What I See

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If you are under 18 or not of legal age in your country, please do not read on. If you couldn't accept themes of homosexuality and the like, please don't read on. This is a story concerning gay males having intimate relationships and is considered FOR ADULTS ONLY due to its sexual theme and contents. BUT if you really like this stuff, please don't tell others.

Everything in this story is purely FICTIONAL. Or in simpler terms, it's not true!!! Even if this story involves NSYNC, a real, successful American singing group, and a fictitious character, all that happens in here is fictional... again, it's not true. If there are instances that it is similar to what happened in the real world, it doesn't mean that it's really true. I don't know anything about their sexuality, as far as the I and the world know, they're straight as an arrow so I dunno if they're gay (but I do have my speculations) or not but I wrote this out of freedom of speech and my love for these guys and slash fiction. I don't own or know NSYNC personally. AGAIN, it's NOT TRUE!!! but don't we all hope that it's true... hehehehe...

First Words

Hi guys. This is my 3rd work here in the boyband section of the Nifty Archives. I dunno why I called it "What I See" but I just ran out of ideas for a title and thought of something simple. So the title, What I See was born giggle. I dunno if I can manage my 3 stories at the same time but Crossed Paths is in its "season break" and Reformation is still there. But I'll really try my best to update all my stories. Remember, I love feedbacks.

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What I See Chapter 15

The rest of day went by smoothly. Well, I practically didn't do anything coz all the projects assigned to me was diverted to the other people in the office. Matt announced my new job to all of my co-workers and gave them their respective new assignments. Once Matt finished his little soliloquy, my office mates congratulated me -- I dunno why -- and wished me luck coz we won't bee seeing each other for a while. I read the content of the envelope once more and learned that I'll be working in the JIVE office for 3 months and when they liked what they saw, they might absorb me to their company as their very own webmaster for everything. But I'll deal with that when it does land on my lap.

JC never called me that day and I know the reason -- Justin. My hunch is that he never did tell Josh that I called but I can't help not to feel sorry for Justin. He truly deserved someone that can love him in return. Justin just needs someone but I can't be that person. I'm only for JC.

I reached my house with a smile still plastered on my face and the manila envelope on my hand. I opened my door and Pookie was happy to see me, as usual. "How are you Pookie?" I cooed on her and picked her up and walked to the kitchen to give her something to eat coz I know she must be very famished. "I have great news! I'll be working in the company that Josh's work for. So technically, we'll be workmates." I giggled at that thought. Workmates? Yeah, right.

I took some dog food and placed it in her bowl. Once she started eating, I walked to the den to check if I have any messages for the day. The little red thing was blinking. I have a message. I pressed the button to playback the messages that were stored in there.

"Kyle? Pick up the phone! Come on!" Paul said. "Oops, you must be still at work. My bad! Anyway, I just have to talk to someone even if it's just a mechanical contraption. Well, Wade called me around 10ish and he said that he really missed me! How cool is that, huh? I really miss him too. Ooh! I'll just call him now and tell him how I really miss him!" Paul rambled. I guess that's what love (?) does to a person -- makes you irrational.

I guess that's the only thing I got for the day. I walked back to the kitchen and made a few chicken sandwiches for myself. It's the first time I noticed how alone I was. It was pure silence in the kitchen. There was just no noise. Even Pookie was eating quietly like she wasn't even in the house but just me. I just feel a little alone. Well, I am alone.

I am part to be blamed because I did want to be independent. Well, I got my wish but the only setback is this. I live alone and with JC having a very different lifestyle with mine, I know that it would be really tough. I know that JC loves to perform and tour across the globe but am I ready to endure the solitude that I am having? I dunno yet but I guess time will tell and I guess the news that Matt gave me a little joy.

Once done, I cleaned up my little mess and walked to my room to finally have a bath to sooth my senses and to relax a bit. I think I really need it. I filled the tub with water and as it fills itself, I stripped down until I was nude. The water was not that warm but not that cold too; it was really soothing. I laid down and enjoyed the warm and fuzzy feeling that's crawling around my body.

I dunno how long I was there but I wasn't really paying attention with the time. I really don't need to check on time at the moment. I was just savoring at what I have. Well, not until the phone rang. I picked up the wireless phone that's on the counter beside the tub. "Hello." I said.

"Kyle." JC said. "How are you, baby?" He asked.

"Never been better!" I said excitedly.

"It's the first time I heard you this enthusiastic. Something must be up." He wondered and he's right.

"Something came out today. Matt, my boss, just assigned me to a new job and this is really big." I told him. "Okay, I'm not gonna tell you the boring details. Matt just gave me a job at Zomba as the webmaster for some acts of theirs." I told him nonchalantly.

"Oh my God!" He exclaimed. "Zomba? That's JIVE! That means you're working with us! It's amazing news!" I can picture JC jumping around wherever he was and I just have to giggle on that thought. He does look cute when he's acting like a little child.

"Yeah! I'll be working with NSYNC, Britney, Aaron Carter and BSB. Isn't that cool?" I said to him happily.

"Definitely! I can't wait to tell the others about the great news!" He said to me.

"And that's not all. Matt told me that traveling is involved because I do have to know who I'm gonna write about in the site." I said to him suggestively.

"You're kiddin' me! Oh my God! This is like my happiest day. I can't wait to see you again and hug you and kiss you and make love to you." He said and I was gazing at the ceiling dreamily. "Oh wait, we haven't made love so that's not yet. But we do have some oral action..." JC babbled. I guess he's really excited.

"I miss you." I said to him stopping the rambles he's been wording.

"Aaw, I miss you too. I waited for your call earlier but you didn't call." I could picture the pout forming on his face as he said that. Now, here's the dilemma. Should I tell him that I did call but Justin said that he's unavailable or I'll just give a little white lie and not put the spotlight to Justin once more?

"Matt and I talked for ages and then I have to give my assignments to my co-workers so I was really busy afterwards. If I could, you know I'll call you in a blink." I lied. I can't believe that I lied for Justin so JC won't be mad at him.

"Okay. So what are you doing?" He asked me.

"I'm actually here in the tub trying to be relaxed and hoping for the best for my meeting tomorrow with the Jive people." I replied.

"Tub, huh?" I could sense a little mischief in his voice. "I wish I can be with you right now so I can make you more relaxed." He said huskily.

"Josh, quit it! You're making me, um, hard." I said to him and it was true, I was really becoming aroused by the minute. JC just have this porn voice sometimes but I think no one can beat Lance's bass one -- that's just made for porn!

"Like it's a bad thing!" He chuckled.

"It's a bad thing if you're not here." I said to him.

"Well, you can picture me beside you nibbling at your ear as my hand is slowly rubbing at your right nipple." JC told me.

"I can't believe we're doing this." I said covering my face with a little embarrassment but it was definitely kinky.

"You're talking to the writer of Digital Get Down baby." He giggled. I totally forgot about that cyber sex song. I guess JC is really, um, creative with what he has. "Come on! This is fun. Where was I?" He paused for a while.

"You're nibbling at my ear and rubbing my nipple." I said out of breath feeling really hot and aroused. My hand decided to have a mind of its own as it took a hold of my penis rubbing it slowly.

"I am kissing your red lips and sucking at your tongue." I just closed my eyes and drowned in JC's sultry voice. "My right hand is rubbing the head of your cock. Is it hard for me baby?"

"Yeah." I moaned out.

"I'm hard too and it's hard because of you." I could hear JC's breathing, which is deep already. I think he's jerking off there. "I like being hard for you. But you know what I really love doing?" JC asked and I just moaned a little in response because I think I was beyond talking from the intense desire that I was feeling. My hand was rubbing on the length of my dick smearing the precum I was secreting. It was slick, very slick. "I love sucking you off." JC said that just brought me to near orgasm. "I love the feeling of your flesh in my mouth. The warmth that your dick gives off really turns me on and your taste, oh, your taste is so sexual." My hand rubbing my penis was speeding up.

"I love it too." I moaned and JC groaned in reply.

"I love it when I bob up and down, up and down and seeing you roll your eyes because of pure pleasure." JC said. I was near my climax already and I sorta whimpered. "Yeah, the Kyle whimpers. Do you know that you make that really cute whimper when you're ready to cum?" Josh noted breathless.

"No." I uttered.

"Well, you do. And when I hear that cute whimper of yours, I really get turned on so much that I speed up sucking your big cock." JC's pornish voice was really putting me to the edge. "That's why I speed up sucking when you're close. Are you close?" JC asked.

"Yeah." I replied.

"I am too. Kyle, can I ask a favor?" JC panted. I made an affirming sound because I was really close and I was just lost in the pleasure. "Cum for me. I love the taste of your cum." JC said in a very low voice.

"Oh my God!" I half-yelled as my body tensed and I succumbed to my orgasm. Spurts of semen came out of my dick as I continued jerking off.

"Yeah yeah yeah... Ungh!" It seemed that JC got off too. "I love you so much!" JC moaned out as his climax subsided. Mine was fading away too. We settled in silence except the panting that we both were making. I guess it was really an intense experience. An addition to my list of 'things that I have done already'. "You there?" JC asked breaking the silence.

"Yeah." I answered softly.

"Are you okay?" He asked once more.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I replied. But the truth is that I'm beyond fine, I felt great. I'm just being reflective because I never dreamed of ever doing phone sex.

"Are you uncomfortable with what we did?" I could hear a tinge of guilt in JC's voice.

"Josh, it was a weird experience for me but I'm not uncomfortable with it. I'm still trying to absorb the fact that I just had a hot phone sex with my boyfriend while I'm soaked in my tub here." I chuckled a little. Josh laughed a little but I could sense that he still felt a little bit off. "It's a new thing for me but I'm looking forward in fucking you next." I said in a seductive voice.

"Me too." Josh replied. "Oh wait for a sec." Josh told me and I could hear some movement in the other line. I could hear JC's voice in the background and he seemed to be talking to someone but everything seemed unclear. While waiting for JC to come back, I rose up from the tub and wore my robe as I walked to my bedroom feeling relaxed and satisfied. "I'm back! Sorry for that." JC told me.

"It's okay." I told him as I rummaged for a boxer in my closet. "So what are you up to now?" I asked him.

"Well, it's still a little bit early here and Lance wants us to have dinner." JC told me. Well, I got the hint.

"It's okay Josh. It's kinda late here so you should eat and I'll rest so we can talk some more tomorrow, okay?" I said to him.

"Sure!" JC answered. "I'll call you tomorrow okay? I love you!" JC shouted like he was declaring it to the whole world.

"And I love you too. Tomorrow, okay? Bye!" I said and ended the phone call. I laid down on my bed looking the space beside me, which seemed to be so big. It was JC's spot in the bed. It smelled a bit of Josh but it was fading. I just kept on staring on the space until I drifted off to sleep.

The next day, I woke up around 7 and decided that I should start early because I have to go to the Jive building to talk to Mr. Reily personally. I haven't met him yet but I hope that he's a good guy. I was already in the lobby of the building by 9am and my appointment was scheduled at 9:30am so I have lots of time and not be rushed. I walked to the receptionist and asked about Mr. Reily's office.

I learned that he's located in the 5th floor. I walked to the elevator and I felt that my palms become sweaty. Why am I nervous? I was the only one in the elevator that just increased my anxiety. When the elevator opened, I stepped out and when I turned right, in gold bold letters on a door, I saw Mr. Reily's office. I walked to the door and I knocked first before entering.

There was a woman on a phone talking and a door behind her. I guess she's her secretary. She seemed to be a nice lady. Maybe in the 40s but she has this smile that can brighten up your day. When she saw me, she nodded at me and pointed to the chair in front of her. I sat on the chair and waited until her phone call was over.

It didn't take long and she returned the phone to the cradle. "How can I help you?" She asked me politely.

"Um, I'm Kyle Sanders. I have an appointment at 9:30am." I answered. She nodded and opened a planner. I think she's gonna check if I really have an appointment.

"Mr. Reily finished his appointment before you and if you like, you can proceed to his room already." She told me. I thanked her and walked to the door. Out of politeness, I knocked at the door first before entering. I saw a man, prolly in his mid 30s sitting on one of those executive chairs reading a newspaper. I guess he's waiting for me.

"Kyle Sanders, I assume?" He said when he spotted me.

"Yes, sir." I answered. He stood up and extended his hand to me, which I accepted and shook it firmly.

"Have a seat." He offered and I sat and thanked him once more. By this time, my heart was pounding already and I was close to hyperventilating with the pressure and nervousness. "Matt and I talked about everything already. I'm just gonna be showing you around the building so you won't get lost and we're gonna be going to your office as well." Mr. Reily told me and I just nodded in agreement.

Mr. Reily and I just kept on walking around the building and he cited things that I should now like rules and places that I can go. But I think I'll still get lost in this place. It's just so huge! We also went to my soon to be office which was located in the 14th floor. It was very spacious and I can picture already the computers, drawing tables, and other stuff that I'll need in it. I looked around the room and when I walked to the window, it has this amazing view of the city. I think I'll like it here.

"Oh yeah, just give me a list of anything that you'll need here and I'll order them, okay?" Mr. Reily told me. I think that's the most important and exciting thing for me today. I can't wait to get my hands on those new computers and equipments. Surely, I'm gonna be asking for the best ones out in the market. Again, I nodded at him. He looked at his watch and sighed. "Well, I don't wanna be rude but I have another meeting in 10 minutes. I think you can get yourself out of here." Mr. Reily said.

"Sir, when will I start?" I asked.

"Whenever you're ready and everything is in place." Mr. Reily said and left me alone in my office. I walked once more to the window and looked at the city. I can't believe that I'm in here.

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15 15 15!!! Yey! I'm so happy that I've reached chapter 15 already and I still have loads of ideas in my head. So, this is gonna be for the long run! ~grin~ I'm still in my light chapters and I'm still thinking of what will happen next in the series. Again, suggestions are always welcomed!!!

It's so damn hot!!! I live in a little archipelago in Asia, Philippines and when I say hot, it's really hot. I think we have like 35C (95F) temperature here. Summer here is good, but this is just too much already. sigh

Thanks to ALL of you who have taken the time and MAILED me! I truly appreciate it very much. A big, big shout to my Danish pals, Chris and Danny, I hope you always be in love forever coz you compliment each other perfectly. You two are made for each other! :-)

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Also, here are my suggestions of other cool stories in the archive that influenced me in my craft.

NSYNC Stories.

• Jamie's Romance (Justin)

• Love Thru Chat (JC/Justin, Lance)

• Josh and Just (JC/Justin)

• Lance in Shining Armour (Lance)

• My New Life (Lance)

• Justin's Dark Angel (Justin)

• My Surprise Romance (Lance)

• Life with Justin (Justin)

• JC's Hitchhiker (JC)

• Jimmy Needs Assistance (Lance)

• Lance, JC and an Astral Fan (Lance/JC)

• Lance's Search (Lance/JC)

• Like the Rain (Justin)

• Time Stood Still

• JC Dreams (JC)

• My Soulmate JC (JC)

• Sans Vous, Je Suis Rien (Justin)

• Chance Meeting (Justin)

• Needing You (Lance/Eminem)

Backstreet Stories.

• Because I Love You (Brian/Nick)

• Double Take (Brian/Nick)

• Bad Boy B-Rok (Brian)

• Heir to the Darkness (Brian/Nick)

• Kevin and Dustin (Kevin)

• French Kiss Me (Brian)

• Millennium Love (Brian)

• Forever (Kevin)

• Get Another Boyfriend (Kevin)

• Heir to the Darkness (Nick/Brian)

• Insecurities (Nick)

• On the Streets (Kevin)

• Brian and Tommy (Brian)

Crossover Stories.

• Brian and Justin (Brian/Justin)

• The One (Brian/Justin)

• Living (Almost all of NSYNC, BSB and 98') --> found in www.matthewtime.com