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Waiting for Love: Chapter 8
Dave went to the West Coast, Matts to Europe. At first they wrote. When they finally settled and had regular access to a telephone, they called. They had discussed the need to be careful about what they said in letters an on the phone. They didn't know if their communications would be subject to scrutiny but were not taking any chances. During one conversation, Matts said he had some leave to go home to Minnesota and asked Dave if he could join him. When Dave began to chuckle, Matts remembered his earlier comment about taking Dave home to his Mom and Dad when they got married and they both broke out in loud laughter. It was like mental telepathy. Matts said he told Nels about them and Nels was anxious to meet him. Dave asked how he spelled that and Matts answered, "M.E.E.T, Asshole! You'll see all the brothers but don't get ideas, you're already initiated and I don't share."
Dave was able to get leave and made plane reservations. He also reserved a motel room because they would not be able to share each other at Matts' parents' house but Matts could visit him at the motel without raising suspicions.
Three days before Dave was to head for Minnesota, he got a phone call.
"Dave?" the voice said. "This is Stan, a friend of Matts'." His voice was serious.
"Hi Stan, Matts talks a lot about you. How you doing?"
"Are you alone?" Stan asked.
"My room mate's here." Dave replied questioningly.
"May I talk to him, please."
What a strange request! Dave was starting to get nervous. "Sure, Here's Todd." as he handed the phone to his roommate.
Todd took the receiver and said Hello' then listened quietly with an occasional Uh ha'. When Todd turned his back to Dave, Dave stomach began churning. Something was wrong with Matts.
Todd turned back around to Dave and handed him the phone. "Here, Stan wants to talk to you." Todd just stood there with an expressionless face.
"What's up, Stan?"
"Dave, I'm sorry, but I don't have good news." There was a long pause. "We had a training exercise yesterday and Matts was injured."
"How badly!" Dave said trying to control the urgency in his voice.
"Dave, (long pause) he didn't make it, Buddy."
If Stan said anything after that, Dave had no memory of it. When he came to he was in the infirmary. Todd was with him, holding his hand. When he could focus well enough he saw Todd's eyes were teared and he remembered the telephone call. Tears began to stream from his eyes. He began to sob uncontrollably. Since Todd was holding his left hand, he placed his right forearm over his eyes trying to hide the pain on his face. A doctor and a nurse came in, examined him and said, except for a nasty bump on the head, he seemed fine and was cleared to go back to the dorm.
When they got back to their room, Todd relayed to Dave all that Stan had told him. Stan was with Matts when the accident happened. Stan said Matts seemed to know he was not going to live. Before he died he asked Stan to call and tell Dave he loved him and to be patient, to wait like he had before they met. Matts would be shipped back to Minnesota for burial four days later.
"Look, Buddy." Todd said. "You've become one of my best friends. I'm going to give you some advice you may not want to hear. First, I want you to go see the Chaplain and talk about this. Next, I think you should go to the funeral. You need to do this. For Matts, and for yourself. Trust me. I have some personal experience with this kind of thing. We can talk it about later. Also, I'm not blind. I won't ask and I won't tell. Get my drift?"
"Thanks, Todd, It's great to know I have friends like you when I need them. You've been a great help and I really appreciate it."
Dave did talk to the Chaplain and with his guidance decided to go to M innesota as planned. After all, the arrangements were already made. And, he felt an obligation to meet and pay his respects to Matts' family.
Nels was waiting for him when he stepped off the airplane. They started to shake hands then Nels grabbed him and wrapped him in a bear hug. They both had wet eyes and sniffled a little but were able to control their emotions. Dave met the whole family, including aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews and grandparents. Nels stayed close to Dave all day and dropped him at the motel after dinner that evening. Matts' mother invited Dave to sleep at the house, in Matts' old bed, but the mere thought of being in Matts' bed without him nearly tore him up so he thanked Mom and respectfully declined. Nels picked him up the next morning for the funeral. Everyone treated Dave like one of the family and it made him feel much closer to Matts. He was so glad he came.
After the funeral he went back to the house with Nels and hung around visiting with the family. `What a great family Matts has' he thought. (He still couldn't think of Matts in the past tense.) They brightened his spirit and helped him realize that Matts would live on in their hearts. The deep sadness he had when he arrived was beginning to lift. Nels was not doing as well. Every time Dave looked at Nels he saw the slumped shoulders, the blank face, the glassy stare. He guessed that every time Nels looked at family members or anything in the house he was being reminded of Matts. Nels needed to get away from there.
"Nels, I think I need to get out of here. Can you drop me at the motel?" Dave asked. He was really trying to get Nels out of the house. On the way to the motel Dave suggested they have dinner together and Nels seemed to jump at the suggestion. They started with a beer before the meal. About half way through dinner, Nels began talking about Matts and about how much he loved him. He continued to talk and drink. Five beers later he was almost in tears. Dave had stopped at one beer so his judgment was still sharp enough to conclude Nels was in no shape to drive. Nels seldom drank so even a small amount of alcohol had a big effect. Dave invited Nels to spend the night. There were two beds in the room and Nels could use the extra one to sleep it off. Immediately upon arriving at his room, Dave called Matts' mom to let her know Nels was in no condition to drive but if they needed to contact him they would know where he was.
Nels kept talking, and crying, until after 11:00 PM when he finally laid back on his bed, curled up and passed out. Dave undressed him down to his boxers, threw a sheet over him and also went to bed.
Movement on the bed awakened Dave. It was Nels crawling into the bed with him. He glanced at the clock and it read 3:12 am. As Nels snuggled up behind him, Dave could feel a hot, hard instrument poking into his rump. Dave slept in the nude and somewhere along the way Nels had lost his boxers.
"Matts, love me. Please!" Nels pleaded.
Oh shit. Now what do I do?' Dave wandered. Nels must be hallucinating and thinks I'm his brother. Matts, what do I do? Send me a sign!' Just then he felt Nels hand wrap around his hardening cock. `Damn that feels good.' Dave couldn't get over the feeling of being unfaithful to Matts if he had sex with Nels.
"Please, Matts, I need you!" Nels pleaded again.
What would you do, Matts?' Dave asked his lover. If you were here and your brother asked, would you satisfy his need? Am I here to be your surrogate? Does Nels need this to be able to move on?' Dave concluded Nels' need was consistent his own loyalty to Matts. He would do this. He would try to satisfy Nels as Matts. He would try to perform the way he remembered Matts performing.
Dave turned over facing Nels and kissed him. Nels' mouth did not open for tongue engagement, which Dave was glad for. Dave moved on top of Nels and slid between his legs. Shit, no lube and no condom.' Dave thought. So he placed his middle finger on his left hand on Nels' lips. It was immediately sucked in. When it was good and wet, Dave pulled it out and moved his hand between Nels' legs. He quickly found what he was feeling for and inserted his finger into the hot hole. Nels moaned and began to calm down. Now what?' After moving his finger around several times, he felt Nels' sphincter begin to loosen. He removed his finger from Nels' hole and lifted his legs in the air. Then Dave spit in his left hand and lubed his cock as best as he could. When the head of Dave's cock contacted Nels' rear entrance, it slid right in without resistance. Nels had done this before and know how to take it.
Nels exhaled a very loud moan and said, "Yes!" That was the only word he spoke. He moaned a lot but never said another word. Dave proceeded to mimic Matts' thrusting technique, making sure he gave Nels' prostate a good work-over. Nels' orgasm built quickly and just before he shot, Dave bent over and took Nels into his mouth just like he knew Matts would do. When Nels e xploded filling Dave's mouth, Dave was close behind, filling Nels' gut with his cum. When the height of Dave's climax subsided, he leaned down and kissed Nels, opening his mouth and depositing his cum. Dave's cock softened quickly and slipped out of Nels' ass; he had no desire to stay inside Nels. This was more like a service he had performed. There was no emotional motivation there. Although he had drained his balls he did not have a feeling of satisfaction. He lay back down and Nels spooned up to him and put his arm around his chest. Soon Dave heard soft, slow, deep breathing, indicating Nels had finally found sleep. Dave drifted off soon after.
"RRRRRRRRRRRRRR!" The angry sound of the alarm clock blared in Dave's ear. He hit the snooze button and rolled onto his back, cracked his eyelids a little and peaked at the ceiling. Nels was no longer in bed with him. He quickly looked to his right and saw Nels just beginning to stir in his own bed. Quickly, before Nels was really awake, Dave's feet hit the floor and he was in the bathroom brushing his teeth, shaving and showering. When he came out of the bathroom, Nels was sitting nude on the edge of the bed. Dave couldn't resist checking Nels' equipment. The fact that Nels' eyes were still shut made it easy. `Not bad!' Dave thought.
"Morning." Dave said, not having any idea what kind of reaction he would get after last night's athletics. "How do you feel this morning?"
"Except for a headache and a sore ass, I'm just fine."
"Too bad about the headache." Dave replied, being certain not to comment on Nels' sore ass. Dave proceeded to dress and pack to leave later that morning.
"You know?" Nels began to talk again, "I had the strangest dream last night."
"How so?" Dave asked cautiously, somewhat nervous about what exactly Nels might remember.
"I dreamed Matts was here and we made love. Then I wake up naked and my ass hurts."
"Well, when you passed out last night I took your clothes off, except for your boxers, and hung them in the closet." Dave felt it was best to explain as much as he could without giving away the farm. "I wish Matts had come to me and made love." Dave added, and it was the truth.
"Yeah, I'm sorry, Dave. I know Matts loved you. He loved you differently than he did me. I was his brother love. You were his lover. You are so likable and I see why he loved you so much. Thanks for coming so we could all meet you. I'm glad for Matts that he found you before he.... Well, that's enough. OK if I use your shower?"
"Sure, help yourself."
Nels took Dave back to the house so he could say his good bye's then took him to the airport. At Dave's request, Nels dropped him at the curb and drove away. Dave stood quietly looking at the countryside for several minutes. He felt Matts' presence, said `Good by,' turned and entered the terminal.
Dave had a row by himself on the return flight. The quietness prompted him to reflect on his life thus far. He was happy he had met Matts and learned what it meant to really love someone and to be loved. He also thought about his fuck with Nels the night before. He and Matts made love. He and Nels only fucked. Without love, sex is...' Dave thought for a moment, empty!' `Maybe some day I will love again. I'll just have to be patient.' He was beginning to feed grown up.
Dave finished his tour, even getting out a few months early due to the government wanting to reduce troop strength. He returned to his old hometown where he knew a lot of people and would have a good support system.
And then, there was Jack.