Zack and Troy Chapter 16
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We had all decided to hang out on the last night that Drew was going to be here and Ricky was heading out on his trip. It was a little celebration to show Drew how much we all loved him and how much he was going to be missed. Even though Troy and I knew he was coming back the other two didn't and I could tell they were both very sad. We may have had a bit too much to drink and then decided to go into the hot tub. That might have been a mistake as we all went naked and I think that we all were very horny! I noticed that Drew had a hard on as we got undressed and got into the water. Then we started talking about porn and if Drew had ever watched gay porn and what our favorite sites are. We came up with a great list. I noticed that Drew didn't add many, if any. There were also a few that I had not heard of.
I think that got everyone nice and hard. It for sure got everyone very horny! It wasn't long before Brad was poking his hard on up out of the water. Then Drew started to do it followed by Rick and then Zack and I. I am pretty sure that we had all had enough alcohol to lower our inhibitions. When Drew popped his amazing cock up Brad reached out and grabbed it. It freaked Drew out but Brad got it and held on as Drew pulled his cock back underwater. Drew laughed and then said "I know you all want my cock!" And he brought it back up for everyone to see as Brad squeezed it. I was so hard. Brad let go of his cock and said "I think that you want all of our cocks!" Everyone laughed. The shenanigans continued until Rick dared Drew to suck Brads' cock! Drew seemed like he would do it if Brad wanted. Brad looked at Rick and he smiled and said "Merry Christmas!" Brad hopped up to sit on the edge of the hot tub and his big dick was totally ready! Drew grabbed it and started licking Brad's cock! And then he went down on it!
I was watching Rick and he seemed totally cool! He got up and started kissing Brad. Then they broke their kiss and Brad said "I dare Zack to show Rick how good he is at sucking cock!" I am sure that I turned bright red! I looked at Troy and he smiled and said "Go for it!" Rick got up and came over and stood in front of me with his beautiful cock right there. I grabbed it and took it in my mouth. I felt Troy grab my cock under the water. Then he leaned in and kissed my cheek and whispered in my ear. "You look so sexy!"
Then Drew said "I think Brad should suck Troy!" I pulled off Rick and said "Let me know how good he is!" and smiled as Troy walked over to Brad. I jacked Rick as we watched Brad take Troy's cock in his mouth. Then I smiled at Rick and took his cock back into my mouth! Rick let out a moan and then said "OOOHHH FUUUUCK!"
After a few minutes, we all did a little switching. Drew stood up and let me suck him, Ricky when over and kissed Brad, but then started to suck on Troy's big cock and Brad came over and started to suck on my dick. This was so crazy! It felt like a dream in some ways. I was in the middle of the two hot Marines. I could tell that Drew loved the attention I was giving him again and said "You are so amazing at this!" At one point Drew pulled his dick out of my mouth and grabbed my chin. He leaned down and gave me a kiss. He pushed his tongue into my mouth so I opened up and made out with him. Brad pulled off of my cock and came up to also give me a kiss. My head was spinning. I looked over and saw Ricky and Troy kissing also. I didn't feel jealous. I felt this over whelming sense of love and brotherhood! I can't explain it, but it felt like we are all so close and that there is nothing to be jealous of. We love each other and would never do anything to hurt each other.
Brad and Drew kissed and then Brad and then they switched spots. Brad was also very vocal about my skills! "Holy fuck you are so good Zack!" Drew dropped down to my cock and he was pretty good for a straight guy! I didn't notice, but Troy and Rick flipped and now Troy was sucking Rick. I heard Rick say "Oh Fuuuuck!" Then Rick leaned in and he and Troy moved a little so that Rick could make out with Brad. I was working on Brad and he was making lots of noise and then he stopped kissing Rick and said "Holy fuck I am going to cum!" I picked up the pace jacking and sucking until I could tell that he was so close and then I pulled off and opened my mouth and stuck my tongue out. He shot 6 nice big ropes. One hit my chin and cheek and one hit my tongue, mouth and lips, and then others missed or hit my chest! When he was done I still had his cock in my hand and took it in my mouth very gentle and went down on it one more time and squeezed the last drops out.
When I pulled off Brad was at my mouth kissing me and then everyone came over to kiss me and get a taste of Brad's load! After Troy kissed me he whispered "I love you!" in my ear.
This caused everyone to switch again. This time Drew moved to suck Troy and Brad moved to suck Drew and Rick came back to me and I got on my back and we got into a 69 position. This was so fucking hot I wish I had a camera recording the whole thing. Being a little drunk I was afraid I wouldn't remember it all!
I was giving Rick all that I could and he was moaning which felt amazing on my cock! All of a sudden he pulled off and said "FUCK! Zack I am going to cum!" This time I didn't pull off, I just kept sucking and jacking and Rick let out a nice moan and said "UUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHH FFFUUUUUUUUUUCK!" and shot his load right down my throat! After he finished I just held his cock in my mouth as he went back down to finish me off. I heard Troy getting ready to cum, so I took Rick's amazing cock out of my mouth, but held it in my hand and looked over to see Troy shoot his load onto Drew's Chest! It was so hot that it pushed me over the edge. "OH FUCK Ricky I am going to CUUUUUM!" and Rick picked up the pace and took my load down his throat. Ricky made sure he got every last drop! Now it was just Drew who need to bust his load and we all got around him and rubbed and kissed his body as Brad worked to finish him off. It was so hot to see and Troy and Rick and I took turns kissing Drew and each other. When one of us was kissing Drew the other two were making out!
It didn't take long with all this attention for Drew to bust his load in Brads' mouth. "OOOOHHHH FUUUUUUUUUCK YAAAAAAAH I AM GOING TO FUCKING CUM IN YOUR MOUTH BRAD!" Drew couldn't hold back any longer and shot his load in Brads' mouth. Brad didn't slow down and Drew had to yank his cock out of Brad's mouth it was so sensitive. We all collapsed into a big pile and tried to come down from this high! Finally we all got back into the hot tub for a few minutes and then Drew said "I think I better call it a night!" Rick whispered to Brad quick and Brad said "Would you want to sleep with us on your last night?" Drew smiled and said he would like that. We all got out of the hot tub and dried off and headed to bed!
I slept great that night! In the morning we said goodbye to Drew and Ricky before Troy and I headed off to class. Brad used my truck and took both guys to the airport. You could tell Brad was a little sad this morning. I can't blame him, if I thought I wouldn't see one of my best friends for a long time and my boyfriend was going to be gone for 10 days I would be a little sad too. The good news is Ricky will be home in 10 days and it won't be long before Drew is back and living here. I wanted to tell Brad so bad, but knew that it would be a great surprise when Drew did come back!
We meet for lunch and Brad was trying really hard not to think about the guys being gone. We talked about maybe taking a trip to see Drew for spring break or something keeping the secret going! I had just taken the last bite of my Chicken Cesar Salad when my phone rang. I looked at the number and didn't recognize the number, but it was from my home town. I quickly finished chewing my bit and answered the phone.
"Hello?"
"Hey Zack! It is Tommy."
"Oh, Hey Tommy" I rolled my eyes to show Troy how I felt about talking to Tommy. He smiled and kept eating.
"What's up?"
"I was wondering if I could come up and stay with you next Thursday and Friday to check out the school? I have the days off and would really like to check out the school."
"I think that works. Let me double check and I will get back to you."
"OK. Well now you have my number so you can just text me or give me a call."
"Thanks Zack! I really appreciate it! I will wait to hear from you!"
"Ok, bye."
I hung up and let out a groan.
"So Tommy wants to come down and check out the school?" Troy asks smiling knowing how I feel about Tommy.
"Yes! I don't get it; he never talked to me back in school. If anything he was a dick to me and now he wants to come check out the school and wants me to help him. I want to tell him to go fuck himself and that maybe he should have tried harder to be nice to me back in school."
Troy smiled and said that if I wanted I could tell him that it wasn't a good time with some tests and studying and papers due we were both too busy. I thought about it for a minute and then realized that I would just let him come and be the bigger person.
We finished lunch and headed to our afternoon classes. Later that night I called Tommy back and told him that he could come and stay with us. He asked if Troy would mind and I told him that he was cool with it. I didn't tell him about the house and thought that maybe Tommy and I could just stay at the dorm room. That way he wouldn't need to know about the house. About an hour after I called Tommy, Troy got a call from his new agent who wanted to know if he could go to New York for a couple days to meet with the directors of the show that she wanted him to do during the summer. At first I was bummed until he told me that it would be next Thursday and Friday with a smile. I didn't get it at first then I realized it would be when Tommy was here and we wouldn't be able to sleep together anyway. It was like it was perfect timing! I am not going to lie; I didn't really want to share Troy with Tommy as I wondered if that was one of the reasons he wanted to visit!
The house seemed a little empty with Drew and Rick gone. I got to have a couple nice chats with Brad and I am so lucky to have such an amazing friend, and example of an amazing relationship that he and Ricky have. They are so perfect together and I love how they are there for each other and the way they treat each other! I feel like Troy and I are very lucky as well. I was realizing that I was going to miss him so much even if he was only going to be gone for 3 days. I would have Tommy to entertain, but that might make it even worse.
I had to work on a project I had for my Psych class. We had each been partnered with a student from a different 101 class and I found out that my partners name was Matthew. We had made plans to meet in the library 6:00 pm. I grabbed a quick dinner in the commons since I had the dinning plan and was going to be on campus anyway. I walked into the library and went to the second floor where we agreed to meet and there he was. I stopped in my tracks. Standing right where I was going to meet my partner was Anthony Deviantill from Chaturbate and cam4. I almost shot my load in my pants right then. He is so fucking sexy! Troy and I have watched him on cam together and messed around. I looked around and then he said "Hi are you Zack from Psych 101?" I stuttered and then said "Yes, are you Matthew?" "Yup! Should we go find a table?" I agreed and then followed him as we found a table in one of the back corners of the second floor. HOLY FUCK! I was freaking out. I am 100% positive that this is him. What the hell.
The whole time we were talking about the project I was freaking out. I wanted to find a way to ask him if he was a cam model and a porn star, but I couldn't figure out how to do it. He was so cool and normal and very chill. I finally got up the balls to say "I am sure I have seen you before. It is kind of embarrassing, but you go by the name Anthony don't you?" He just smiled and said "Yup!" Of course I sounded like a total fool when I said "I knew it! The minute I saw you standing there I knew that you were Anthony from Chaturbate and Cam4 and that you have done some gay porn on FratX!" He just smiled and said "Yup that's me! I kinda figured you recognized me, because you seemed like you were having a hard time focusing." Then he let out that little laugh that he has that is so sexy! Both Troy and I think he has this great sexy laugh and sometimes when we are watching him we would try to say something to make him laugh, just so we could hear it!
"I am sorry I was being so obvious,"
"It's totally cool!" "So is your real name Matthew?" I asked.
"Growing up there were so many Matthews around that I just started going by my middle name Anthony. I figured here at college it would be easier to just go my Matthew."
"That's cool. Have you had many people recognize you?"
"Not really." He said sounding very humble.
"I am sure that there are a lot that have, but people are too nervous to ask." I laughed and so did he.
We talked for a while and it was super chill. I tried not to act like a geeky fan and focus on the project. After we brainstormed what we wanted to do and came up with our idea, Anthony said "Hey do you smoke at all?"
"I don't, but I am totally cool if you do."
"I would be so much more productive if I could have a few hits."
I thought about it quick and then asked. "Well we can go back to my place if you want?" Then I freaked out. "I mean?.ah?.. I have a boyfriend that I live with??ah?..I mean??..FUCK! I sound so stupid."
He laughed and said in a very chill tone. "I didn't take anything by it."
I smiled and explained that I live with my boyfriend and 2 of our friends and we just got a place off campus. We could go there and work on the project and he could smoke if he wanted. He asked about me being a freshman and living on campus and I said it was a long story and I would explain once we go to the house. I kind of wanted to surprise Troy and also was hoping I would surprise Anthony as well. Let's just hope he is a Troy Anthony fan.
We walked back to the house and on the way I tried to explain about us getting a house without letting him know that my roommate was Troy Anthony. I explained the situation with Rick and Brad and then with Drew, but didn't share that he was moving back in. Anthony was awesome; he didn't push really for too many details and was just super chill. It is still super weird that he is my partner for this project; again I keep feeling like I am being punked!
We got to the house and I went in and hollered. "Hey is there anyone home?" There was no response so I asked it Anthony wanted anything to drink. He said he would take a glass of water, so I grabbed us both a glass of water and we set up our stuff on the counter.
"Want a quick tour?"
"That sounds cool!"
Anthony loved the house and he kept saying this is so cool that you live here and you are a freshman. When we got to the back yard and he saw the pool and hot tub he said "Shit! This is amazing!" I smiled and said "Well maybe after we get some work done on the project we can take a break!" "That would be fuckin awesome!"
Anthony asked if it was cool if he smoked a quick one and then we went back to work. I told him that was cool. So he took a couple of hits and then we got our stuff out and started to put together the outline. Anthony said that he was able to focus better. It wasn't long before Troy got home and when he walked in the door he said "Hey how you guys doing?" Then kind of did a double take and stopped in his tracks. I smiled and slowly nodded my head. Then like the true gentlemen he is he walked over to Anthony and put out his hand and said "Hi I am Troy." Anthony shook his hand and said "Hi I am Matthew." Troy looked at me and I smiled. "Wait, isn't your name Anthony?" Troy asked sounding very confused. "Yes, but that is my middle name. There were a lot of Matthews when I was younger so I went by Anthony. Aren't you Troy Anthony the movie star?" This was too funny. Both Troy and Matthew were confused and I loved every minute of it. We got everything straightened out and I explained that Matthew was my partner for a project for our Psychology 101 class. "Wait you didn't tell me that Antho? I mean Matthew was in your class." Troy said sound confused again. "He is not. We have been partnered up with someone from a different section." Troy still looked confused, but was starting to realize that maybe the details didn't matter.
I could see that Troy wanted to ask about Matthew being a cam model. I sat back and watched his mind turn on how to get the question out. It was so entertaining because Matthew was asking Troy questions about different movies that he had been in and people he had worked with and him being in college and the whole time Troy was listening and answering the questions, but I could tell that he was trying to find a way to ask his questions. Finally he just came out and asked. "Ok I have to ask you a question. Are you a cam model? Have you done gay porn?" I laughed out loud. Troy looked at me and gave me a look, like "What?" This made Matthew laugh and he was very sweet and explained that yes he was who Troy thought and that he and I had already talked about this and I told him that we would watch him. It was so cute because Troy seemed a little embarrassed. I told him that it was so fun to sit there and watch as Troy tried to figure out a way to bring it up. Matthew was so cool about it that it was not really a big deal. We chatted about it for a little bit and then Troy put his stuff away and Matthew and I worked on our project some more.
After about an hour of working Matthew stretched and let out a huge sigh and said "Ok I think I have hit the wall for today, would you want to go in the hot tub?" "That sounds like a great idea!" I said I was going to go ask Troy it he wanted to go and Matthew was cool with that. I showed him where the bathroom was and gave him a towel. We always shower off before we go into the hot tub. I was a little nervous that I would get hard being in the hot tub with a porn star and a movie star. I felt like the luckiest guy in the world!! Troy seemed just as excited as me and as we were heading down stairs he said "Holy Fuck what if we get boners?" I laughed and said "I was thinking the same thing!" We agreed that Matthew was so cool that he probably would be ok with it.
Troy and I showered together quick and headed outside. Troy was finishing up a little smoke and dropped his towel and we all got into the hot tub. I wish I could tell you that it turned into a 3 way fuck session that was as hot as porn, but it didn't. It was super chill and we all chatted and got to know each other more. I love getting to see Troy be humble and cool to other people about being a movie star, but I would say that Matthew is just at cool about being a porn star. I think Troy got to experience what it is like for his fans as he asked Matthew a bunch of questions about Porn. We hung out in the hot tub for about 20 minutes and then Matthew said he had better get going. We got out of the hot tub and let Matthew shower off and then said goodbye. We set up another time to meet and work on our project, but told him that he was welcome to come over anytime. He thanked us and headed out and Troy and I looked at each other and Troy chased me up to our shower where we took turns sucking and fucking each other. Holy fuck was that some pent up sexual tension!
Ok so we got to our bedroom and made out for a long time until we flipped into a 69 for a while and then took turns fucking each other till we ended by me fucking Troy on his back and jacking his big cock until he shot his load all over his chest and be shooting mine deep inside his ass. I am the luckiest boy alive!!!
The next day we had a large group at the lunch table. We ended up pulling 2 tables together. It was Troy, Brad, Jake, Matt, Hunter, Kyle, Jen, Heather, Brian, Trevor, Maggie, Meg and I. I find it hard to have conversations in this large of a group, but it was cool and everyone was getting excited for the weekend. Not me. I was going to have to host Tommy this weekend and it was going to suck! Heather asked when we were going to have everyone over to the house for a party. We talked about it and decided the next weekend we would have the party because Rick would be home and this weekend Troy would be in New York and I had to host Tommy. I was asking everyone if they wanted to do stuff with us, I was begging people to do stuff with us so that I would not have to be alone with Tommy all weekend!
Heather, Brian, Jen, Kyle and Meg said that they would be up for doing something with us. I felt like I owed them. We talked about going bowling or to a movie or maybe to the beach if it is nice. I think that I have some great friends. I explained the situation a little and they were all more than happy to help if they could.
The rest of the week flew by and I told Troy that I would be happy to drive him to the airport, but he said that was silly he would have a car come get him. I told him that he had to let me come pick him up at least! He tried to argue with me and I said that I was going to want to see him as soon as I could. He gave me a kiss and said that was so sweet. He said "I am going to want to see you as soon as possible too!" Then he grabbed my semi hard cock through my pants. We said goodbye and I got my stuff ready so that I could go back and stay at the dorm.
I realized that it was going to look empty with all of our stuff gone. I decided that I would just tell him about the house and then let him decide if he wanted to stay here or at the dorm. I was dreading his visit and just wanted to get this weekend over with. It was going to suck that Troy was gone. I met Tommy at the dorm. I gave him directions and told him to meet me there and then we would grab something to eat and head to my classes.
Tommy arrived about 10 minutes early and called. I went down and showed him where to park. I brought him up and showed him the room and explained that the only reason that we got to be in this dorm is because of Troy. Then I told him about the house! "What? You guys bought a house?"
"Well Troy bought a house and he lets a few of us live there."
"That is so fucking cool! Can you show it to me?"
"Yes for sure. I was going to ask if you wanted to stay here in the dorm room or if you want to stay at the house. I don't care either way and will stay where ever you want."
"It would be cool to stay at the house I guess." Tommy said trying not to sound too excited about it. I said. "That will be easier for me too since all my stuff is there." Then I realized that Tommy would find out about Troy and I. I don't know why I didn't think about it sooner. Shit! What was I going to do? Should I just tell him or let him figure it out? As I showed him around, he asked a ton of questions about the school and how I like it and every once in a while he would ask about Troy. I tried not to sound too excited about the questions about Troy. I could tell that Tommy was going to be disappointed when he found out that Troy was out of town this weekend. I was waiting for him to ask and when he finally did and I told him that he was out of town I could see it in his face that he was disappointed. "That's too bad!" Was all he said.
I showed him around about half of the campus before and during my classes and then I showed him the rest of the campus after. I called Brad to ask if he wanted to grab dinner with us and told him that we were going to be staying at the house tonight! I took Tommy back to the house and when we walked inside he said "HOLY FUCK! You live here?"
"Yep! It is kind of a long story, maybe I can tell you over dinner."
I showed Tommy around and I was going to just see if he noticed the face that Troy and I shared a room and it only had a king size bed in it. I just kept showing him bedrooms and didn't really say whose room it was. We had a ton and I showed him the room that he could stay in and I told him that we would go back to the dorm to get his stuff after dinner. He didn't say anything or ask any questions. Tommy was being really nice and seemed to like the school and was even giving me compliments every once in a while. I couldn't figure it out.
We sat and watched a little T.V. until Brad got home and then Brad and I took Tommy to Savoy's for pizza. We love that place and I thought it would be a good place to take him. It was great to have Brad along to help with conversation. Tommy was being uncharacteristically nice to me. I wanted to ask him so bad why he was here and why he was being so nice to me. I wanted to ask him had he forgot about how shitty he was to me in high school. All of a sudden Brad said "I can't wait for Ricky to get home! I miss him so much and I am going to ride his ass all night long!" I realized I had my mouth open as I looked at him and quickly grabbed my drink and took a sip! There was this awkward silence and then Brad said "What I can't help it I am super horny and I miss my boyfriend!" I laughed and Tommy asked "You have a boyfriend?"
"Yes! Is that a problem?" Brad asked with a little bit of defensiveness in his voice.
"No, No problem. I just have never really met someone who had a boyfriend."
"Yes you have you just didn't know it!" Brad said and smiled at him.
All of a sudden Tommy was asking Brad all kinds of questions. It started off pretty tame, like how they met and when did he know he was gay. Brad had no problem answering questions and it kind of seemed like he was trying to make Tommy uncomfortable. At one point Brad asked him "Have you ever messed around with another guy or fantasized about it?" Tommy quickly turned to look at me and then I think he turned a little red. Then he hesitated and then said "AAAAHHH no, not really!" Brad looked at me and laughed. I am sure I smiled but I did not laugh out loud and then Tommy got all defensive and said "What?" Brad said in a not too threatening way "That was not all that convincing is all I am going to say." Tommy put up a defense and Brad explained that most guys at least think about it or have a little man crush on another guy and lots of guys even try it out with another guy, even if they are not gay! Tommy was trying to shift the focus and asked me, but I was saved by the food coming! We settled in to eating and then Tommy brought it back to the conversation we were having.
"What about you Zack?" I tried to play dumb and said "What? Yah I love the food here." Tommy laughed and said "Have you been with a guy or thought about it?" I didn't know what to say. I wanted to tell him, but at the same time he made me feel like shit all through high school and I felt like I couldn't trust him. I looked at Brad and he smiled and then I just said it. "Yes!" I just fuckin owned it! The look on Tommy's face was priceless. I could tell that he didn't think I would say that! "Really, with who?" Tommy asked. He was so curious it hit me that he knew pretty much everyone that I grew up with and I was also a little surprised that he didn't think of Troy!
"I am not telling you!"
"Why?" Tommy asked
"It's personal!"
"It's not like I am going to tell anyone." He said sounding a little hurt that I wouldn't confide in him. And then I just said it, without even thinking it just came out of my mouth.
"Why would I trust you, when you always treated me like shit in high school?"
This shut him up. He didn't know what to say. He sat there looking at me and the Brad. Brad smiled and took a bit of pizza. There was a moment of silence and then Tommy must have pulled his thoughts together and said "I didn't treat you like shit, we were just in different circles. We never really interacted or really had any classes together."
"Ok, whatever." I said as I took a bit of pizza.
"I am sorry if you think I treated you like shit, but I never meant to." Tommy said seeming like he didn't know what I was talking about.
"Can we just drop it and change the topic?" I asked and he seemed to agree.
We finished dinner and talked about school, talked about Brad's time in the military. I had heard him talk about his time in the Philippines cleaning up after the terrible tsunami, but not some of the details that he was sharing. I find that I have more and more respect for him and the other men and women who serve our country every time he shares more of his experience. Brad also shared more about his relationship with Ricky and how he couldn't wait for him to get on Sunday. Brad paid for dinner and both Tommy and I tried to argue with him, but let me tell you even if Tommy and I tried to wrestle him for it we would lose.
When we got back to the house Brad said "I am going to sit in the hot tub!" I could have killed him. I felt like he knew exactly what he was doing and he was trying to give me a heart attack. I knew that Tommy would want to go and that Brad would go naked for sure. I think he wanted to push Tommy to see if he would go naked or not. He also knew that it would make me have to choose to go naked or wear a suit. Tommy took the bait right away and said "That sounds nice!" "Great I will grabs some towels, you going too Zack?" He said with a smile!
"Yes I am game!" I tried to sound all confident and not nervous.
"I am going to grab a glass of water does anyone else want anything?" I asked as I headed toward the kitchen. Brad hollered that he would have a beer and Tommy decided to have one too. Tommy was just standing there and as Brad came back Tommy said "I didn't bring a suit can I borrow one?" Brad just laughed and said "We don't wear suits. I felt like I could hear Tommy swallow and then say. "Oh Ok!"
We all made our way to the hot tub and Brad quickly ripped off his cloths and stood there handing out towels. I am sure he loved showing off his amazing body and I noticed Tommy trying to make it look like he was not looking and also that he was not nervous. I figured, fuck it and just pulled off my clothes and grabbed my water and towel and went and got in. I didn't go so fast that it looked like I didn't want anyone to see and as I was getting in Tommy was taking his pants off and I noticed him checking me out. I didn't think anything of it as I figured it was just guys checking out guys.
We talked and laughed and were having a good time. Brad finished his beer first and hopped out to go take a piss and get another one and asked if we needed refills. I said I would take a beer and Tommy downed the last of his beer and said that he would take another one too. When Brad was away Tommy was super quiet. I could tell that something was on his mind and I wondered if he was uncomfortable. So I asked him. "Is this making you uncomfortable?"
He paused and said "No I am just thinking about what you said at the restaurant. About how I was so mean to you back in high school and stuff." He seemed confused or almost hurt that I had said that.
"OK?" I said questioning him.
"I guess I didn't realize that it came across like that and I didn't realize that it affected you so much. I am sorry that I was mean. I didn't mean to hurt you and I guess my friends and I, were a bunch of assholes."
I didn't know what to say. I was speechless. Brad was not gone that long, but it kind of felt like forever and after the silence in our conversation after what Tommy just said he came in and noticed right away and said. "Damn I leave for one second and you two freeze the hot tub!" We laughed and Tommy said "I was just thinking about what Zack said at dinner, about how I was an ass in high school and thinking about how I must have come across back then."
Tommy tried to explain that he didn't realize that he was being rude. He wasn't trying to be mean and that now that I said it he can't stop thinking about the past and things that could be taken that way. He wanted to know that things he had done that I thought were mean and rude. I told him about the time that he ran into me at my locker and yelled "Fag". That he and his friends would talk about me and laugh. That his group of popular friends was pretty big and intimidating since I only hung out with my friend Jen until my senior year when she left for college and then was usually by myself.
Everything I was saying seemed to hit Tommy like a ton of bricks. He said "It is funny how different a situation seems when you are on the other side of it. I never meant to make you feel like that. I guess it seemed harmless to me and just us fucking around. I don't think that we talked and laughed about you like you think. I remember the time you are talking about when I ran into you. Jeff and I were giving each other shit and he pushed me and when I ran into you he was calling me a fag. We called each other that all the time, in practice or hanging out at each other's house. After that day the guys keep teasing me that I had a crush on you. They would say that I wanted you to be my boyfriend. I guess I over compensated for it because I didn't want them to know that it was true!"
He stopped talking and tears ran down his face. I felt like I had just had all the breath sucked out of my lungs with a vacuum cleaner. I couldn't say anything and there was this long silence and nobody moved. Then Brad said "Well shit! I didn't see that one coming!" Which made us all laugh and ease the moment?
"I have never told anyone before! I know you were gay back in middle school when you would check me out in the showers after gym. I would catch you looking all the time! I would take my time getting to the shower until you went, but would make it so you couldn't tell. I would think about you checking me out and after a while I found myself thinking about you more and more. Then I realized that I was gay and knew that I could never let anyone know."
WHAT THE FUCK!!!! I can't believe that Tommy is sitting here in the hot tub telling us this.
"Ok, please say something!" Tommy said to break the silence.
"I don't know what to say. I am still in shock! I can't believe you knew about me and I never thought in a million years you were gay."
"Surprise!" He said sounding a little sad.
"I have never told anyone. I am not sure how I can tell my parents."
"I have not told my parents either." I reassured him.
"Can I ask you something?" Tommy looked at me with the most sincere eyes.
"Yes, of course."
"Do you hate me?"
I looked down and then back at him and said "I guess I did."
Another tear fell out of his eyes. "I am really sorry I hurt you so much."
I didn't know what to say. I told him that I guess that I can relate to his feelings and that knowing that he did not realize how much his action hurt me I could forgive him and that if he needed someone to talk to I would be there for him.
"You and Troy are dating aren't you?" He asked
"Yes!" I said with a smile.
"He is a really lucky guy!"
I couldn't believe what I was hearing! I had started with a crush on this guy back in middle school and then developed this hate for him and now he is saying all this. It is crazy! We decided to get out of the hot tub and watch a movie. My head was spinning. Tommy seemed quiet. Brad was cracking us both up and told Tommy that he was really brave for sharing all of this with us. He also told Tommy about how Troy and I were there for him at the beginning of the year. After the movie and before we headed to bed, I was saying good night to Tommy and said "Thank you for sharing with me. I know that it is hard, but know that I will be here for you if you need anything." He smiled and gave me a hug.
The rest of Tommy's visit was much more relaxed and I had a great time showing him the school and introducing him to people! He really seemed to like it here and kept saying. I think I want to come to school here. It is super cool! The weekend flew by and Tommy was all packed up and ready to head home. He gave me a huge hug and said. "Thank you for everything! Please tell Brad thank you too. It feels so much better to have shared with you and to feel like you forgive me. I really am sorry for acting so stupid."
"I feel a lot better too. I am glad that you can trust me. Keep in touch ok?"
He agreed and hopped in his car and took off. I would never have predicted this weekend would have gone like this in a million years. I can't wait to tell Troy! I went back into the house to get ready for my boyfriend to come home. I ran into Brad and I could see that he was just as excited for Rick to get home too. We decided to put together a little welcome home party for our guys! I was also excited because Brad didn't know that Drew would be coming back too! It will be a great surprise to pick them up from the airport! Nice planning to have them all arrive around the same time!