me the wait will be worth it.
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