Hey guys, so i finally got another chapter out, sorry about that! anyway, hope you enjoy it. let me know what you think.
Dane xx
What Happened in Highschool
Chapter 15
Something was going on with Kurt. He had been incredibly depressed lately and nothing I said seemed to make a difference. It was pissing the hell out of me. His sad smiles were getting to me making me depressed. I watched him as he slept next to me, a slight frown on his face even in his sleep. My eyes had adjusted to the light and because my room had a streetlight shining into it, it was never extremely dark.
I sighed. Aaron had finally gotten over the fact that we shared a bed mainly because I made it clear that this was how it was going to be. Kurt was my best friend and I was slowly realising how self-absorbed I had been recently. I felt incredibly guilty. Shit. All the fucked up stuff that happened with his parents, the whole strange situation between me and him, one which I had been determined to forget lately.
Maybe it was ok to forget about the fact that he was in love with me. I cringed at the thought. He just can't. He's my best friend, my brother, no matter what, I couldn't think of him that way. I loved him, that's for sure and I thought he was hot but more in an abstract way. God. It was all fucked. I think he was getting over me pretty quickly though, he didn't seem as suspicious of Aaron anymore and he sometimes even talked to him. As in conversations. Kurt didn't have conversations with many people.
He was a strange enigma. The frown on his face deepened for a moment and in concern I moved closer and pulled him against me. He woke up only briefly to snuggle then almost instantly dropped off again. His frown was gone. If only. There was a strong and quite painful burning feeling in my stomach that seemed to penetrate my heart. Shit.
I was probably the one hurting him the most. Rubbing Aaron in his face, keeping him close yet never close enough. Fuck. There I go being self-absorbed again. He talked to mum a lot so I hoped that she could help him.
He mumbled in his sleep and I could faintly make out some words. "tell the rat its not chocolate, it's a four-leaf clover...."
I snorted really loudly and Kurt started awake.
"Wha?" He grumbled as I burst into laughter.
I just kept laughing as he slowly woke up properly.
"Jesus Matt. What the fuck is the time?" He looked at the bedside clock himself. "Fuck man it's two in the morning."
"Tell the rat its not chocolate, it's a four-leaf clover!" I giggled.
Kurt just blinked at me. "What? Did you have a spliff? I can't smell anything." He said plaintively as he sniffed the air.
I giggled again. Wait. Realising how young I sounded I cleared my throat quickly. "Sorry."
I couldn't stop the massive and stupid grin on my face though as he stared uncomprehendingly at me.
"Matt. Explanation now or I swear to god you are going to get the nipple twister from hell." Kurt said it with such a serious face that I couldn't contain my laughter and it burst out. I tried to keep it muted so as not to wake up mum but it was a struggle.
"Right. That's it then." He lunged at me.
"No!" Still laughing I tried to squirm away but Kurt had me tangled in the sheets and sat on top of me.
"Prepare to feel pain!"
I let out an undignified and completely unmanly schoolgirl squeal and tried more vigorously to escape.
A hand started twisting my nipple hard. "Ow! Ow! Ow!"
Kurt let go and I quickly got a hand free bring it up to fan my poor abused nipple. I grinned up at Kurt to see him still sitting on me but his face was back in its frown.
"What's wrong?" I asked in concern.
Suddenly Kurt leant forward and his lips landed on mine. His tongue slipped through my lips and he kissed me. Shocked I didn't move. He pulled back.
"Just this last time can you kiss me back? I need to see something." He was staring at me so intently that I just nodded. His lips touched mine again.
I opened my mouth and our tongues started to wrestle. That's when it happened. Like any horny teenager being kissed, passions took over. I deepened the kiss and pulled him closer with my free arm. He fell into the kiss as well. There was a clink of metal as our tongue rings clashed. I could feel myself getting hard. Shit. My brain was screaming at me to stop but I just kept kissing him.
It was Kurt that pulled away first. He brushed my hair off my forehead. "I've loved you for a long time Mattie. I know that you don't feel the same and sometimes I wish that it were different. You're my best friend and I know that is what's really important."
I just stared up at him still a bit flustered. "I have to tell Aaron." Was all I could blurt out.
He nodded and smiled faintly. "I know." "Kurt sometimes I wish it was different as well. That I could love you like that but you're like my brother and I do love you just..." I wanted him to know how much he meant to me.
Kurt just nodded. "Yeah. It's ok. I know you love me." He grinned and shoved off me. "Ok enough cheesy movie lines. Has Aaron fucked you yet?"
Typical. I elbowed him. "Classy."
He smiled. "Still didn't answer the question."
I frowned. Was it right to be talking to Kurt about this. I looked over at him to find him watching me with curiousity, the sadness on his face seemed to have faded.
"No. We've exchanged blowjobs."
Kurt grinned. "Aw, little Mattie is all grown up."
I rolled my eyes. "You suck."
Kurt just raised an eyebrow and I smiled. Not going to touch that one.
We snuggled up and slept more comfortably than we had in a while.
The next day at school I had a plan. A mission. Mission Cheer Up Kurt would have to include many different elements. Firstly, hot boys. Secondly, alcohol. Thirdly, music. The solution seemed clear. Clubbing.
Problems arose however due to the fact that neither Kurt nor I were eighteen. Aaron and the others were all over eighteen or already had fake IDs.
The solution may be easy. I needed to talk wit Mick. He had some interesting contacts that could be useful.
That lunch I snuck off on what Aaron called a mysterious errand. Mainly because I wouldn't tell him or anyone elsewhere I was going.
I found Mick hanging out with his stoner buddies behind the science block. He grinned when he saw me and I got a few calls of welcome from some o the others. Stoners were the most open-minded people, they just didn't give a shit. Well that may have been cause they were mostly stoned.
"Hey man. What's up?" Mick asked as I came to a stop near him. Jasper eyed me curiously. "I need a favour Mick." I grinned at him as he passed a joint my way. I didn't want to be stoned so I only took a couple of tokes and handed it back.
"Uhuh. What's this favour?"
"Well I was wondering if you could get you hands on a couple of fake IDs. One for me and one for Kurt." I leant against the wall next to him.
He pondered this for awhile. "I'll se what I can do."
That afternoon as me and Aaron were snuggled on my bed I realized I had to tell him about Kurt. I watched him as he lay there with his eyes closed and a beautiful smile on his face. I traced his cheek around with a finger and he sighed, moving closer.
"I need to tell you something and I need you to listen to the whole thing before you get angry ok?" I blurted out.
Aaron's eyes snapped open and he stared at me with a troubled expression. Shit. This was going to be hard.
"Me and Kurt kissed last night. I've been hiding from the fact that he... you know, likes me and last night we talked about it." I could feel Aaron tense under me. "I kissed him back and I think we both realized that nothing was going to happen. I love him like a brother and nothing more. I think now he can truly understand that and move on."
Aaron was frowning at me. He looked uncertain as if he didn't know whether to be angry or not and I took that opportunity to keep talking.
"It made me realize something Aaron. When we were kissing I got hard but that was because despite the fact I was kissing him I could see you in my mind." I paused and took a deep breath. "I think I love you. No wait. I do. You know, love you."
I saw a smile emerge on Aaron's face. "I love you too. And I trust you."
He rolled on top of me and we kissed hungrily.