This is a continuation of a story that is based on my mission experiences in France and Belgium in the early 1970s. Though it is based on true circumstances, it is a piece of fiction and I guess you'll have to guess which parts are true and which are part of my fantasies!
Gary
Part VIII - Confessions
"Hey, Elders. Let's get a move on. What's keeping you..." Elder M's voice stopped as he turned his head and saw Elder Peters quickly turn from me to the wall and cover himself with the towel held at his side while I tried to cover my hard dick with my towel. I guess the two of us looked pretty stupid trying to keep from being discovered.
"Uh, we'll be right there, Elder M." I said trying to look busy. "We were just trying to find Elder Peters' CTR ring. It was here on the bench." Elder Peters took the clue and started to look on the floor behind the bench while the two of us kept our genitals pointing away from Elder M. Meanwhile, my companion came up behind us, paused for a second and then joined in the hunt. Elder Peters came around behind him and reached into his suit pants pocket to retrieve his ring which he kept in his hand, dropped to his knees and pretended to find it.
"Dang! Here it is over here. Sorry, Elders. I must have dropped it when I washed my hands." By this time, our dicks had shrunk to practically nothing. Elder M seemed satisfied and started to pick up the baptism clothes of the Dumonds and put them in a gym bag to be washed. He did some general clean up. Elder Pratt finished drying off and put down his towel and went to get his dry garments. Elder M bumped into him while picking up the other towels.
"Oops, sorry, Elder," said Elder M as he turned and faced Elder Peters head on. "Wow, you've got a real forest here on your chest and stomach. Man, did you eat a lot of liver or something while a kid?"
The liver reference passed over both of us but his inference didn't. Elder Peters and I looked at each other. We both sensed that Elder M. was letting us know he was suspicious. We continued to get dressed. Finally, Elder M. gathered up the gym bags and left the dressing room. "Hurry up, you two. We need to finish the program."
After he left, Elder Pratt turned to me and said, "I'm sorry Elder. I didn't mean to get you in trouble."
"Don't worry about it. I was just as much at fault as you. Man, you really had me going there."
"That goes for both of us," Elder Pratt replied. "Man, it's been so long since I've jacked off. I guess I must have let my blood all flow into my dick. I didn't mean to come on to you like that. I don't want you to think I'm a homo or something."
"It's okay. I know what you mean about jacking off. Man, I used to be a twice a day guy but I haven't stroked off for almost a year. I'd be ready to play with my grandmother if given a chance! Don't worry about the homo stuff. It was just weird. Who knows."
We finished dressing and gathered up our wet things. As we were ready to go out to join the others, Elder Peters stopped me, took my hand and said, "Um, I really enjoyed meeting you and being with you today. I think its cool we both got first baptisms on the same day. It's something we'll remember. Anyway, I, um, well... "
"I know," I said while gripping his hand and putting my other hand on his shoulder. "Maybe under different circumstances... But, hey, we'll see each other again, I'm sure! We'll have time to get to know each other better." Elder Peters smiled and we hugged each other. I really liked him. He was so good looking and I think he was attracted to me. It's a good thing Elder M. came in. Or I'd be on my way to Brussels and the Mission Home just about now.
We joined the rest of the group in the Chapel and prepared for the Confirmations of the 5 new members of the Church. Elder M. took care of the Dumont family, giving each of them a special blessing. I was impressed with his command of the language and the spirit as he gave each member exactly what the spirit impressed him to give and, from my perspective, each received it with gratitude and love.
After the end of the service, the Verviers Elders took off with their new convert in the Zap VW bus. The Dumonts offered to take us home with them but their little car barely held the four of them let alone two big American Elders. So we begged off and the two of us walked down to the bus station to get a bus to Seraing. It was getting late and we were tired.
Elder M. seemed unusually quiet during our walk. It was about an hour to the bus station and he said only a few words. I respected his privacy. I figured he was thinking about the confirmations and the blessings he gave. We made our way down the hill and were walking along the Meuse. Suddenly he stopped. We were in a park, alone. He suddenly turned to me and said, "What the fuck do you take me for, Elder? You and Peters weren't looking for a CTR ring for God's sake! You were getting ready to suck him off!"
I was totally shocked by this outburst. I thought we might have gotten away with our little charade. I never thought Elder M would confront me like this. My heart started to race and I panicked. All my worst fears came to my mind. My secret had been discovered. The man I loved so much was about to find out who I really was and would no longer love me. He would recoil in disgust as he learned of my homosexual feelings towards him. I looked at him. He was turned directly towards me with his fists clenched and a look of sheer pain on his face. I was afraid for a moment that he would strike me. What do I say to him? What do I say that would protect myself, our friendship and Elder Peters? What do I do.
"Elder, I don't know what to say. Things just kind of got carried away and..."
"Carried away?" Elder M loudly questioned. "Carried away! You too were going at it like fags! If I hadn't stumbled upon your little tryst, you would have sucked his dick and who knows what he would have or already did to you."
"Nothing happened before you walked in, Elder, I swear! We were just horny and alone and... Nothing more than that. We're not fags."
"You're trying to make me think that before I got there you and Peters were just talking and nothing happened?"
"It's the truth. Like you said before, getting an erection was pretty normal when guys are naked. We were naked and talking and they popped up. Hell, I've seen you with a hard on."
"You have not!"
"Oh come on. When we're in the bathhouse and you think I'm not looking, you get your woodie out and start stroking away like there's no tomorrow."
"You son of a bitch! What the fuck are you doing watching me in the bathhouse? What I do in there is a lot different than you giving Peters a blow job!"
"I didn't give him a blow job. We were just talking."
"That's not what it looked like from my side of the room. Besides, I saw him pull that CTR ring out of his suit pants then drop it on the floor. What was that ruse all about, huh?"
"Look, he was just nervous at being caught with a hard on in the dressing room. We reacted like deer caught in the headlights. Our first instinct was to make up an excuse and deflect your attention. Give us a break, here!"
Elder M. had calmed down quite a bit be now. We sat down on a bench. He was silent for a few minutes then he spoke in quieter, more measured tones. "I'm sorry Elder. I don't know what got into me. I just figured that you and Peters were making out or something. I thought you were both fags. I guess I just overreacted. But I had a reason."
"Yeah, and what was that?"
"I knew that if you and Peters were doin' something I would have had to say something to the Mission President. That would have meant you'd be sent home and I'd... Well, I'd be pretty upset about that. I mean, I've come to really like you, to depend upon you... Ah hell. Look Elder, I love you and I don't want anything to happen to you!"
I laughed out loud. "Elder, were you jealous?"
"No, you fag! Well, maybe just a bit. But I was just concerned for you."
He put his gloved hand on my thigh and turned to look me in the eye. "You're the best thing that's happened to me since I came on my mission. I love being with you. We make a great team. I don't want to lose you to something like that."
"Like what?"
"To another... well, to... You know..."
Sensing his discomfort, I put my arm around his shoulder and drew him closer to me. My face was close to his. "Elder, you're my best friend, my brother. I've never felt about another human on this earth like I feel for you. I don't want to lose you either. I feel like you are a part of me. I want to be a part of you. Peters and I were just goofing off. The truth be known, I'd much rather "goof off" with you any day!"
He put his arm around my shoulder and the two of us gathered each other in, our cheeks pressed against the other's cheek, our mouth to the other's ear. I whispered in Millett's ear, "Elder Millett, I love you. I want you to know how important you are to me. I wish there was someway I could express these feelings I have inside for you."
I heard Elder M sniffle some and felt a tear come from his eyes and cross my cheek. He gently told me, "Elder, I love you, too. It's different than the way I love my brothers or family. I can't really even describe how I feel towards you. It's like you were my second self. When I thought I'd be losing you, I went a little wacko. I'm sorry. Please, forgive me."
I pushed him back slightly so I could look him in the eye. We both were tearing up. "Look, we don't know how long we have together. So let's make sure that we make the most of every moment. Let's not waste feelings but express them. Let's not waste tears but let them flow. Let's not waste laughter but roar it out. Let's not waste... love..."
We both broke into big smiles and hugged each other so closely. Elder M then pulled back a bit, looked me in the eye then kissed me. It was like a peck at first but then he kissed me a second time with more vigor. He held it for a few seconds then pulled back.
"Wow, Elder M, you sure know how to express feelings!" We both laughed and got up and started walking towards the bus station. I couldn't believe my feelings inside. No one, let alone another man, has ever kissed me like that before. I couldn't believe Elder M would do that but I was so happy he did.