Transformation for Life
I was not sure about my sexuality. I had just graduated. I had this good job. I had no girl friends. In college I had one but I had broke up with her. Now I was staying alone. I had one good friend called Harry. He was a gay but never got to talk about it. We had plain friendship. But I was very curious about gay life. But I was always very shy to ask him about his relationship. He was dating a person called Steve. He was an aviation engineer. Actually Harry was not just dating; he was actually staying with Steve. But what about me? I couldn't make it out with some girl. I was not sure where I was heading. Frankly I used to like to watch TS videos. But again I was very afraid, scared to discuss it with some one. What if everyone comes to know I am interested in Transsexual?
But it had to start some day and the day came when Harry and Steve invited me for some party. It was actually their relationship anniversary. When I arrived at their place, a woman greeted me. Well I thought it was a woman but then I found out it was Harry dressed like a woman. I was surprised, as I knew Harry was a gay but I never knew he was interested in TS/TV too. Harry took me in his room and started telling me about his sex life.
"Harry I never thought you were into this." I said
"Oh. Yeah. Do you know why I invited you to this party." Harry.
"Why?" I asked
"Remember last week when I was at your place. I found out a cassette, which was lying under the sofa. I realized you were also interested in the sexual fantasies like me." Harry said.
"See I like watching but I am not into it." I said. But actually I always desired to be feminized.
"Then why do you watch it. See I know you for a long time. I know you won't open up easily. Someone needs to get the truth out of you."
He was right. "But I don't know whether I want to do it."
"Why don't you give it a try? If you don't like being with guys stop it. But without trying how are you going to realize your sexuality." Harry started to convince me.
"But I am not sure if I am homosexual. See if I want to find out I don't want to rush into it."
"Who is pushing you? See today just meet the guys who are not dating or not involved in serious relationship. Tell me the person you are interested in and I will fix you up with him." Harry said.
"Do you mean all the people invited are Gays?" I asked
"Yeah. This is totally a gay party but don't worry everyone respects others. So no one will push you into doing things you are not comfortable with."
We walked into this party. Harry introduced me to some of the bachelor guys who were not involved. I had a nice time at the party. Nothing actually happened that night. Next week I was invited at Harry's place. It was not a party but Harry wanted to talk to me. To my surprise at home he was wearing ladies outfit.
"Is there another party today?" I asked
"No. When I am home. Steve generally wants me to wear woman clothes."
"Oh."
"Actually I like wearing these clothes. So, what have you decided? Did you find anyone suitable that night?" Harry asked.
"Actually I haven't given it much thought. I am confused." I said.
"See everyone has to go from this. Believe me when I started I was in the same state of mind. The reason I asked you because Steve's friend John asked about you. Looks like he is interested in you. I don't know if he is looking for TV/TS. What do you say? Want to give it a try? Harry asked.
"I am not sure. John you mean the tall guy and well build?" I asked.
"Boy you have a good memory. Yeah the same person. Come on atleast go out on a date with him." Harry said.
"Ok." I agreed. "But I would like to go slow."
"Yeah. No problem. Just go out with him and talk with him. If you like him then you can go ahead. How about tomorrow evening?"
I agreed. The next day I went out with John. Had lot of fun. He dropped me at my apartment. I invited him for a coffee. He tried to make some advances but I told him I was not sure if I was ready. I actively started dating him but only for movies, dinner not more than that. One day Harry called me again at his place.
"So what have you decided? John is very much interested in more. But seems like you are keeping him away. What is the problem?" Harry asked.
"I am not sure if I want to go beyond this. Actually I am scared." I said
"Scared about what? Finding that you are gay or TS?" Harry asked
"Yeah."
"See everyone has to find it out someday. What is bad in that? Come on" harry started convincing me. He convinced me that I should start sexual relationship with John. I also wanted it but was too shy. But I decided to go beyond. Harry told me about John's sexual partner expectations. I had lot of body hair. So, one day I called Harry to help me shave up clean. Harry helped me in doing it. I was clean- for the big night. My body was very smooth. Harry told me that I had to keep it shaven in order to keep it of itching. I was very desperate now for the big night. We went for dinner and then to a movie. We returned back at his apartment around 12:30 in the night. I had bought some condoms because I wanted to be safe as far as possible. We drank beer. He sat near me on the sofa. He placed his hand on my lap. He was trying to arouse me. The tension was increasing. He came near me kissed me on my lips. That was my first kiss with a man. Shiver went through me. But I liked the sense. I kissed him back. He started kissing me deeply. I liked it. After sometime he stopped. He looked at me and asked me if I was ready to go to bed. I said yes. We walked into his bedroom. He allowed me to enter first. He closed the door behind me. He came from behind and kissed me on my cheeks. He turned me around and kissed me again. He started removing my shirt. He removed it. His hands started running around my half naked body. His hands went toward my pant. He unzipped it and allowed it to fall on the ground. I stepped out of the pant. We both were getting hot. I removed his T-shirt. He was well build. I was very attracted to his muscles. He took me towards his bed. He laid me down on his bed. I was only in my underwear while he still had his pants on. He started kissing me naked body. He kissed both my nipples. He ran through whole of my body. He turned me on my belly. Kissed whole of my back. He turned me up again. We had a deep mouth kiss. He rolled onto his bed. Pulled me over. He took my right hand and placed on his pants and started rubbing his crotch with my hand. I was also getting excited wanted to check his sex. I unzipped his pants. I removed his underwear. He asked me to remove it half way. I saw it in his eyes, as he wanted me to give him a blowjob. It was my first time. I held his erect dick in my right hand. I was not sure of this. I was actually going to take a man's dick in my mouth. Slowly I took it in my mouth and started to suck on it. Even though it was my first time I had seen it in some movies. I was doing a good job at that. He then pulled me towards him and asked me whether I wanted it up my ass. I was ready for that but asked him to wear condom. I got him the condom. He already had the jelly. He placed it on his dick. Rubbed it neatly. Then slowly he slid the condom. Placed the lotion on it too. I placed my self in doggy style. He came from behind. He inserted one of his fingers in my ass. He started to rub the lotion to make it smooth entrance for him. He asked me if I was comfortable. Slowly he inserted his dick in my ass. He started to move ahead. He then waited for some time. It was hurting me. But I knew it was my first time. He told me he would continue only after I relax. After some time I was comfortable and then he started pounding in. He fucked me. I also had a rock hard. In few seconds I started cumming. He fucked me and then he also exploded in condom. He removed his dick and then I sucked him clean. That night we had fucked me 3 more times. I was enjoying. The next day I told Harry all about it. He had heard everything from John. In few days I had a good relationship with John. I also moved in with him. But still we were using condom. He was very interested in fucking me and having his sperms in me. I was afraid of the diseases. He was interested in cross-dressing me. I agreed to that. One day Harry was giving out a party and he had invited all his gay friends. He and some others were planning to cross dress. John wanted me to be his lady for that party. I asked harry. Because I was new to this. I also didn't have any woman wears. Harry told me I should not worry and he will take me to a woman store the day before this function. He asked me to come at around 8:00 p.m. I was not sure where he would take me at 8:00 as most of the shops close at 8:00 p.m. Plus I was nervous to go into public shopping for panties, bra etc. But Harry told me that one of Steve's friend works in a woman clothing shop. He took me to this shop. We parked the car on the street. But we walked at back door of this store. Harry knocked the door. A lady opened the door. She greeted us. I was very nervous.
Harry introduced me to her. "This is lady Jee. She generally takes care of our clothing. Jee this is my friend Tim and we are looking for some woman wear for him."
"I can help you with that. So, what would you like Tim?"
"Oh. This is my first time," I said
"Oh I think we would like to have pair of bras, panties, nighty and a party dress." Harry told her.
"Ok this way." She took us to the under garments section. No one was in the store except us.
"Could you please take off your shirt?" She said.
"I think its better if you take off all your clothes. Because we will try all matching stuff on you. It will help us decide what suites you." Harry said.
"Yeah that's right." Jee said.
"But?" I was not sure if I was going to be naked in front of a woman.
"Come on Tim. We can't judge the best out fit. Don't worry about her." Harry said.
I was ready. I removed my clothes off. Harry asked me to remove my underwear too. I was totally naked in the whole store. The lights were dim but still I was feeling very shy. The lady walked to me and measured me for a bra. She got a black bra. She put it on me. Strapped it from behind. She asked Harry what he thought. Harry walked closer. Checked the tightness. He asked her to get a tighter bra. She got a smaller size. They tried it on me. Harry was happy with the tightness. He asked her for the same size but a sexier bra. He selected 2 bras. One black and one white. He asked me to wear the black bra on. Then she got me panties. Harry chose a tighter panty. I was getting the feeling of wearing a bra and a silk panty. They took me in front of a mirror. They were satisfied. Then the selected a very sexy dress for me. Also one nightgown. Harry paid the bill. I was about to remove my bra and panty but I couldn't remove my bra. I asked harry for help but he said that it would be good if I let it on me. I was very shy to walk like that home but anyway I was wearing my clothes on so no one would notice it. I walked out of the store. The next day Harry called me at 4:00 at his place. 3 hrs before the party. It was for make up. I went to his place. He started with the make up. He made my eyebrows; he applied lipstick on my lips. When he was done. He showed me a mirror. I couldn't believe it. I was looking real sexy. The party was fun. John loved the change. That night we had a hot night. John told me that he would prefer if I would wear woman clothes at home same like Harry. I agreed because I liked the feeling. The next day I bought more women clothes for home. I had started living same life like Harry. One day we invited Harry and Steve for dinner. I was surprised at Harry's appearance. He had started looking more like a girl. His breasts had increased. I asked him about the change. He told me that he was going in for a full transformation. That night John asked me why I was not going for a full transformation like Harry. I was also interested. I asked Harry and got the drugs. I started taking those drugs. Harry and me used to visit a doctor very frequently and take her guidance. John was still interested in fucking me without a condom. I agreed to it finally. One night he played with my grown breasts. He fondled around. He then lifted my legs above his shoulders. Applied the lotion on his penis. He inserted it in my ass. It was the same but this time it was without condom. He fucked me very hard and finally exploded with hot cum in my ass. I finally had his sperms in me. The treatment for transformation went on for months. Finally the day came when I was about to lose my man hood. The surgery day. I talked to John about this. He wanted me to go with it because he wanted to marry me. Harry didn't go on with the surgery. The same doctor who had worked on me for this transformation was going to work on it. The surgery was going to take place at the doctor's private surgery section at home. He had designed a good-looking vagina for me. This private section was not fully equipped but had all the equipment needed for surgery. He told me, as he couldn't knock me out completely as he had no equipment for anesthesia. He would give me an injected to make numb the area of surgery but I would be awake the whole time. John was also going to be present at the surgery time. I was taken into his section. Lay onto a table with some cloth. The doctor tied my hands to the table so I wouldn't move it in case of pain. He tied my legs too. So I would be steady for the operation. He rubbed a lotion above my pennies. He gave me some injection. He checked if it was numb enough. After he was satisfied. He applied some lotion around the cut area. He took a tool, which looked like clamp. Attached it to my balls and penis. He checked if I was ok. John was comforting me all the time. The doctor told us that it was the pull time to release it from my body and checked if I was ready. I said yes. The doctor started cutting it with the clamp and gave a one pull and it came off. I had lost my penis. There was a flow of blood. The doctor anticipated that and blocked it with cotton. I was in this doctor's session for few weeks. After the wounds were healed and my voice treatment was over. I was fully changed. Now I had to sit in restrooms. But I kinda liked it. John and I got married. We changed the town for new life. What started as a slow process to find my sexual interest turned me becoming a complete female.