Zack and Troy Chapter 17
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As Brad and I pulled up to the airport to pick up our guys, I could feel the butterflies and excitement to see Troy. I missed him so much. I have this overwhelming feeling of joy and happiness. This weekend with Tommy and having him come out to me was something that I never expected and somehow lifted this cloak of darkness from my past off my shoulders. I couldn't wait to tell Troy about it.
I could tell how excited Brad was to see Ricky too and it was so cute to see the little boy in him. He is such an amazing friend, guy, boyfriend, and brother that I am so lucky, to have him in my life and get to see all of this.
We pulled up to wait for the guys at the baggage claim/pick up area and it was not that busy so we were able to pull up to the curb and slowly work our way down the line, without having to circle. Brad texted Rick and the set up was perfect. Rick and Troy came out of the doors at the same time. We got out and opened the topper on the truck to put their luggage in and Brad and Rick hugged and made out. I wanted to do that with Troy too, but we just aren't ready for the public display of affection so we just hugged quickly and then I gave Rick a hug and Brad gave Troy a hug. Just as I was about to shut the truck up, Drew comes out the door and says "I hope you guys were not going to leave without me?" Brad whipped around and said "WHAT THE FUCK?" He ran up to him and gave him a big hug. "What are you doing here?"
"I worked it out with my parents and Troy and I have decided to move in and go to school here."
It was so fun to see Brad knocked over with the surprise. I am so excited that Drew is moving in and will be going to school starting in the spring semester. We piled into the truck and headed back to the house where Brad and I had set up a little welcome home party. We picked up some stuff to grill and some beer.
Once we got home and got into our room I jumped on Troy and pinned him to the bed. We made out and I didn't want to let him go. I slid down so that my cock could grind against his. I was so hard and so was he. I slid down his body so that I could unbutton his pants and pull his beautiful cock out and welcome it home. Troy let out a moan and then said "Damn I missed you and it is good to be home." All I could do was moan a MMMMHHHH, as I didn't want to take his cock out of my mouth! He pulled me back up and kissed me and said "Let's finish this later. We should go back and hang with the guys." I didn't want to stop, but agreed that we did plan a welcome home party since I knew Drew would be coming back!
When we came out, Drew was getting the grill ready and had a beer cracked open and Brad, like a kid at Christmas. He came bouncing in and said "I can't fucking believe this! How did you guys keep this a secret! I am so excited you are moving in with us!" and he hugged Drew from behind and then started to pretend to fuck him in the ass a little. Drew just laughed and said "Get out of there bitch!" Brad let go and said "You love it!" Then he grabbed a beer and started to get some of the other food out. Ricky came back into the kitchen and said "Damn it is good to be home!" as he came up behind Brad and hugged him from behind and kissed his neck.
The evening was awesome. We made dinner, drank beer and talked all night. We talked about Ricky's trip, which sounded like an amazing experience. He told us about how beautiful the underwater was and the places they stayed also sound amazing. You can tell how passionate he is about it by the way he talks. It makes it so exciting. I am not sure I would enjoy it. I have never been scuba diving and am a little nervous about it. He also told us about the team and how great they were. He also loved the guests. He said that he loves seeing people go on their first dive. There were two girls who had never been before and they loved it. Ricky sounds like he is so patient and loves to teach and help beginners find the love in it. Maybe he would help me get over being nervous and show me how to love it too.
It was exciting to hear Troy talk about his audition and his long weekend in NYC. He met with the casting director, the director and the creative team for the show and was able to tell us now, that the show is called "Worthless". He said he thought that the meeting and audition went well. He said that the show sounds amazing and intense. It is about a father and son, who live in a small town and the father is an alcoholic. The father is emotionally abusive and the son is so broken, that he thinks he is worthless, until one of his teachers is willing to find out why this kid is so quiet and shy and withdrawn. He slowly is able to find out that this kid is an incredible artist and helps save him. There is also another Father and his son has special needs and the father has to care for him. They live close to each other. The difference in the two relationships is incredible and Troy said that they journey is pretty amazing. He told us that he read the script on the plane and he cried. It is something that he is now really excited about.
As Troy was telling us about his trip and how amazing it was. How he got to meet his new agent and she is great! She is super supportive of him going to school and he said that he also told her that he is gay and that she was amazing about that as well. She took him to see Wicked, and Finding Neverland and Something's Rotten. Troy talked about the amazing restaurants and walking in Central Park. I love seeing him this excited. In the middle of telling us how incredible his trip was, he turned and looked at me and said "I wanted to surprise you, but I can't wait that long, would you like to go back for Christmas over break?" It took me a second to process it, but then I said "Are you kidding that sounds like it would be awesome!" He started to explain some of the things he wanted to take me to and then stopped and said. "Wait, I will keep some of this a surprise!" I got up and gave him a huge hug and kiss. I was super excited to think about us taking a trip together and from the sounds of it, New York City would be amazing to experience it together. Then he supersized everyone else by saying "I was thinking that maybe we should spend a little time there, just the two of us, and then it would be pretty cool if everyone joined us for a long weekend too!" Everyone was super excited and we talked about the possibilities.
At some point the subject changes to Drew and his talk with his parents about moving out here for school and taking sometime for himself. They thought it was a good idea and were happy that he would be someplace with people who loved him and would look after him. They were still worried that the death of his fianc?e was something that was still affecting him and that he was not totally dealing with. Drew's parents also wanted him to find a therapist to help him, but he seemed reluctant to go. They knew, that his relationship with Brad and Ricky would be something that would help him through this. Brad still couldn't believe that we were all in on the surprise and that we were able to keep it from him!
Drew was super excited to be here and I know that we were all glad to have him here as well. He talked about looking for a job and starting school. Troy asked Drew what he thought he would study and Drew said he was thinking about business management or Marketing! He said that he was going to go in and meet with a counselor and see if he could get more information about the majors and then make a decision.
Troy asked Brad and I, how our week was and then remembered that Tommy was here. "I totally forgot to ask how did everything workout with Tommy and his visit?" Brad and I looked at each then I told him about the whole thing! He couldn't believe it and thought that I was totally bullshitting him. It is a good thing that Brad was there to validate my story!
The rest of the night was pretty tame. We hung out and just enjoyed each other's company until it was time for bed. Then Troy and I picked up where we left off! I took him into the bedroom and pushed him on the bed. Troy lay on his back and I crawled on top of him and we made out for a little while. Then I whispered in his ear "You have no idea how much I missed you!" Which made him smile and then whisper in my ear "I bet it is as much as I missed you!" and then he grabbed my crotch and kissed me so sweetly!
I kissed his neck and then by his ear and then slowly started to undress him. When I had him naked on the bed I went back to kissing his neck and ear. Then worked my way down his amazing body kissing his collarbone, and his chest and both pecs and nipples and then his abs and stomach and made my way to his beautiful cock. I licked up and down the length of his shaft and gently grabbed his balls and massaged them until he was going wild. Then I took the head of his dick in my mouth and used my tongue to tease it! Troy was moaning and saying "AAAAHHHHH FUUUUUCK!" a lot so I think he was loving it! Then I started to go up and down on the whole thing getting it nice and wet!
I worked on his cock like I had been deprived of sex for years. Troy had to stop me as he was getting close and wanted to show me how much he missed me too. He pushed me up and got me to stand at the edge of the bed while he sat on the bed and undressed me. He then ran his hands all over my body and eventually put his hands on my ass and pulled me into him and took my cock in his mouth. He wasted no time going all the way down on it. He made me feel so good as he slid up and down and keep the pace slow, with just the right amount of pressure. I closed my eyes and tipped my head back and just enjoyed this sexy stud working my cock. As Troy picked up the pace, I looked down at him looking up at me and I started to fuck his face a little harder and every once in a while I got carried away and pushed too hard and choked him just a little. He had to pull off and just jacked me for a little bit as his eyes started to water.
Then he flipped around on the bed and I dropped to rim his ass and get him ready to be fucked. I spread his check and started by gently licking his rose bud and then pulled back and looked at his sweet hole and spit on it to get it nice and wet! I reached under and took his cock in my hand and worked his ass and then his balls as I stroked his cock nice and slow. After really working his hole, I stood up and rubbed my cock up and down his ass getting him nice and horned up! He started begging me to fuck him! "Oh my God please fuck me baby!"
I stood up and aimed my cock at his hole and put a little pressure! I teased his hole by sliding my cock head up and down a little and then pushing in a little, but not in past the inner ring! I just got him going to the point where he wanted my cock in him so bad he was pushing back on my dick! I would pull back a little and finally gave in and pushed my cock slowly into his ass. We both let out a gasp and it felt so good. I started off slow and slid back and then pushed back in and picked up the rhythm. I was fucking him good and the sound of my balls slapping against Troy was so hot! He was loving every second of it and even said "Oh FUCK baby I missed you!" After a while of fucking Troy over the bed, he wanted to ride my dick! We flipped around and I got on the bed and he grabbed some lube and covered my dick and his ass and climbed up on my dick! He grabbed my cock and put it in his ass. It felt so good. He bounced up and down and I couldn't resist grabbing his cock and stroking it. I took it in my right hand and he had leaned back and put his hands on the bed and let his head tip back. Fuck, he is so sexy. I loved the way his ass was squeezing my dick. All of a sudden Troy snapped his head up and looked me in the eyes and said "OH FUCK, YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE ME CUM!" and he let loose covering me with cum. The first rope hit my left cheek and then the next one hit my chin, and then the next 3 covered my chest with the last 2 landing on my abs. This was so hot it was enough to push me over the edge and when I announced I was going to cum Troy picked up the pace and I shot my load in his amazing ass!
Troy crawled off and cuddled in next to me. I was spent. Troy lay next to me and rubbed my chest. He started to tell me more about his trip and then about the show. He asked if I was ok that he invited the rest of the guys to New York for some of the time. I told him that I thought that would be awesome. He said that when he was there he missed me so much. I told him that I missed him more and that I wanted to tell my parents about me being gay and us when I go home for thanksgiving in a couple weeks. Troy shot up and looked at me and there were tears in his eyes.
"Are you sure baby?"
"I am totally sure. You make me feel comfortable and I want to be true to myself and live true and authentically. I want to be able to share our relationship with them."
Troy had tears running down his cheeks. He leaned down and kissed me with the most passionate kiss. Then he asked me if I thought of just how I was going to do it?
"I am not totally sure! I was thinking that I would wait until after Thanksgiving and then talk to my Mom first. Or maybe I should talk to my sister first and then my mom. Damn all of a sudden it feels like it is going to be harder than I thought and it is freaking me out again."
"You know that you don't have to do this now if you don't want to?"
"I know, but I do. I want to have this weight lifted off my shoulders, at least with my family. I wish you could come home with me."
"I would love that!"
"Do you think that your parents would care if you came home with me?"
"I doubt it, but I could ask if you think your parents would be ok with it?"
"I am sure that they would be cool with it! I can call and ask!" I was super excited.
"Maybe we could fly out to see my parents too?"
"That would be awesome."
We talked and made plans that Troy would drive home with me and spend a couple of days with my family and then we would fly to see his parents for a couple of days. It made me feel so much better to think about telling my parents if Troy will be with me. We cuddled for a while longer, got ready for bed and both called our parents to see if our plans were ok with them. They were all on board with it! I was excited and nervous!
The next couple of weeks leading up to Thanksgiving break were super crazy! We all had a ton of stuff to do with papers, projects, tests and groups to meet with. I met with Matthew a couple more times and every time we got together I got a little giddy! I feel like we are becoming friends. I was hoping that we would still be able to hang out after our project was done.
On Sunday afternoon, I had just come in the house from sitting in the hot tub when Troy was finishing up a call and from the excitement in his voice and actions I could tell that it was something big. "Damn that is so awesome Hunter and I promise I won't say anything! Ok you and Matt should come over sometime and hang with us. Alright dude take are and have a great day!"
Troy hung up the phone and told me that Hunter just got a call from Steven Spielberg himself and that he wants to work on developing his script and he wants Troy to be in the movie and thinks it would be a better fit than the other movie Troy was talking to him about. Mr. Spielberg told Hunter that he would be contacting Troy's agent to see about the possibilities.
"Holy shit that is great news! I bet Hunter shit his pants when he heard who the call was from!"
"He said that he had to ask three times and then asked if this was a joke. He said that he was still shaking when he hung up the phone and then called me right away. Hunter also said that Steven is going to fly out here to meet with us and talk about details of an offer for the whole deal!"
"That is so incredible! Think about it, you are the reason that any of this is happening. Have I told you how amazing you are yet today?" I went over and gave him a kiss.
"Oh my God you know you guys have a room here don't you?" Brad said being very dramatic as he came into the kitchen. Troy explained about his call with Hunter and Brad got super excited too. Then Brad reminded Troy that he would be happy to be in the movie if they needed any sexy muscular studs. Troy took a couple of shots at Brad and that he didn't think he had the right look and wasn't quite as hot as they would need. This lead to a little bit of wrestling and then Brad picked Troy up and was carrying him out to the pool area to throw him in with his cloths on and all. Troy was yelling "Wait I have my phone in my pocket, stop you are hot, my phone, uncle, you win!" I was laughing my ass off! This was too funny.
Brad threatened a few more times, but ended up getting Troy to agree to get him an audition and then finally put him down. We all were super excited for Hunter. It put a nice positive light on the day! Troy and I went to get ready for our afternoon classes and Brad was heading out to go meet Rick for lunch!
Hunter and Matt came over to hang for the night and we wanted to have a mini celebration for Hunter and the possibility of his movie becoming a reality. Everyone was home and Jake and Travis came over too. Troy picked up some Champaign and beer and we decided to make a bunch of pizzas. We were all hanging out in the kitchen and Hunter was telling us about the call. It was very cool to see how excited he was. His face was beaming as he told us about getting the call and not believing it was Steven Spielberg. He said that he asked first if this was Troy messing with him. He said that Steven laughed and told him no this was really Steven Spielberg and once he picked up his script to read it he couldn't put it down. He told Hunter that it was so well written and that he could feel the emotion and the connection to the characters. Steven asked Hunter if it was based on real people. He told him it was about his life and his boyfriend. Hunter said that Steven was very nice about everything and told him that it was very brave of him to share this story with the world. He also told Hunter that he wanted to let Hunter know that he wanted to respect the story and the people it was about and would want him to have a close relationship with the project if they would work out a deal.
We were all really excited for Hunter and there was a lot of buzz and chatter and questions. During the time that Hunter told us about the phone call and all the details he shared I would find myself watching Matt and the expression on his face is so beautiful! You can tell that this Muscle stud is so in love and proud of Hunter that it almost brought tears to my eyes! I found him after everyone started to mingle around and told him that I was watching him when Hunter was talking and that I could see how in love he was. He said "I have never felt like this about anyone before in my life. I am head over heels for this boy!" We talked about how their relationship was growing and they seem to both really like each other, but Matt said "I know that things are going great, but I am still afraid of losing him or what if he finds out that he is not as into me as I am to him?" I told him that from what I could tell it sure seems like Hunter really likes Matt too. Besides who wouldn't he is one sexy bad ass hunk of a man! Matt smiled and was a little embarrassed!
I got some time to talk with Hunter about this opportunity and it was great to see how excited he was and still keep saying that he was not going to get too excited just in case it did not pan out. I told him that I thought from all that I have heard it sounded like it will be a great movie and I can't imagine it not working out! It was nice to get to know Hunter a little better and I can tell that he is a very sweet guy. I was not going to bring up Matt because I didn't want to get in the middle or have it seem like I was trying to be nosy, but Hunter brought it up and I could tell by the way he was talking about Matt and the things they had been doing that he was totally into Matt. It almost seemed like he didn't feel like he deserved to be with Matt. I could tell that the two of them were going to be great for each other! Hunter wanted me to help make sure that Troy knew how thankful he was for helping him get things this far! I told him that Troy was happy to help and that
from everything that he has told me about the script, that it was incredibly beautiful and full of passion, which would make for a great movie! Hunter thanked me and then asked if I wanted to read it! I was so flattered! I told him that I would love to read it! He told me that he would send it to me tonight when he got home. I was so honored!
The rest of the evening was really great, Jake, Travis and I all went into the hot tub and got to catch up! I really miss seeing them over the past couple of weeks and Jake said that he missed having us around the dorm. He said he hates not seeing his little brothers anymore! We made sure to fix that and spend some time together when we got back from Thanksgiving break!
Travis said that he was jealous and wanted to move in to this place too. "It is kind of like a Frat house without all the stupid shit that goes along with it!" There was an awkward pause and then Travis looked at Jake and then me "I am sorry Zack, I didn't mean to?.I mean I know that?.FUCK! I am such a dumb ass."
"It's ok! I know that it is an awkward situation and that you would never do anything to try to hurt me."
"Zack you know we love you and think about what happened and wish that we could have been there to make sure that it never happened." Jake said sounding so sweet and caring.
"I know!"
"Can we ask how you are doing?" Jake said again full of concern.
"I am trying to forget about it. I still will have dreams every once in a while, but I realize that I could be a victim and let it have a control in my life, or I can let it go and realize that I am lucky to have such amazing friends and family. That is what is important and what I want to focus on."
"I hope you know how much we love you and that we are incredibly proud of you!" Jake said.
"I agree! We talk about how lucky we are to have you in our lives Zack." Travis said as if he wanted to make sure I knew that he would never hurt me. I reassured them both how lucky I felt.
We stayed in the hot tub for another 10 minutes or so and then got out. I of course took the opportunity to check out both of my friends again as they were drying off. Fuck they are both so ripped and sexy! We got dressed and mingled with everyone else until the party started to wind down. We gave everyone hugs and kisses as they left and wished them all a happy Thanksgiving if we didn't see them in the next couple of days before we all left for the holidays.
I was starting to clean up when Troy said let's wait and do it in the morning! I said that sounded like a good idea as we didn't really have anything planned other than studying.
I was getting excited and nervous to go home for the break. We spend Sunday cleaning up the house and studying and getting ready for the last two days of classes before we headed out. Troy talked to his parents and they we totally cool with him coming to my house for the holidays. So I called my mom and she was also happy that Troy would be coming. I wanted to tell her on the phone because I thought that it might be easier, but I couldn't get myself to do it.
On Monday after our Freshman Comp class we hung around after class to check in with Mr. Frank. He said that things were still very much like a rollercoaster and that the Holidays were going to be difficult. He told us that he has spoken with his parents about him being gay and that they both have been amazing and so supportive. He is going to spend the holidays with them and his kids will spend some of the break with him and some of it with his wives family. She did not want him to be there and from the sounds of it. Her family is very angry and doesn't want him around.
I could still see the hurt in his eyes, but he did not cry and he seemed to be getting a little stronger. We told him that it will get easier and that in the long run this will be the best for everyone. He said that he agreed, but that it is still hard. I really have grown to like him even though I might have been a little jealous of his interest and attention to Troy at the first few days of class, but then again who could blame him! Troy gave him a hug and told him again if there was anything we could do, to let us know. I also gave him a hug and told him to be strong. Then I told him that I was going to tell my parents that I was gay during this break. He gave me another hug and said that he would be thinking of me and sending me good vibes. I could feel myself tearing up, but did not let it out!
The rest of our classes seem to fly by and it was Wednesday afternoon before I knew it. Troy and I had packed all our stuff for the weekend and were ready to throw everything in the truck and head out. Brad, Rick and Drew were going to have a quiet Thanksgiving at the house. We said our goodbyes and head for my house, finally pulling out of town around 4:00pm.
About an hour into the trip we were both hungry so we decided to stop at McDonald's. We both had to go to the bathroom so we decided to just go in and eat. We finished in the bathroom and got in line to order. The girl behind the counter recognized Troy right away. Troy was checking his phone and I noticed her. She was trying to listen and take orders, but kept looking at Troy to see if it was really him and if he would look at her. It was finally our turn to order and Troy said "I got this, what do you want?" I started to order and the girl cut me off and asked. "Are you Troy Anthony?"
"Yes! And you are Rachael right?"
The girl was shocked at first, that Troy knew her name, but then realized that it was on her name tag. She was very sweet and could tell that she must have been like 16 or 17 and reminded me of my sister. "Could I get your autograph?" She almost whispered not wanting to have anyone hear. Troy was so sweet and said that he would be happy to give her his autograph and then told her that he would be willing to take a picture with her if she had her phone and got a chance to take a quick break while we were eating. I thought she was going to wet her pants right there. We ordered and got our food and grabbed a booth in the corner. I noticed other people looking and recognizing Troy. I still love that he doesn't notice it or seems to be able to tune it out.
It wasn't long before people were coming over to chat. Troy was great with everyone and I took pictures. The girl who took our order came over and got her picture too. We were able to finish our dinner and get back on the road. It took a little longer than we wanted, but didn't set us back too much!
The drive was great, we did a lot of talking and I was able to bounce my thoughts about telling my family off Troy and he had some great advice. He kept reminding me that my family loves me and that they are going to accept me no matter what! As we talked it helped me figure out the plan. I was going to tell my sister first. Then I would tell my mom and then my dad. If I needed to I would tell my Mom and Dad together. I was getting really nervous. I was glad that Troy was coming home with me and would be there in case they kicked me out. Troy would laugh at me and say "They are not going to kick you out." Then he would tell me that I would just live with him the rest of my life. I am so lucky!
We also talked about New York and me coming with him this summer. I was not going to talk about that with my parents at this point. I figured one thing at a time. I was excited about it though, to be with him in New York just the two of us. I know he would be busy with the show, but we wouldn't have homework and New York is full of so much to do! I could tell that he was really excited about the show and a little nervous about it too. It is nice to get to see that side of Troy. I know he is just a person like anyone else, but he is this huge movie star. I love to see the sweet, kind, sensitive and insecure side of him. I feel like I am let in to see this secret part of him. God, I can't believe how lucky I am!
As we pulled into my home town I was hit by so many memories of this place and my past and how different my life is now. I was such a looser, back then, no friends and now I have amazing friends and a boyfriend who is not only amazing and sweet and so kind to me, but is a fucking movie star. I can't believe it. We pulled into the driveway and Troy asked "Are you ready for this?"
"I think I am!"
"If you change your mind it is ok you know." He said sounding so sweet and supportive.
"No I have to do this! I need them to know who I am and I need to start living an authentic life."
My sister came flying out of the house to see us. I am not sure if she was really excited to see me or Troy! She came around my side of the truck and hugged me first and said she was glad I was home, but then went around and hugged Troy too. She was really excited to see us and was asking a bunch of questions. She wanted to know when she would be able to come and see the house that we were living it. She said that it sounded amazing and that we were so lucky. I had told her about it, but have not told my parents that part either. I am not sure if I will tell them that or not. I have also not told them about the attack from the frat guys, because it is too hard to talk about and also, I don't want to worry them.
As we brought our stuff into the house my mom and dad came to say hi and asked if we would want to watch a movie and have some popcorn or ice cream? Troy loved that idea. So we took our stuff up to my room and then came down and all got settled in the family room. I really wanted to cuddle up next to Troy, but I knew that was not going to work so I sat on the couch with my sister in-between Troy and I. My parents sat on the love seat and we decided to watch "Home Alone"! What a classic holiday movie. Stupid funny, but we had a great time. My dad made popcorn and put tons of butter and salt on it. It was fun to hang as a family, but my mind was racing about telling them and what their reaction would be and would they want to do this again after they knew and would they let Troy and I snuggle during the movie or would they be uncomfortable. I was able to enjoy it but my mind was racing.
When the movie was over we all sat and chatted for a while. My sister and I went to get refills on drinks for everyone. When we were in the kitchen she told me that mom had been watching Troy's movies and had become a fan. When we came back in the family room to my mom was asking tons of questions. How is school going, what is it like to be a movie star and in college? Are you recognized everywhere you go? They asked if he missed being in movies and if he had anything coming up so Troy ended up telling them about his opportunity to be in the play in New York. They thought that was so exciting and told him that we all would have to come out and see him in the show. I didn't think it was a good time to tell them that I was planning on going out there with him. My dad also seemed impressed. My sister loved the idea of going to New York to see Troy. They all wanted to know what the show was about and Troy told them it was about an alcoholic father and he son. He told them it is a really moving story and that the father is very emotionally abusive to the son and that he thinks it would be an amazing production from what he has heard and knows about it.
Around midnight my parents said they were going to head to bed. My sister, Troy and I stayed in the family room for a little bit chatting and after about 20 min I ran to the bathroom and also checked to see if my parents were in for the night so I could talk with my sister. It seemed like the perfect opportunity and to have Troy with me would make things easier! I ran back and Troy and my sister were laughing and having a great conversation. I waited till there was a break and I got up the nerve.
I took a deep breath and then I just went for it. "Ok Emily I have to tell you something. Oh God I am so nervous. I am not sure exactly how to say it, but since I have been younger I have known that I am gay. I could never really let myself think about it and have felt like it is something I should hide because people won't accept me for it. I know in my heart that isn't true, but it was something my head kept telling me. I was so afraid that someone would find out and that my life would be over. When I got to school I was even more nervous, but I met some really great guys and they came out to me. Then it kind of just happened, but Troy and I talked and we realized that we were both into each other. He helped me realize that people like me, for who I am not if I am straight or gay. It all kind of seems like a dream, but we are dating."
I had to just get it all out. My sister's face went from shock, to lost, to holy shit! There was a little bit of silence and then she said "HOLY SHIT! Are you kidding? You are dating Troy Anthony? You are so lucky!"
"So did you know that I was gay?"
"I wondered! I mean I love you. You are my brother and you are an amazing guy so it doesn't matter. I just want you to be happy. I had no idea that Troy was gay and holy shit I am so jealous that my brother is dating a hot movie star!"
We all laughed and I got up and gave her a hug. I had tears running down my face. I asked her what she thought mom and dad would say. She said that she thought they would feel the same way. That they would love me no matter what. She also said that she thought dad might have a little harder time with it, but that he will be ok. It made me feel a little more at ease. I told her I was going to wait until after Thanksgiving to tell them. She agreed that was a good idea. Then she had a ton of questions about us and how long we have been dating and stuff. We also told her about the house and that she could not tell mom and dad. She thought that was so awesome and said that she wouldn't tell if we let her come to visit. Then we told her about our plan for the summer and going to New York. She was so jealous. I told her she could not tell mom and dad about that either.
It felt so great to tell her and to have her accept me. It gave me a little more confidence to tell my mom and dad. We all were getting tired and headed for bed. As Troy and I headed into my room she whispered to me in a very teasing way "Good night!" and then winked! I love my sister!
We got ready for bed and then both crawled into my bed. I set up a sleeping bag on the floor with some pillows and blankets in case anyone checked in on my room while we were home. I locked the door so that no one could come in and I didn't really think anyone would, but just in case. I flipped so that I was the big spoon. I tend to flip around and go back and forth between being the big spoon and the little spoon. I love to start out as the big spoon though. I love to rub Troy's chest. It has just a little bit of hair and I love the feeling of his muscles. I was having a hard time falling asleep. My mind was racing on the fact that I had just told my sister that I was gay and that I would be telling my parents in a few days. I could not stop thinking of things like what if they don't take it well, what if they ask me to leave, what if they tell me that I can never come home. Troy fell asleep fairly quickly and so I flipped over to face away from him so that I wouldn't wake him. It was a bright night out and you could see the stars very clearly. I looked up and thought about how life was going to change once I was out. I kept trying to convince myself that it would be for the better, but my mind would turn and go to these dark places. It wasn't until I felt the tears running down my nose and cheeks that I realized I was crying. Your mind can be a powerful force of negativity at times. I am not sure how long it took, but I finally fell asleep.
The next morning I woke up at 5 am and had to go to take a piss. I went into my bathroom and then crawled into the sleeping bag on the floor and went back to sleep. I was able to go back to sleep right away and slept until 9:30 when I felt a hand stroking my hair. I opened my eyes to see the most beautiful man in the world smiling down at me. Troy's (color) eyes and smile are so amazing they hypnotize me all the time. I smiled back at him and felt this warm rush run through my body telling me that I was the luckiest guy on earth to have such an amazing guy by my side. I crawled into bed next to him and put my head on his chest and cuddled for a few minutes. I put my leg on top of his and rubbed his chest and then his abs and then down to his hard cock. It was nice to feel his warm body and hard cock. I knew that my family would be up and that we would want to spend as much time with us as they could so I suggested that I take care if his hard cock tonight before bed! Troy smiled and said "Just getting to be with you is so amazing and I don't ever want you to feel like I am disappointed when we can't fool around. I am always up for it and love when we can, but I don't ever expect it!" I smiled and gave him a kiss and told him how lucky I was. He said he was the lucky one.
I let Troy shower first and told him I was going to head downstairs to see what was going on. I put on some sweatpants and a sweatshirt and headed down stairs. I could smell the bacon cooking before I even opened my door. My mom and dad were in the kitchen and my sister was still asleep. I was wondering if things would seem weird with her now that I had told her or if everything would just be the same. I didn't have to wait long as she came into the kitchen a few minutes after me. I think she was disappointed when she saw that it was me and not Troy. It wasn't long before Troy came down and I got stuff for him for breakfast, then I headed up to shower.
I was so horny by the time I got into the shower I was fully hard. I put my head under the warm water and got myself fully wet. Then I got some soap and lathered up my cock. I stroked my dick and closed my eyes thinking about Troy and how sexy he is. I fantasized about him rimming my ass and then me sucking his amazing cock. I was slowly stroking my dick all the way from head to balls. I knew it wasn't going to be long before I shot my load as I pictured Troy's dick in my mouth! I picked up the pace and spent a little extra time on my cock head. I would give four or five quick strokes at the head and then go back to the full length. My breathing picked up and I felt the cum building. I closed my eyes and pressed my hips forward as the cum shot out of my cock. It felt so good to blow my load. I finished my shower and then got dressed and headed back down stairs.
Troy was in the kitchen with my mom helping peel potatoes. It looked like they were getting along great! My sister was getting things ready to set the table, so I started by helping her. Our dining room is around the corner from the kitchen so when my sister and I went in to start setting the table she looked at me and mouthed "Mom is in love!" I smiled and we both kind of giggled. I was hoping that she was loving Troy as it might make things easier when I come out to them. I was planning on doing it tomorrow sometime. I know I can do it, but I have this big pit in my stomach. My sister and I went back into the kitchen to get the glasses and my mom was telling Troy about how she and her friend have been watching his movies. She was telling him all of her favorite parts and then asking a ton of questions. I told him that I was sorry and of course Troy loved talking with my mom and said that it was fun.
We helped my mom for about an hour and a half and then she told us to just go relax until everyone got here. Both sets of my grandparents were coming and my dad's sister and her husband and their 2 kids where coming. I didn't think about it, but I am sure that my cousins would know who Troy was. My older cousin Jessica was 13 and my younger cousin Tyler was 10. My dad has two sisters, one older and the other younger. We get to see Jessica and Tyler more often because they only live like an hour away. Jessica and Tyler are great and I am sure would be super shy, but I didn't really think about the fact that Troy would be there.
My sister, Troy and I all went down to the basement and watched a movie. I wanted to lay by Troy, but didn't. We have a large sectional and then a recliner and some large pillows that we use when we lay on the floor. My sister and Troy lay on the sectional and I lay on the floor with the pillows. We watched "The Avengers"
It was around 2 when everyone started to arrive and my Grandparents were very excited to see me. It had been a while and they wanted to hear all about college and how I liked it, how my classes where going and they were excited to meet Troy. Of course they didn't really know who he was other than he was in movies. I am sure that they had never watched any of his movies. They were very welcoming and Troy was so sweet with them. My Aunt and Uncle knew who he was and I could tell that my cousins were also excited to see Troy. It was fun to watch the interaction with everyone and Troy was right at home and a good sport answering all the questions that everyone had and also asking my cousins questions about school and sports and thing like that. It took Jessica a little while to open up and talk, but Tyler was very comfortable asking Troy about being in movies and about some of the different character he has played and which one was his favorite and which movie was his favorite.
After a while of everyone chatting, my cousins, my sister, Troy and I went down stairs and played cards. I love my cousins and it is always fun to hang out with them. Even though they are a bit younger than my sister and I we have always had a good relationship with them. You can tell that they look up to us and are always excited to see us. It was so cute how my cousins keep watching Troy and how much they enjoyed hanging out with him. After about 30 minutes of playing Phase 10 and chatting Tyler asked Troy is he would be willing to take a picture with him so that he could show his friends. Jessica jumped in and said in a half whisper "Tyler! Mom said not to ask him to take pictures or for an autograph!" Troy laughed and told them that he would be happy to take pictures and give autographs. Both my cousins were so excited, but Jessica was trying to be cool and under control about it. Oh I remember those years. Not wanting to look stupid and weird. The longer we played cards the more comfortable they got around Troy. Troy was so great at asking them questions and about their friends and stuff like that. My cousins loved him and by the end of the night they seemed to be a lot more comfortable with him. Dinner was amazing as always! My mom is a great cook and loved to prepare Thanksgiving dinner and Christmas and Easter dinner. She puts so much love in it that everything tastes amazing. Troy could not get over how great dinner was and told my mom about a hundred times.
After dinner the kids played on the Wii in the family room in the basement and the adults talked in the living room upstairs. My sister, Troy and I were part of the kids group. We played Just Dance and Rock Band. We all had a ton of fun and I don't think that my cousins wanted to leave at the end of the night.
As everyone was leaving my aunt pulled me aside and said "You are pretty lucky to get such a cool roommate." I smiled and agreed with her. Then my mind quickly jumped to think if maybe she knew or if I did anything to give it away that we were dating. I think that she would be cool with it, but it freaked me out. I knew that it would all be out there soon, but it was still something that would take some getting used to. My sister, Troy and I helped my Mom clean up. We finished clearing the table and then helped with dishes and putting the leftovers away. My mind was racing on how I was going to tell my parents and what their reaction would be. I started to think, what if they kick me out of the house? Or what if this is the last time I get to have Thanksgiving dinner in this house. What if I don't get to come home for Christmas? Fuck! I needed to calm down.
After dinner we all watched the movie Home Alone, classic holiday movie. I had a hard time concentrating. I think that Troy could tell. He kept looking at me and I could feel him wanting to ask me what was wrong. Then he would smile as if to say everything is going to be ok!
After the movie my parents headed up to bed. My sister, Troy and I decided to play the card game Phase 10. This was the first time that my sister had a chance to talk to Troy and I alone. She gave it a good 20 minutes before she asked any questions. "Ok I just have to say that you two make the cutest couple!" I about died and Troy just started to laugh and said "Thank you! I think so too!" She wanted to know more details and then also wanted to know when she could come visit us and see the new house. She still couldn't believe that we wouldn't want to live on campus, at least for the first year. It was very sweet how my sister wanted to know all about how we told each other and who asked who first and where we went on our first date. Then she started to ask about New York and Troy's show. After she totally kicked our asses at Phase 10, I told her that I think that maybe she was just trying to distract us. She said maybe and then said she was going to go to bed. "Love ya Bro! Sleep well guys" Troy put on a big frown and said "What about me?" My sister smiled, and came over and gave him a big hug and kiss on the cheek and said "I love you too Troy!" We all laughed and I was so happy to see the two of them getting along and to be able to be open with my sister.
Troy and I headed up to bed. I let him use the bathroom first. When he came out I went in and brushed and flossed my teeth and took a piss. Troy took off his pants and was lying on the bed with a t-shirt and his underwear. Damn he always looks so sexy. I took my pants off and crawled onto the bed, gave him a kiss and then cuddled into his chest. My mind was racing about tomorrow and telling my parents. I was rubbing Troy's chest and I could tell that he was tired. I think that he could tell that something was up. I am sure that he knew that it was about telling my parents. He asked "Are you ok?" I said "Yah!" He knew that I was just saying that so he said "Do you want to talk about it?" I moved to look up at him to question why he was asking that, but I didn't fool him. He smiled and said "I can tell that you are thinking about tomorrow and that you are nervous about it. I am sure that they are going to accept you for who you are. They love you so much! I know it is scary. If you want me to be with you I will or if you want to wait to tell them you can do that too."
"I need to tell them. I am scared, but you are right, they love me. I am sure it will be hard, but I have to tell them tomorrow. I need to be able to be myself and I want them to know about us."
"Maybe this will help take your mind off this for a while." Troy said as he started to rub my head and then moved so that I was lying on my back and he straddled me. He leaned down and kissed me so softly on the lips. I almost wished I could be standing next to us watching. It felt so sexy. Troy took both of my wrists and pinned them over my head as he continued to kiss me. Then he started to kiss my cheeks, and neck. Then he let go of my wrists and pulled my shirt off. He threw it on the floor and started to kiss my armpits and then my chest and down my stomach until he was at the top of my underwear. He looked up at me and smiled and then took the front of my underwear and pulled it down. He licked my cock from the base all the way up to the head. He did this a few times and then pulled my underwear off and came back to take my whole cock into his mouth. He licked the tip of my cock for a little bit and then started to take the whole thing. I could tell that he was really giving me his best work. I put my hands in his hair and was massaging his head as he was sucking on mine. I knew it was not going to be long before I was shooting my load so in between my soft moans I said "Oh God Troy I am going to cum!" He didn't stop. He just picked up the pace and started to play with my balls more and jacked and sucked my cock. I couldn't hold it any more. I tipped my head back and had to bit my lip to keep from letting out a loud moan. Troy pulled up so that his mouth was just over the head of my dick and used his tongue to play with the underside as he swallowed every drop.
I was exhausted! It took me a few minutes to catch my breath and recover and by the time I did he had crawled up next to me and kissed my check. "I love you so much Zack Johnson!" I smiled and said "I love you to Troy Anthony!" I started to rub his chest and was going to return the favor when he said "It is ok. I want you to feel special right now and I want you to get some sleep." I wanted to return the favor, but I understood what he meant. Just because he did that for me he didn't expect it back. It was so special. We both got under the covers and I fell asleep in his arms.
I wish I could say that I slept through the night, but I didn't. I woke up about 1 am and I couldn't fall back asleep. My head was spinning, thinking about what my parents would say and how I was going to tell them. I lay in bed flipping and thinking about how it would go and then I finally got up and pulled out my computer. I decided that I would read Hunter's script. I had been so busy before we left that I had not had any time to read it. I thought that reading a little bit might help me get tired enough to go back to bed and take my mind of things. I was wrong. I couldn't stop reading. It was such a beautiful story and tribute to his boyfriend. Because I knew that it was based on a real story, I knew that it was a tribute.
The story starts by showing that the two boys are friends in their junior year of high school. You can't tell right away that they are interested in each other romantically, but because I knew more about the story, I could pick up little things that give the audience a clue without giving it away. The two boys, Brian and Sam are friends and grew up together. They are in the same grade and it picks up with them hanging out with the same group of friends. You can tell that Brian is more popular and in the beginning of the script is spending time with Sam and their group of friends, but also with other people too. Brian is on the football team and gets great grades. In the beginning you see that his father is pretty intense and pushes him in football and is very concerned with him getting a scholarship. He also wants Brian to go to the University of Wisconsin where he himself went to college and played football. You can tell that Brian wants to make his dad happy and works hard to do it. After one of the home football games one of the guys on the football team invites Brian to a party, but he says he is going out with his small group of friends and mentions the names. When he mentions Sam's name the football jock asks Brian why he hangs out with Sam. This gives us the first look that Sam is not as popular as Brian and we also get to see Brian stick up for Sam and tell his teammate to fuck off and not be so rude. He tells him that he and Sam have known each other since before kindergarten and he has always been there for him.
After the group hangs out that night Brian sleeps over at Sam's and we get the first look at their secret relationship. They make out for a while and then Brian says I wish we could be open and go to homecoming together. Sam laughs at the thought. The guys ended up going with two of their friends that were girls and the four all went together and when the night was over Sam and Brian spent the night at Sam's house. The scripted showed the guys being perfect gentleman and treating the ladies to a nice dinner and then having a great time at the dance. When the guys got home they had some fun of their own. The script didn't go into details, but it made it clear that this was the first time they took their relationship to a real romantic level. Brian told Sam how he felt and that he knew that he was in love with him. He even pushed Sam a little bit to admit that he had the same feelings. Sam admitted it and they kissed.
The guys continue their secret relationship until Sam's mother finds out. Both of Sam's parents understand, but this pushes the boys to tell Brian's parents and that is where things start going wrong. Brian's parents are not supportive and they blame Sam for turning Brian gay. They have an altercation with Sam and tell him he is a horrible person for ruining their son's future. They tell Brian that he cannot see Sam anymore. They want to get Brian help and try to take him to church to pray the gay away. Brian finally tells his parents that he came out to Sam first and that this was not going to go away. He has known since he was in 4th grade. At the end of a very large fight Brian's father slaps him across the face and tells him that he is no longer welcome in the house and that he needs to leave until this gay thing passes.
Brian is devastated and ends up not telling Sam that he has been kicked out of his house. He starts skipping school and lives in this old warehouse for 4 days until Sam follows him and finds out. Brian doesn't know what to do and has started to push Sam away. The scene where Sam finds Brian in the warehouse is so beautiful and sad and I can picture it in my imagination. The description of the lighting is so beautiful. Sam slowly comes in and finds Brian sleeping. He had followed him and was thinking that maybe Brian was seeing someone else so he waits to see if someone else comes and after a while he goes in and finds Brian exhausted and sleeping on some old dirty blankets and cloths. As Sam sees Brian he breaks down and the tears start running down his face. He sees a broken kid who had everything laying there. He goes up and lay's down next to him and puts his arms around him. Brian wakes up and they embrace and Brain tells him how scared he is and that he doesn't know what to do. Sam convinces him to come and live at his house which he does.
Brian gets back into school and as the school year is coming to an end, Brian's father has gone to the school and talked to Brian's coach. They are good friends and he asks the coach if he would talk to Brian and tell him what a mistake he is making. The coach agrees with Brian's father and even says "There is no way I am going to let there be a fag on my team next year and if this is what Brian is going to choose then there is no way he will get a scholarship to any university."
Brian seems to bounce back a little while living with Sam and his family, but is still pretty upset. You can feel Sam's emotions and that he is trying to hold everything together. Nobody knows that Brian and Sam are a couple and that Brian is living with Sam until one day in school one of their friends walks into the cafeteria where they all hang out before school starts and yells from across the room "I guess it all makes sense why you always wanted to keep Sam around our group since he turned you into a faggot Brian!"
Brian and the friend get into a fight and are pulled into the assistant principal's office and then the football coach is brought in. Both boys are suspended for 3 days and then the coach tells Brian that he is making a huge mistake. Then he says to Brian "Son you better figure this shit out soon, because there is no way I am going to let a faggot play football on my team!" And he walked out. Brian just sits there and the tears start running down his face. After school Sam tries to find Brian, but is also dealing with the rapidly spreading rumors that he has turned Brian gay.
He hears kids whispering in the hall as he walks by. He is trying to push it out of his mind; he knows he just has to find Brian. He looks all over the school and then finally goes to the office to see if he is still there. One of the secretaries tells him that he left school earlier in the day. Sam races home to see if Brian has gone back to their house but he is not there. Then he goes to the warehouse and finds Brian. The description in the script makes my stomach turn. Brian is so shattered that he has fallen as low as he possibly can. Sam picks him up and they talk. Sam is crying and tells Brian how sorry he is. Brian looks at Sam and tells him this is not your fault. "I love you more than anything in the world. I am sorry that I am letting you down. I can't do this Sam. I am so lost." Sam is so scared and tells Brian it will be ok. He tells him that he should go back home and tell his parents that he has made a mistake and that he realizes what he is giving up and that he was just confused and is sorry. Brian looks at Sam and tells him that will never happen.
Finally Sam convinces Brian to come back to his house again and they spend the night together. Sam goes to school and Brian waits until his parents are gone and then goes home. He leaves a note for Sam telling him that he loves him and that he is so sorry that he has let him down. That he feels responsible for all of this getting way out of hand and has to end it. Brian goes back to his house he has written a letter to his parents telling them that he can't understand how they could disown him and that he can't help the feelings he has. This is who he is and that there is no way to change that. It hurts him so much that they can't love him and accept him for who he is. Out of all the people in the world, they would be the ones to see their son for the amazing person that he is. That he has always tried to make them proud. The fact that they can't support him and love him has killed him. He leaves the note for them and then goes to the garage and closes the door and turns on the car. The script describes him remembering all of these moments of being with Sam and how happy Sam makes him. He slowly falls asleep.
I couldn't read the ending. I had tears running down my face and my heart ached for Hunter. I grabbed my phone and sent him a text. It was now 4 am and I was exhausted emotionally and physically. I crawled back into bed and it didn't take long to fall asleep again. I was still nervous about telling my parents, but I was sure they would not react like Brian's parents. Oh God I hope not!
The next morning was kind of a blur. We slept in until about 10 and then I know that we had breakfast. My sister knew that I was planning on telling my parents today and so she and Troy went to the basement and it left me in the kitchen with my mom and dad. My heart was pounding in my chest and I thought that I might pass out. It was like I was standing at the door of a plane getting ready to jump. Something that I would never do, but I knew that I had to just go for it. I took a big breath and then said "Hey mom and dad um can I um talk to you guys?" My mom looked up at me and then said "Of course, is everything alright Zack?" I swallowed hard and then I jumped. "I am not sure how to tell you this?but um?.I am gay!" I just said it and then it felt like the words hung in the air.
There was a big pause and no one said anything. Both of my parents looked down at the floor as if they didn't want to look at me. I had to fill the silence. "I have known for a long time, but I have not been able to be honest with myself let alone tell anyone else. Since I have met Troy, I have felt something that I have never felt before and he has given me the confidence to know that I am who I am and that I am a good person and that being gay does not make me bad." Both of my parents looked at the ground and when I mentioned Troy's name my dad looked up at me. I didn't know what else to say. I wanted them to say something, but they didn't. They sat there still for what seemed like an hour. Then my mom moved to wipe tears out of her eyes. My dad looked at her and then looked at me and said "Did Troy convince you that you are gay?"
"NO! I have had these feelings since I was in middle school. I just couldn't let myself believe that I was gay. I felt like it made me a bad person."
By this time my mom was crying pretty hard and my dad got up and I thought he was going to leave, but he went and got my mom a box of Kleenex.
"Mom, are you ok?"
She just nodded her head yes. Then my dad said "This is just pretty devastating Zack."
It was like I had been punched in the gut. I realized that tears were running down my face.
"I am sorry!" I said and my voice cracked.
"So is Troy your boyfriend?" My dad asked with a hint of anger in his voice.
"Yes!" I said softly, as the tears run down my face.
My mom handed me the box of Kleenex and said "We will always love you!"
My dad got up and left the room. I couldn't hold it back anymore. My emotions took over and I started to heavy cry. My mother got up and came over and gave me a hug. She whispered in my ear "Everything will be ok." Then she squeezed me and then left. I am guessing she went looking for my dad.
I stood there looking at the floor for a minute. I took the box of Kleenex and went up to my room. I closed the door and fell onto my bed. My head was spinning. I felt my life crashing in around me. Would my father be able to accept me? I cried and my felt like I was trapped in a hurricane of emotions. I couldn't stop crying and my head was starting to hurt. I finally fell asleep.
I woke up to Troy rubbing my back. I felt like shit and my head still hurt a little. I realized that I had even dreamed about my parents and it was even worse in my dream. My father told me that they would have to disown me. It took me a second to sort out what was real and what was just a dream.
"You ok baby?"
I didn't know what to say. I felt the tears start again. I didn't want Troy to see me like this.
"It is going to be ok baby. They love you and will come around. They just need some time."
I just nodded my head. Troy kept rubbing my back. Then I flashed back to my dad's voice saying "So is Troy your boyfriend?" Would they make us leave? Would they say that Troy is not welcome anymore? We just sat there with Troy rubbing my back and head. Every once in a while Troy would kiss the back of my neck. Then there was a knock on my door. I didn't want to talk to my mom or dad right now. I didn't move, but Troy got up and went to the door. It was my sister. She came in and sat down on the bed next to me and then just sat down by me and gave me a hug.
"You are the best brother ever and I love you so much!"
It took me a little bit to pull myself together and then I sat up and asked my sister if she had talked to my parents. She told me that my dad left without talking to anyone and my mom is in her room and she went in to check on her, but she said that she needed some time alone. My sister said that they would come around, but they just needed sometime to process the whole thing. She held me for a few minutes without saying anything and Troy came and sat next to us too.
After a few minutes my sister said "Let's do something. Let's go watch a movie or go somewhere or something." Troy looked at me and then agreed with my sister and said "How about we go out to a movie?" I didn't feel like it, but I also wanted to get out of the house. My sister got up and said she was going to go tell my mom where we were going. Troy put his hand out and reached for my hand so that he could pull me up off the bed. He pulled me into his arms and then gave me the biggest hug. He whispered in my ear "I am so proud of you!"
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