What I See

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If you are under 18 or not of legal age in your country, please do not read on. If you couldn't accept themes of homosexuality and the like, please don't read on. This is a story concerning gay males having intimate relationships and is considered FOR ADULTS ONLY due to its sexual theme and contents. BUT if you really like this stuff, please don't tell others.

Everything in this story is purely FICTIONAL. Or it's not true!!! Even if this story involves NSYNC and a fictitious character, all that happens in here is fictional... again, it's not true. I don't know anything about their sexuality, as far as the I and the world know, they're straight as an arrow so I dunno if they're gay (but I do have my speculations) or not but I wrote this out of freedom of speech and my love for these guys and slash fiction. I don't own or know NSYNC personally. AGAIN, it's NOT TRUE!!! but don't we all hope that it's true... hehehehe...

First Words.

Hi guys. This is my 3rd work here in the boyband section. I dunno why I called it "What I See" but I just ran out of ideas for a title and thought of something simple. So the title, What I See was born. I dunno if I can manage my 3 stories at the same time but Crossed Paths is in it's "season break" and Reformation is still there. But I'll try my best. I have a little of the new season of Crossed Paths I hope y'all like this one. Remember, I love feedbacks. Mail me at pseud0nym@edsamail.com.ph!!!

What I See Chapter 4

"Um, well, I just thought that I'd have a chance with..." JC started to stutter. My heart was pumping fast. Who is the person that JC thinks that he might have a chance with? It's just either Justin or me?

"Kyle!" Justin hollered. Talking about suspense killer.

"Wait a minute, Justin is calling me." I said to JC on the phone.

"Never mind and it's getting kinda late. I'll just see you tomorrow, 'kay?" JC said to me.

"But you were gonna say something!" I started to whine.

"Kyle!" Justin shouted once more from upstairs.

"For a while!" I hollered back.

"Justin is calling you. We'll just talk about this tomorrow." JC said to me.

"Okay fine. Let's just talk about this and more tomorrow." I said and hang up the phone. I walked upstairs to Justin and finally see what's going on with him. "What do you need Just?" I said along the hallway not knowing what room he was.

"Um, I sorta have a little problem." Justin voiced out awkwardly from my room. I walked to there and saw him standing with my clothes. "Um, they sorta don't fit." I could see my shirt almost ripping apart. I guess it flew away from my mind that Justin is much taller and beefier than me.

"Oops, my bad!" I said laughing. "I have a few bigger shirts and boxers in my closet." I walked to the closet and rummaged through my clothes. I know that these big-sized clothes would be useful someday. "Here it is." I threw a shirt and a pair of boxers to Justin.

Justin examined the clothes I threw at him. "I think this would fit." Justin gave me his famous smile and there, he stripped.

I'm floored.

Justin removed the shirt and placed it on my bed. Justin's was body was near perfection. Maybe, except the tattoos that have plagued his body but I mean it's very muscular but not too much like those bodybuilders. My eyes were really roaming around his body; I think gawking was the more appropriate term.

I looked at Justin and he looked at me with a grin on his face. "Like what you see?" Justin said approaching me slowly. He's good in this seduction thing. Honestly, I was aroused with him. I guess a few years of vent up lust with Justin and now he's there in front of me almost naked.

I could feel the warm breath of Justin. We were that close already. I could feel his chest touch mine. It was really firm but not too hard. And his eyes boring into my soul. I could feel the intensity with his gaze. Justin's face neared mine. His lips touched mine.

There wasn't any passion. It was an innocent touching of two lips together. And I was hoping that electricity would course through my body. I was waiting that I would feel like I was on cloud nine already because I was kissing Justin Timberlake.

But it didn't come. Only nothingness.

Our lips parted and a smile formed on my lips. "Your guestroom is ready. You have pillows and a blanket there." I said as I stepped away from a now confused Justin.

"We just kissed." Justin sorta asked and stated.

"I know." I said as I picked up the shirt that was lying on my bed, the one that was too small for him. "I'm just gonna take a bath." I said as I left him there in my room. I bet that he was so confused there.

I think that just proves that I feel nothing anymore towards Justin. I must admit that I was aroused but it ends there. Only lust was present. There's not even any infatuation or puppy love there. And I'm happy about that. As what Galadriel said in Lord of the Rings, "I passed the test."

I entered the bathroom with a grin still plastered on my face. I kissed Justin Timberlake and I didn't do anything more. I think that's the ultimate temptation. Well, I still think that Justin is a walking temptation that would get anyone. Almost everyone.

I took a bath singing NSYNC's Up Against the Wall. I can't lose that song from my mind; I guess that's why it's my favorite in their album. Once done, I dried myself off with the towel and wrapped a towel around my waist and finally dress up in my room. I walked towards my room and when I opened my door, I saw Justin sitting on my bed, now dressed.

"You still don't wanna hit the hay?" I asked as I entered my closet to get a shirt and a pair of boxers.

"I was just confused with what happened earlier." Justin said scratching his now curly-haired head. The curls bring back the young Justin but the buzzed cut brought Justin's sex appeal out of him more. Did that make sense?

"We kissed. That's it." I said pulling away the towel. Where are my manners? I have a guest in my room. I immediately wore my boxers and grinned cheesily at Justin. "Sorry about the free show."

"You don't like me?" Justin asked like he just got rejected. Well, I think in a way I rejected him.

"I really like you Justin. There's nothing to like except sometimes you tend to be egotistic. Like right now." I said to him.

"Sorry for sounding self-centered but I thought that we were doing fine. I mean you and me." Justin told me gesturing some of the words he was saying.

"Well, there's a you and me. We are friends, right?" I told him as I slipped on my shirt. I walked beside him and sat there looking at him intently.

"Yeah." Justin immediately stated. "But I thought that there was something more than friendship with the two of us that is forming." I looked at Justin intently trying to read if he's being honest to me or just being so sad that someone just rejected THE Justin Timberlake. But you know what I saw there? He was really longing.

"Sorry to burst the bubble but I think right now, we could just be friends. I'm not saying that I don't like you but I guess the attraction is just not there anymore." I said holding his hand with emphasis.

"Okay." Justin sounded so dejected. "I'll just go in my room and sleep now. Good night." Justin walked out of my room leaving me there with a headache. All I could do was just sigh and go to sleep hoping that tomorrow would be good.

My alarm was ringing. I was groaning. It's a morning. I hate it. I really hate it. I opened my eyes and saw that my room was already bright with the sun's light entering through my window. "Another day of work." I stated as I stood up.

I looked around my room and saw that it was still the same. Wait, I have a guest. I walked out of my room and into the guestroom. I found that the room was in order and the bed was fixed. There was a note on the bed. It must be from Justin. I picked it up and started to read.

Kyle,

Thanks for letting me stay here and for an amazing date. I learned lots from you especially about myself that no one would have dared tell me. Thanks for being so honest to me and treating me like a normal person. I would be lying if I say that I was crushed when you say that we are only good as friends because I really liked you a lot. Well, that's in the past now and hopefully we would be friends as you placed it.

I have to leave coz of rehearsals and everything. Again, thanks for the hospitality.

Justin.

The letter really moved me. I never thought that Justin was really into me. Call me, low self-esteem but I really don't find any reason why Justin would like me. I mean he is the Justin Timberlake that all the girls and guys scream for. And who am I? I'm just a web guy who hasn't even tasted a real relationship. I got the closest thing to a relationship and I blew it. But if I did continue with it, I would be just lying at myself and I don't want that.

I folded the note and returned to my room. Let's just try to move past it momentarily and concentrate on the day. I still have to finish my two projects and their due date is nearing. "Back to work." I told myself as I walked to the bathroom to start the day.

Throughout the day, I faced the monitor. And I felt a little better because I was having some progress with the sites. One is nearly finished and the other is in its debugging process already. So that gives me a few more days to wind down coz its deadline is on Friday and it's just Monday. I stretched my cramped body on the chair.

My phone began to ring. "Kyle Sanders." I stated.

"Kylie!" Someone squealed at the other side.

"Kenny? It's been so long already!" I said excitedly on the phone. I can't believe that my best friend in the world called me.

"Come on! It's been like 2 weeks only. Stop acting like we haven't talked to each other for years." Ken (or Kenny) said.

"Okay fine!" I said rolling my eyes. "So what's new with you?" I asked.

"I'm still alone here in the sunny California. But I did go out on a date last week but the guy was such a prick and boring!" Ken told me with disgust in his voice. "How about you?"

"Um, I just had a date last night." I said.

"Really? So how was it? I. Want. Details." Ken said. You know what, JC and Ken act the same. Well, Ken just acts a little more flamboyant than JC.

"Well, his name is Justin and he's really cute with his blond curls and he has thing so oh-my-god body that I know that you'll be so envy off." I said giggling trying to not say that it was Justin Timberlake. I don't wanna betray Justin's trust even if I'm talking to my best friend.

"I do not!" Ken interjected. "Anyway, so are you gonna go out again or is it a one-thing deal?"

"Um, I'm just not so attracted with him. But there's nothing to like about him." I stated. "Enough about me! When are you gonna visit me?" I asked Ken.

"Kyle, you're the rich guy and I'm the poor struggling workaholic. You're the one who should be visiting me." Ken said back. "Well, I just called you coz I have a free time, which is a miracle." Ken laughed. Actually, it's kinda true. Ken's job was about computers as well but he deals with systems of a company while I just relax with web sites.

"What did I tell you back then? Just do the web thing but no, you've gotta make yourself suffer in maintaining those systems." I said to him. "I'll call you later. Maybe you have a free time but I don't."

"Okay fine." I could see Ken rolling his eyes. "I'll call you soon. Bye!" He said and then hung up the phone. I decided to just finish the debugging of the site so I could just concentrate on the other. That way, I won't be working at two projects anymore.

I think around two hours have passed already when my phone rang. I looked at the watch and it read 4:45pm. I picked up the phone while finishing typing a few notes. I'll just continue it tomorrow. "Kyle Sanders." I said on the phone.

"Kyle, it's JC." JC said to me.

"Hi JC! What's up?" I asked. I closed the computer and stretched my cramped muscles in my cubicle.

"Just wanna remind you that we're still on for later." JC told me. Oh yeah, I totally forgot that he's gonna go over at my house to stay the night. Got a little envious with Justin. Justin.

"I still remember and my house is ready to meet the mighty JC Chasez." I joked. "Anyway, I wanna ask about Justin coz he left early earlier." I asked. I dunno why but I was kinda concerned with Justin especially seeing him so sad yesterday night.

"I'll just tell you later coz Wade is shouting for me. I'll be there around 7pm okay? Bye!" JC rushed. Wade? Oh, Wade Robson, their choreographer. I replaced the handset and fixed the things that I have to bring home.

After I bid everyone goodbye, I left the office and walked to my car. I started it and drove to the nearest grocery to stock up some stuff. Good thing that Justin declined last night coz all I could offer him was a can of coke and nothing else. I guess being alone always makes you forget that you need to stock up with supplies.

I picked up a few drinks, raw food and some junk food. JC just got off from rehearsals so he must be really tired from all the dancing and singing. I think I could cook up a good meal for the two of us. I paid for the things I've bought and drove home.

When I reached home, I fed Pookie and started fixing up a pasta dish for JC and I. It was already 6:30pm when I finished cooking and setting up the table. I guess I should change coz I smell like the pasta sauce already.

It was already 7:05pm and JC wasn't still there. Not that I was checking the time coz I was just watching some MTV. Okay, I was checking the clock every minute thinking what's keeping JC so late. A few more minutes passed and someone knocked at my door. Finally.

I opened the door and there he was standing. JC. "Hi!" I said cheerfully.

"Hey." JC greeted. "Sorry I was late, I was a little lost and I have to call Justin to give me some directions to go here." JC blushed a little. "By the way, you have a nice house."

"Don't worry and thank you very much for the compliment." I thanked him. "You hungry?" I asked.

"I'm fine." JC said to me with a smile as he entered my house. But something said another else. His stomach grumbled and it was a little loud. "Okay, I'm a little hungry coz I went straight here after rehearsals." JC smiled at me.

"Well, I fixed something up in the dining room so let's eat coz I'm hungry as well." I said dragging JC in the dining room. Once we were in the dining room, I let him settle with one of the chairs and I excused myself to get the pasta sauce in the kitchen.

When I came back, the scene I saw totally blew me away. "You have a very cute and nice dog here." JC said to me while cradling Pookie.

"She's Pookie and believe it or not, you're the first guy that he warmed up to so fast. I guess he really likes you." I told him truthfully. I can't believe that Pookie was being so nice with JC. I mean, he was very hostile with Justin last night and Pookie was bullying even Paul and Dee. But not JC. "Come on, let's eat."

The two of us ate heartily and he even complimented my cooking. Of course, I just thanked him and blushed furiously. I'm not really good with compliments; I tend to blush immediately. "How did everything go with Justin?" I asked.

"He did come out to us. Well, the others were surprised as hell coz he has Britney and everything and he never sent any vibes that he might be gay. But the good thing is that they accepted the gay part but the sad thing is that he received a scolding from Lance and Chris about the Britney part." JC told me. "And he's kinda down a while ago when he arrived. Is there something that I should know?" JC added.

"Um, well, we kissed." I said that made JC choke a little with the water he was drinking. After JC composed himself, he looked at me with questioning eyes. "Well, it should have been a good thing if I something happened after we kissed. I mean the kiss we shared was so innocent and there was really no passion to it."

"Really?" JC asked me incredulously.

"Yeah. I mean I feel so bad for Justin coz I just don't see us being together. I mean he could be one of my best friends but it ends there. I think Justin needs a guy that would like and love him more than I do to him. I can say that I love him already even if we just met yesterday coz there's really nothing to hate about him." I said.

"Well, Justin would really be down coz I think it's the first time Justin was dumped." JC said with a cheshire grin plastered on his face. I laughed at it coz I think it was so true.

The two of us finished our meal and even with my refusal, JC helped me cleaning up coz as what he placed it, 'you did enough already. The least you can do is let me help.' JC and I were having fun while washing dishes. I know it sounds so weird but we were exchanging stories about us and our friends that made us bellow in laughter. I could really say that JC and I clicked.

Once finished, we went to the lounge room. "So what do you wanna do?" I asked JC.

"I dunno. It's your house." JC answered.

"How about a movie?" I asked JC who just nodded. "Wanna watch 'On the Line'?" I asked again.

"Lance and Joey's movie?" JC asked me. I nodded. "Sure, I saw it once in the premiere and it's a cute film." JC said. I got the CD and played it in my DVD player.

For me, I really enjoyed the movie and with the environment we're in, I was really feeling so complete. I dunno why but it just seemed that doing this with JC was so natural. We got to the part when Rod, or Joey, was singing Ready to Fall. I dunno why but when I hear this song, I just tear up.

I get a feeling, I can't explain Whenever your eyes meet mine My heart spins in circles and I lose all space and time And now that we're standing face to face Something tells me, it's gonna be okay

And I'm ready to fall in love tonight Ready to hold my heart open wide I can't promise forever, but baby I'll try Yes, I'm ready to fall in love tonight

I know you've been watching, choosing the moment But I've been dreaming of that day No one before you have gotten to me this way And now that we're standing face to face There's something that I need to say

I'm ready to fall in love tonight Ready to hold my heart open wide I can't promise forever but baby I'll try Yes, I'm ready to fall in love tonight

Nothing is certain, this I know Wherever we're headed, I'm ready to go

I can't promise forever but baby I'll try Yes I'm ready to fall... in love tonight Yes I'm ready to fall... in love tonight Yes I'm ready to fall... in love tonight

"That was the most amazing song I ever heard." I commented while wiping away the tears that have fallen.

"I know. When I heard it, I said I've gotta produce it for you Joey. This is such a good song." JC said to me. JC was also wiping away a stray tear. I guess great minds, think alike.

"I feel so in love when I hear that." I added. I looked at JC. JC was looking at me. I was staring at his eyes. Those blue eyes. So blue.

"I think I feel in love even when I don't hear the song." JC whispered. My heart was beating quicker and quicker by the second. Is this it?

JC leaned over me and gave me a kiss on the lips. I think I was melting when his lips touched mine. I felt so complete like I could die any minute with the overwhelming feeling that my heart was bearing at that moment.

The world seemed to die around us. I couldn't even hear the movie playing or Pookie's barking. It was just JC and I at that moment. I leaned to his direction and his hand wrapped around my neck pushing me down. I could feel his tongue snaking out of his mouth to mine and I welcomed it wholeheartedly.

I don't know how long we were kissing and I actually don't care. Once we broke our kiss, JC smiled at me. You know that smile that looks so goofy yet so sexy as hell. I could see his lips swollen from the making out we just did. "I never thought that I could kiss you." JC whispered. JC laid his head on my chest and that's how we slept.

The best sleep had and the night that I know that I will never forget in my whole life.

---------------- End of Chapter

Finally! JC and Kyle are together. Is it forever? Maybe, only time will tell... well, only my mind will tell if they would stick til the end or end in a very sad and tragic note. I hope everyone likes this one and those who were thinking that Justin was the one who's gonna end up with Kyle, sorry but Justin would definitely be a big part in the story.

"Ready to Fall" written by Richard Marx and produced by Randy Spendlove, Danny Saber & JC Chasez. Sung by Joseph Fatone. Found in the On the Line OST.

Thanks to all of you who took the time and emailed me. It was so sweet and very much appreciated. From the bottom of my heart, I thank y'all. By the way, I know you read that they watched On the Line and I know for a fact that it doesn't come out yet for DVD so, I would like to reiterate that this is fiction. It's my world.

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Also, here are my suggestions of other cool stories in the archive that influenced me in my craft.

• Brian and Justin (Brian/Justin)

• The One (Brian/Justin)

• Jamie's Romance (Justin)

• Love Thru Chat (JC/Justin, Lance)

• Josh and Just (JC/Justin)

• Lance in Shining Armour (Lance)

• My New Life (Lance)

• Because I Love You (Brian/Nick)

• Double Take (Brian/Nick)

• Bad Boy B-Rok (Brian)

• Justin's Dark Angel (Justin)

• My Surprise Romance (Lance)

• Heir to the Darkness (Brian/Nick)

• Life with Justin (Justin)

• Kevin and Dustin (Kevin)

• French Kiss Me (Brian)

• Millennium Love (Brian)

• Forever (Kevin)

• JC's Hitchhiker (JC)

• Get Another Boyfriend (Kevin)

• Jimmy Needs Assistance (Lance)

• Lance, JC and an Astral Fan (Lance/JC)

• Lance's Search (Lance/JC)

• Heir to the Darkness (Nick/Brian)

• JC Dreams (JC)

• On the Streets (Kevin)

• Sans Vous, Je Suis Rien (Justin)

• Insecurities (Nick)

• Chance Meeting (Justin)