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***************** Tomboy *****************
--------- Chapter 5 --------- I pulled the robe closely around me but tied it loosely so my breasts wouldn't stand out very much. Then I took the towel and quickly dried my hair, it got messy but I fixed it somewhat with my hands. I opened the door and went out, I looked for Josefin and saw that the door to her bedroom was ajar. Once again I found myself in a situation where I could sneak peeks at someone changing clothes. The difference this time was that she was entirely naked and was just bending down to put her panties on. Though I only got a clear view of her breasts and not her crotch because I pulled away from there before that and went to sit down in her living room. A few moments later I heard her come out from her room and went to the bathroom. A minute later the cupboard dryer started to run and I heard her exiting the room since the sound muffled as she closed the door.
"Do you want something hot to drink?" She asked from the hallway.
"Yes please! I could go for some tea."
"Ok, be right there."
I looked around and caught sight of the remote to the stereo, looked in the direction it was pointed and saw where it stood. She had a rather large collection of cd's in two high racks on either side of the stereo. Curious as I was I went over to them and traced over the backs of them too see what her selection had to offer. Just as I was looking the stereo powered up and Shania Twain began to sing out of the speakers. I turned around and saw Josefine there, not wearing much more than when I had seen her through her slightly opened door. Though now she also wore a bra. An interested smile met me as she came to me.
"Do you find anything interesting?"
"Sure, a little of this and a little of that."
"Anything you'd like to listen to?"
"Not really, this is good."
"Cool, I like this one. The tea is almost ready, you want something more? A sandwich or something..."
"No thanks! I'm still full."
"I am too actually."
She hurried back to the kitchen and came back a little while later with a tray. There were two mugs with spoons in, milk, sugar, two tea bags and the boiler. I sat down in the sofa next to her. She smiled at me and poured some water into my cup.
"I've only got tea with orange taste, I hope that's ok."
"Sure, orange is good."
"If you want we can have some strawberries later, mom had some with her this morning when she came to visit. There was a lot left over."
"I'd love to. I haven't had any yet this year. Are they sweet?"
"Incredibly, I can't actually believe it. But they're not domestic of course since the season hasn't started yet."
"That's fine."
As we continued to talk I put my tea-bag in the hot water, pretty soon the color began to spread from it. After that I took a piece of sugar and dropped it into the water, and then took another one that I put on the spoon and dipped it in the hot liquid and then studied it while it melted. This was a procedure I always did without really thinking about it. Josefin asked what on earth I was doing and then made fun of me for a while and I played along, all in good spirit. Later she had switched from the stereo to the TV. The time was 7.00 pm and she wanted to look at "2½ Men" on channel six, she said she hadn't missed one episode. Before it began she hurriedly carried out the trey and got a bowl with strawberry and a plastic pitcher containing whipped cream. She put it on the table in front of me.
"You know what's really good with strawberries?" She asked with a cunning tone.
"Well, milk is usually good but I don't think that's what you mean..."
"Nope, it's not." She said and laughed.
"Ok, what do you have in mind?" I asked curiously.
She went over to the bookshelf where she took out a bottle from a cabinet.
"White wine. Interested?"
"Sure, absolutely!"
With that she also grabbed two wineglasses and sat down beside me again. She took an opener on the table that she used to uncork it. The glasses became a little more than half full after she had poured up the wine, as an extra touch she put a strawberry in her glass. I thought that a wine connoisseur would've got a heart attack if he had seen her do that. Why not, I thought and did the same. Before long we had emptied one glass and were into our second and so on, so soon we began to get pretty giggly and silly. Josefin took a strawberry that she dipped in the cream, she then brought it to her mouth and tried to look seductive as she took it in her mouth and sucked it off. When she then bit off a bit I cracked and began to laugh really hard without really knowing why. She seemed a bit injured and took another one which she smeared in my face before putting it in my mouth. I didn't laugh any less from this and when she saw her deed she began to laugh too. Finally my stomach almost began to hurt and I tried to stop but Josefin had taken another strawberry that she was going to give me but dropped it in my cleavage. I completely lost my breath from laughing and was gasping for air and Josefin was doubled up on the sofa for the same reason. But revenge is sweet and as soon as I could I took one and smashed it on her stomach. After that the war was in full bloom, not until the bowl was empty did we give up. We were incredibly sticky and because we had more or less wrestled she had come to lie on top of me in the couch and held my hands above my head.
"I give up! I give up!" I laughed.
"And what's my price?"
"Well, I can't say I've got all that much to offer really."
"I beg to differ."
After she said that she bent down and kissed me fiercely. In all the commotion the robe I had on had slid open and she began to kiss and lick her way down my throat. She let go of my hands to get down to my breast that she eagerly sucked into her mouth, I groaned as she did that. It felt incredible to finally get to feel someone lick my nipples for the first time, caressing lightly over the breast that she for the moment didn't have in her mouth. Excitement welled up inside me and I felt the heat and the moist arrive to my sex in no-time. After a little while of handling she stopped and kissed me again.
"How about a bath?"
I looked up at her and then down on my body. "Yeah, I guess that's needed."
"Good. Come!"
She took my hand in one of hers and the wine bottle in the other. The cabinet dryer had finished a good while ago so it was quiet and warm in the bathroom.
"I think it's best that we shower away the worst before we pour the water, it's probably going to get sticky otherwise."
Without waiting for an answer she simply stripped off her bra and panties and stepped into the tub before I had even reacted. I couldn't back out now so I let the bathrobe slip off my shoulders and pushed the boxers off. It felt weird that it didn't bother me when she looked wide-eyed at my crotch that for the first time was exposed to anyone else but me. Now I was very happy that I had actually cut down the hair there recently. I stepped into the bathtub behind Josefin and she was in the middle of adjusting the temperature. It was still pretty cold so I pushed her in under the water, she howled and quickly jumped out again.
"You little!!!"
She tried to take me on but I managed to get a hold on her and lock her arms. We were pressed closely together, my breasts against her back, since I had to hold her pretty hard. She fought valiantly to get loose but didn't succeed very well. At first she whined that I cheated but then neither she nor I could help but laugh about the whole thing. The water had now heated up so we moved in under the stream. She turned around so we ended up in each other's arms.
"You're pretty strong aren't you?" She said quietly with an intriguing smile.
In a few seconds time we had washed away the remnant from our strawberry war and Josefin pressed down the plug with her foot on the same time as she turned the regulator so the water began to flow from the tap on the side of the tub instead of from the nozzle above. She let go of me and lay down, looking invitingly up at me. As I sank down on my knees and closed in on her a smile began to form. Soon we met in an intense kiss. She bent her head back so I came to kiss her chin and then down over the throat, I was nearing the two big rounded mounds. This time it was me that sucked in her nipples in my mouth and this time it was she that moaned lustfully. On the same time that I teased her nipple and licked her areola my right hand went on a voyage over her body. First I massaged her other breast lightly for a while, then down towards her stomach where I encountered her bellybutton, I caressed vacantly around the strange indentation. Simultaneously to my handling she did almost the same thing, but she used her hand to caress my back and my buttocks. If I happened to touch a very sensitive area she dug her nails into my skin on the same time as she held hard on to the side of the tub.
The closer I got to her sex the more I got to experience that peculiarity. When my finger slid over her clitoris and down between her lips I thought she'd pierce me. I removed her hand from my tender skin and put it on the edge of the bathtub where she could squeeze as best she wanted. She hardly seemed to notice what I did. My hand once again found its way down to her crotch that was now buried under the rising water. The finger ran though the valley and dived into the very moist vagina. After getting some natural lubricant on my finger I slowly let it slide out again and traced it up to her clitoris. As I began to caress around it she moaned high. In the beginning she remained fairly calm but the more I worked between her clitoris and her private entrance she began to move impatiently. The water that had risen a good bit now began to splash around alarmingly. When I then once again put my mouth on her nipple as I caressed her clitoris I noticed how she jerked first once and then again on the same time as she tensed up and her breath came out raggedly through a half open mouth. She had her eyes closed and pressed her head against the edge behind her, hardly a word came over her lips. I understood she'd had an orgasm considering that as soon as this happened she brutally swept me away from her body. It took about two or three minutes before she had regained her composure enough to open her eyes again.
"Wow, that was amazing."
"Good." I said and smiled.
She pulled me in closer for a long kiss. Soon the water reached us to the neck so she then turned the water off. We lay there for quite some time and talked and continued to drink from the wine. But eventually I realized I had to get home, it was getting very late. I rose out of the bath and began to dry off while she stayed there reveling. It didn't take too long to get the clothes on because I didn't bother to put the bandages back, I just rolled them up to a ball and shoved them in a pocket. However my arm had begun to get a little overexerted because of our activities. When I was about to go she rose up and gave me a goodbye kiss and a last view of her naked body and after that I left her apartment. I went down the stairs and out of the building, then I hurried towards the bus station to catch the bus that was to depart in only three minutes. Fortunately the bus was late and came in to the station on the same time as myself.
When I got home I was in a really good spirit. The endorphins were flowing through my veins. But as I came in through the doors I heard my parent's voices. This put a definite damper on my mood. I removed my shoes and went to the living room but stayed in the door. They all looked up at me.
"Where have you been?" Mom asked.
"Why?"
"We have been worried about you, me and your father have been here for two hours."
"So..." I said indifferently.
"Don't use that tone please!"
I didn't answer but just looked questioningly at them. They noticed I wasn't particularly happy to see them.
"We need to talk to you."
"About what?"
"About what's happened."
"Has something happened?" I said sarcastically.
"Stop being so cocky, we haven't done anything to deserve that."
I hardly believed what I was hearing, even Lina raised her eyebrows. "Oh really? You haven't?"
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"What the hell do you think it means? You throw me out of my own home because I might be inclined to like my own gender. Is that not to deserve it?"
"Well, you've got to understand..."
"Understand what? That just because someone has different sexual preferences than their parents they're not worth being their kids anymore, is that what I've got to understand?"
"No, listen. That's not what we meant..."
"Why can't I just get to choose for myself who, and what gender, I want to have sex with or not?"
Their facial expressions stiffened somewhat and I could see they had at least a ton of admonishments they would've been more than happy to throw at me. But they held back.
"Ok, so maybe you haven't decided yet but..."
"Oh please! That's not something you just decide, it just is. But yes, I have 'decided'."
They both looked curiously at me.
"Oh, who is he?" Dad asked.
I was dumbstruck for a long while, just staring at them. From that moment I didn't feel like I was even related to them anymore. They were complete strangers to me. They didn't care about me, because if they had they'd have listened to me and what I had to say and not just heard what they wanted.
"Damn you! FUCK BOTH OF YOU!"
I ran out in the hallway again and quickly threw my shoes on and ran out. I came out in the yard and wondered for a moment where I should go. Eventually I ran in behind some bushes that stood in front of the façade of an adjacent building. A lump in my throat fought to get out but I fought back and managed to keep it in check. Before I saw my parents leave I didn't move a muscle to get out from my hiding place. Slowly I went back again, looked around so they hadn't got the idea to come back. Lina stood in the hall and seemed to be waiting for me. She looked sad, only when she came and hugged me I broke to pieces. I began to cry uncontrollably. However much I wanted to hold back it was impossible. She comforted me as best she could but it took a long time before I began to calm down and just as long time after that we just stood there holding each other.
The next day when I woke up I had a dull pain in my head. I had a vague feeling it was because I had been drinking much more than I normally did. Come to think of it Josefin didn't drink even half of what I did, but it had felt natural at that time. But on the other hand the sex had felt natural too at that time but it didn't now when I was no longer under the influence of the alcohol. I strongly regretted what we had done, I wasn't ready for it and now I was scared I had given her false hope because I had no desire to enter a relationship of any kind with anyone at the moment. As it felt at the moment I'd rather have gone into hibernation in a hole somewhere for a couple of hundred years. After a few attempts I finally managed to get out of bed even though everything was spinning. I went straight for the cabinet with medicines and took an acetaminophen that I washed down with water. Then I lay down on the couch and waited for it to have effect. The phone rang right after I had fallen back asleep and my head felt like bursting from the loud signal.
"H-hello." I answered tormented.
"Hey, it's Josefin."
"Oh, hi."
"Um, what's up?" She wondered a little hesitantly, I had probably sounded somewhat disappointed when I heard it was her.
"I'm lying on the couch, waiting for the painkiller to have effect."
"Ok, would you like to come over later when it has?"
"I don't know. I'm not exactly feeling tiptop so to speak."
"It's cool, I had just planned to rent some movies and order pizza. Don't need much mood for that."
"I guess. Well, yeah ok I can come for a while. I'm gonna sleep a while more first."
"You do that. Come when you feel like it."
"Ok, bye."
"Bye!"
I threw the cell phone to the other end of the couch and turn to the side and fell asleep again.
No one could have credited it for being a good sleep but when I woke up I was at least a little more like people. I managed to collect myself and skip breakfast, instead I went straight to brush my teeth. After that I went to the bus stop without caring much about my surroundings. But on the other hand there wasn't much to care about. An old lady with a walker sat beside me but she didn't make a sound. When the bus came I let her go first and helped her lift up the walker on the bus so the chauffeur wouldn't have to, they were both grateful. Soon I was once again down town and headed towards Josefin's staircase.
I arrived a little while later, it could've gone faster if I had hurried but it felt like a good day to take it easy on. In any case I was greeted by both a hug and a kiss, both of which were only halfheartedly reciprocated. She didn't seem to read all that much significance to that but brought me to the living room. The movies lay spread out on the table and she wanted me to choose which one to watch first. I chose one I thought would be at least some action in but alas I was deceived. It was much more romance and comedy over it, not really something that suited my mood. But I kept quiet and let it go on. I noticed Josefin edging ever closer until she after a while was leaning her head against my shoulder. Another while later she had begun to caress my leg, my arm and so on. I did my best to try and ignore it and hope it would cease. I didn't. Finally she pulled me to her and began to kiss me heatedly on the same time as she was caressing my inner thigh. It was no doubt what she was after.
"No please, I don't want to."
"Why not? What have I done?"
"You haven't done anything. I just don't feel like it."
"Then I must have done something!"
"No you haven't."
"Screw it then! What are you doing here if you're so moody?"
"I'm starting to wonder that myself. You're no ray of sunshine either." I answered testily.
"Then get out of here!"
"Fine."
With that I rose from the couch and stormed out of the room. At first is seemed as she'd remain in there but she came out into the hall while I was putting on my shoes.
"I thought 'guys' wanted to do it all the time." She snapped.
"I wouldn't know then, would I?"
"Then why the hell are you disguised as one? Are you afraid someone will see your ugly ass?" She hissed maliciously.
"Maybe it's because I don't want to be associated with airheads like you!"
"Hell, I can understand that Alexandra couldn't love you. I'll be damned if anyone ever can!"
Her angry comment took the breath out of me. It cut like a white-hot knife blade through my soul. I turned and ran quickly from her apartment without looking at her.
"Wait! No, I'm sorry!" She called after me.
But I wasn't listening. I ran down the stairs and through the entrance door. I stopped on the curb and looked around, where would I go? In that moment I caught sight of my dad in a car that drove by. It stopped in a free parking space just ten meters away. Dad got out of the car but didn't see me, the other man did the same. The unknown man rounded the car and over to dad and to my great shock they kissed! It was only a short one, more of a peck, and right then my dad caught sight of me.
"Kim!" He said surprised.
I turned and ran in the other direction.
"Wait, let me explain!" He called after me.
I definitely had no plans on waiting. More emotions rushed through me on the same time than I had ever experienced in my entire life. I felt sad, angry, betrayed, frustrated and above all I felt like a complete idiot. To think that I'd been so damned blind and gullible. I understood now why mom and dad had fought so much, they were getting a divorce. And that I didn't realize that all Josefin wanted from me was sex, probably she just wanted to try being with a girl and saw her chance with me. Well, I could at least comfort myself with not having gone all the way. All these thoughts were spinning in my head and without thinking I ran right out on the cross walk. A car came in high speed towards me and stood on the breaks with tires screeching a little. In the last second I threw myself forward and managed to avoid getting hit. The man lounged himself out of the car as soon as he had stopped.
"What the hell are you doing? Are you trying to kill yourself?"
I just stared horrified at the shocked man. He looked really angry so I managed to crawl up on my legs and began to run. I hardly thought of what I was doing.
"Stop! I want to talk to you!"
But I wasn't listening and ran fast down a set of stairs and continued along the way that led towards the canal. Still, his words rang in my ears. 'Are you trying to kill yourself?'. Did I?... Or should I? It felt like I was in everybody's way whatever I did. Only when I came to the side of the canal did I stop to rest. It was well needed considering how fast I had been running and for how long, my heart was beating so hard I was almost afraid it would crack my ribs. I sat down on a bench that faced the water and caught my breath. It didn't take too long before I once again could breath normally but I remained seated. So many thoughts came and went as I sat there looking out over the water. Not many was walking past but that was probably due to the big black clouds that was once again rolling in over us, it was incredibly sticky air and I was sure that we'd get thunder soon. I went to the border and looked down in the water. It had a fairly strong current and many small whirls was created and dissolved. It felt inviting somehow. A quick end to all my problems. I'm sure no one would miss me. Except Lina maybe, but at least she wouldn't have to have me living there. Only problem would be if someone saw me and tried to rescue me. Although there was ways that would be less excruciating... I didn't get further than that.
"It's no use... I've already thought about it." I heard a familiar voice say.
I turned around and my eyes fell on... Alexandra.
"What's your excuse?"
"You..."
"Me? Me??? It's not you that's been betrayed and hurt!"
"Yes... I have. But not by you."
"Fuck no I haven't."
"But in a way you haven't been betrayed by me either."
"What a load of bull!"
"Even if it makes me really sad that you think I let you down I can understand that. We had got off on the wrong foot even before that last thing happened..."
I rolled my eyes and mumbled something hardly distinguishable about how much I believed what she said.
"Can't you please listen to what I have to say?" She said upset and it sounded as the words almost got caught in her throat.
"Ok, shoot. Can't imagine what could change."
She sighed and watched me sadly but still began to talk. "About half an hour before we were going to meet I was making myself ready. When I came into my room to change to my dress I caught Josefin reading my diary. She knocked me over and ran out, on the same time she locked the door from the outside so I couldn't come out. I have no phone on my room so I couldn't call anybody, the only phones we have are in the kitchen on the first floor and one in moms and Tage's bedroom, my cell phone was in my jacket. I kicked on the door and screamed but nobody opened because there were only the two of us home. So I had to give up. Only then did I see what she had read. It was the part I had had written after you had come to me and told me that you weren't a guy. Not until a good while later when mom came home could I get out and I called right away. I only got the machine and I had lost all my numbers on my phone, Josefin and I had the same kind and I think she switched them. Only two days later did I hear what had happened. I tried desperately to get a hold of you but I couldn't and when I suddenly saw you in the mall I was so taken a back I didn't know what to say. You and pretty much everyone else thought that I had sent Tony after you."
I shook my head. "That story should have a false ring even in your ears"
When I had said that she sank down on the bench with her face in her hands, she had begun to cry.
"Please... you've got to believe me. I would never do something like that to you... I... I love you... I really do."
She looked up at me and I could see the tears running down her tears and the incredible pain her eyes bore witness to. The sorrowful look in them touched something deep deep inside of me and my anger towards her disappeared in a flash. I stared speechless at her and defiantly she stared back.
"Is all that really true?" I whispered after a long while.
"Yes, I swear. Cross my heart."
"Why would Josefin do that?"
"She was jealous, she was from the start. I don't know if she really likes girls or if it's just to show everyone that she has you on her side, but I never thought she could sink that low."
"It's my fault. I should've realized... She had never been nice before so why should she have been now..."
"It's not your fault. You couldn't know that."
I looked at her once again. "C-can you forgive me?"
A small smile played over her lips. She rose up and hugged me. "Of course I can."
"I'm sorry I've been so blind." I whispered in her ear.
She only hugged me harder. An elderly couple that went by smiled at us. When she let go of me I still held my arms around her back. She was very close to me.
"Did you mean what you said?"
She understood what I meant. Our eyes looked deeply inside each other but instead of answering with words she raised her head a bit and kissed me on the lips. It felt like my heart stopped. Her lips felt incredible against mine and that answer gave me back my will to live. When she once again hugged me her cheek caressed against mine and it felt wonderful. Like silk against my skin. In that moment a faint thunder was heard far away and small raindrops began to fall on us.
"Come. Mom is waiting in the car over there." She said and pointed to a lone car on a parking a bit away.
"What? You mom is there?"
"Yes, we saw you almost getting hit by the car and we followed you here. You're not angry are you?"
I shook my head. "Of course not... not now that I know the truth."